WEBVTT - What’s Happened To Bec In Bali? (Plus, Other Big Updates) 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:03.239 Hello, and welcome back to the Mathsphony podcast, and welcome 0:00:03.320 --> 0:00:07.400 to an episode full of many little random updates from 0:00:07.400 --> 0:00:10.320 within the married at First Sight world. And to kick 0:00:10.360 --> 0:00:14.000 things off, what the hell is happening with Beck who 0:00:14.040 --> 0:00:18.480 is very much still in Bali Because people are concerned, 0:00:19.120 --> 0:00:21.880 people are confused, and people now think there were some 0:00:22.320 --> 0:00:26.640 complications with her rib recontouring surgery, which is why she's 0:00:26.680 --> 0:00:30.400 suddenly gone silent, and I can tell you there wasn't 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:35.800 because she never actually got the surgery done. And for 0:00:35.840 --> 0:00:38.360 anyone behind on this little story, here is the quickest 0:00:38.440 --> 0:00:41.920 recap to get you up to date before the actual update. 0:00:42.240 --> 0:00:43.599 And it all started with me. 0:00:43.720 --> 0:00:45.800 In Bali, as you all know where, I went to 0:00:45.920 --> 0:00:49.440 document Beck getting this rib contouring surgery, which she was 0:00:49.560 --> 0:00:52.520 so adamant on getting your body. 0:00:52.240 --> 0:00:54.240 Your choice, what you feel confident with, in what you 0:00:54.280 --> 0:00:57.400 feel comfortable with, fucking do it. So why are all 0:00:57.480 --> 0:01:00.240 these Karens coming at me? 0:01:00.240 --> 0:01:01.400 Me get my ribs done? 0:01:01.520 --> 0:01:04.240 But then two days after we recorded that, after like 0:01:04.360 --> 0:01:06.880 chatting a lot more and Beck thinking and seeing the 0:01:06.920 --> 0:01:09.640 stuff online, she then backed out of the big procedure 0:01:09.920 --> 0:01:13.840 on the actual day, so you didn't get the surgery done. 0:01:14.160 --> 0:01:16.760 I'm not ready yet. I don't know if I will 0:01:16.760 --> 0:01:17.119 be ready. 0:01:17.120 --> 0:01:18.800 I don't know if I'm going to go ahead and 0:01:18.880 --> 0:01:20.760 get it done. Like I said, I've got giving myself 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:21.480 an extra week. 0:01:21.600 --> 0:01:23.959 I then came back to Australia that stayed in Balley 0:01:24.040 --> 0:01:26.440 to think about her decision, and then she decided, Nah, 0:01:26.600 --> 0:01:27.679 I'm actually going to do it. 0:01:28.080 --> 0:01:30.160 I have thought about this long and hard. 0:01:30.319 --> 0:01:33.520 I've thought about whether this procedure is something I want, 0:01:34.280 --> 0:01:38.000 and I've decided that I do. And so I will 0:01:38.040 --> 0:01:40.640 be going ahead with the procedure of rip controing. 0:01:40.880 --> 0:01:42.720 And not only did she post that video you just 0:01:42.720 --> 0:01:44.559 said a clip from saying I'm going to get it done, 0:01:44.560 --> 0:01:46.680 but she also ended that video saying this. 0:01:47.040 --> 0:01:51.559 It's Monday morning, and I'll be on socials immediately after 0:01:51.640 --> 0:01:55.520 letting you know how it's gone and you know my 0:01:55.600 --> 0:01:56.440 recovery after that. 0:01:56.760 --> 0:02:01.280 So but then Beck's surgery day came and when and 0:02:01.880 --> 0:02:05.240 there was no update and it was just silence on 0:02:05.320 --> 0:02:08.959 her socials and then days went past without a single update, 0:02:09.440 --> 0:02:12.240 and that's when people started to become concerned. And Beck 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:15.960 then released a statement saying thank you to everyone who 0:02:16.000 --> 0:02:18.800 has reached out with messages of kindness, love and concern 0:02:18.880 --> 0:02:21.480 for me. Your support truly means more than you know. 0:02:21.880 --> 0:02:24.519 I want to reassure everyone that I am okay. I've 0:02:24.639 --> 0:02:27.520 chosen always to be transparent with you all, and that 0:02:27.560 --> 0:02:30.400 will never change. I assure you I will share an 0:02:30.440 --> 0:02:34.320 update soon. For this short period of time, I'm respectfully 0:02:34.360 --> 0:02:38.520 asking for a little privacy. Thank you all for your understanding, 0:02:38.760 --> 0:02:43.080 your patience, and for continuing to support me. So that 0:02:43.240 --> 0:02:46.400 post then confused even more people, including myself back in 0:02:46.440 --> 0:02:48.800 Australia when I read it along with everyone else, and 0:02:48.840 --> 0:02:52.560 it also confused the girls on the Outspoken podcast who 0:02:52.560 --> 0:02:53.360 had this to say. 0:02:53.800 --> 0:02:56.240 And I wouldn't be surprised if this was all a 0:02:56.320 --> 0:02:59.080 ploy for pr from Beck. I mean, she's been very 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:02.200 good at maintaining attention off the back of maths, because 0:03:02.440 --> 0:03:05.959 now that she's had the surgery, she's actually disappeared offline 0:03:06.160 --> 0:03:08.960 despite saying that she was going to be transparent about 0:03:09.000 --> 0:03:12.320 what happened with the surgery. You're on this all expenses 0:03:12.400 --> 0:03:15.400 paid trip from the brand, and now suddenly you're silent 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:17.400 for two days. I mean my first thought was has 0:03:17.440 --> 0:03:19.120 something gone wrong with the surgery? 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:21.760 That's what she wants everyone to think. Because she wants 0:03:21.800 --> 0:03:24.359 everyone to go in and keep checking in on her page, 0:03:24.440 --> 0:03:25.720 keep engaging with her content. 0:03:25.960 --> 0:03:29.520 Then the outspoken girls even started speculating that I was 0:03:29.600 --> 0:03:33.120 part of some big, master planned strategy to keep the 0:03:33.400 --> 0:03:36.280 speculation and the suspense, which I can tell you is 0:03:36.920 --> 0:03:39.520 not true and I have been just as confused as 0:03:39.560 --> 0:03:40.320 everybody else. 0:03:40.720 --> 0:03:43.000 Not only is it good pr for Beck, it's also 0:03:43.400 --> 0:03:48.240 fantastic pr and engagement for Josh Fox's podcast because he 0:03:48.280 --> 0:03:51.960 now has an opportunity to eventually interview her again. It 0:03:52.040 --> 0:03:54.400 added an element of drama to his podcast at the 0:03:54.520 --> 0:03:56.880 end of the series that he needed, and then it 0:03:56.960 --> 0:04:00.040 also got the media writing about the fact that she'd. 0:04:00.800 --> 0:04:03.640 Now to get to the actual update. Beck and I 0:04:03.720 --> 0:04:06.640 have very briefly texted like over the last week. She's 0:04:06.680 --> 0:04:09.760 told me that she's all good. I know from like 0:04:09.840 --> 0:04:12.080 other people who were there on this trip that Beck 0:04:12.880 --> 0:04:15.600 didn't get the surgery after that last video. I haven't 0:04:15.640 --> 0:04:19.360 really pushed her on the why because she hasn't wanted 0:04:19.480 --> 0:04:22.320 to talk about that yet or what happened. Why she's 0:04:22.360 --> 0:04:24.640 delayed it again, I don't know, And like me, being 0:04:25.520 --> 0:04:28.320 back here in Australia hasn't really felt like my place 0:04:28.440 --> 0:04:31.400 to push her on that, but I did wake up 0:04:31.400 --> 0:04:33.200 to this voice message from Beck. 0:04:33.520 --> 0:04:35.159 Hey, Josh, I hope you're good. 0:04:35.520 --> 0:04:37.120 I just want to touch base and let you know 0:04:37.200 --> 0:04:41.680 that I am. I'm fine. I'm taking little social media break, 0:04:42.760 --> 0:04:44.800 you know. I want to let everyone know what's going on, 0:04:44.960 --> 0:04:50.839 and I will be not long now. And yeah, thanks 0:04:50.839 --> 0:04:53.919 for checking in, and thank you to everyone for the support. 0:04:54.600 --> 0:04:55.679 Speak to you all soon, guys. 0:04:56.080 --> 0:04:58.200 And along with that voice message, Beck did say that 0:04:58.279 --> 0:05:02.000 she has been enjoying like a bit of peace away 0:05:02.000 --> 0:05:06.080 from socials and commentary, and again she reassured me she's good, 0:05:06.160 --> 0:05:08.760 and she'll do a post or a statement or a 0:05:08.839 --> 0:05:11.560 video or something like in the next few days or 0:05:11.600 --> 0:05:15.200 this week, kind of saying what's happened or why she 0:05:15.279 --> 0:05:17.120 changed the mind again or why she delayed it, or 0:05:17.160 --> 0:05:21.200 whatever the story is, because I'm here commentating and I 0:05:21.760 --> 0:05:24.120 don't even know myself, which is funny because I was, 0:05:24.240 --> 0:05:25.960 I was part of this from the start, and then 0:05:26.000 --> 0:05:28.240 I was like, now I'm going home, and now yeah, 0:05:28.279 --> 0:05:30.440 I'm kind of just waiting along with you, and you 0:05:30.480 --> 0:05:32.719 know what, But what I will say is I get 0:05:32.760 --> 0:05:35.040 the people now, being like this all feels like it's 0:05:35.080 --> 0:05:37.560 for pr like, and if I wasn't oddly part of 0:05:37.600 --> 0:05:40.120 this story at the start and being there at this 0:05:40.160 --> 0:05:42.839 point in time now with like all of the silence 0:05:43.440 --> 0:05:46.039 and the mystery, I would one hundred percent beyond this 0:05:46.080 --> 0:05:50.760 podcast going Okay, this all does feel a bit sus now, 0:05:50.800 --> 0:05:53.200 but what I want to offer here is like some 0:05:53.320 --> 0:05:57.000 wider perspective on the whole thing, And like, at this 0:05:57.120 --> 0:06:00.479 point in time, right three months since married at first ended, 0:06:01.080 --> 0:06:03.240 Beck and most of the cast are in this like 0:06:03.400 --> 0:06:07.400 weird phase of their life and weird headspace of like 0:06:07.520 --> 0:06:12.119 navigating returning back to their real normal lives, but also 0:06:12.200 --> 0:06:16.200 realizing their real lives now come with people recognizing them 0:06:16.360 --> 0:06:18.920 basically every time they leave the house, and you know, 0:06:19.040 --> 0:06:22.479 their real life now has media outlets writing things about 0:06:22.480 --> 0:06:25.800 them most days, which often isn't true. And you know 0:06:25.880 --> 0:06:29.159 they've now got these big audiences often like hundreds of 0:06:29.200 --> 0:06:32.400 thousands of people at their fingertips on their phones, and 0:06:32.440 --> 0:06:35.919 those hundreds of thousands of people every day all have 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:39.880 opinions about who they are, what they do, every decision 0:06:39.920 --> 0:06:42.719 they make, and you know people will listen to me 0:06:42.760 --> 0:06:44.559 saying that and they'll be like, but they're no one's 0:06:44.600 --> 0:06:48.000 they're not famous, which I mean is true because they 0:06:48.000 --> 0:06:51.640 are just regular people. But there are also now regular people. 0:06:51.720 --> 0:06:55.560 Millions of people think they know to an extent, and 0:06:55.640 --> 0:06:58.839 I'll have those opinions on and then you get someone 0:06:58.920 --> 0:07:01.000 like Beck, who I'm going to use as the little 0:07:01.080 --> 0:07:02.159 case study here. 0:07:02.360 --> 0:07:03.680 And I saw. 0:07:03.480 --> 0:07:05.919 How often she was getting stopped for selfies, like every 0:07:05.960 --> 0:07:09.440 time she left the result in Bali, and people would 0:07:09.440 --> 0:07:11.320 be like, oh my god, I love you, Beck, you iconic. 0:07:11.360 --> 0:07:15.040 Can we get a picture? And often, like the drunker 0:07:15.120 --> 0:07:17.880 people were. The later it was like, the more this happened, 0:07:17.880 --> 0:07:20.840 because people like lose their inhibitions a little bit. And 0:07:21.280 --> 0:07:24.480 what Beck maybe didn't see is that, like often she 0:07:24.520 --> 0:07:27.800 would walk away from those groups of people. And I 0:07:28.440 --> 0:07:30.560 always stand back and I just watch these things from 0:07:30.600 --> 0:07:33.000 Afar because I find it kind of fascinating. And often 0:07:33.080 --> 0:07:37.240 those groups of people, which is kind of sad to say, 0:07:37.240 --> 0:07:41.000 but they then kind of laugh once Beck walks away. 0:07:41.000 --> 0:07:43.160 And this isn't just about Beck. I've seen this for 0:07:43.280 --> 0:07:45.240 years with people from these shows. You know, people like, 0:07:45.280 --> 0:07:49.440 oh my god, I love you, and then the celebrity 0:07:49.560 --> 0:07:51.480 or the reality person walks away. Then they're like, oh 0:07:51.480 --> 0:07:53.360 my god, she thinks she's so famous, oh my god. 0:07:53.400 --> 0:07:55.400 And you know, these people often only want to take 0:07:55.400 --> 0:07:58.280 a picture to then post to their Instagram to like 0:07:59.280 --> 0:08:01.920 laugh at with their friends, and you know that's not ever. 0:08:02.000 --> 0:08:05.120 And some people genuinely come up work, coming up to 0:08:05.160 --> 0:08:06.760 Beck being like, oh my god, I thought you were this, 0:08:06.840 --> 0:08:08.880 I thought you were that, but you've actually seen this, 0:08:09.000 --> 0:08:10.800 And they had a lot of nice things to say. 0:08:11.280 --> 0:08:14.080 But not everyone is like that. So when I talk 0:08:14.080 --> 0:08:16.520 about like this headspace of. 0:08:16.560 --> 0:08:18.960 These people being and it's like they don't quite know 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:22.920 what's real, what's not, how to proceed, what to do. 0:08:22.960 --> 0:08:26.000 And you know, remember Beck also lost her job because 0:08:26.040 --> 0:08:28.240 of this show, and she is now struggling to get 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:32.880 a normal, regular job because she's too recognizable at this 0:08:32.960 --> 0:08:36.040 point in time. But then on the other side, she's 0:08:36.080 --> 0:08:38.520 now realized, well, I can make an income through my 0:08:39.240 --> 0:08:41.240 social media and that's kind of the only income I 0:08:41.320 --> 0:08:44.760 now have available. But then on her social media, half 0:08:44.760 --> 0:08:47.960 the people are following just to constantly say, you're not 0:08:48.000 --> 0:08:51.640 a celebrity, you're not an influencer. Go get a regular job. 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:55.040 But she can't get a regular job. And then again 0:08:55.080 --> 0:08:58.280 with Beck, every day she goes online comments and articles, 0:08:58.280 --> 0:09:02.559 comments on pages, comments on her page being like, fix. 0:09:02.320 --> 0:09:05.640 Your whatever, go change this, you're this, you're ugly. 0:09:05.480 --> 0:09:08.360 Blub like just picking apart every part of her body, 0:09:08.480 --> 0:09:11.319 and then you know, Beck suddenly goes, well, okay, i 0:09:11.320 --> 0:09:13.280 am gonna change a part of my body because I've 0:09:13.320 --> 0:09:15.840 been offered this rip thing. And then she's like, I'm 0:09:15.880 --> 0:09:17.640 doing it. And that's why to me, at the start, 0:09:17.679 --> 0:09:20.800 she's so defiant, like go where you Karen's I'm gonna 0:09:21.040 --> 0:09:23.200 get my ribs done or whatever that quote was, and 0:09:23.240 --> 0:09:25.760 to me, that's like hitting back at everyone like I'm 0:09:25.800 --> 0:09:27.600 seeing what you're saying on fuck you, I'm gonna do it. 0:09:27.640 --> 0:09:29.320 But then suddenly the response. 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:31.480 To that is everyone now saying, oh my god, you 0:09:31.520 --> 0:09:34.080 too insecure, Oh my god, how dare you promote this 0:09:34.160 --> 0:09:36.439 to young people? Oh my god, you're a terrible example. 0:09:36.440 --> 0:09:39.319 You're the worst role model, and like that must be 0:09:39.440 --> 0:09:44.120 such a head fuck for anybody to navigate. And each season, 0:09:45.120 --> 0:09:47.240 every cast member has this to an extent, but it's 0:09:47.320 --> 0:09:50.400 usually like the most controversial ones or the prolific ones 0:09:50.440 --> 0:09:55.520 who have it at this scale, and this year it's 0:09:55.559 --> 0:10:00.280 pretty much just Beck and Jea who warrant like such 0:10:00.320 --> 0:10:04.200 a big and strong reaction for people. But the difference 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:08.640 between Beck and Ga now is Gia is, in my opinion, 0:10:09.320 --> 0:10:12.560 a lot more grounded with her life, Like she has 0:10:12.640 --> 0:10:16.559 her daughter full time, she has her boyfriend living with her, 0:10:16.720 --> 0:10:18.400 her mum I think lives with them. 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:19.240 More is nearby. 0:10:19.480 --> 0:10:22.600 And Gia and her boyfriend they are flipping a property 0:10:22.640 --> 0:10:25.400 at the minute, which means like every day they're you know, 0:10:25.480 --> 0:10:28.040 doing the school and then they're working, they're in Bunnings, 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:32.480 They're doing all these really really normal, regular people things. 0:10:32.720 --> 0:10:36.080 And I haven't really seen Gia at many events like 0:10:36.240 --> 0:10:40.000 Beck has been. You know, like Beck's more immersing herself 0:10:40.040 --> 0:10:43.679 in this new world of influencers and premiers and all that, 0:10:43.720 --> 0:10:45.559 which I mean, you know, she's being offered stuff, why 0:10:45.559 --> 0:10:49.960 wouldn't you, But to compare to Jia, her life just 0:10:49.960 --> 0:10:55.200 seems like super normal, which means it would be harder 0:10:55.200 --> 0:10:57.520 for her to get caught up in the headfuck of 0:10:57.640 --> 0:11:01.800 this post show period of being like famous but not 0:11:02.040 --> 0:11:06.400 really famous, but then being super known but not super liked, 0:11:07.120 --> 0:11:10.480 whereas yeah, Beck just doesn't have all those things kind 0:11:10.480 --> 0:11:13.880 of anchoring her and grounding her. And you know, then 0:11:13.920 --> 0:11:17.400 when you get podcasts like outspoken with their theories again. 0:11:17.240 --> 0:11:19.960 Like this, and I wouldn't be surprised if this was 0:11:20.040 --> 0:11:22.560 all a ploy for PR from Beck. I mean, she's 0:11:22.640 --> 0:11:26.040 been very good at maintaining attention off the back of maths. 0:11:26.120 --> 0:11:28.400 I get it because from the outside it one hundred 0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:32.000 percent now looks like some big PR master plan. But 0:11:32.360 --> 0:11:34.120 and I said this to the outspoken goes when I 0:11:34.120 --> 0:11:36.560 messages them on the weekend, And this isn't like shade 0:11:36.600 --> 0:11:38.800 at them, because they actually like them on their podcast 0:11:38.840 --> 0:11:41.880 and what they do. But people like Beck, and I 0:11:41.960 --> 0:11:44.880 said this politely, they are just not clever enough to 0:11:44.960 --> 0:11:47.960 have planned all of this like how it's rolled out 0:11:48.040 --> 0:11:51.240 to get maximum attention, because they've been in the industry 0:11:51.280 --> 0:11:55.080 for literal two minutes and they don't have teams with them, 0:11:55.120 --> 0:11:57.520 they don't have people guiding them and advising them, and 0:11:57.559 --> 0:12:00.880 they don't quite understand how it all works, like I do. 0:12:01.000 --> 0:12:03.880 You know, I've been working in this industry for over 0:12:03.960 --> 0:12:06.320 ten years, and you know, similar the outspoken girls, they've 0:12:06.360 --> 0:12:08.640 been working in this for years. And even Dom, who 0:12:08.679 --> 0:12:10.760 I spoke about in my last podcast when I said 0:12:10.760 --> 0:12:13.920 her accusing Beck of doing all this for PR felt 0:12:14.480 --> 0:12:18.400 inappropriate because Dom has been where Beck has dom has 0:12:18.520 --> 0:12:24.120 like been in that initial post show headfuck phase. And yeah, 0:12:24.160 --> 0:12:26.880 my last point now, because this is dragging gone, the 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:29.880 boomeranging from one extreme to another like Beck has done 0:12:29.920 --> 0:12:32.320 on this journey with the surgery and in BALI is 0:12:32.800 --> 0:12:35.720 confusing to follow and comprehend, sure, because we take it 0:12:35.760 --> 0:12:40.200 at kind of surface level thinking these are decisions being 0:12:40.240 --> 0:12:42.840 made like we would make decisions in our lives. But 0:12:44.040 --> 0:12:46.080 you've got to remember, like her life at this point 0:12:46.080 --> 0:12:50.120 of time is just a constant extreme that most of 0:12:50.200 --> 0:12:52.800 us will never experience, and she's trying to navigate that 0:12:53.720 --> 0:12:57.760 in real time while you know, being defiant and hitting 0:12:57.800 --> 0:12:59.679 back but then taking a moment ago, is this really 0:12:59.679 --> 0:13:02.400 what I And she's doing this while millions of people 0:13:02.559 --> 0:13:08.480 are watching. It often feels like this part is just 0:13:08.520 --> 0:13:10.679 like a medi defending Beck, which is not true in 0:13:10.720 --> 0:13:12.320 the slightest says, you know, I've called her out on 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:15.000 many things, especially behavior on the show. But the thing 0:13:15.040 --> 0:13:18.200 I find fascinating about Beck is once you kind of 0:13:18.600 --> 0:13:22.880 see beyond the drama and her doing dumb stuff, like 0:13:23.760 --> 0:13:27.920 there is this real person who is quite vulnerable and 0:13:27.960 --> 0:13:32.000 in my opinion, has insecurities and like commentating a show 0:13:32.040 --> 0:13:35.400 like this, she is like, this sounds weird to say, 0:13:35.440 --> 0:13:39.599 but this great case study of the psychological impact. And 0:13:39.679 --> 0:13:43.440 maybe that's why I have felt more protective towards Beck 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:45.800 and wanting to try and guide her and help her 0:13:45.800 --> 0:13:48.160 in in BALI like, you know, I went there to 0:13:48.200 --> 0:13:51.360 document what was happening, but I did feel like I 0:13:51.400 --> 0:13:54.000 maybe stepped a little too far with me constantly being like, 0:13:54.120 --> 0:13:55.720 don't do it, don't do it, don't do it. And 0:13:55.720 --> 0:14:00.960 that's because again I felt like this weird responsibility because yeah, 0:14:01.040 --> 0:14:01.440 I don't know. 0:14:02.480 --> 0:14:03.319 Moving on. 0:14:05.240 --> 0:14:12.400 In some more exciting news, now, Sammy has a new boyfriend. 0:14:12.600 --> 0:14:15.000 I know, Sammy's new Boyfriend's not me, for those still 0:14:15.000 --> 0:14:18.160 clinging onto that theory, no matter how many times Sam 0:14:18.160 --> 0:14:21.040 and I have said we're just friends. But over the weekend, 0:14:21.120 --> 0:14:23.040 some of you may have seen that Sam shared a 0:14:23.120 --> 0:14:27.200 little Instagram reel on Saturday, essentially backflipping his new man 0:14:27.720 --> 0:14:32.200 into a river while literally hard launching their new relationship. 0:14:35.240 --> 0:14:36.720 That just hard launched my boyfriend. 0:14:38.600 --> 0:14:41.480 Sam didn't share any more information on like how they met, 0:14:41.640 --> 0:14:43.760 how long they've been together, and all that cute stuff 0:14:43.760 --> 0:14:46.320 that people want to know, which I'm sure he will 0:14:46.320 --> 0:14:49.080 get around to doing like if only he had his 0:14:49.120 --> 0:14:51.560 own like podcasts where he could talk about things like 0:14:51.600 --> 0:14:53.600 that a little more in depth with Now. Okay, so 0:14:53.640 --> 0:14:55.480 I want to clear some things up here. There's been 0:14:55.520 --> 0:14:58.120 some confusion about my other podcast, which a lot of 0:14:58.160 --> 0:15:01.440 you noticed. I stopped merging into this feed like maybe 0:15:01.520 --> 0:15:05.120 five weeks ago now, and I haven't mentioned at all 0:15:05.240 --> 0:15:09.320 on this podcast since then. And you know what, when 0:15:09.320 --> 0:15:11.560 I first had that idea for that podcast, like to 0:15:11.560 --> 0:15:14.520 do something new away from Maths Funny, I didn't know 0:15:14.560 --> 0:15:16.440 where it was going to go or what it even 0:15:16.480 --> 0:15:18.920 would be, which is why, like I had different people 0:15:19.000 --> 0:15:21.080 auditioning to be the co host at the start, and 0:15:21.160 --> 0:15:23.720 it was more I work it out as I go 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:27.360 kind of thing, because I was just passionate about podcasting 0:15:27.400 --> 0:15:29.400 again and Maths was coming to an end, and I 0:15:29.440 --> 0:15:31.560 was like, shit, I want to keep doing something at 0:15:31.640 --> 0:15:33.280 least weekly, and there's not going to be Maths stuff 0:15:33.320 --> 0:15:35.560 to talk about, so let me start something new and 0:15:35.600 --> 0:15:39.760 again figure it out. And fairly quickly on that little journey, 0:15:39.840 --> 0:15:42.840 I didn't just find my perfect podcast co host, but 0:15:43.200 --> 0:15:47.200 I also found a friend, and I realized if I 0:15:47.320 --> 0:15:50.920 kept merging the feeds of that pod into this pod 0:15:50.960 --> 0:15:55.280 and like cross promoting, it would get confusing because people 0:15:55.280 --> 0:15:58.200 would think it was like part of Maths Funny or 0:15:58.240 --> 0:16:01.280 connected to Maths Funny where And I don't know if. 0:16:01.240 --> 0:16:01.920 This sounds weird. 0:16:02.800 --> 0:16:05.080 I don't want it to be associated with this podcast 0:16:05.120 --> 0:16:07.840 in like any way because it literally has zero to 0:16:07.840 --> 0:16:11.560 do with reality television or the show or the drama 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:13.760 of that world like that. We don't speak about that 0:16:14.000 --> 0:16:17.560 at all. It's nothing to do with that. And to me, 0:16:17.720 --> 0:16:21.040 the new part is something that's more wholesome. While yes 0:16:21.160 --> 0:16:23.920 it's still silly and dumb and funny, but it's also 0:16:23.960 --> 0:16:26.560 a place to be more vulnerable and where I can 0:16:26.560 --> 0:16:30.520 share like more personal things and stories and episodes that 0:16:30.560 --> 0:16:33.440 would just make zero sense merged into this Maths Funny 0:16:33.440 --> 0:16:35.040 feed any longer. 0:16:35.120 --> 0:16:36.440 And to give you more of an idea of the 0:16:36.480 --> 0:16:37.280 content of that, like. 0:16:37.320 --> 0:16:40.200 Last week, I did two episodes I've wanted to do 0:16:40.240 --> 0:16:44.000 for a long time, actually talking about the insecurities that 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:46.200 I and I suppose a lot of us face with 0:16:46.400 --> 0:16:49.800 aging and why I've struggled to accept my age with 0:16:49.960 --> 0:16:52.280 where I am at this stage in my life and 0:16:52.400 --> 0:16:55.440 comparing myself to others. And I also opened up about 0:16:55.480 --> 0:16:58.720 an age gap relationship of my own, which I was 0:16:58.760 --> 0:17:02.720 actually very nervous to do, to be honest. And there's 0:17:02.760 --> 0:17:05.400 a bonus episode coming up with my mum I Think 0:17:05.440 --> 0:17:08.160 this Weekend, which I recorded while she was in Sydney recently, 0:17:08.200 --> 0:17:11.280 that is actually quite emotional. And in the episode, we 0:17:11.359 --> 0:17:13.800 went through a list of questions people say you should 0:17:13.840 --> 0:17:16.600 ask a parent if you're still lucky enough to have 0:17:16.680 --> 0:17:19.320 them around, because these are the things you will regret 0:17:19.920 --> 0:17:23.800 not asking one day when it's too late, And like, yeah, God, 0:17:23.840 --> 0:17:27.879 that episode that became quite emotional. If this was our 0:17:27.920 --> 0:17:30.840 last ever conversation, what would you want to say? 0:17:31.800 --> 0:17:34.680 I love you all the world. 0:17:35.000 --> 0:17:37.720 No, I'm so proud of you. 0:17:38.760 --> 0:17:44.600 That is, look at what you've achieved in life. 0:17:45.720 --> 0:17:49.760 Wow, I don't think you realize just how special you 0:17:49.800 --> 0:17:50.960 are now. 0:17:51.040 --> 0:17:58.800 I get emotional. Got these questions for more than that. 0:17:59.280 --> 0:18:02.600 So yeah, those who have been confused about that part 0:18:02.680 --> 0:18:05.080 and this part, the new podcast is still going strong. 0:18:05.119 --> 0:18:06.399 It's something we're proud of. 0:18:06.520 --> 0:18:08.960 It's something that's already helping a lot of young gay 0:18:09.000 --> 0:18:11.159 people which we're proud of. And it's nothing to do 0:18:11.240 --> 0:18:15.960 with reality television show drama or anything like that, which again, 0:18:16.040 --> 0:18:18.119 is why the feeds are not being merged. But that 0:18:18.160 --> 0:18:19.879 does mean if you want to listen, you will have 0:18:19.920 --> 0:18:23.840 to actively search occasionally Funny on whatever podcast app you 0:18:23.960 --> 0:18:27.879 use and subscribe to it within the app as like 0:18:27.920 --> 0:18:32.000 a whole new show. Moving on now though, Ree and 0:18:32.119 --> 0:18:34.800 Jeff and the big breakup of the year, what actually 0:18:34.840 --> 0:18:37.680 happened between them? Who knows? And well who cares? Because 0:18:37.720 --> 0:18:41.000 not only have we moved on, but Ree has too. 0:18:41.240 --> 0:18:43.320 And no, she didn't have a new boyfriend, which that 0:18:43.359 --> 0:18:45.640 sounds like, but Re did share a video the other 0:18:45.680 --> 0:18:49.560 day that I watched and afterwards I just went like, fuck, 0:18:50.119 --> 0:18:52.479 what a woman like? Just take a listen to this 0:18:52.600 --> 0:18:54.520 and I'm going to play the whole thing actually out 0:18:54.560 --> 0:18:56.040 in full, So this is three minutes. 0:18:56.280 --> 0:18:58.040 I'm going to take you through some things that I 0:18:58.080 --> 0:19:00.240 did not expect to be doing at this age. The 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:03.520 first thing that comes to mind is considering a housemate. 0:19:03.800 --> 0:19:07.800 Rent with two people is expensive, let alone one, and 0:19:07.880 --> 0:19:13.040 I just paid four hundred dollars for the month of rent. Yeah, 0:19:13.359 --> 0:19:16.560 explaining your entire life to strangers on the internet. 0:19:16.680 --> 0:19:17.960 Guys are very smart and. 0:19:18.000 --> 0:19:21.040 Can pick up when things aren't right and we grieved 0:19:21.480 --> 0:19:24.680 or I grieved the relationship quite a long time before 0:19:24.760 --> 0:19:27.359 I came out on social media. When I think about 0:19:27.440 --> 0:19:30.280 quite a lot is not knowing when kids fits into 0:19:30.280 --> 0:19:33.720 the picture anymore, as everyone is pretty aware. I was 0:19:33.760 --> 0:19:36.119 talking about preparing my body for a baby. 0:19:36.720 --> 0:19:39.800 Ooh, and what have I done here? 0:19:40.520 --> 0:19:47.119 And now that the plan has changed, it is a 0:19:47.119 --> 0:19:49.520 bit daunting not knowing when I'm actually going to be 0:19:49.560 --> 0:19:50.280 having children. 0:19:50.520 --> 0:19:52.680 I have a history of endometriosis. 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:54.720 I think it's one of those things that you're not 0:19:54.760 --> 0:19:57.359 really going to know until you start trying. 0:19:57.480 --> 0:20:01.640 I'm actually considering freezing my eggs, and I. 0:20:01.680 --> 0:20:05.200 Keep arming and hoering about it, and I think I'm 0:20:05.240 --> 0:20:06.880 going to decide over the. 0:20:06.840 --> 0:20:08.040 Next few months. 0:20:08.280 --> 0:20:13.320 Learning that peace can feel really unfamiliar at first, because 0:20:13.359 --> 0:20:16.879 when you make big decisions it feels so uncomfortable. You 0:20:16.960 --> 0:20:20.200 instantly start questioning if you have made the right choice, 0:20:21.000 --> 0:20:24.760 and doubt yourself over and over again, budding from scratch 0:20:25.400 --> 0:20:29.040 without actually starting from scratch. When something big happens in 0:20:29.080 --> 0:20:31.600 your life, it's very easy to dramatize things. 0:20:31.640 --> 0:20:34.240