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Speaker 1: there was like one or two other agents, yeah, training me,

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Speaker 1: but most of the investigations are usually done by themselves

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Speaker 1: back then. Now when we do surveillance, you know, you

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Speaker 1: really need a van. Like you could be in an

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Speaker 1: office with all your gadgets connected, so that that's just

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Speaker 1: for the movies. The Little Van, Yeah, that's for the movies.

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Speaker 2: Were you nervous at the starts?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I was very nervous. But I also knew that

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Speaker 1: I had to pay my dues because to get to

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Speaker 1: the level of interrogations that I got to, you had

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Speaker 1: to pay your dues. Because everybody wants to be a profiler,

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Speaker 1: everybody wants to be the mind reader type positions, but

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Speaker 1: you have to pay your dues. And the way that

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Speaker 1: you get to apply to those positions is by making

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Speaker 1: your resume look nicer. So I'm a woman, I'm Latina,

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Speaker 1: I'm doing undercover work that looks amazing on my resume.

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Speaker 1: So everybody usually has to do undercover work before they

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Speaker 1: they make it so competitive because not everybody gets those positions.

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Speaker 2: So when was it? When was the first time you

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Speaker 2: actually got like, was there every a time when you

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Speaker 2: thought this is not for me?

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Speaker 1: No?

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Speaker 2: Never, you didn't have any second You never had second thoughts.

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Speaker 1: No, But I think I think because my pain was

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Speaker 1: so great and I felt like, you know how people

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Speaker 1: Americans joined the military after nine to eleven. It's that

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Speaker 1: feeling like I'm giving back and I'm giving back to

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Speaker 1: my my murdered friend,