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Speaker 1: Apoday production.

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Speaker 2: We begin today by acknowledging the traditional custodians of the

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Speaker 2: land on which we gather today and pay our respects

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Speaker 2: to their elders past and present. We extend that respect

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Speaker 2: to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people's here today.

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Speaker 3: Welcome to the Grow and Glow Podcast. I'm Ashy, I'm Kiara.

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Speaker 3: This is a podcast where we learn, laugh, and level

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Speaker 3: up together. Let's go deep, let.

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Speaker 1: The emotions flow, and find the lessons to grow and Glow.

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Speaker 1: Nothing is off the table with Grow and Glow and

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Speaker 1: we're here to be your expander. Hello everybody, welcome back

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Speaker 1: to the show. Welcome back to Grow and Glow. So

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Speaker 1: today we are talking about loneliness, spending time with yourself.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so it's hard to find with having children if

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Speaker 3: you are a mother.

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Speaker 1: Really hard, or a father, or a caregiver or a

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Speaker 1: one hundred percent We want to like just check in

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Speaker 1: with you all because we have had the opportunity to

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Speaker 1: have some time alone at the eating retreat that we

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Speaker 1: went to and really made us spark this conversation of

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Speaker 1: like how little time we get by ourselves, but how

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Speaker 1: important it is, uh huh. And I spoke about it

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Speaker 1: in my episode about my brain surgery with Baseline too,

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Speaker 1: just having even at the time in hospital and then eaten.

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Speaker 1: But now I'm trying to find more moments of quiet,

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Speaker 1: even if it's five minutes in my car before I

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Speaker 1: go from work to home, just to regather my thoughts

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Speaker 1: and ground and take some big breaths and just like

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Speaker 1: slow it down, because when you do, you get that

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Speaker 1: space to get clarity on what's going on and how

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Speaker 1: you're feeling. Actually ask yourself this, like, when was the

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Speaker 1: last time you actually had time by yourself?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? And when was the last time you like stopped

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Speaker 3: and were like consciously like, oh, I'm going to take

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Speaker 3: some time for me, not rush in to grab the

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Speaker 3: for fifteen minutes, just like sit.

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Speaker 1: On your own Yeah'll, And do you crave it? Like

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Speaker 1: how often do you think that you need it? Because

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Speaker 1: I know if you're more of an introvert, you need

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Speaker 1: a lot more than an extrovert, and you need that

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Speaker 1: to recharge your batteries, You need that just to feel good,

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Speaker 1: feel connected. And whether you've answered yes or no to

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Speaker 1: having it, how could you incorporate some more into your day,

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Speaker 1: and how would that positively impact your family and your

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Speaker 1: life and your energy?

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Speaker 3: So should we go back to Eden?

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Speaker 1: Yes? Like?

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Speaker 3: Actually, like, do you want to leave now?

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Speaker 1: Oh? My gosh, can we go? It was so good?

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Speaker 3: So let's go back to Eden. Before we went to

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Speaker 3: go into Eden, what was your life like at home?

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Speaker 3: When was the last time you had some time on

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Speaker 1: I mean, I get up early before everyone, but I

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Speaker 1: go on a walk. I guess what I'm doing in

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Speaker 1: my walk working? I'm working. I clear all of my DMSU.

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Speaker 1: I get a lot every day, and I do that

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Speaker 1: all by myself. Now I clear all of my emails.

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Speaker 1: I'm getting on top of everything before the days started

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Speaker 1: because it does make me feel calm and knowing that

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Speaker 1: they're done. I'm on my stories, I'm on my Snapchat,

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Speaker 1: I'm uploading to tiak top, I upload into YouTube like

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Speaker 1: all the shorts. I'm just getting ahead of the day.

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Speaker 1: So it's yeah, I'm alone, but it's not the alone

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Speaker 1: right now. So before that, no, I wasn't really having

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I feel like I'm definitely more of an introvert.

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Speaker 3: I don't feel like myself. I just need it to recharge.

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Speaker 3: But I haven't had my mornings because Rega girl's been

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Speaker 3: this is my lunch break, So have a break. Go

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Speaker 1: Why do business owners not take lunch breaks?

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Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, we are so bad for that.

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Speaker 1: salad sandwich and sits on Burly Hill. It takes half

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Speaker 3: It's really really nice, and I feel like it's something

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Speaker 3: my life was pretty chaotic as well. Before Eden, I

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Speaker 3: my capacity has gotten way better. Yeah, which is great,

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Speaker 3: but you go and enjoy it as well. It's really

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Speaker 3: nice to have that time for yourself.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, definitely.

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Speaker 3: How did we feel initially going in there?

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Speaker 1: I don't think I expected to have as much alone

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Speaker 1: a weekend like Steve and I might I might go

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Speaker 1: It's so cool though, you actually just get to really

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Speaker 1: And I suppose I don't know about you, but my

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Speaker 3: And a cool thing too that I kind of took

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Speaker 3: Like you literally think that if you're not there for

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Speaker 3: You're Actually it's really important for us to prioritize us

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Speaker 3: do this. It's like if you make dinner ten minutes later, yes,

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Speaker 1: Or if you're washing sits or another couple of days,

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Speaker 1: it's fine, No, take the time when you can get it. Yes.

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Speaker 1: So true. It's interesting though when you reflect back on

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Speaker 1: enjoy it more and more as I get old and older.

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Speaker 1: And I was thinking back to my younger self, and

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Speaker 1: I hated being alone when I was younger, hated it.

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Speaker 1: I just felt so unsafe I felt unsafe in my body,

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Speaker 1: I felt unsafe in my environments. I just I never

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Speaker 1: self down, just all the negative stuff. I just didn't

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Speaker 1: want to deal with it, so I kept being busy.

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Speaker 1: So if you don't enjoy your own time, maybe that's

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Speaker 1: something to think about too, Like why what am I

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Speaker 1: running away? What are you running away from? And like

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Speaker 1: numbing out with whether it's being busy on social media,

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Speaker 1: I'll be busy with your friends or eating so true,

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Speaker 1: whatever it is something really important to check in with

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Speaker 1: and just try it. Just spend five minutes tomorrow out

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Speaker 1: the sun just see how nice that can be, and

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Speaker 1: then extend it out to fifteen minutes of you know whatever. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and then take an hour tagg him with your partner

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Speaker 1: on the weekend.

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Speaker 3: That five minutes out in the sunshine, Oh, just wonder,

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Speaker 3: it's beautiful.

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Speaker 1: And then step it up. Book a day, book a night.

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Speaker 3: Away, a day once a month sounds really reasonable, I think. So.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, I feel like we could all try to prioritize.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I think so done, deal lock it in. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: thanks for joining guys, We'll talk to you soon.

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Speaker 3: Bye,