Speaker 1: I want the fairy tale. I want the prince charming.
Speaker 2: She how do I put this? Isn't a fan of
Speaker 2: my kissing style.
Speaker 3: We would a boyfriend and girlfriend for about twelve hours.
Speaker 1: He's in a trash bin. He's non recyclable catching member.
Speaker 2: I love being love, I love love.
Speaker 1: Today.
Speaker 3: We are thrilled to be hanging out with Amelia many
Speaker 3: as we chat all things Love, Island, breakups, and being
Speaker 3: single in twenty twenty two.
Speaker 2: Stay tuned to hear all the goss from Amelia.
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Speaker 3: things relationships, breakups, reality TV, trending shows, and everything in between.
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Speaker 3: Hello Amelia, Hi guys, thanks so much for having me.
Speaker 4: I'm so excited to chat.
Speaker 3: Well, Amelia, I just have to say a massive congratulations
Speaker 3: because you are doing amazing things at the moment. I
Speaker 3: saw on your socials recently that you flew to London
Speaker 3: to be part of the remal campaign.
Speaker 5: Look, mummy's been working in partying. She's been doing a
Speaker 5: little bit of both. I mean it was a little
Speaker 5: bit unbalanced at the start, like a few months ago,
Speaker 5: I was only partying and now I'm.
Speaker 4: Like picking up on work a bit more.
Speaker 5: But yeah, it was so exciting I did for their
Speaker 5: new like thrill Seeker, like VISCAA. So I was there
Speaker 5: in London shooting that. I went to this amazing event
Speaker 5: there with them, and that's when I was like, all right,
Speaker 5: I'm gonna put my head down work as much as
Speaker 5: I can in London, and especially considering you guys are
Speaker 5: probably similar a lot of a lot of your followers
Speaker 5: from UK.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, so I was like, great, I can work
Speaker 4: with UK brands. It makes sense. Blah blah blah, I'm
Speaker 4: gonna hustle here. I went to one event and then
Speaker 4: it was all downhill from then I just partied the
Speaker 4: whole time. So look, I don't regret it. But it
Speaker 4: was a big party and a tiny tiny bit of work.
Speaker 3: I mean, your recently single, so of course you needed
Speaker 3: to like soak it all up, have a bit of
Speaker 3: a hot girl summer.
Speaker 1: Do you reckon? You've ticked that box now?
Speaker 5: Hundred are hundred percent? I feel like I ticked it, Like, look,
Speaker 5: I just kept going. I just I remember thinking I
Speaker 5: was like I need to slow down, like I can't
Speaker 5: keep partying like this. But you know what, like so
Speaker 5: many of my friends, like so many different groups kept
Speaker 5: coming and then they would come for like it would
Speaker 5: be their first week. They'll be like, meet up with
Speaker 5: us in Ibiza and I'll be like, okay, amazing, They'll fresh,
Speaker 5: you know, fresh Ibetha vibes, and I was like, guys,
Speaker 5: I've already done this four times, like so it was incredible,
Speaker 5: but yeah, now I'm like more, my head's down. I
Speaker 5: got it all out of my system, all the celebrations
Speaker 5: and yeah, I'm just ready to be zen and work.
Speaker 4: Well.
Speaker 3: Look, speaking of girls trips, you recently were on holiday.
Speaker 3: I think you were on holiday are away somewhere and
Speaker 3: you were hanging out with one of my biggest girl crushes,
Speaker 3: Kayla Testa.
Speaker 1: Tell me a bit about that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, so we she knew one of my friends that
Speaker 5: I was with Tuesday and then she was like messaging
Speaker 5: her in and out.
Speaker 4: We were going to meet up with her and Bali.
Speaker 5: Like a few months before that, so I'd been in Bali,
Speaker 5: like I can't even remember the timeline. I think it
Speaker 5: was May. So we were going to meet up with
Speaker 5: her there and then we were all in Europe. At
Speaker 5: the same time, We're like, let's meet up in my
Speaker 5: beeth that will be so fun. And obviously I'd seen
Speaker 5: so much of her on TikTok and everything, and I'd
Speaker 5: heard so much.
Speaker 4: About her, and it was so refreshing meeting her.
Speaker 5: Because she just has such a big heart, like you
Speaker 5: can just see she is so sweet and she just
Speaker 5: really cares.
Speaker 4: Her generosity.
Speaker 5: I've never, like, I haven't seen many people that have
Speaker 5: this like generosity where they just like care about other
Speaker 5: people and they want to make sure like they're always
Speaker 5: looking out for other people. But yeah, she's such a
Speaker 5: sweet girl, like such a nice girl, so easy going,
Speaker 5: just like yeah, yeah, just normal, just easy going.
Speaker 3: When I saw you guys hanging out, I was thinking, like, Okay,
Speaker 3: so they're both going through breakups.
Speaker 1: Surely they would be bonding over that.
Speaker 5: Yes, definitely, Like we we spoke about it a lot.
Speaker 5: I think our experiences were super super different, and I
Speaker 5: think a lot more people were definitely like putting maybe
Speaker 5: pressure on them to get back together.
Speaker 4: I don't know, I don't know, that's just what I noticed.
Speaker 5: Like I feel like it's always like and people have
Speaker 5: really invested in their relationship, like I saw teatogs that
Speaker 5: were all these videos of them and stuff, and I
Speaker 5: was like, Okay, where's my remixes?
Speaker 4: Like no, but I was like, okay, but where's my footage? Huh?
Speaker 4: I know.
Speaker 5: But so people, it would be a lot of pressure
Speaker 5: for her, whereas I feel like I had it at
Speaker 5: a lot smaller scale, and I think people, I don't know,
Speaker 5: I think, yeah, people, I didn't actually get any too
Speaker 5: much pressure or hate from the outside. It was actually
Speaker 5: nice because I was scared of that. I was like,
Speaker 5: oh my god, people are going to think I'm like
Speaker 5: some like person that's like either cheated or I've like,
Speaker 5: you know, like I'm like trying to run away from
Speaker 5: I don't know. I just had an idea that people
Speaker 5: would think of me. But yeah, we definitely. I don't
Speaker 5: know how I've trailed to this, but yeah, we definitely
Speaker 5: bonded over the breakup, but we had completely different feelings
Speaker 5: towards our ex's.
Speaker 2: All right, well, on that, shall we talk about the
Speaker 2: breakup next and what happened between you and Josh.
Speaker 1: Let's say that.
Speaker 2: It was unfortunate to hear about you and Josh breaking up.
Speaker 2: You guys, did your posts on your separate respectful Instagram accounts.
Speaker 2: Do you want to tell us a bit about what
Speaker 2: actually happened and what led to the breakup?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean I can only speak on my experience
Speaker 5: and I would never like speak on anything that you know,
Speaker 5: he was going through or any anything about him. So
Speaker 5: I guess when I think, there's so many factors to
Speaker 5: what led us to getting to a point where we
Speaker 5: decided to go our separate ways, and I think it
Speaker 5: all stems down to that we are so so different,
Speaker 5: like even now, like even when we were to other
Speaker 5: people would be like, wow, you guys, like are so different,
Speaker 5: which can be a really great thing in a lot
Speaker 5: of relationships. But I think I don't know in our
Speaker 5: maybe what we wanted from each other, even like the
Speaker 5: way that I expressed love was so different. Like I'm
Speaker 5: very affectionate and I love to always I'm very passionate,
Speaker 5: so I'm always like talking about it, so I want
Speaker 5: someone to almost you know, That's how I understand love
Speaker 5: as well, like someone talking to me about how much
Speaker 5: they love me or me and me telling that and
Speaker 5: expressing that and also being very physical and stuff like that,
Speaker 5: and which is some people that that's it's not natural
Speaker 5: for them. That's not how they show level, that's not
Speaker 5: how they feel loved, which is so fine, but that
Speaker 5: was a big part as well. I think we in
Speaker 5: that sense as lovers, we were very unmatched. So that
Speaker 5: was a big thing for me, which I didn't I
Speaker 5: couldn't put my finger on it, like, I just couldn't.
Speaker 5: It's like it always there was always some kind of
Speaker 5: like questioning in my mind, not in him, because I
Speaker 5: really did deeply love him as a person, but I
Speaker 5: just felt like I was like, I'm just never getting
Speaker 5: what I need.
Speaker 2: Almost and that's important in a relationship.
Speaker 5: As well, and it is so important, and now I
Speaker 5: realize that, like there is some non negotiables that if
Speaker 5: it doesn't work for you and you're not getting what
Speaker 5: you need, or you're not even able to give what
Speaker 5: you usually given in a partner like or you're you know,
Speaker 5: because there's certain things you might suppress because you're not
Speaker 5: feeling comfortable to do certain things or give certain things
Speaker 5: of you because you're not it's not reciprocated or you
Speaker 5: don't feel comfortable. So yeah, I feel like even from
Speaker 5: the beginning, there was always kind of insecurities, and I
Speaker 5: think the way we met as well, I had him
Speaker 5: on this really high pedestal. I was going into the
Speaker 5: show he was like the favorite one, but I did.
Speaker 5: I liked him from the beginning, from the promo videos.
Speaker 5: I was like him, he's a funny one, Like he's cute,
Speaker 5: Like he's.
Speaker 4: The one I want.
Speaker 5: So going into it in with that kind of headspace
Speaker 5: where you're like, oh my god, like I like this
Speaker 5: person so much. I've been watching him for six weeks
Speaker 5: straight live like, and then you go in for that person,
Speaker 5: You're like, Okay, I'm gonna like put everything I can
Speaker 5: because I want him to like me back.
Speaker 4: So then I went in there. He liked me back,
Speaker 4: thank god.
Speaker 5: But I would do little things to check in if
Speaker 5: he was interested in me, and which back then I
Speaker 5: was like twenty two, I was a lot more insecure
Speaker 5: and like I would say little things like oh, I
Speaker 5: can see you being my boyfriend on the outside, and
Speaker 5: you go really and I'd be like yeah, and there'll
Speaker 5: be nothing back, and then I would have a tantrum
Speaker 5: and cry for an hour in the corner.
Speaker 4: I'll be like, he doesn't want me, he doesn't want me.
Speaker 5: So then that built another you know, level of like
Speaker 5: me feeling like I wasn't good enough. So then I
Speaker 5: just kept on it, kept on being like that, which
Speaker 5: was not his fault at all, And of course he
Speaker 5: did give me reassurance in the way.
Speaker 4: That he could.
Speaker 5: So it started off like that, and then coming out,
Speaker 5: everyone was like obsessed with him and there was guys
Speaker 5: that would say.
Speaker 4: You're punching Amelia movie what.
Speaker 5: But I had this like storyline in my head that
Speaker 5: I was not worthy of him and I was so
Speaker 5: lucky to be with him, which no matter who it is,
Speaker 5: if it's a fucked up celebrity or whatever, like if
Speaker 5: I was dating Johnny Depp, like it doesn't matter, like
Speaker 5: no one is better or not like it should be
Speaker 5: and you should feel balanced and feel.
Speaker 4: Worthy of it. And that was an issue in me.
Speaker 5: I just never felt like I was I deserved his
Speaker 5: love or anything.
Speaker 4: And then it just was a disaster from the beginning.
Speaker 5: But we worked on a lot, like we went to therapy,
Speaker 5: and we both both of us grew so much as people.
Speaker 5: I let down a lot of insecurities, I trusted his
Speaker 5: love more, and I got to a place where I
Speaker 5: knew he loved me and he knew I loved him,
Speaker 5: but at the core of it, I think we still
Speaker 5: were so different.
Speaker 4: So yeah, it took me.
Speaker 5: A long long time, but I felt like there was
Speaker 5: a lot of things that kept popping up.
Speaker 4: We would have the same kind of fights, and.
Speaker 5: Yeah, we just really just yeah, we just grew apart
Speaker 5: as people. And but the moment that we, like said,
Speaker 5: I was like, oh my God, like I feel like
Speaker 5: myself again. Like I feel like I know who I
Speaker 5: am again. I know what I care about, I know
Speaker 5: what my values are, I know what I want from
Speaker 5: a person. I know what kind of person I am
Speaker 5: in a relationship, and I know what I can give.
Speaker 5: And I just I've never felt more myself again.
Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you.
Speaker 3: So you said before that at the side of the
Speaker 3: relationship with Josh, you struggled, I guess to get validated
Speaker 3: by him. Did that continue throughout the whole relationship or
Speaker 3: did slowly that change.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 5: I think it was a mixture of I reckon it's
Speaker 5: I don't know, maybe this isn't the correct percentage ninety
Speaker 5: percent me of like being super I'm just I was
Speaker 5: such a different person and then I was so deeply insecure.
Speaker 4: I just had no self worth.
Speaker 5: So it was that combined with someone that naturally doesn't,
Speaker 5: you know, express their love, it's just a recipe for disaster.
Speaker 4: So definitely along the way we both learned.
Speaker 5: I learned to accept his love and I learned to
Speaker 5: feel relaxed in it, and he also learned to show it.
Speaker 5: So at the start, I think it was you're still
Speaker 5: in the honeymoon phase and you're having so much fun
Speaker 5: with the other person, but they still so many doubts.
Speaker 5: But maybe there was also doubts because we weren't the
Speaker 5: right match, like we were mismatched. Like of course there
Speaker 5: were so many things about us that were matched, but
Speaker 5: I think deep down we were mismatched at the end
Speaker 5: of the day.
Speaker 3: And I think that's the crazy thing about Love Island
Speaker 3: is you can meet someone and I feel this way
Speaker 3: as well. You can meet someone who you really get
Speaker 3: along with and you enjoy hanging out with, and you
Speaker 3: meet them in this holiday, glamorized environment, and it does
Speaker 3: You're right, Like when you said that, I really resonated
Speaker 3: with It really puts them on a pedestal. But a
Speaker 3: lot of the time, you know, it is a mismatch.
Speaker 3: Like you guys were the longest standing couple. My relationship
Speaker 3: from Love Island lasted a year and it was a
Speaker 3: fucking shambles.
Speaker 1: Was just it was just not in it.
Speaker 3: And you know, I think, speaking just from personal experience,
Speaker 3: I felt like there was a lot of pressure to
Speaker 3: stay together. So my question to you, I guess, is
Speaker 3: did you feel that same pressure.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 5: I've thought a lot about this because a lot of
Speaker 5: people have said that to me, and a lot of
Speaker 5: people have said, oh, you must have stayed together, like
Speaker 5: because of the show and you were the last couple
Speaker 5: and stuff. And I think the biggest pressures I had
Speaker 5: was that I wanted it to work so deeply, because
Speaker 5: I am the type of person when I commit to something,
Speaker 5: I am one hundred percent, I leave no stone unturned,
Speaker 5: like I would do anything to make it work because
Speaker 5: I just wanted it to work with him.
Speaker 4: And when I'm committed.
Speaker 5: To something, like I say, I said this the other
Speaker 5: day to someone, I was like, I've been vegan for
Speaker 5: nine years and I've almost lost my reasons to be vegan,
Speaker 5: just because I've been doing it for so long. But
Speaker 5: when I commit to something, I don't sometimes I don't
Speaker 5: even know why I'm doing it. No, I do know
Speaker 5: I love animals, but I'm like, my passion for it
Speaker 5: might drop, but I still commit stay to it, and
Speaker 5: I still make sure it works.
Speaker 4: So I tried.
Speaker 5: Everything with him, like I did not want to give
Speaker 5: up because I was like, I love this person, I
Speaker 5: want to make it work.
Speaker 4: But in that I lost love for myself. So yeah,
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 5: It's hard for me to pinpoint if it was prescuoreus
Speaker 5: from the outside. I think if anything, I was scared
Speaker 5: of the break when I got to the point of
Speaker 5: where I knew we wanted to break up.
Speaker 4: I was scared that people would hate me or judge me,
Speaker 4: or think I cheated or think I did something horrible.
Speaker 4: That was the only thing.
Speaker 5: But I definitely didn't stay with him for the outside
Speaker 5: because I always believe like happy, like it doesn't matter
Speaker 5: hap happiness and love is the most important thing.
Speaker 4: And that's why I kept pushing to make it work.
Speaker 5: I was like, therapy this that, let's do this holiday,
Speaker 5: let's move in. And I think even moving in, I
Speaker 5: was like, oh my god, if we move in, that
Speaker 5: means he really loves me, he wants to be with me. Like,
Speaker 5: if we do this, that means he wants to be
Speaker 5: with me. If he's going to propose to me, that means,
Speaker 5: you know, it's going to fix everything. And I think
Speaker 5: that's also an issue in itself because those kind of
Speaker 5: things aren't going to fix the relationship.
Speaker 4: If anything, it should strengthen it, I guess.
Speaker 5: But you shouldn't want to do it too, because it
Speaker 5: means like that's they want to be with you.
Speaker 4: And yeah, it was. I was just obsessed with the
Speaker 4: idea of him wanting to be with me.
Speaker 3: Well, look, speaking of cheating, because you mentioned that before,
Speaker 3: there were rumors going around that obviously before you guys
Speaker 3: broke up, you had gone to Coachella, there was rumors
Speaker 3: that you had met this guy in La. Do you
Speaker 3: want to clarify that for us?
Speaker 5: Yeah, So I had a really big issue with that,
Speaker 5: just because the type of person I am, I am
Speaker 5: so ridiculously loyal, like to a point where even if
Speaker 5: I was so mentally checked out, I would never even
Speaker 5: flirt with someone like when I'm in a relationship, I'm
Speaker 5: just like tunnel vision for that person.
Speaker 4: So it did really bother me. And I know that
Speaker 4: I heard like on his breakup podcast, because he's got
Speaker 4: his own podcast. He was like, you know, like she
Speaker 4: went to Coachella.
Speaker 5: People were saying, like, maybe she cheated. I don't know,
Speaker 5: And I'm like, you know, babes, babe, do.
Speaker 4: You know me?
Speaker 2: Where did they get this rumor from? Because obviously there's
Speaker 2: no smoke without fire.
Speaker 5: I think that people liked to start drama, and I think, like,
Speaker 5: what better drama than like, you know, this girl that's
Speaker 5: like living her life in America and at Coachella and
Speaker 5: with all the girls and then her boyfriend's at home.
Speaker 4: Like it's such that is fucking juicy.
Speaker 5: But there was I remember when I was I remember
Speaker 5: when I was in America.
Speaker 4: I'd only been there for two days. I was working.
Speaker 4: I wasn't even at Coachella yet, I was doing photo shoots.
Speaker 4: I've been there two days. Do you think this girl
Speaker 4: has enough time? I was jet lagged.
Speaker 5: Mommy needs to sleep off that jet lag. But I
Speaker 5: was literally in a.
Speaker 4: Photo shoot, like I was in a hotel room and
Speaker 4: a photoshit. They two were.
Speaker 5: Being there and people were already like commenting stuff like
Speaker 5: I heard she cheated. I heard this, And I was like,
Speaker 5: at least if say, if someone saw.
Speaker 4: Me at Coachella.
Speaker 5: I was talking to a guy, which I didn't even
Speaker 5: talk to any boys there. I watched I watched other people.
Speaker 5: I watched my friends talk to boys, and I was like, so,
Speaker 5: like that would have made sense, Like if not made sense,
Speaker 5: but that would have been a better story if I
Speaker 5: was at Coachella and they're.
Speaker 4: Like, yeah, I heard it Coachella, but I wasn't even
Speaker 4: there yet. I was like, babe, I'm fresh off this flight,
Speaker 4: I'm at this photo shoot. There's no time. There's no time.
Speaker 2: Do you and Josh stay in communication.
Speaker 5: When we first broke up, we did. It was actually
Speaker 5: quite hard because we still had the apartment and we
Speaker 5: had like a few more like.
Speaker 4: Maybe five more weeks of our least.
Speaker 5: So I was going in and out of the country
Speaker 5: the work and stuff. I think that's what was happening.
Speaker 5: And yeah, and then I had a trip plan with
Speaker 5: my friends. I can't remember, but so I was going
Speaker 5: in and out. So then each week I was away,
Speaker 5: he would stay in and then we would take turns.
Speaker 5: I would stay in Airbnb's in Sydney, and that was
Speaker 5: like the hardest part of it because we just had
Speaker 5: to take turns, and then we would sometimes bump into
Speaker 5: each other, and seeing your ex freshly after you break up.
Speaker 4: The worst idea because there's so.
Speaker 5: Much like heat still and one person might say something
Speaker 5: online that can be like interpreted one way. So it
Speaker 5: was not like a good idea. Definitely not a good
Speaker 5: idea to see like bump into each other.
Speaker 4: But now, no, we don't speak.
Speaker 3: In the breakup post that you actually put up about Josh,
Speaker 3: there was a couple of things that stood out. You said,
Speaker 3: we portrayed a happy, healthy relationship, but there was challenging
Speaker 3: moments that we didn't share. Can you share some of
Speaker 3: those challenging moments with us?
Speaker 1: Now?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think there was times where we would just
Speaker 5: disagree on like certain things that maybe were.
Speaker 4: Like important like to me or important to him.
Speaker 5: And I think as well because we were both you know,
Speaker 5: in the industry and in the same roles as well.
Speaker 5: I think it's quite hard because you spent a lot
Speaker 5: of time time with them and you know, we work together.
Speaker 4: We did everything together.
Speaker 5: So yeah, there was just times where and stem ling
Speaker 5: back to how I was saying, we're just so different,
Speaker 5: we would disagree with so many things, but we would
Speaker 5: also not on we just were on different pages with things,
Speaker 5: like we just the way we communicated was so different
Speaker 5: as well.
Speaker 4: So we were just so different.
Speaker 5: So I just wasn't getting what I needed from a partner.
Speaker 5: And yeah, we were just super different.
Speaker 2: Is this as well? Like you'd see I'd see you
Speaker 2: guys post tiktoks and you guys like looked really happy,
Speaker 2: and were you like also advertising this thing that you
Speaker 2: guys are in this happy relationship, But like behind the scenes,
Speaker 2: there was like a lot more like that. We didn't
Speaker 2: see like arguing or like that miscommunication because I feel
Speaker 2: like I don't I don't like like my ex would
Speaker 2: want to post happy stories and that, and I'm like, no,
Speaker 2: like we're not happy. Why give this false thing to
Speaker 2: all our followers that were in this happy relationship and
Speaker 2: make these young girls think that like this is what
Speaker 2: a relationship should look like when it's not. That's not
Speaker 2: the truth.
Speaker 4: No, I couldn't agree more.
Speaker 5: And I think towards the end, like the last few months,
Speaker 5: I remember I.
Speaker 4: Just couldn't post him because I just felt.
Speaker 5: Like it was fake from my end, And I remember
Speaker 5: we spoke about it. He actually said to me like, oh,
Speaker 5: you haven't posted me for a while, like you I
Speaker 5: think maybe in his head he thought that I was
Speaker 5: trying to portray as single or something.
Speaker 4: But it wasn't that. It's that I just felt like
Speaker 4: it was really fake.
Speaker 5: Like I just felt like I can't pretend I'm happy
Speaker 5: because I am so like deeply depressed, Like I just
Speaker 5: don't feel happy. I just I'm crying every day. I
Speaker 5: just I feel lost. I don't know who I am.
Speaker 5: And it wasn't like his fault. It was just that
Speaker 5: I think I was just realizing that I we were
Speaker 5: just went right for each other, and that I was
Speaker 5: like lost in who I was, because when you're dating
Speaker 5: the wrong person, you just feel it's like confusing because
Speaker 5: you're like, I'm not even being my true's self and
Speaker 5: I don't feel like I can't even explain. It's like
Speaker 5: in the core of you, it just doesn't feel right.
Speaker 3: Speaking of Josh, he is in New yorka for Love
Speaker 3: Island at the moment.
Speaker 1: Can you tell us more about that?
Speaker 5: Well, he told me before because we were still together,
Speaker 5: and obviously the year prior we both participated in after
Speaker 5: party and then he actually went to the villa and
Speaker 5: was interviewing everyone before they went on, so he was
Speaker 5: already working on it. So in my understanding, I assume
Speaker 5: he's working on it again, but I have someone had
Speaker 5: messaged me like a journalist, saying, did you hear that
Speaker 5: he's going on as a contestant.
Speaker 4: And I went, no, he's not.
Speaker 5: I don't know way where we were really, so look,
Speaker 5: I don't know what you guys have heard, but I
Speaker 5: would love to know. No, I don't like obviously, I
Speaker 5: would be so happy for him because I know like
Speaker 5: and TV is like something that we both love to do.
Speaker 5: So yeah, I mean, I mean I would be shocked,
Speaker 5: only because I remember posting all my stories when they're
Speaker 5: saying something.
Speaker 4: Like, oh, I would do TV again.
Speaker 5: I wouldn't do Love Island Australia, but I'll do TV again.
Speaker 5: And then he thought that I meant I would do
Speaker 5: UK Love Iland something, and he thought it was quite disrespectful,
Speaker 5: which it probably was because I said it quite maybe
Speaker 5: a month or two after the breakup, so it probably
Speaker 5: was too soon and a bit insensitive of me.
Speaker 4: But yeah, I would be really shocked.
Speaker 5: If he did it, only because he got a little
Speaker 5: bit annoyed that he thought that I was saying I
Speaker 5: wanted to do it again.
Speaker 3: Let's just say hypothetically, Josh is on this season of
Speaker 3: Love Island, which is unconfirmed, but we I mean a
Speaker 3: journalist has contacted you about it. We've heard through the
Speaker 3: grape vine that he is on the show. How would
Speaker 3: that make you feel if you like see him like
Speaker 3: or hear about him finding love in there?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think he would actually make me feel really
Speaker 5: happy if he found someone.
Speaker 4: I think, like, as.
Speaker 5: Weird as it sounds, I almost want like I there's
Speaker 5: nothing more I want. Like when we first broke up,
Speaker 5: there was nothing more I could imagine. I was like,
Speaker 5: I cannot imagine you with someone else like that feeling.
Speaker 4: It makes me feel sick.
Speaker 5: Like you know, when you you're so like besotted by someone,
Speaker 5: You're like I, even though you know it's not right,
Speaker 5: You're like, I just I can't see you with someone else.
Speaker 5: I don't like you almost don't want them to be
Speaker 5: with someone else at like when you're in a relationship
Speaker 5: with them, obviously because they're yours. Now I've come to
Speaker 5: a place where I am hoping, I'm like, please, like
Speaker 5: I actually want him to be with someone else, just
Speaker 5: because I.
Speaker 4: Want him to be with the right person.
Speaker 5: I want him to be with someone that you know
Speaker 5: has the same love language as him. I want him
Speaker 5: to be with someone that is going to give him
Speaker 5: everything that I couldn't and he can give them, you know,
Speaker 5: and they work together and they're mesh and he's happy,
Speaker 5: you know, he's We both in that relationship done so
Speaker 5: much work on ourselves as partners. So I just think
Speaker 5: with the right person, he will be a really good partner.
Speaker 5: So I actually am like hoping, whether it's Love Island
Speaker 5: or not, I'm hoping he does. He if he doesn't
Speaker 5: have someone now, I hope.
Speaker 4: I hope he does soon.
Speaker 1: Will you watch the show one hundred percent? What as if?
Speaker 5: It will be a little bit weird, And because I
Speaker 5: know him so.
Speaker 4: Well, I'll be like, no, that's a lie.
Speaker 5: No no, no, no, no, no, Like there'll probably be
Speaker 5: parts where I'm like, absolutely not, but I will. It
Speaker 5: will be so entertaining for me. And because I'm at
Speaker 5: a place where there is literally no feelings anymore, like
Speaker 5: there is no, it's almost a yeah, it's it's bizarre
Speaker 5: because I spent four years in love with someone and
Speaker 5: now I am not.
Speaker 1: I'd be so jealous.
Speaker 5: Really yeah, no, I would find it. The only things
Speaker 5: that would be weird, I wouldn't. I would probably look
Speaker 5: away when he's kissing stuff, but I would still find
Speaker 5: it entertaining.
Speaker 4: I would. I don't know, it's that crazy. Do you
Speaker 4: just know that I'm one hundred percent over him.
Speaker 2: Let's jump straight back in. So, how long have you
Speaker 2: been single for? Now?
Speaker 3: Then?
Speaker 4: Okay, so.
Speaker 5: I think it was April we broke up, so May, June, July, August, September,
Speaker 5: like five yeah, five almost six figs gone really quick,
Speaker 5: but we didn't announce it straight away.
Speaker 1: How long did you wait?
Speaker 4: It was over a month.
Speaker 5: I'm pretty sure it was, like and I was towards
Speaker 5: I remember saying like I had my I had it
Speaker 5: ready to go.
Speaker 4: I was like, I just wanted it to be one
Speaker 4: hundred percent done.
Speaker 5: I want people to stop asking me in person or
Speaker 5: stop messaging me.
Speaker 4: Why has Josh not.
Speaker 5: Been on your stories? Why are you in Bali with
Speaker 5: your friends without him? Like where's Josh? And I'm like,
Speaker 5: oh my god, like leave me alone? So and also
Speaker 5: I felt awkward every time. I I don't like lying.
Speaker 4: So when people at events and stuff like if we
Speaker 4: Josh today, yeah I don't know, like you, I was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: he's at home from I don't know.
Speaker 5: And also it's like, as silly as it is, it's
Speaker 5: another step of the breakup. When you have a public relationship,
Speaker 5: you have to consider that because I mean, we could
Speaker 5: have just not told anyone, but then we also kind
Speaker 5: of owe it to everyone because we are so public,
Speaker 5: so you kind of do need to if you're going
Speaker 5: to update them with every other aspect, you need to
Speaker 5: kind of let people know. Like by the way this
Speaker 5: is ended, like like, I it's crazy that I have
Speaker 5: to tell you guys, but it's that's the reality of it.
Speaker 3: Did you feel relieved when you finally got to put
Speaker 3: that post up, just kind of like cementing the fact
Speaker 3: that you were once again single.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think it was more like, oh, okay, now
Speaker 5: everything is one hundred percent, like there's not really any
Speaker 5: turning back. Like this is like because I think before
Speaker 5: you kind of make it public, it's like almost when
Speaker 5: you tell your group of friends that you've gone through
Speaker 5: the breakup, there is still that part that's like, well,
Speaker 5: maybe I can still go back, like maybe because you
Speaker 5: don't want to go too much back and forth, like guys,
Speaker 5: we broke up, No, we didn't, we broke up.
Speaker 4: We didn't.
Speaker 5: So when you make it so like public, it's like
Speaker 5: telling it's like telling all your friends at school, like
Speaker 5: it's officially done. It's like telling your parents it's done.
Speaker 5: So yeah, it kind of cemented everything. I was like, Okay,
Speaker 5: there's no going back. This is the next chapter for me, and.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, did your dms flood with some guys messaging
Speaker 2: you after that?
Speaker 4: There was like a few. There was one that slid
Speaker 4: in that's still very much in my life.
Speaker 2: Is this the one that you may have soft launched
Speaker 2: the other day on Instagram with a little black love heart?
Speaker 4: Yes? Yeah, so whold on this?
Speaker 1: Are you in a new relationship?
Speaker 5: Look at the moment, I am committed to one hundred
Speaker 5: and percent one person.
Speaker 4: This is what I mean. I'm so loyal when I'm.
Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you. This is so exciting.
Speaker 2: You've had the exclusivity chat.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah, And I am like that kind of person.
Speaker 5: Like I've realized, like even when I was in Europe,
Speaker 5: I just I wasn't because I met him before I
Speaker 5: actually met him before I went to Europe. And that's
Speaker 5: another reason I just was like, I'm not I just
Speaker 5: I'm not interested in any Like there's when I've found
Speaker 5: something I really like I'm just like tunnel vision for it,
Speaker 5: and I just I yeah, so, you know, I did
Speaker 5: have my you know, single experience. But at the end
Speaker 5: of the day, I'm like, if it's something really good
Speaker 5: comes around and they are really suited to you, like,
Speaker 5: definitely pursue that and see where it goes. But yeah,
Speaker 5: I did worry because I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 5: I've just jumped into another relationship so soon. Am I
Speaker 5: actually ready for it? But I just I feel like
Speaker 5: I am. I feel like a.
Speaker 4: Different person, like I'm you know, I've grown up a
Speaker 4: lot since from the beginning of that other relationship.
Speaker 1: So how long has he been your boyfriend for?
Speaker 4: So we've been seeing each other?
Speaker 5: So we met about three weeks before I went to Europe.
Speaker 4: So I think we've been we've yeah, we've been.
Speaker 5: Like I've been pretty much committed to him for like
Speaker 5: three months.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Do you think that meeting him kind of pushed you
Speaker 3: over the edge to potentially break up with Josh?
Speaker 4: No, I met him before I went to Europe. Oh
Speaker 4: my god. No, No, yeah, I see what you're saying. No, No, no,
Speaker 4: I am no. No. Oh good.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think I've met him about maybe two months
Speaker 5: after we'd.
Speaker 4: Broken up, and then I saw him, Yeah, so h
Speaker 4: for another month.
Speaker 5: Yeah that's the right time. I'm so I met him
Speaker 5: two months after we broke up. Then I saw him
Speaker 5: for a month before I went to Europe. That I
Speaker 5: was in Europe for a month, and then I now
Speaker 5: I've been back home for a month. So yeah, we've
Speaker 5: been seeing each other for just over three months.
Speaker 1: Can we know who this guy is?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Does he have a name?
Speaker 5: No, he's not an instavoy, he's not like on socials,
Speaker 5: which is like amazing, And I did not well, I mean, whoever, Like,
Speaker 5: if the right person come up and they had a
Speaker 5: social media platform, I wouldn't like, I wouldn't be like,
Speaker 5: oh no, no no, but I definitely like, I think
Speaker 5: now I want to make sure my job is completely
Speaker 5: different to my partner. I want to make sure our
Speaker 5: lives are completely different. I want to have completely different
Speaker 5: schedules so we're not like on top of each other.
Speaker 5: And yeah, yeah, so where we have completely and completely
Speaker 5: different lives.
Speaker 3: Now it makes sense why you don't care that Josh
Speaker 3: could potentially be on Love Island. Now it's all making
Speaker 3: sense because I was like, surely she can't be okay
Speaker 3: with this.
Speaker 2: I was thinking if he does go on there, that'd
Speaker 2: be the perfect time to hard launch your boyfriend.
Speaker 1: Now that's your publicist.
Speaker 2: Perfect.
Speaker 4: Yeah, he's like, so is a timeline? This will be
Speaker 4: really good.
Speaker 5: I think he is a lot more private as well,
Speaker 5: so I'm probably going to.
Speaker 4: Keep him a little bit incognito.
Speaker 3: But are you thinking of a hard launch, because I
Speaker 3: mean we did see the soft launch.
Speaker 1: Is there going to be a hard launch soon?
Speaker 4: I think I need to.
Speaker 5: I mean, I one hundred of aercent see of future
Speaker 5: with this person. Like, I'm like, I have the best
Speaker 5: feeling about it, so.
Speaker 4: But I yeah, and I get.
Speaker 5: So excited because a part of me is like keep
Speaker 5: it private, Amelia, and then another part's like, ah, so
Speaker 5: I don't.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm like, maybe I'll just keep posting like sunrise
Speaker 5: pics of.
Speaker 4: His back.
Speaker 1: For now. How old is he?
Speaker 5: He's twenty seven, I'm twenty six. I'm twenty six, so
Speaker 5: we're pretty much the same age.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Nice, that's good. Oh, I'm happy for you can tell
Speaker 2: how bubbly and how excited you get when you talk
Speaker 2: about it. It's cute.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I can.
Speaker 3: I can tell that you're really happy. It's beautiful to see.
Speaker 4: Oh you're so cute. Yeah, I'm really really happy.
Speaker 5: But you know what, I would have been happy with
Speaker 5: or without, like I was already. I think in myself
Speaker 5: I'm happier. Me trying to like overcompensate. I'm like, guys,
Speaker 5: I haven't.
Speaker 4: Rived on to Greek.
Speaker 5: I think there's a bit of guilt for me. I
Speaker 5: don't know why, but I just feel a little bit like, Oh.
Speaker 5: I think there always is that kind of feeling when
Speaker 5: you've you know, moved on.
Speaker 3: I feel like after a breakup, you're not really looking
Speaker 3: to meet the one, and I guess that's like the
Speaker 3: that's when everyone says you meet them when you're not looking.
Speaker 3: So it kind of makes sense that you would have
Speaker 3: met someone who's amazing and you know, you guys are
Speaker 3: super compatible. It makes sense to me, And I don't
Speaker 3: think you should feel guilty about it.
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I know, I know. I always I'm
Speaker 4: always going like this back and forth. I'm like, oh, yah,
Speaker 4: that's great.
Speaker 2: O no, no, no, naturally, what are his love languages?
Speaker 5: I think they are words about for me, So that's
Speaker 5: my top one as well. Then it would be quality
Speaker 5: time or maybe it's quality time first, then I think
Speaker 5: access service, physical touch, and the last one would be gifts.
Speaker 2: So it's ticking your boxes and for what you look for.
Speaker 5: So no praises for me, gives and I ah, no,
Speaker 5: gifts is my last one as well, So it actually
Speaker 5: we work very well together.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm so happy for you.
Speaker 3: Look really truly happy, and I guess that's all we
Speaker 3: can want, you know, for our friends. So it's beautiful
Speaker 3: to see you absolutely glowing. Where do you see yourself
Speaker 3: like in the next few years, Like, do you think
Speaker 3: that this guy is the one?
Speaker 4: I hope. So I think in the next few years.
Speaker 4: It's conflicting for me because I really want to focus
Speaker 4: on work.
Speaker 5: I want to focus on creating my own business. I
Speaker 5: want to focus on doing all these endeavors that I
Speaker 5: want to work. So I mean, at the end of
Speaker 5: the day, I don't think a partner distraction or anything.
Speaker 5: I think they can compent your life. But I think
Speaker 5: in terms of my mindset at the moment, I'm definitely
Speaker 5: like so grateful that I've met someone incredible, but I
Speaker 5: do want to I am very like in my mind
Speaker 5: right now business like almost money focused.
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, what can I do to set myself
Speaker 4: up in the future.
Speaker 5: So right now I have a feeling the next few
Speaker 5: years are going to be my hustling years.
Speaker 4: That will come along with an amazing partner. So hopefully
Speaker 4: we'll see.
Speaker 5: So the next few years I think definitely business orientated,
Speaker 5: Like I'm I want to have my own business, I
Speaker 5: want to do this, I want to do that.
Speaker 4: So yeah, definitely work is my in my goggles.
Speaker 3: Well, we are supporting you here it where's your head at.
Speaker 3: We've absolutely loved chatting to you. Thank you so much
Speaker 3: for sharing all of your exciting news with us, Like
Speaker 3: we genuinely are so happy for you, and we can't
Speaker 3: wait to see what happens in the future with you,
Speaker 3: with your businesses, with your relationship.
Speaker 1: We can't wait for the hard launch. Lots of exciting things,
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 4: Thank you guys so much for having me. It was like,
Speaker 4: this is like my favorite podcast I've ever done. It
Speaker 4: was so much fun.
Speaker 5: Bye guys, Bye,