WEBVTT - IS YOUR HANGXIETY THIS BAD ? 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:03.880 Matt, you are looking absolutely glowing today. What's your secret? 0:00:04.040 --> 0:00:06.880 Well, Anna, I've been using this new hydrating tanning miss 0:00:06.960 --> 0:00:09.799 called Goldie b. We're two ease. I have to check 0:00:09.840 --> 0:00:10.080 it out. 0:00:10.119 --> 0:00:11.080 I've never heard of it. 0:00:12.000 --> 0:00:13.119 Go to their instagram. 0:00:13.720 --> 0:00:16.200 I want the fairy Tale, I want the Prince Charming 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:17.919 she how. 0:00:17.800 --> 0:00:20.840 Do I put this? Isn't a fan of my kissing style. 0:00:21.880 --> 0:00:24.680 Boyfriend and girlfriend for about twelve hours. He's in a 0:00:24.720 --> 0:00:27.400 trash bit. He's non recyclable. Catching her laugh. 0:00:28.720 --> 0:00:33.160 I love being love, I love love. People do dumb shit. 0:00:38.560 --> 0:00:40.959 Where's Your Head At is a podcast that talks all 0:00:41.040 --> 0:00:46.360 things relationships, breakups, reality TV, trending shows, and everything in between. 0:00:46.640 --> 0:00:49.360 This is your new go to destination for laughs, gossip, 0:00:49.520 --> 0:00:52.960 intimate details, advice, and much more. 0:00:55.760 --> 0:00:58.480 Good All morning everyone, Hi man. 0:00:58.560 --> 0:01:01.120 Morning Anna. We're actually I haven't been in the studio 0:01:01.160 --> 0:01:03.000 for We say that every time, but this time we 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:05.160 actually haven't been for a while. Now. 0:01:05.360 --> 0:01:07.600 Well, you've been on the Gold Coast for three weeks, 0:01:07.800 --> 0:01:10.520 so this is like the longest time I haven't seen you. 0:01:10.640 --> 0:01:12.279 It has been a while, hasn't been a while. 0:01:13.400 --> 0:01:16.160 The last time I saw you was at Glamour on 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:20.040 the Grid, which we're going to talk about because good 0:01:20.080 --> 0:01:24.720 night a great night, but a lot of things have 0:01:24.840 --> 0:01:28.480 come out and unfolded, and we're going to address absolutely 0:01:28.520 --> 0:01:31.720 everything because I think it's only right, and we've said 0:01:32.600 --> 0:01:35.160 that we just want to be super open with our 0:01:35.200 --> 0:01:39.399 audience and just be real and kind of just share 0:01:39.440 --> 0:01:41.199 what's going on in our lives. 0:01:40.959 --> 0:01:42.720 And like explain actually what happened. 0:01:43.080 --> 0:01:45.360 So, guys, I'm looking at Matt right now. He has 0:01:45.440 --> 0:01:47.720 grown a full homeless man beard. 0:01:48.760 --> 0:01:50.600 He and the flanny doesn't help you. 0:01:50.920 --> 0:01:53.400 You look like a different person. How are you doing. 0:01:54.160 --> 0:01:55.760 I'm not going to lie. I'm in a pretty bad 0:01:55.800 --> 0:02:02.680 place mentally, Like it's just I don't know, like look 0:02:02.760 --> 0:02:06.400 like it's just more embarrassed than anything, like and it's 0:02:06.480 --> 0:02:10.480 just taken a strain on like everyone around me. Like 0:02:11.000 --> 0:02:15.560 I'll go into more details later, but like, yeah, I'm exhausted, 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:19.400 I'm drained. It's just something that's like to me, was 0:02:19.840 --> 0:02:21.480 and I get what I did and I'll explain, like 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:24.040 I get what I did was wrong. Yeah, it's just exhausting. 0:02:24.120 --> 0:02:25.200 We're just working through it. 0:02:25.600 --> 0:02:25.960 Yeah. 0:02:26.760 --> 0:02:28.760 Yeah, I've actually forgot my shaver up on the Gold Coast. 0:02:28.800 --> 0:02:29.520 I left in my car. 0:02:29.760 --> 0:02:30.560 Is that what happened. 0:02:30.639 --> 0:02:32.639 Yeah, and I got in last fight at like one am, 0:02:32.800 --> 0:02:34.040 so I didn't get a chance to shave. 0:02:34.480 --> 0:02:34.799 Yeah. 0:02:34.840 --> 0:02:39.239 So basically Matt has been planning to go to the 0:02:39.240 --> 0:02:41.480 Gold Coast for a while before all of this kind 0:02:41.520 --> 0:02:42.720 of happened, because you. 0:02:42.800 --> 0:02:45.640 Well, my intention was to go straight from with Tammy 0:02:45.800 --> 0:02:47.400 from the hotel and then I. 0:02:47.360 --> 0:02:49.399 Wasn't going to come back from Glamor on the Ground. 0:02:49.200 --> 0:02:50.359 Lamber on the Grid. I was going to get a 0:02:50.400 --> 0:02:53.360 job up there and I was gonna the plan was 0:02:53.400 --> 0:02:55.440 for a week hopefully I had some stuff lined up, 0:02:56.520 --> 0:02:58.600 and then everything unfolded over the weekend, so sort of 0:02:58.639 --> 0:03:00.440 didn't get a chance to do that sort stuff. Everything 0:03:00.440 --> 0:03:03.520 on pause, just to you know, we just had to 0:03:04.080 --> 0:03:04.959 work through it together. 0:03:05.320 --> 0:03:09.240 So Matt has always planned to go to the Gold 0:03:09.240 --> 0:03:11.480 Coast for a couple of weeks, get settled in there, 0:03:12.680 --> 0:03:17.240 and then everything kind of unfolded. But we had pre 0:03:17.360 --> 0:03:20.440 recorded some episodes, so that's why we haven't addressed anything. 0:03:20.680 --> 0:03:24.679 And we also didn't put out an episode not last week, 0:03:24.760 --> 0:03:28.960 but the week before because we were just we just 0:03:29.000 --> 0:03:30.760 felt like the best thing to do was to take 0:03:30.760 --> 0:03:34.519 a break. But I think we should talk about the 0:03:34.560 --> 0:03:36.760 whole night, which was Glamored on the Grid. 0:03:37.280 --> 0:03:38.560 Well, it was a fun night. I had a lot 0:03:38.560 --> 0:03:38.839 of fun. 0:03:38.960 --> 0:03:41.080 It was a great night. So let's I mean, let's 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:42.440 start from the start, shall we. 0:03:43.360 --> 0:03:45.960 I Yeah, I really enjoyed it. We get dressed up. 0:03:45.960 --> 0:03:47.840 I was getting dressed up every year for it or 0:03:47.880 --> 0:03:51.200 a nice suit. Had. My inspo was Chris Hamsworth from 0:03:51.200 --> 0:03:54.360 the Oscars. I think I didn't nail it quite as 0:03:54.400 --> 0:03:56.240 well as him, but I did. I did pretty well. 0:03:56.240 --> 0:03:57.320 He did good. He did good. 0:03:57.760 --> 0:04:00.560 He looked gorgeous, stunning, beautiful, and that tre loved that 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:01.240 dress on her. 0:04:01.600 --> 0:04:04.560 No. What's funny though, is like we so for the 0:04:04.600 --> 0:04:06.520 past two years we've went to Glamor on the Grid 0:04:06.520 --> 0:04:09.920 together and we've always said number one, I could never 0:04:09.920 --> 0:04:12.320 get Michael an invite. But this year he finally got 0:04:12.360 --> 0:04:14.400 an invite. So I was so excited about that. 0:04:14.600 --> 0:04:17.760 And I finally got to take my partner, my fiance. Yeah. Fun. 0:04:17.839 --> 0:04:21.279 We had always said for so long, imagine us going 0:04:21.839 --> 0:04:23.680 to Glamor on the Grid as a four with both 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:25.599 of our partners, Like how fun would that be? 0:04:25.800 --> 0:04:27.279 And finally we got to do it. So that was 0:04:27.320 --> 0:04:27.680 a tick. 0:04:27.880 --> 0:04:30.680 It was so much fun. Yeah, I had a lot 0:04:30.720 --> 0:04:32.360 of fun. You have fun there every year, and I, 0:04:32.520 --> 0:04:34.080 like you said, it was a lot more fun being 0:04:34.080 --> 0:04:36.520 there with our partners. I think that we all bonded 0:04:36.560 --> 0:04:39.640 over a lot of champagne and a lot of laughs, 0:04:39.680 --> 0:04:41.080 and I think we all came a bit closer. 0:04:41.440 --> 0:04:44.039 Yeah, No, it was nice. We had lots of DNMS. 0:04:43.680 --> 0:04:46.120 And ended up going across to the pub afterwards. 0:04:46.279 --> 0:04:48.160 We did. We got to Middle Park Hotel. 0:04:48.680 --> 0:04:50.320 I had great chats there. 0:04:51.040 --> 0:04:54.279 We all kind of got really deep opened up. This 0:04:54.320 --> 0:04:57.080 is when I knew we were really drunk. So I 0:04:57.120 --> 0:05:01.560 my Glamor on the Grid outfit was this beautiful black 0:05:01.839 --> 0:05:05.040 gown from a lin lacal and I had this cape 0:05:05.240 --> 0:05:09.279 that was massive. It was literally the size of a quilt. 0:05:09.920 --> 0:05:14.160 And the four of us, four grown adults, somehow managed 0:05:14.320 --> 0:05:16.360 to forget my cape. 0:05:16.440 --> 0:05:19.039 And that's when you know that you're really dry. 0:05:19.120 --> 0:05:20.600 Did you go back and get it? 0:05:20.839 --> 0:05:23.159 Well, the day after Glamor in the Grid I was 0:05:23.160 --> 0:05:26.880 in a very bad place. I was vomiting all day, 0:05:27.800 --> 0:05:30.320 but Michael thankfully went back and got it and he 0:05:30.400 --> 0:05:31.800 was like, hey, is there a cape here? 0:05:31.880 --> 0:05:34.960 And they're like, why don you say that there actually is? 0:05:35.120 --> 0:05:37.480 The next morning as well, I took a bite of 0:05:37.480 --> 0:05:40.200 my we got room saistic good bite of my brecky burger, 0:05:40.240 --> 0:05:41.840 and I literally got up and ran to the but 0:05:41.880 --> 0:05:43.400 I didn't even make it to the toilet. I just 0:05:43.480 --> 0:05:46.400 projectiled across the whole bathroom. 0:05:46.640 --> 0:05:49.080 Are you kidding? Nah, you didn't make the toilet. 0:05:49.080 --> 0:05:51.520 And it was in the bath, it was on the floor, 0:05:51.520 --> 0:05:53.039 on the walls. I took wipe it down as best 0:05:53.040 --> 0:05:55.159 I could, but I was pretty I was fucking so 0:05:55.279 --> 0:05:55.719 hung over the. 0:05:55.720 --> 0:05:59.119 Next day, so we basically left my cape at middle 0:05:59.120 --> 0:06:02.720 Park Hotel and then we went back to yours and 0:06:02.760 --> 0:06:06.640 Tammy's hotel room at Crown. We kind of partied on. 0:06:06.960 --> 0:06:10.680 We were popping bottles of champagne. Things were getting like, 0:06:10.839 --> 0:06:13.680 you know, fun. Michael was saying, like Tammy and I 0:06:13.720 --> 0:06:16.440 were like hugging on the couch, just like talking shit, 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:17.400 like you know, it. 0:06:17.320 --> 0:06:18.279 Was Michael and I were talking. 0:06:18.640 --> 0:06:21.599 You guys were talking shit. I'm my memory is very 0:06:21.680 --> 0:06:24.680 hazy from all of that. And then I think it 0:06:24.720 --> 0:06:27.680 got to about three am, and Michael was like, we 0:06:27.720 --> 0:06:30.240 need to go, and I was going to be. 0:06:30.720 --> 0:06:32.080 Sick as a dog tomorrow. 0:06:33.279 --> 0:06:37.960 And we left and Michael said that as we were 0:06:38.080 --> 0:06:43.760 leaving you were popping open another another bottle of champagne, 0:06:45.320 --> 0:06:47.240 and then there was a message that was sent. 0:06:47.560 --> 0:06:49.039 So do you want to take us through that? 0:06:49.720 --> 0:06:56.120 Yeah, so I you can take it back to like, well, honestly, 0:06:56.240 --> 0:07:00.359 I'm not making excuses, but I don't fully remember sending 0:07:00.440 --> 0:07:02.440 any message. I know that sounds bad. 0:07:02.320 --> 0:07:05.640 But it doesn't sound bad because Michael was like when 0:07:05.640 --> 0:07:08.360 it came out, Michael was like, there's no way Matt 0:07:08.400 --> 0:07:11.880 would remember sending that because he was popping another bottle. 0:07:11.600 --> 0:07:14.040 When we were leaving. Anyway, it were not you know, 0:07:14.240 --> 0:07:15.040 not making excuses. 0:07:15.160 --> 0:07:19.960 Yeah, okay, So what happened was I saw I messaged 0:07:20.000 --> 0:07:21.600 a girl and I asked her if she was single. 0:07:22.000 --> 0:07:25.000 But the story behind it is my mate showed me 0:07:25.040 --> 0:07:27.400 her and he said, your sister and her follow each 0:07:27.440 --> 0:07:29.240 other and she follows you. Do you know her? And 0:07:29.240 --> 0:07:30.160 then he goes, look, do you reckon? 0:07:30.160 --> 0:07:30.240 You? 0:07:30.240 --> 0:07:34.040 Could? You could message her for me and you know, 0:07:34.080 --> 0:07:35.600 put in a good word and tell her to message me. 0:07:35.640 --> 0:07:37.960 And I was like, nah, man, like that's not I'm 0:07:38.000 --> 0:07:39.280 not going to do that for you, and. 0:07:39.200 --> 0:07:40.080 He I'm engaged. 0:07:40.240 --> 0:07:41.960 Yeah, I mean, oh yeah, I just don't it's not 0:07:42.000 --> 0:07:43.720 what it's not what I wanted to do and then 0:07:44.200 --> 0:07:46.840 this is cringe. But he did say use your blue tick, 0:07:46.920 --> 0:07:49.160 she'll message you back, and I was like, nah, man, 0:07:49.160 --> 0:07:51.880 I'm not going to do that. And then I ended 0:07:51.960 --> 0:07:53.720 up doing that when I was fucked off my head 0:07:53.760 --> 0:07:56.800 at like three am, pissed. As waking up the next day, 0:07:57.280 --> 0:08:00.760 I realized that that is not a good idea. It's 0:08:00.800 --> 0:08:05.880 embarrassing for my fiance. It's embarrassing to my family, it's 0:08:05.920 --> 0:08:08.960 embarrassing to my friends, it's embarrassing to her family, her friends. 0:08:09.560 --> 0:08:11.640 Most of all, is embarrassing to the relationship. Like I 0:08:11.680 --> 0:08:13.960 don't want to be someone in a relationship that does 0:08:14.280 --> 0:08:16.480 stuff like that, Like I'm not that sort of person, 0:08:16.680 --> 0:08:19.120 Like I don't do stuff like that. I think at 0:08:19.120 --> 0:08:24.120 the moment, I did it because I was pissed. I 0:08:24.120 --> 0:08:25.520 know it's not an excuse, and I'm not trying to 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:27.200 make it any excuse. But the moment something like this 0:08:27.280 --> 0:08:29.760 came out, they just jumped on it and they were 0:08:29.800 --> 0:08:32.280 just like, oh, he's like this, This is like you know, 0:08:32.320 --> 0:08:34.240 I mean, cheat all this sort of stuff. But that's 0:08:34.320 --> 0:08:37.680 not what happened. And that's what has really like made 0:08:37.720 --> 0:08:41.880 me frustrated with it all because I did live did 0:08:41.920 --> 0:08:44.080 stay quiet on socials about it. I didn't think that 0:08:44.120 --> 0:08:46.760 it was worth addressing in that way, so I kept 0:08:46.800 --> 0:08:48.080 it quiet because I wanted to do it like this 0:08:48.120 --> 0:08:51.880 where I could actually talk raw and actually talk about it. 0:08:53.000 --> 0:08:56.800 But yeah, I think that I'm not making excuses. It 0:08:56.800 --> 0:08:58.640 was the wrong thing to do, but I feel like, yeah, 0:08:58.720 --> 0:09:02.160 it's embarrassed Tammy. It's embarrassed to me, it's embarrassed relationship. 0:09:02.640 --> 0:09:04.520 Yeah. I mean, I'm not gonna lie. 0:09:05.040 --> 0:09:09.280 It was very triggering to me because obviously we had 0:09:09.320 --> 0:09:12.080 just had this amazing night like two couples. It was 0:09:12.080 --> 0:09:15.000 a really fun night, and I know how in love 0:09:15.040 --> 0:09:19.400 you are with Tammy. So then I think I was like, Okay, 0:09:19.520 --> 0:09:22.679 well if Matt can do this, then Michael can do this. 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:26.280 And literally, for that whole week, like you know, I 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:27.280 was annoyed with you. 0:09:27.640 --> 0:09:31.040 Yeah, like just everyone was annoyed with me, Like yeah, 0:09:31.120 --> 0:09:35.160 my friends, my family, yeah, Tammy's family, friends, and I 0:09:35.200 --> 0:09:36.320 feel like I've let it more down. 0:09:36.640 --> 0:09:40.440 Yeah, I mean for that whole week after this happened, 0:09:40.640 --> 0:09:42.480 I was like to Michael, who are you texting? 0:09:42.640 --> 0:09:45.080 What are you doing? What are you doing on your phone? 0:09:45.600 --> 0:09:47.520 And I think that's my own insecurities, and I'm not 0:09:47.520 --> 0:09:52.360 projecting that onto you, but it is triggering. The way 0:09:52.400 --> 0:09:55.240 it came out, it didn't look good. It was a 0:09:55.280 --> 0:09:58.680 three am message, so obviously we had left the hotel room, 0:09:58.720 --> 0:10:01.120 and then Tammy went on her phone, you went on 0:10:01.160 --> 0:10:04.760 your phone, and somewhere in between that the message was sent. 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:09.960 But I think context is really important. So I think 0:10:10.000 --> 0:10:12.800 that you should read out the rest of the messages 0:10:12.840 --> 0:10:15.079 because I think if someone is going to put out 0:10:15.440 --> 0:10:19.840 one section of a message thread, I think the rest 0:10:19.880 --> 0:10:22.080 of the messages are really vital. 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:27.640 Okay, So then she asked me why I think so. 0:10:27.960 --> 0:10:30.559 She said, you still Tammy, and I said yes, because 0:10:30.600 --> 0:10:32.280 I don't. I'm not interested in this girl. So I 0:10:32.360 --> 0:10:35.040 said yes, And then she goes, why the message is then, 0:10:35.160 --> 0:10:37.160 and I said, my friend Dale saw you while we 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:40.240 were out. Was trying to help a friend friend haha. 0:10:40.400 --> 0:10:43.160 But I will let him down gently. She goes, Oh, say, 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:45.080 hope he finds the one. I said, so do I 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:48.960 The hunt continues. She goes, I've got a friend. I said, Okay, 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:50.959 send through your friend's instant and I'll get him to 0:10:51.000 --> 0:10:53.560 message her. She sent the name. I said, thank you 0:10:53.600 --> 0:10:56.400 for the help. She love heart reacted to that, and 0:10:56.559 --> 0:11:00.000 she goes, this was this one was scouted by Love Island. 0:11:00.080 --> 0:11:02.240 Do your magic, And I said, I'll try my best. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:06.560 Yeah, so look Black, Look, I know. 0:11:07.240 --> 0:11:09.600 I think this is a huge learning curve for you, 0:11:09.679 --> 0:11:14.280 Like you and me have had many conversations in the 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:18.040 past three weeks since this has happened, and like there 0:11:18.160 --> 0:11:21.679 just should be really no contact with anyone, even if 0:11:21.679 --> 0:11:24.080 it's for your friend. There should be no contact with 0:11:24.160 --> 0:11:27.840 anyone who isn't your fiance or who isn't a friend 0:11:27.960 --> 0:11:29.960 or a family member. And I think that's been a 0:11:29.960 --> 0:11:32.400 big lesson for you that you've said to me. Like 0:11:32.760 --> 0:11:35.319 Matt even said to me, he was like, even if 0:11:35.360 --> 0:11:37.840 we have guests on the show, like on where's your 0:11:37.880 --> 0:11:40.800 head at, I'm not messaging anyone else. 0:11:40.960 --> 0:11:42.960 Like I have learned my lesson. 0:11:42.800 --> 0:11:44.960 Like everything can be taken out of context. 0:11:45.280 --> 0:11:47.600 Everything can be taken out of context. And it's still 0:11:47.840 --> 0:11:50.360 like you are still responsible for sending that message at 0:11:50.400 --> 0:11:54.319 three am, and we are definitely not saying that that 0:11:54.360 --> 0:11:55.360 message was okay. 0:11:55.440 --> 0:11:57.360 And you know that that message is not okay. 0:11:57.440 --> 0:11:58.319 It's fucking stupid. 0:11:58.600 --> 0:12:02.760 It's stupid, it's dumb, it's it happened when you know, 0:12:03.280 --> 0:12:07.320 you were like really intoxicated. And I think that's silly 0:12:07.360 --> 0:12:10.480 as well. And I just think it was unnecessary and 0:12:11.160 --> 0:12:13.440 we all wish it didn't happen, but it did. And 0:12:13.480 --> 0:12:19.560 you're human and you know unmntionately things like you're not perfect, yeah. 0:12:19.360 --> 0:12:21.920 And I don't. I never claim to be, you know 0:12:21.960 --> 0:12:24.640 me though, I literally have an open phone policy with Tammy, 0:12:24.720 --> 0:12:26.280 Like she can go through my phone whenever she wants. 0:12:26.280 --> 0:12:28.240 I don't hide anything from her. I don't hide messages 0:12:28.280 --> 0:12:29.959 from her, like I literally would just sit on my 0:12:29.960 --> 0:12:32.360 phone front like I don't hide anything from her, Like 0:12:32.400 --> 0:12:34.480 I've never done anything like this. I wouldn't do it again, 0:12:34.600 --> 0:12:37.920 Like it's not me And I just think that, yeat, 0:12:38.080 --> 0:12:42.800 Like I made a mistake, like you said, No one's perfect. Yeah, 0:12:42.920 --> 0:12:46.640 I'm just gonna now have to, you know, make good 0:12:46.679 --> 0:12:48.959 of what I've done and be better. I've always said 0:12:48.960 --> 0:12:50.320 I want to be a better person, and I learned 0:12:50.320 --> 0:12:50.920 from my mistake. 0:12:51.480 --> 0:12:55.960 Yeah. 0:12:56.200 --> 0:12:57.800 Like I said before, I haven't been on social media 0:12:57.880 --> 0:13:01.560 much at the moment. I've had friends reach out to me, 0:13:03.160 --> 0:13:05.160 I haven't messaged and back because I've just been in 0:13:05.200 --> 0:13:07.280 a really dark place and I've just been trying to 0:13:07.520 --> 0:13:11.960 work on things, and you know, like Tammy and I 0:13:11.960 --> 0:13:14.320 am both embarrassed by what happened. So I think now 0:13:14.360 --> 0:13:18.600 it's about just building that back and moving forward. 0:13:18.960 --> 0:13:19.960 Yeah. 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:25.160 I mean, as your friend, I know that you did 0:13:25.200 --> 0:13:27.320 the wrong thing, and I've made that crystal clue to you, 0:13:27.360 --> 0:13:30.080 but it doesn't mean that I'm still not worried about you. 0:13:31.480 --> 0:13:33.640 I think you have been in a really dark place 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:37.120 and you're not yourself at the moment, and that's okay. 0:13:37.280 --> 0:13:41.160 And I think, you know, what happened is very public 0:13:41.360 --> 0:13:44.400 and it's good. I think now that you're getting to 0:13:44.880 --> 0:13:47.840 address it and kind of talk about what happened and 0:13:47.880 --> 0:13:52.520 the intention behind it. And I think whether people choose 0:13:52.559 --> 0:13:55.640 to perceive you in a positive or negative way or 0:13:55.640 --> 0:13:58.240 whatever that is, that's totally their own prerogative. 0:13:58.320 --> 0:14:00.720 But I know that you're a good person. Your family 0:14:00.760 --> 0:14:01.840 knows that you're a good person. 0:14:02.000 --> 0:14:05.040 Tammy knows that you're a good person, and you know, 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:06.640 you guys can work through it. 0:14:07.280 --> 0:14:10.000 Yeah, it's nothing we can't work through. People are putting 0:14:10.040 --> 0:14:13.360 their own opinion on it and spinning it and commenting stuff, 0:14:13.400 --> 0:14:17.079 and it's like, look, they won't do it forever, Like, yeah, 0:14:17.120 --> 0:14:19.560 Tammy and I know what we have. We know that 0:14:20.840 --> 0:14:22.960 people do dumb shit, and. 0:14:22.960 --> 0:14:26.640 It's especially when they're drinking, yeah, which is it's so 0:14:26.880 --> 0:14:29.640 it's so interesting as well because like me and you 0:14:29.840 --> 0:14:33.560 for the longest time have not been drinking alcohol, like 0:14:33.720 --> 0:14:36.320 for the past year and a half, we have constantly 0:14:36.440 --> 0:14:39.880 if you're a listener of this podcast, the amount of 0:14:39.920 --> 0:14:42.000 times that Matt and I have harped on. 0:14:41.960 --> 0:14:43.880 About the fact that we're not drinking anymore. 0:14:44.640 --> 0:14:47.160 Silly things happen when we're drunk, Like we don't want 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:47.920 to do that anymore. 0:14:47.920 --> 0:14:48.720 We're growing up. 0:14:49.040 --> 0:14:51.280 And I have said that to Tammy that I'm not 0:14:51.280 --> 0:14:54.280 going to put myself in any position like that. Like 0:14:54.360 --> 0:14:56.640 we've spoken on here before about how we don't want 0:14:56.640 --> 0:14:59.320 to drink, and I think that like we weren't so 0:14:59.440 --> 0:15:03.280 open a experiences that happened while black we were drunk. 0:15:03.280 --> 0:15:04.360 Would just come in here and be I don't want 0:15:04.360 --> 0:15:07.880 to drink anymore. Like I had some experiences last year 0:15:08.000 --> 0:15:12.880 where like a you know, like yeah that I wasn't good. 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:13.920 Should I share? 0:15:14.280 --> 0:15:16.479 Yeah, I think you should. I think we're being more open. 0:15:16.560 --> 0:15:19.000 All right, Well, so I was drinking all day with 0:15:19.040 --> 0:15:23.680 my mates. I went home and I put, so what 0:15:23.720 --> 0:15:25.400 the our old house at the boys was. There was 0:15:25.440 --> 0:15:27.560 like a door and it had like a glass thing, 0:15:27.600 --> 0:15:30.320 and then I put my key. Well, I probably didn't 0:15:30.320 --> 0:15:31.680 even put my key in. I thought I put my 0:15:31.760 --> 0:15:33.640 key in, and I went to push the door because 0:15:33.680 --> 0:15:35.320 I was like, you'd turn the key and push it. 0:15:35.640 --> 0:15:37.640 And I pushed so hard I pushed myself through the 0:15:37.640 --> 0:15:40.840 glass panel of the window because you were so drunk. 0:15:40.920 --> 0:15:42.760 I was so drunk and I fell and I had 0:15:42.800 --> 0:15:44.880 all cuts down my face, all down the side of 0:15:44.880 --> 0:15:47.440 my arm. I was like bleeding. And I woke up 0:15:47.560 --> 0:15:51.120 to four police officers like with their flashlights standing over 0:15:51.200 --> 0:15:54.400 me because my roommate's girlfriend had thought someone had broken 0:15:54.440 --> 0:15:58.280 in and called the police. And I have a police 0:15:58.320 --> 0:15:59.960 officer in my family, and she said, yeah, they would 0:15:59.960 --> 0:16:01.920 have thought it was a hot burglary because the burglar 0:16:02.000 --> 0:16:03.240 I was still in the house, so they would have 0:16:03.280 --> 0:16:07.080 rushed there and long behold, it was mine, stupid ass 0:16:07.240 --> 0:16:10.640 passed out in puol of blood and glass. And yeah, 0:16:10.720 --> 0:16:14.840 I realized then that like binge drinking isn't like And 0:16:14.920 --> 0:16:16.400 we'd come on the podcast, said I want to do it. 0:16:16.400 --> 0:16:18.880 There was another time at your thirtieth where I woke 0:16:19.000 --> 0:16:22.800 up on Gravel Street off Chapel Street in Melbourne. My 0:16:22.880 --> 0:16:25.360 phone had been stolen and I woke up and I 0:16:25.360 --> 0:16:27.080 had no idea where I was or what I was doing. 0:16:27.120 --> 0:16:30.320 I'd to hail a cab and get home. Yeah, so 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:32.000 there was a lot of stuff. There was some other 0:16:32.000 --> 0:16:34.080 stuff as well. I can't really remember, but just stopped 0:16:34.080 --> 0:16:35.760 me from wanting to be on stream. 0:16:35.920 --> 0:16:40.000 There was like key life events that happened where things 0:16:40.080 --> 0:16:42.800 got out of control and Matt would come to me 0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:45.040 and be like, I just don't want to do this anymore, 0:16:45.080 --> 0:16:47.280 Like I'm sick of this, Like I'm twenty eight or 0:16:47.280 --> 0:16:49.360 you're twenty eight, now I'm twenty eight. 0:16:49.720 --> 0:16:52.400 I don't want to keep doing this stupid stuff. 0:16:52.760 --> 0:16:55.520 And look, I just want to preface all of this 0:16:55.600 --> 0:17:01.240 conversation by saying we are not taking away from the 0:17:01.280 --> 0:17:02.920 fact that Matt should not have done this. 0:17:03.360 --> 0:17:04.680 We're not blaming alcohol. 0:17:05.160 --> 0:17:08.520 Matt completely takes full responsibility. 0:17:08.600 --> 0:17:09.320 But what we. 0:17:09.280 --> 0:17:14.919 Are saying is that this drinking can cause really stupid 0:17:15.200 --> 0:17:18.600 shit to happen that doesn't need to happen, Like. 0:17:18.680 --> 0:17:21.520 Yeah, And what I'm saying is I'm now like it's another. 0:17:21.240 --> 0:17:23.600 Life you're paying for a big time, big. 0:17:23.440 --> 0:17:26.080 Time Yeah, but it's another life experience that I need 0:17:26.119 --> 0:17:29.159 to realize that, like it isn't nothing good comes from that. 0:17:29.200 --> 0:17:32.760 And we've said that before. Like I watched an episode 0:17:32.760 --> 0:17:34.320 of How I Met Your Mother the other day. I'm 0:17:34.359 --> 0:17:36.840 watching that and it was the episode where nothing good 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:38.560 happens after two am. 0:17:38.680 --> 0:17:43.000 Literally, guys, nothing good happens after it happens after two three. 0:17:43.040 --> 0:17:46.360 I wish I left it to go to bed. It's 0:17:46.400 --> 0:17:49.240 two am. Just go to bed. And we're not like 0:17:49.359 --> 0:17:51.560 kids anymore. I'm not twenty one. I'm not like being 0:17:51.640 --> 0:17:54.560 drinking too like the am. Like it's not like I 0:17:54.600 --> 0:17:56.399 don't pull up the same way. I don't want to 0:17:56.400 --> 0:17:58.480 be doing that stuff anymore. And I know I can 0:17:58.520 --> 0:18:01.040 say that all I want and then I go into it. 0:18:01.080 --> 0:18:02.919 But it's hard in that moment when you're around that 0:18:02.920 --> 0:18:05.920 sort of like environment, and I want to be stronger. 0:18:05.960 --> 0:18:07.439 I want to be stronger that I don't do it, 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:09.399 and I'm going to try to find a stronger part 0:18:09.440 --> 0:18:09.600 of me. 0:18:10.160 --> 0:18:12.480 It does suck because, like it is a rare occasion 0:18:12.520 --> 0:18:15.280 that I get pretty drunk and I had a really 0:18:15.320 --> 0:18:17.359 fun night with you guys like me and I thought 0:18:17.440 --> 0:18:19.640 we all had a fun night, and it just sucks 0:18:20.080 --> 0:18:23.560 that this is like the takeaway, this whole scenario is 0:18:24.000 --> 0:18:27.200 one of the takeaways from it and tarnished all of it. 0:18:28.080 --> 0:18:30.959 But that wasn't the only one that did something stupid 0:18:31.000 --> 0:18:33.119 that night. Like I woke up the next morning and 0:18:33.160 --> 0:18:35.720 I just you know, when you wake up from being 0:18:35.920 --> 0:18:39.439 really drunk, I open my eyes and I immediately remember 0:18:39.480 --> 0:18:43.480 this scenario when we were actually at Glamor on the 0:18:43.480 --> 0:18:49.280