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Speaker 1: Apologie Production. I'm Mickey Fisher, and welcome to the Village

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Speaker 1: Crazy Lady. People are talking to me and they are

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Speaker 1: not physically in this room, so to just strap in

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Speaker 1: for that. Can't call me crazy, So I said it first.

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Speaker 1: Whoever's try to come through whatever messages need to come through, like,

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Speaker 1: just bring it on, Let's do it Crazy Crazy Crazy

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Speaker 1: the Village Crazy Lay Podcast. Hello, gorgeous legends, and welcome

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Speaker 1: to another episode of the Village Crazy Lady. Today. I

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Speaker 1: have a definite Village Crazy Lady in the room with

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Speaker 1: me or my beautiful auntie Allie Kay, who has come

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Speaker 1: on the podcast before, and we chatted about well, you

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Speaker 1: chatted about your experience like growing up in the church

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Speaker 1: and sort of realizing that you know, you had these

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Speaker 1: abilities and more that you just started to really learn

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Speaker 1: yourself and understand your intuition and that whole journey and experience,

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Speaker 1: and I know a lot of people were listening to

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Speaker 1: that and they learned so much from that. Today, I'm

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Speaker 1: so excited to chat because you recently how to hysterect me.

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Speaker 1: I did, and I really want to talk about one

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Speaker 1: like the journey of how you came to that decision

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Speaker 1: because obviously you're a spiritual person. You're a reiki teacher, practitioner, master,

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Speaker 1: and so you understand sort of like you've been on

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Speaker 1: the journey of healing it and understanding that part of

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Speaker 1: you and understanding what was sort of in that space.

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Speaker 1: You've done womb, spiral, womb healings, all of that kind

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Speaker 1: of thing, which is so fascinating, and I know even

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Speaker 1: for a lot of people, they assume that to have

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Speaker 1: then also I want to talk about because before you

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Speaker 1: I came over and did a healing and it was

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Speaker 1: like the main Oh my god, it was so farking wild.

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Speaker 1: I've got goosebumps just thinking about it, Like probably the

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Speaker 1: coolest because to me, it wasn't even a healing, it

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Speaker 1: was like a ritual. It was like a ceremony.

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Speaker 2: It was a ceremony.

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Speaker 1: It was a ceremony, and the journey of it was

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Speaker 1: so beautiful and so amazing. So I want to talk

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Speaker 1: how you got to going. All right, I'm done, let's

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Speaker 2: It's good out well, yeah, as you had said, you know,

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Speaker 2: I've done womb spiral, which was great, and womb healings,

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Speaker 2: and I guess, you know, for me that womb space

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Speaker 2: has always been a little bit problematic. I guess you'd say,

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Speaker 2: like i'd you know, as a teenager, I never had

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Speaker 2: regular periods. You know, I had to go through IVF

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Speaker 2: IVF for me, so I feel like it was great

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Speaker 2: But you know, my periods were never something that we're enjoyable,

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Speaker 2: not any periods enjoyable. But yeah, people can just go

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Speaker 2: don't have the PMT. And that was a real revelation

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Speaker 2: for me when I learned that, I was like, really, like,

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Speaker 2: that none of those things really helped my physical aspects

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Speaker 1: What do you think for some of the biggest things

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Speaker 1: that you learned, Like on that journey, how much I didn't.

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Speaker 2: Like myself and how much that lack of understanding of

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Speaker 2: more I released, the more I let go. That voice

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Speaker 2: And so that's when I kind of started investigating. I

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Speaker 1: It's almost like there's so much that I guess we

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Speaker 1: But I think people sometimes forget, especially when you're on

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Speaker 1: the spiritual journey and you're like in this world, you

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Speaker 1: forget that there's so much that can be, like the

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Speaker 1: physical side of things and the the evolutionary side of things,

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Speaker 1: you know, the ability to have a hysterectomy, Yeah, has

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Speaker 1: so much power in it also, as you said, getting

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Speaker 2: Yes, and for once actually saying this is what I

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Speaker 2: I've been told it's done. I know my body so well,

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Speaker 2: I know it's so intimately well now, Yeah, through all

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Speaker 2: from since when I've made the decision to have the hysterectomy.

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Speaker 2: And of course you know, I'm so impatient. I wanted

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Speaker 1: Like you're starting to get this done?

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Speaker 2: What I've done, Yeah, it's done. And you know, I

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Speaker 2: had to wait three months and that was the best

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Speaker 2: so much time to really release what I didn't need anymore,

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Speaker 2: shifting my womb space into my heart space and putting

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Speaker 2: all what needed to go into there. So when my

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Speaker 1: Wow, I love that. That's why I needed you to

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Speaker 1: come on so I can talk about it because for that, like,

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Speaker 1: always think, like, even when we're having this conversation, I

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Speaker 1: keep seeing the conversation that I've had with Lauren, the

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Speaker 1: Spirit Baby communicator who's come on. Yeah, and she said

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Speaker 1: that often, especially now, like babies are choosing to come

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Speaker 1: the relationship with you. Yes, you know, So then I

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and it's an in and it's it's having an

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Speaker 2: informed choice, isn't it. Like I did so much research

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Speaker 2: I knew that's exactly what I needed to do for

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Speaker 2: my body. I knew that that uters was now toxic

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Speaker 2: Saying, yeah, you're so close to menopause. You're so close

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Speaker 1: Okay, how long has it been now since you got

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Speaker 1: How do you feel? Amazing?

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Speaker 2: I don't know how often in life sometimes we get

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Speaker 2: I think for the first trips I probably cried every day,

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Speaker 1: Well, were the things that were coming up? Do you think.

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Speaker 2: Oh, it was so interesting really, pretty much straight after

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Speaker 2: I had the hysterectomy and I was doing raking on

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Speaker 2: it was not on the plan, life plan for mom

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and it's been really interesting watching her over these

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Speaker 1: But yeah, so I think you know that was and

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Speaker 1: Seriously, every time, every single time I do a healing,

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Speaker 2: was like they were just cheering me, going, yes, you're

433
00:23:19,640 --> 00:23:21,720
Speaker 2: doing this for the right reasons, and thank you for

434
00:23:21,761 --> 00:23:25,360
Speaker 2: releasing us from all of this as well, Like yeah,

435
00:23:25,360 --> 00:23:29,761
Speaker 2: I think, yeah, that that understanding. There's so much more

436
00:23:29,801 --> 00:23:33,600
Speaker 2: that's happening on so many different layers when we're doing

437
00:23:33,640 --> 00:23:34,600
Speaker 2: things for ourselves.

438
00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:38,721
Speaker 1: Yes, the choice, the doing things for ourselves. It's so interesting.

439
00:23:38,840 --> 00:23:41,801
Speaker 1: I've literally like almost forgotten and I love that we

440
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:44,400
Speaker 1: are doing this podcast and talking about all of this

441
00:23:44,521 --> 00:23:47,400
Speaker 1: now because in the last like five group healings that

442
00:23:47,441 --> 00:23:51,041
Speaker 1: I've done the same kind of thing. Especially for a

443
00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:54,001
Speaker 1: few weeks the same thing kept coming up and I

444
00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:57,120
Speaker 1: just am like, oh wow, okay, they were again just

445
00:23:57,120 --> 00:23:58,920
Speaker 1: like this needs to be shared, especially when you were

446
00:23:58,921 --> 00:24:04,200
Speaker 1: talking about your like female ancestors around you and like

447
00:24:04,281 --> 00:24:07,600
Speaker 1: how they was so soh the celebration of it, and

448
00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:11,001
Speaker 1: just the like, yes, yes, yes, you're making a decision

449
00:24:11,001 --> 00:24:16,680
Speaker 1: for yourself because they've been coming through so strongly lately

450
00:24:17,001 --> 00:24:19,801
Speaker 1: for people, and you're going to be feeling them, Like

451
00:24:19,961 --> 00:24:22,201
Speaker 1: for people listening to this, You're going to be feeling

452
00:24:22,281 --> 00:24:26,640
Speaker 1: these ancestors on your shoulders and it's going to feel

453
00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:30,481
Speaker 1: like they're constantly pushing you to make decisions for yourself

454
00:24:30,521 --> 00:24:33,521
Speaker 1: because they literally came through the other week and they

455
00:24:33,521 --> 00:24:37,761
Speaker 1: were like basically begging. They're like, please, please, please please.

456
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:39,880
Speaker 1: Do not get to the end of your life and

457
00:24:40,001 --> 00:24:44,080
Speaker 1: realize that you lived for everybody else except for yourself. Yeah,

458
00:24:44,160 --> 00:24:45,680
Speaker 1: do not get to the end of your life and

459
00:24:45,721 --> 00:24:48,880
Speaker 1: realize that you just people pleased and you said yes

460
00:24:48,921 --> 00:24:51,441
Speaker 1: when you wanted to say no. You stayed in relationships

461
00:24:51,481 --> 00:24:53,840
Speaker 1: because you felt like you had to, and you and

462
00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:56,240
Speaker 1: you lived because you were told that's how you were

463
00:24:56,281 --> 00:24:58,840
Speaker 1: supposed to live. Because they're like because you'll get to

464
00:24:58,880 --> 00:25:01,161
Speaker 1: the end of your life and you realize, like, none

465
00:25:01,241 --> 00:25:03,120
Speaker 1: of that fucking mattered, and what was the point it

466
00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:06,761
Speaker 1: was my life? Why was I living it? Because like

467
00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:10,641
Speaker 1: a lot of these women lived lives like that.

468
00:25:11,120 --> 00:25:13,920
Speaker 2: Oh, And I think there's just so much around that

469
00:25:13,961 --> 00:25:16,920
Speaker 2: womb space that needs to be released from women. And

470
00:25:16,961 --> 00:25:20,281
Speaker 2: I think especially when we get to my age as well,

471
00:25:20,360 --> 00:25:25,640
Speaker 2: where where our bodies are completely changing and there's such freedom,

472
00:25:25,961 --> 00:25:30,521
Speaker 2: like we're about to step into a whole different lifetime.

473
00:25:30,640 --> 00:25:34,601
Speaker 2: I feel like of freedom, like don't hold onto what

474
00:25:34,640 --> 00:25:37,920
Speaker 2: doesn't need to be there anymore. And just even that

475
00:25:38,001 --> 00:25:41,880
Speaker 2: connecting with your there's so much negativity I think around menopause,

476
00:25:41,921 --> 00:25:44,761
Speaker 2: and yeah, it sucks. There's things about perimenopause that make

477
00:25:44,801 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 2: life really tricky and hard. But I feel like the

478
00:25:47,561 --> 00:25:51,681
Speaker 2: more connected you can be with that space, then the

479
00:25:51,681 --> 00:25:54,281
Speaker 2: more understanding you'll have of your body and the less

480
00:25:54,321 --> 00:25:57,161
Speaker 2: fear you'll have. And that when you had Rosy rees

481
00:25:57,241 --> 00:26:00,281
Speaker 2: on and she was really connecting with your vagina, yes,

482
00:26:00,360 --> 00:26:02,561
Speaker 2: and connecting with that's oh what was it.

483
00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:06,080
Speaker 1: In the mirror? Yeah, in the mirror. Alie sent me

484
00:26:06,080 --> 00:26:10,120
Speaker 1: a photo of she's like not off her vagina but

485
00:26:10,241 --> 00:26:18,160
Speaker 1: she's like I'm like, she's like, I'm holding space all

486
00:26:20,360 --> 00:26:21,441
Speaker 1: and it was all these.

487
00:26:21,241 --> 00:26:25,201
Speaker 2: Things because I think you're investigating yourself, like you're understanding,

488
00:26:25,201 --> 00:26:27,640
Speaker 2: and so for me it was like wow, you know,

489
00:26:27,761 --> 00:26:29,961
Speaker 2: I guess so much of my upbringing in the church

490
00:26:30,120 --> 00:26:34,961
Speaker 2: was about such negativity around sexual awakening and sexual understanding

491
00:26:35,001 --> 00:26:38,281
Speaker 2: and about your vagina, and to me, it wasn't part

492
00:26:38,281 --> 00:26:40,920
Speaker 2: of my body, Like I had such disconnect with that

493
00:26:41,001 --> 00:26:43,561
Speaker 2: as well. Like it was like and when I did that,

494
00:26:43,600 --> 00:26:45,640
Speaker 2: it was like I couldn't stop crying. I was like,

495
00:26:45,801 --> 00:26:49,481
Speaker 2: oh my God, Like this is me. This is actually

496
00:26:49,600 --> 00:26:54,000
Speaker 2: all of me, my vagina, my uterus, my room space,

497
00:26:54,281 --> 00:26:57,080
Speaker 2: this is actually part of who I am and my soul.

498
00:26:57,160 --> 00:26:59,161
Speaker 2: And there's so much feeling in that. Like I think

499
00:26:59,201 --> 00:27:01,961
Speaker 2: I was so disconnected from that. There was no Yeah,

500
00:27:02,001 --> 00:27:05,521
Speaker 2: I just had pushed all of the feeling away from

501
00:27:05,561 --> 00:27:08,401
Speaker 2: my from my sexual being or just even being a vagina.

502
00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:11,080
Speaker 2: It was just too many bad experiences.

503
00:27:11,441 --> 00:27:14,001
Speaker 1: And I think, like even when you're talking about menopause

504
00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:17,121
Speaker 1: before and like obviously there's such a not a negative

505
00:27:17,201 --> 00:27:19,321
Speaker 1: conno tape because I think, you know, women are starting

506
00:27:19,360 --> 00:27:21,440
Speaker 1: to like own it a bit more and talk about

507
00:27:21,481 --> 00:27:25,721
Speaker 1: it God and a hundred percent thank God. But I

508
00:27:25,761 --> 00:27:30,161
Speaker 1: think like we are really needing to connect to these

509
00:27:30,160 --> 00:27:32,960
Speaker 1: parts of ourselves. And it starts from like, like you know,

510
00:27:33,001 --> 00:27:35,200
Speaker 1: we've spoken about it before in this podcast, where like

511
00:27:35,321 --> 00:27:38,920
Speaker 1: as kids going through you know, our cycles, and it

512
00:27:39,001 --> 00:27:42,600
Speaker 1: was always a shameful thing, Like God forbid anyone sees

513
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:44,680
Speaker 1: that you like got a tampon in your pocket, or

514
00:27:44,840 --> 00:27:47,761
Speaker 1: like you have your parage to hide everything.

515
00:27:48,721 --> 00:27:51,640
Speaker 2: Don't say anything, don't swim, don't say you're not swim

516
00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:52,201
Speaker 2: because you've got.

517
00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:55,720
Speaker 1: Your period or oh yeah, all of those things, and

518
00:27:55,801 --> 00:27:58,521
Speaker 1: like there's so much shame around these parts of ourselves.

519
00:27:58,561 --> 00:28:02,000
Speaker 1: And even like not even just the period, but just

520
00:28:02,041 --> 00:28:03,880
Speaker 1: one hundred percent when we were saying, like have just

521
00:28:04,041 --> 00:28:07,521
Speaker 1: having a vagina, I remember even like having pubes, for

522
00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:11,121
Speaker 1: God's sake, I remember like the amount of mental space

523
00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:14,680
Speaker 1: that my my pubes took up when I was a

524
00:28:14,721 --> 00:28:17,600
Speaker 1: teenager of like no one taught me what to do

525
00:28:17,681 --> 00:28:20,401
Speaker 1: with these things. But also like I've got to wear

526
00:28:20,561 --> 00:28:24,281
Speaker 1: swimmers that you know, like cut off half of my

527
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:28,760
Speaker 1: funny and like you can literally see everything, and like

528
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:31,161
Speaker 1: I can't go to like the swimming carnival with pubes

529
00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:33,080
Speaker 1: coming out, but no was telling me what to do

530
00:28:33,120 --> 00:28:34,960
Speaker 1: about these things, and also how much shame and I'm

531
00:28:35,001 --> 00:28:38,480
Speaker 1: gonna get bullied and like yeah, insay, no wonder we

532
00:28:38,561 --> 00:28:40,761
Speaker 1: have such a disconnect to that part of ourselves. And

533
00:28:40,801 --> 00:28:44,081
Speaker 1: I'm the same, Like even I still haven't even done it,

534
00:28:44,161 --> 00:28:46,561
Speaker 1: the like sitting in was gonna ask you if you've

535
00:28:46,561 --> 00:28:48,801
Speaker 1: done it yet, I've bitched out, No.

536
00:28:48,801 --> 00:28:51,281
Speaker 2: It's so good, Wiki, you need to do it. Honestly,

537
00:28:52,001 --> 00:28:56,361
Speaker 2: it's so It's so healing and so therapeutic and and

538
00:28:56,601 --> 00:29:00,761
Speaker 2: just makes you feel so connected and in tune with yourself.

539
00:29:00,801 --> 00:29:03,440
Speaker 2: And yeah, I just didn't realize how much of that

540
00:29:03,601 --> 00:29:06,561
Speaker 2: was just like literally separate part of me, Like you

541
00:29:06,801 --> 00:29:09,281
Speaker 2: like sat out here, not in here.

542
00:29:09,321 --> 00:29:09,961
Speaker 1: Because.

543
00:29:12,521 --> 00:29:15,281
Speaker 2: I'm putting to my womb space and vagina was not there.

544
00:29:15,441 --> 00:29:17,280
Speaker 1: So what we're talking about for everyone who's like, what

545
00:29:17,281 --> 00:29:20,841
Speaker 1: do you even mean like literally sitting in front of

546
00:29:20,841 --> 00:29:24,201
Speaker 1: a mirror, legs spread.

547
00:29:24,161 --> 00:29:29,081
Speaker 2: Looking at your vagina, caressing it, understanding it, seeing it

548
00:29:29,161 --> 00:29:32,361
Speaker 2: for what it is, feeling it and not like in

549
00:29:32,401 --> 00:29:36,921
Speaker 2: a sexual masturbation way. For me, it was really about

550
00:29:37,521 --> 00:29:40,841
Speaker 2: loving it and loving the experiences I've had with I

551
00:29:40,881 --> 00:29:43,001
Speaker 2: guess for me as a teenager, when it just felt

552
00:29:43,041 --> 00:29:47,081
Speaker 2: like such a negative thing a vagina at all, really,

553
00:29:47,721 --> 00:29:50,281
Speaker 2: and to have any yeah, I have any sexual feelings

554
00:29:50,361 --> 00:29:50,841
Speaker 2: at all.

555
00:29:51,161 --> 00:29:51,480
Speaker 1: Yeah.

556
00:29:51,521 --> 00:29:55,201
Speaker 2: So yeah, just really feeling that connection and that love

557
00:29:55,441 --> 00:29:59,681
Speaker 2: and being grateful for it, not being disconnected from it.

558
00:30:00,001 --> 00:30:02,161
Speaker 1: You said at the beginning, like a lot of the

559
00:30:02,201 --> 00:30:04,321
Speaker 1: feelings that were coming up in regards to your womb

560
00:30:04,361 --> 00:30:08,761
Speaker 1: space were around and not liking yourself. Oh yeah, How

561
00:30:08,761 --> 00:30:11,481
Speaker 1: different do you feel from like this time last year

562
00:30:11,521 --> 00:30:11,841
Speaker 1: to now?

563
00:30:11,881 --> 00:30:15,841
Speaker 2: Oh? Not a different person and not in a like Oh,

564
00:30:15,841 --> 00:30:18,321
Speaker 2: I'm so glad I left that old me behind because

565
00:30:18,761 --> 00:30:22,961
Speaker 2: I feel freer. Yeah, I feel freer. I feel Yeah,

566
00:30:23,041 --> 00:30:26,200
Speaker 2: I just feel lighter. I feel freer. I feel like

567
00:30:26,761 --> 00:30:29,720
Speaker 2: when these emotions, obviously stuff still comes up. That's just

568
00:30:30,401 --> 00:30:32,281
Speaker 2: what happens. You don't something to be free of it all.

569
00:30:32,961 --> 00:30:34,921
Speaker 2: But I feel like I can tap into that so

570
00:30:35,081 --> 00:30:39,041
Speaker 2: much quicker now than what I could before because I'm

571
00:30:39,041 --> 00:30:42,481
Speaker 2: not pushing so much away either. So I feel so

572
00:30:42,561 --> 00:30:46,401
Speaker 2: much more connected to my spiritual side and my higher self.

573
00:30:47,001 --> 00:30:49,601
Speaker 1: I think I would say, and especially in regards to

574
00:30:49,721 --> 00:30:52,601
Speaker 1: like that, because that's such a it's a hard feeling,

575
00:30:52,601 --> 00:30:55,281
Speaker 1: but I think it's something that probably so many people

576
00:30:55,281 --> 00:30:58,801
Speaker 1: can relate to that feeling of like not liking yourself,

577
00:30:58,961 --> 00:31:00,401
Speaker 1: you know, I know, even for me, like I want

578
00:31:00,401 --> 00:31:00,681
Speaker 1: to be of.

579
00:31:00,801 --> 00:31:03,321
Speaker 2: So much shame around who I was and thing's going

580
00:31:03,401 --> 00:31:06,521
Speaker 2: to happen in the past and thoughts I had and

581
00:31:07,561 --> 00:31:12,161
Speaker 2: not needing to be so perfect, understanding that no one

582
00:31:12,281 --> 00:31:16,241
Speaker 2: is perfect. And yeah, I think that would probably be

583
00:31:16,961 --> 00:31:21,001
Speaker 2: the biggest change I feel that you like yourself.

584
00:31:21,401 --> 00:31:26,281
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love Yes, yes, I love that. That would

585
00:31:26,281 --> 00:31:29,441
Speaker 1: be your advice to anyone who is maybe on this

586
00:31:29,521 --> 00:31:32,321
Speaker 1: journey or like, you know, whether it's just wanting to

587
00:31:33,001 --> 00:31:36,561
Speaker 1: learn more about their womb space or like understanding how

588
00:31:36,641 --> 00:31:38,761
Speaker 1: much is in there and how much we can learn

589
00:31:38,801 --> 00:31:41,280
Speaker 1: from it and how much is stored in there, or

590
00:31:41,321 --> 00:31:44,721
Speaker 1: even people who are like I've been thinking, I've been

591
00:31:44,761 --> 00:31:46,601
Speaker 1: feeling that feeling of like it needs to be gone,

592
00:31:46,921 --> 00:31:49,121
Speaker 1: I need to do it, or whatever decision it is.

593
00:31:49,441 --> 00:31:52,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just think listen to yourself, like listen to

594
00:31:52,281 --> 00:31:56,520
Speaker 2: what keeps coming up for you, and certainly take on

595
00:31:56,641 --> 00:32:00,601
Speaker 2: other people's advice. But I think you know in your

596
00:32:00,641 --> 00:32:03,721
Speaker 2: heart what's right, and I think you're knowing your heart

597
00:32:03,841 --> 00:32:06,401
Speaker 2: what suits your body. And I think just you know,

598
00:32:06,881 --> 00:32:09,841
Speaker 2: do womb space healings or I have Reiki sessions and

599
00:32:09,921 --> 00:32:13,281
Speaker 2: ask for it to be centered around your womb. Investigate

600
00:32:13,361 --> 00:32:15,921
Speaker 2: that because I think that kind of can help you

601
00:32:16,001 --> 00:32:18,161
Speaker 2: get to where you need to be as well, because

602
00:32:18,161 --> 00:32:20,361
Speaker 2: it would bring up emotions that maybe you need to

603
00:32:20,401 --> 00:32:23,081
Speaker 2: work through before you can even make that decision. Because

604
00:32:23,121 --> 00:32:25,761
Speaker 2: I even if I had made that decision this time

605
00:32:25,841 --> 00:32:28,321
Speaker 2: last year, I'm so glad I never went through with

606
00:32:28,361 --> 00:32:30,641
Speaker 2: it because I wouldn't have been ready yet, I wouldn't

607
00:32:30,641 --> 00:32:33,200
Speaker 2: have been at where I was now fully ready to

608
00:32:33,241 --> 00:32:38,720
Speaker 2: heal and let it go. So just just don't second

609
00:32:38,721 --> 00:32:39,441
Speaker 2: guess yourself.

610
00:32:40,241 --> 00:32:43,521
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, And also I think like that what you

611
00:32:43,601 --> 00:32:46,161
Speaker 1: said about just the making the choice. I think like

612
00:32:46,241 --> 00:32:48,281
Speaker 1: we can do all the womb healings in the world.

613
00:32:48,401 --> 00:32:51,081
Speaker 1: We can do all the energy healing, we can get acupuncture,

614
00:32:51,121 --> 00:32:53,801
Speaker 1: we can do all the things, but sometimes the most

615
00:32:53,921 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 1: healing thing and the real lesson and empowerment that we

616
00:32:58,321 --> 00:33:00,681
Speaker 1: need is getting to make a choice for ourselves.

617
00:33:01,161 --> 00:33:04,280
Speaker 2: Absolutely, And I think there was still a lot of

618
00:33:04,561 --> 00:33:06,281
Speaker 2: for me, like I think, oh, but I'm a healer.

619
00:33:06,441 --> 00:33:08,041
Speaker 2: How am I supposed to be a healing if I'm

620
00:33:08,081 --> 00:33:11,081
Speaker 2: going surgery to remove my uterius? Like that doesn't make sense,

621
00:33:11,161 --> 00:33:12,720
Speaker 2: you know. I think I said to you, I just

622
00:33:12,761 --> 00:33:16,681
Speaker 2: feel like I'm my fraud, But it's not. It's about

623
00:33:16,761 --> 00:33:19,161
Speaker 2: knowing there's all these things you can do and you

624
00:33:19,241 --> 00:33:22,721
Speaker 2: have so many choices. Yes, yeah, not feeling like you're

625
00:33:22,801 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 2: just stuck. Don't ever feel like you're stuck because you're not.

626
00:33:25,801 --> 00:33:28,520
Speaker 1: Yes, I love that. I think that's a beautiful place

627
00:33:28,561 --> 00:33:31,240
Speaker 1: to end. And I'm so I feel like this is

628
00:33:31,281 --> 00:33:34,801
Speaker 1: going to be so relevant to probably like more people

629
00:33:34,841 --> 00:33:36,960
Speaker 1: than we even realize, you know, And again, just like

630
00:33:37,001 --> 00:33:39,601
Speaker 1: coming back to that, getting to make a choice is

631
00:33:39,641 --> 00:33:44,361
Speaker 1: so important for yourself. Yeah, you guys can actually like

632
00:33:44,521 --> 00:33:47,881
Speaker 1: get healings from Ali as well, and if you, she's

633
00:33:48,561 --> 00:33:51,041
Speaker 1: one of the most incredible healers ever. And I'm not

634
00:33:51,081 --> 00:33:53,960
Speaker 1: just saying that because I love her. I'm saying that

635
00:33:54,001 --> 00:33:57,280
Speaker 1: because I've received them and you walk away feeling like

636
00:33:57,321 --> 00:34:02,361
Speaker 1: the most loved I cry, I like, and she's just

637
00:34:02,521 --> 00:34:04,961
Speaker 1: she makes you feel so loved and you move through

638
00:34:05,121 --> 00:34:07,881
Speaker 1: so many amazing things. You don't do distance yet, do

639
00:34:07,921 --> 00:34:11,040
Speaker 1: you you're doing You're such an in person touch.

640
00:34:11,081 --> 00:34:13,440
Speaker 2: I am a bit of an in person I do

641
00:34:13,441 --> 00:34:19,281
Speaker 2: do distance healing, but I am definitely an in person, nurturing, touching.

642
00:34:19,081 --> 00:34:22,081
Speaker 1: Kind of person, absolutely, which is what makes you so amazing.

643
00:34:22,561 --> 00:34:24,801
Speaker 1: How can people book with you and find.

644
00:34:25,081 --> 00:34:29,441
Speaker 2: I'm on Instagram? So soul alignment Reiki on Instagram. I

645
00:34:29,481 --> 00:34:32,561
Speaker 2: will have a website up shortly. My lovely husband is

646
00:34:32,601 --> 00:34:34,761
Speaker 2: working on that for me at the moment. But yeah,

647
00:34:34,841 --> 00:34:37,281
Speaker 2: just DM me. I'm not doing healings at the moment.

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Speaker 2: I'll be back in February. Just taking this time to

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Speaker 2: recover fun. Yes, I'd love to see anyone amazing.

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Speaker 1: I'll put all of that in the show notes as well.

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Speaker 1: Thank you guys for listening, and thank you so much

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Speaker 1: Alie for sharing that. It's just so beautiful and I'm

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Speaker 1: just so grateful for you. See soon.

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Speaker 2: Bye,