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Speaker 1: Apod Shape Production. Welcome back to another episode of Am

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Speaker 1: I A Bad Mum Podcast? School's back. School is back,

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Speaker 1: and so Gracie's first year of high school. So you

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Speaker 1: had that whole, you know, feelings. I'm sure you'll talk

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Speaker 1: about it in another episode. But off she goes, which

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Speaker 1: is a whole new chapter high school. Whereas I had

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Speaker 1: a moment of going, Wow, this is year eleven for us.

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Speaker 1: This is their last full year because next year is

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Speaker 1: pretty much a half a year or a bit longer.

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Speaker 2: You've got all of like the formals and like it

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Speaker 2: takes up, and then they've got their exams, so there's

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Speaker 2: not a huge amount for them for next year. So

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Speaker 2: you're under I would say you're under a like be

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Speaker 2: just on a year to go.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, this is a big year because they've got tafe,

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Speaker 1: they're doing a hospitality course, they've got semi formal. I've

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Speaker 1: already paid the deposit for schoolies.

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Speaker 2: Wow, what they're going to gold cost? Aren't they.

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Speaker 1: Love at you?

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Speaker 2: Tusk?

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Speaker 1: Oh?

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Speaker 2: God? Where are they staying?

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Speaker 1: Surfers a regional deposits paid. Holly didn't want to go,

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Speaker 1: Amelia did so I said, if we paid the deposit,

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Speaker 1: you can sell that to someone if you get closer

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Speaker 1: to it and you don't want to go, Please don't

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Speaker 1: want to go. Am I about mum for being too efficient?

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Speaker 2: Look, I can't say that I'm in this category. I

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Speaker 2: don't think that I been in this so I don't

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Speaker 2: even know where this is going.

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Speaker 1: This is something that happened this morning. It really frustrated

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Speaker 1: me because I feel like as mums, I know you're

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Speaker 1: talking about not being very organized. And yes I did

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Speaker 1: go and get the school books on the weekend before

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Speaker 1: going back to school as opposed to November when they

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Speaker 1: send the book list home. So I definitely am that person.

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Speaker 1: But I do think there is an element of all

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Speaker 1: mums and their organization skills. We've talked previously about feeling

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Speaker 1: like the kids pas because we're organizing their lives all

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Speaker 1: the time. And this was a great example this morning

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Speaker 1: of things going to shit because I wasn't on top

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Speaker 1: of it. Now. Jay had booked Amelia at a driving lesson,

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Speaker 1: her first driving lesson.

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Speaker 2: It's so exciting we're just talking about it. I was like,

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Speaker 2: oh my god, mind won't.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I am having a cruisy old morning. I've got

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Speaker 1: loads done, washing's all done and put away emails are

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Speaker 1: all done, like everything's done. However, I'm still home. I

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Speaker 1: haven't had a shower yet. Amelia is in bed still.

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Speaker 1: The doorbell rings and I was like, you is it

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Speaker 1: the door? You're going to be an Amazon delivery of

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Speaker 1: something that we've forgotten about. Get to the door. There's

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Speaker 1: the guy for the driving lesson. I was like, oh shit,

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Speaker 1: I just said this moment, I'm looking at him going, oh,

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Speaker 1: that's right, a driving lesson, and he went yeah for Amelia.

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Speaker 1: I went, oh, Amelia, okay, give you two secs. I've

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Speaker 1: gone running in. I'm like super stressed from a chilled morning,

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Speaker 1: very productive, got so much done, to all of a

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Speaker 1: sudden feeling stressed. I've gone up. I went to the

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Speaker 1: a sleep? And then it was just that moment of

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Speaker 1: having no control over the slow speech she's going and

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Speaker 1: stress of the fact that this poor guy stood on

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Speaker 1: the door step and we're taking ages. So I'm gone, okay.

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Speaker 1: I took a different approach. I went, what can I

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Speaker 1: do to help you? What do you need? And she's

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Speaker 1: like wandered into the bathroom, no like urgency whatsoever, brushing it.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, don't worry about your teeth, And then I

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Speaker 1: have a moment of going, yeah, do worry about your

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Speaker 1: But she's just going so slowly and I'm so stressed,

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Speaker 1: And in that moment, my first thing to do is

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Speaker 1: how can I attack Jay for this situation which I

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Speaker 1: would have been on top of had I organized it.

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Speaker 1: So he's booked the driving lesson, yeah, probably told us

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Speaker 1: all like a week or two weeks ago when he

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Speaker 1: the thing Rache with me, Am I too efficient? Is

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Speaker 1: this my problem? Because the first thing was this is

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Speaker 1: your fault? Ba, why don't you tell anyone? And he's like, oh,

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Speaker 1: of course it's my fault. I was like, yes, it

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Speaker 1: is this my fault? Because I don't work that way?

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Speaker 1: Maybe I'm too efficient? Ah right, Because what I will

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Speaker 1: going on. I'll even say that day, Hey, don't forget

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Speaker 1: you're picking the girls up the save they've got this

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Speaker 1: at blah blah time. The thing that's frustrated me isn't

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Speaker 1: that he's done that that way, but it's that I

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I get where you're coming from. My question would

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Speaker 2: be that what happens if you did it the other

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Speaker 2: way and wasn't efficient, how many more predicaments would you

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Speaker 2: be in like this morning? So if you didn't do it,

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Speaker 2: and then say, let's say you weren't overly efficient like

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Speaker 2: that and you didn't add things into your calendar, how

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Speaker 2: many more times would you come up against oh mate,

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Speaker 2: standing out the door knock block for our own appointment?

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Speaker 2: Oh my god?

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Speaker 1: Like oh would everybody else step up and be responsible

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Speaker 1: for saying once you've got this at this time and

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Speaker 1: everyone else just putting it in their own calendar?

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Speaker 2: Well, this is the thing that I'm like just balancing

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Speaker 2: now as well with Gracie going off to high school, right,

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Speaker 2: I operate like you. I go, okay, well, if that's

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Speaker 2: Now I've got a child going off to high school.

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Speaker 2: I've got another like good friend of mine whose daughter's

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Speaker 2: going there as well, and she's like, well, let's share

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Speaker 2: the car pulling. I'm like, great idea. She has then

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Speaker 2: generated a calendar for the four of us, so her daughter, Gracie, myself,

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Speaker 2: and her I couldn't even work out how to open

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Speaker 2: on GBT. I'm going what I deleted two calendarscidentally because

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Speaker 2: this is like another level of efficient, and I sort

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Speaker 2: of looked at that and went, oh, wow, I really

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Speaker 2: am letting the team down because I'm only this efficient

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Speaker 2: where she's like managing calendars between when the kids are

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Speaker 2: at dad's and then at hers, and then now she's

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Speaker 2: had another calendar with this mum that's obviously got no

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Speaker 2: little part of me going, well, no, Gracie needs to

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Speaker 2: how to read a calendar, but also then be accountable

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Speaker 2: to a calendar a little bit more, because my girls

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Speaker 2: are like, what this year ten and twelve. They're not

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Speaker 2: efficient to a calendar. They don't look to a calendar,

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Speaker 2: that don't refer back to a calendar. They just refer

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Speaker 2: back to mum.

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Speaker 1: Maybe you and Gracie could go on some sort of

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Speaker 1: to learn calendar together.

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Speaker 2: The day that this happened, I was so stressed. I

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Speaker 2: was like, my whole life shut down, Katie. I had

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Speaker 2: deleted all my calendars, so every calendar entry and my phone.

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Speaker 1: I'm not just by trying to open up this new one.

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Speaker 2: Just by trying to find the new one I deleted.

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Speaker 2: I thought, oh, look I'm going to be efficient. I'm

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Speaker 2: going to delete all these Look at these these are

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Speaker 2: all double ups. No they're not, dickhead, don't delete them.

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Speaker 2: Because then when I went back, everything including birthdays for

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Speaker 2: the next like however, like all the birthdays everything, and

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Speaker 2: do you know what I did? I froze. It was

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Speaker 2: like my whole life had ended right there. Why because

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Speaker 2: my calendar's gone. I don't know what I'm doing in

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Speaker 2: do anything.

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Speaker 1: I look at my calendar and I go, why have

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Speaker 1: I got so many calendars? I need to get rid

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Speaker 1: of some of these calendars. But I'm not going to now.

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Speaker 1: I don't because obviously we're probably putting stuff into all

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Speaker 1: the different calendars and not knowing where it's going.

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Speaker 2: This was me. I was like, what home and work?

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Speaker 2: And then one that just says calendar, and then another.

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Speaker 2: I thought, surely I can just clear some of those out.

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Speaker 2: This is with my eye cloud, this is with my Gmail,

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Speaker 2: this is surely they're all just double ups.

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Speaker 1: No they're not.

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Speaker 2: They just take out your whole calendar.

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Speaker 1: Start with so many calendars. Why don't we just have

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Speaker 1: one calendar? Oh sure, I don't put in because right

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Speaker 1: now that's like the calendar.

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Speaker 2: It's the color coding, so color codes, so that the

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Speaker 2: red calendar for me from my efficient friend, the calendar

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Speaker 2: for the four of us, so that's usually to do

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Speaker 2: with school drop off or pick up and the roster

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Speaker 2: that comes with that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, because when I look at my calendars, where's calendar?

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Speaker 1: But I look at my calendar. Go to calendar, then

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Speaker 1: the middle like some of them beige, some purple, some screen,

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Speaker 1: some yellow.

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Speaker 2: Color code your life. Basically, it's color coding your calendars.

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Speaker 2: So purple might be work, blue might be personal, red

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Speaker 2: might be school drop off. Yeah Australian any, don't delete any.

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Speaker 2: And I'm telling you, even chat GBT couldn't get me

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Speaker 2: out of this pickle. I had to get Breed to

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Speaker 2: come over and get me out of pickle. She calls.

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Speaker 2: She's so smart and younger and knows everything about what's

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Speaker 2: going on. So she sat there and was like, now

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Speaker 2: do this, now do this. Go to here and you

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Speaker 2: can restore all thessakes, particularly sot all back, and now

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Speaker 2: you've got a million calendars again. Yeah, I'm just gonna

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Speaker 2: stay with the mess. Just stay in the mess of

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Speaker 2: my calendars. Because when I couldn't see the forecast for

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Speaker 2: the next week, I was like, oh, I'm going to

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Speaker 2: stop living.

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Speaker 1: I'll just go to bed.