WEBVTT - Realisations Before We Turn 30! 0:00:00.680 --> 0:00:03.400 Welcome to First things first, I'm brook Bletting. My pronouns 0:00:03.400 --> 0:00:04.040 are she and her. 0:00:04.280 --> 0:00:06.320 I'm Maddie Meals. My pronouns are he and him. And 0:00:06.320 --> 0:00:09.000 before we get started, we'd like to acknowledge the custodians 0:00:09.000 --> 0:00:10.840 of the land on which we record and today for me, 0:00:10.960 --> 0:00:13.520 that's the Gaddigil people of the urination and. 0:00:13.440 --> 0:00:16.799 For me, I'm back in Melbourne, zurrendering people of the 0:00:16.880 --> 0:00:17.599 cooler nation. 0:00:18.079 --> 0:00:19.440 Let's go into it. 0:00:20.720 --> 0:00:24.280 So we're just chatting before about thirty. Oh my god, yes, 0:00:24.400 --> 0:00:27.319 because I'm counting down the days. It's literally in like 0:00:28.240 --> 0:00:29.240 less than eight weeks. 0:00:29.680 --> 0:00:30.960 It is so soon for you. 0:00:31.120 --> 0:00:32.080 It's so crazy. 0:00:32.320 --> 0:00:32.680 I don't know. 0:00:32.720 --> 0:00:34.440 I feel thirty though. I feel like. 0:00:34.479 --> 0:00:36.480 When squat your knees crack. 0:00:36.640 --> 0:00:39.839 Not yet not Yeah, I've got good knees, good ankle. 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:44.680 Okay, yeah, I love that. See, I'm just scared. I 0:00:44.720 --> 0:00:46.640 was having a conversation with someone on the weekend who's 0:00:46.680 --> 0:00:49.680 thirty one, and they were like, you just wait, your 0:00:49.720 --> 0:00:52.240 body starts you start to feel it once you turn thirty. 0:00:52.240 --> 0:00:54.240 And I'm like, oh my ooh, I'm scared. 0:00:54.400 --> 0:00:56.280 That reminds me of what Dad was telling me the 0:00:56.360 --> 0:00:56.680 other day. 0:00:56.680 --> 0:00:59.560 We were on the phone, and he said, when you 0:00:59.640 --> 0:01:02.600 get old, when you get to the ground, so like 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:05.319 when you're sitting or like you need to pick up something, 0:01:05.360 --> 0:01:07.319 He's like, you start to think about all the things 0:01:07.319 --> 0:01:10.520 that you should probably do down there because it's so hard. 0:01:10.319 --> 0:01:11.000 To get back up. 0:01:11.360 --> 0:01:13.280 Next minute, you're just crawling around the room. 0:01:14.280 --> 0:01:17.360 So I never loved so hard at dud saying that, 0:01:17.520 --> 0:01:20.560 like it was so it's like, so right, I guess 0:01:20.800 --> 0:01:21.840 you're like, oh should. 0:01:21.560 --> 0:01:24.360 I Is it really that far down once you get older? 0:01:24.400 --> 0:01:27.360 I know, but my dad's really tall, so he's like, yeah, 0:01:27.880 --> 0:01:28.520 that'll be for me. 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:29.199 So funny. 0:01:29.319 --> 0:01:33.040 Yeah, But I mean, thirty, how did we get here? 0:01:33.200 --> 0:01:33.880 You know what I mean? 0:01:34.200 --> 0:01:35.800 You know, I still don't know. 0:01:36.560 --> 0:01:39.160 Yeah, it seems like when you're young, you think that 0:01:39.240 --> 0:01:41.280 thirty is a long way away. You think that it's 0:01:41.319 --> 0:01:43.240 an age where you know you're very mature and have 0:01:43.400 --> 0:01:46.200 your shit together and you've got it law sorted, and 0:01:46.240 --> 0:01:48.800 you get here. Well, we're nearly there. You're really close, 0:01:48.880 --> 0:01:51.880 and it's like, I still feel young. I still feel 0:01:51.920 --> 0:01:55.440 like I don't know exactly what's going on, and I 0:01:55.480 --> 0:01:59.360 feel like I still feel in my early twenties. 0:02:00.080 --> 0:02:03.960 Yeah, I honestly think, why is emphasis so much on 0:02:04.480 --> 0:02:08.320 those decades? Yeah, because I mean about like twenty didn't 0:02:08.320 --> 0:02:12.320 seem like a decade, right, Like eighteen was where you 0:02:12.400 --> 0:02:13.520 get to and you're. 0:02:13.320 --> 0:02:17.360 Like, yeah, I'm an adult, not really like let's. 0:02:17.200 --> 0:02:18.919 Be honest, you're still a child totally. 0:02:19.200 --> 0:02:21.440 Yeah, And then there was no really no big emphasis 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:23.640 on twenty like you're in you. And then you know, 0:02:23.720 --> 0:02:26.960 there's your twenties. When you're in your twenties, yeah, thirty, 0:02:27.240 --> 0:02:30.440 and then forty, like all those decades just start to 0:02:30.440 --> 0:02:33.239 get like so much more emphasis and I feel like 0:02:33.280 --> 0:02:35.480 so much more pressure to be at a. 0:02:35.440 --> 0:02:37.919 Certain like stage or place. 0:02:38.480 --> 0:02:40.799 But from what I've heard, and this is just from 0:02:40.919 --> 0:02:44.280 like a general consensus of my friends and family, that 0:02:44.280 --> 0:02:47.840 that your thirties are the best years because you've established 0:02:47.880 --> 0:02:51.119 yourself in thirty years and that's like the best thing, 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:53.760 I think, because your twenties are figuring it all out 0:02:54.040 --> 0:02:56.240 and your thirties is like, okay, yeah, like I've done 0:02:56.240 --> 0:02:58.880 the work now and I know who I am. And 0:02:58.919 --> 0:03:01.200 there are people that are probably we found themselves earlier 0:03:01.280 --> 0:03:04.160 than that. But I think like your thirties like really established, 0:03:04.200 --> 0:03:06.720 like you're taking a little bit more serious. I think 0:03:06.800 --> 0:03:08.600 you know, you're not in your twenties anymore, You're not 0:03:08.639 --> 0:03:10.000 in your baby era. 0:03:10.680 --> 0:03:13.640 Did you ever feel like when you were younger that 0:03:13.720 --> 0:03:16.360 you were going to sort of have it all sorted 0:03:16.440 --> 0:03:19.120 out or sort like? For me, I remember even in 0:03:19.160 --> 0:03:22.080 my early teens thinking that by the age I was 0:03:22.120 --> 0:03:25.480 twenty one, I wanted to have like everything that I 0:03:25.520 --> 0:03:29.840 ever wanted, you know, the pressure of having success or 0:03:29.880 --> 0:03:33.240 having the house or the car, or the big dream 0:03:33.360 --> 0:03:36.840 or the big goals fulfilled by the age of twenty one. Like, 0:03:36.880 --> 0:03:40.560 how insane is that to even comprehend now, Like, you know, 0:03:40.720 --> 0:03:44.040 ten years, yeah, past that, and it's like we're still 0:03:44.040 --> 0:03:44.840 figuring it out. 0:03:45.080 --> 0:03:46.360 I think that's so human. 0:03:46.400 --> 0:03:50.600 Though, because I did have a timeline when I was younger, 0:03:50.640 --> 0:03:53.000 I think I couldn't tell you what my timeline was. 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:55.360 I wasn't really that set on it because I think 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:58.680 when I was younger, I was trying to survive and 0:03:58.720 --> 0:04:01.200 trying to make a life for my So I don't 0:04:01.240 --> 0:04:04.960 think I could really envision that because I was there 0:04:05.000 --> 0:04:07.560 was so much happening in my life. But I think 0:04:07.600 --> 0:04:10.200 when I got more settled in my early twenties and 0:04:10.240 --> 0:04:13.840 I started to you know, develop my career, I was like, okay, 0:04:13.960 --> 0:04:16.680 Like when I had a long term relationship, I think 0:04:16.760 --> 0:04:20.520 that was what helped push my timeline, because you know, 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:22.880 when you're building a life together with someone, which I 0:04:22.880 --> 0:04:24.760 think I feel like that, you know that's something you 0:04:24.800 --> 0:04:28.240 and Danny are doing. You start to plan and you 0:04:28.279 --> 0:04:31.720 start to I guess, lock those sort of things in 0:04:31.800 --> 0:04:34.840 because that's what you worked for, I guess in a relationship, 0:04:35.360 --> 0:04:38.240 like right, but I mean, you know, they're relationships that 0:04:38.279 --> 0:04:40.040 are just lucy groosey and we'd just go with the flow. 0:04:40.160 --> 0:04:45.000 But I'm like, okay, yeah, sure, broken up next week now. 0:04:46.400 --> 0:04:49.839 But like, yeah, I've only really thought about those timelines 0:04:49.839 --> 0:04:51.320 when I was in a relationship. 0:04:51.320 --> 0:04:52.640 But being single and I. 0:04:52.560 --> 0:04:56.960 Guess sort of figuring it out and establishing myself by 0:04:57.000 --> 0:05:00.560 myself and for myself, I haven't put some pressure on 0:05:00.640 --> 0:05:03.480 the timeline. I definitely thought i'd be in a different place, 0:05:03.520 --> 0:05:07.480 and I still have those feelings like I'm sure you know, 0:05:07.520 --> 0:05:09.760 the kids have always been on my cards. But actually, 0:05:09.760 --> 0:05:12.040 funny enough, this is such a weird thing that I 0:05:12.040 --> 0:05:15.520 haven't really spoken about. But when I was younger, my 0:05:16.120 --> 0:05:18.880 stepmom used to ask me like would I have children. 0:05:19.960 --> 0:05:23.240 I was very maternal when I was in community, like 0:05:23.240 --> 0:05:26.320 I always had a kid on my hip, like you know, 0:05:26.560 --> 0:05:29.760 walking around with babies. But then when I got to 0:05:29.800 --> 0:05:32.800 my dad's and my stepmom, I didn't have that, so 0:05:32.839 --> 0:05:35.480 I got to kind of like learn to be a kid. 0:05:35.960 --> 0:05:40.280 Funny enough, I actually then wasn't into dolls and stuff 0:05:40.320 --> 0:05:44.880 like that. Like I was into drawing, art and sport. 0:05:45.800 --> 0:05:49.680 Children weren't really like something that I wanted. It was 0:05:49.720 --> 0:05:52.400 just in community that I'd always been around and like 0:05:52.520 --> 0:05:55.440 become so maternal about. And then I was like, oh, 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:58.440 when I was there, like yeah, I didn't really want 0:05:58.440 --> 0:06:01.400 to be around kids and babies. Okay, I wasn't like 0:06:01.680 --> 0:06:03.480 I got asked a babysit and I had babysit. 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:04.680 That was about it. 0:06:04.880 --> 0:06:06.560 But then when my stepmom asked me like, do you 0:06:06.560 --> 0:06:10.400 want children, I would actually say to her not. Obviously 0:06:10.440 --> 0:06:13.080 that changed over time and I realized I do love 0:06:13.160 --> 0:06:16.159 working with kids. Us. You know, there's certain ages that 0:06:16.240 --> 0:06:18.360 I love working with, and I think it's the age 0:06:18.600 --> 0:06:19.200 when I was. 0:06:19.160 --> 0:06:21.080 Younger, when my mum died was eleven. 0:06:21.600 --> 0:06:23.800 So I feel like that age for me is I 0:06:23.880 --> 0:06:26.200 know that it was crucial in my life, and that 0:06:26.320 --> 0:06:28.680 is that that's the age that I want to work with. 0:06:28.960 --> 0:06:31.400 So I feel like it all came for full circle. 0:06:32.080 --> 0:06:34.880 But in terms of the timeline, right, like the older 0:06:34.920 --> 0:06:37.560 I get, the more I'm moving away from children. 0:06:37.960 --> 0:06:39.680 Well, I was just about to say. You said something 0:06:39.720 --> 0:06:41.640 to me the other day when we were shopping, and 0:06:41.760 --> 0:06:44.640 you said, we're talking about kids, and you said, oh, 0:06:44.680 --> 0:06:46.400 you know, I don't even think. I don't know if 0:06:46.400 --> 0:06:49.800 I want kids anymore. And I thought that was interesting. 0:06:49.839 --> 0:06:52.680 I thought, you know, there's we've had many conversations about kids, 0:06:52.720 --> 0:06:55.279 and and by you saying that, it definitely felt like 0:06:55.360 --> 0:06:57.640 maybe you had had a change of thought about being 0:06:57.640 --> 0:07:00.440 a mum. Is that something that like has come recently. 0:07:01.160 --> 0:07:03.960 Yeah, Like I had lunch with friends yesterday and they've 0:07:04.000 --> 0:07:07.919 had a six month old and this she's so beautiful, 0:07:07.920 --> 0:07:11.880 like little Millie, and you know, I'm holding her and 0:07:11.920 --> 0:07:13.920 I'm enjoying that time and I feel that, you know, 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:16.680 like that sort of maternal instinct with like hold, you know, 0:07:16.760 --> 0:07:19.640 like making sure this little thing is safe and you 0:07:19.640 --> 0:07:23.120 know happy. Yeah, but there is that I guess that 0:07:23.240 --> 0:07:25.320 sort of disconnection that I have now that it's like 0:07:26.760 --> 0:07:29.720 I like my freedom. You know, having a dog is 0:07:29.720 --> 0:07:32.880 a big responsibility and you know, like now, like you know, 0:07:33.320 --> 0:07:34.480 I'm in Melbourne and. 0:07:34.480 --> 0:07:37.560 Covis with you, and I feel like guilty because I'm. 0:07:37.360 --> 0:07:40.880 Like, well, my child, my dog child, yeah, is not 0:07:40.960 --> 0:07:42.480 with me, and I feel like i'm you know. 0:07:42.520 --> 0:07:44.880 And so I just can't. I just don't want to 0:07:44.880 --> 0:07:45.440 have to live. 0:07:45.320 --> 0:07:48.920 With that kind of guilt and responsibility in this moment 0:07:49.040 --> 0:07:50.880 right now of taking care of something. 0:07:51.400 --> 0:07:53.320 I just want to actually live a little bit longer. 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:56.480 I think, yeah, because I only feel like I've just started, 0:07:56.800 --> 0:07:59.200 which is crazy. So I'll turn I'll flip over to thirty, 0:07:59.240 --> 0:08:03.320 I'll turn that next chapter, that next level up, and 0:08:03.400 --> 0:08:05.800 I feel like I've only just really started living, Like 0:08:05.840 --> 0:08:09.560 I want to actually explore international travel, I want to 0:08:10.120 --> 0:08:12.800 achieve like things like I want to climb and hike 0:08:12.920 --> 0:08:16.680 and do these fun things. But if I have a kid, Yeah, 0:08:16.720 --> 0:08:20.440 that responsibility or that freedom and that independence can be 0:08:20.480 --> 0:08:23.640 sort of impacted, I guess. And I think that's what 0:08:23.760 --> 0:08:26.440 I'm trying. I'm being a bit a bit selfish, but 0:08:26.520 --> 0:08:31.360 itself flops because I'm still figuring out myself too, Like 0:08:31.440 --> 0:08:34.360 I'm not perfectly where I would like to. I guess, 0:08:34.360 --> 0:08:37.600 like no one really is, are they Like perfectly where 0:08:37.600 --> 0:08:38.320 they want to be. 0:08:38.600 --> 0:08:39.960 What was your timeline? 0:08:40.559 --> 0:08:43.199 Well, my timeline. I always felt like when I was 0:08:43.320 --> 0:08:46.520 younger that I wanted to achieve and have success early 0:08:46.600 --> 0:08:49.360 in my life and I wanted to like tick off 0:08:49.400 --> 0:08:51.680 the big goals of buying a house and. 0:08:51.880 --> 0:08:54.319 Okay, did you have ages of what you would want 0:08:54.360 --> 0:08:54.600 to do. 0:08:54.760 --> 0:08:58.319 Yeah, early, and like I'm talking early twenties, and it 0:08:58.440 --> 0:09:00.400 just you know though, all in your early twenties. 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:02.439 Yeah, in my twenty. 0:09:02.160 --> 0:09:05.719 Five yeah, and it is insane. But I think as 0:09:05.720 --> 0:09:08.160 a kid, I thought, you know, shoot the stars and 0:09:08.200 --> 0:09:10.360 try and achieve it. But I think the. 0:09:10.240 --> 0:09:13.200 Stars land on the moon, or land on the side 0:09:13.200 --> 0:09:13.880 of the road. 0:09:15.480 --> 0:09:16.880 Or land in a rental. 0:09:18.280 --> 0:09:19.600 But like for men. 0:09:19.720 --> 0:09:24.120 Yeah, So I just think right now, like I'm very 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:27.080 much moving towards having a kid, Like I think that 0:09:27.080 --> 0:09:29.280 there are things in my life that I'm planning and 0:09:29.360 --> 0:09:32.760 making room for. So I think that I'm on a 0:09:32.800 --> 0:09:35.600 trajectory right now in terms of a timeline that I'm 0:09:35.640 --> 0:09:38.120 really happy with. I know that by the time i'm, 0:09:38.320 --> 0:09:40.760 you know, in my mid thirties, I would like to 0:09:40.760 --> 0:09:43.400 have my first child. So it's like over the next 0:09:43.760 --> 0:09:46.520 year or two, it'd be like a planning stage and 0:09:46.559 --> 0:09:49.240 then going into that, and that timeline doesn't depend on 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:51.600 a partner for me, So whether I'm with my partner 0:09:51.640 --> 0:09:54.320 who I'm still with, or whether I'm single, I know 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:58.079 that that timeline is something that I'm working towards, and 0:09:58.440 --> 0:10:02.720 that's I feel really happy and really like excited about 0:10:02.720 --> 0:10:05.200 the future when it comes to children. But I also 0:10:05.280 --> 0:10:07.320 know that now it's time to kick into gear and 0:10:07.360 --> 0:10:09.800 do the next level of work. So for me, you know, 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:12.600 my career has always been my first love, and I 0:10:12.640 --> 0:10:15.840 feel like I want to continue to put that first 0:10:16.160 --> 0:10:18.800 for now and then you know, in a year or 0:10:18.880 --> 0:10:23.199 two really start that. I don't know process of a child, 0:10:23.280 --> 0:10:26.800 but for me, I don't I'm not scared by the 0:10:26.840 --> 0:10:29.240 biological clock, you know what I mean, that's not a 0:10:29.320 --> 0:10:31.840 concern for a male. I have the privilege of being 0:10:31.880 --> 0:10:34.880 able to, you know, have kids when I want, really 0:10:35.120 --> 0:10:39.800 put it wherever you want, So you know, I don't 0:10:39.800 --> 0:10:42.800 have that pressure like a female does. So for me, 0:10:44.080 --> 0:10:46.720 there's a little bit of less stress around the timing. 0:10:46.800 --> 0:10:48.040 But I do know that it'll be in the next 0:10:48.080 --> 0:10:50.120 few years that I had my first child. But I want, 0:10:50.320 --> 0:10:52.640 you know, a couple, so I don't know, I just 0:10:52.840 --> 0:10:54.760 I think I definitely know that it'll be by by 0:10:54.760 --> 0:10:56.880 the time I'm thirty five, i'll have my kids. Because 0:10:56.920 --> 0:10:58.880 I also want to live a long life with my kids. 0:10:58.920 --> 0:11:00.360 I want to be able to be around for a 0:11:00.400 --> 0:11:04.120 long time, so you know, I don't want to have 0:11:04.160 --> 0:11:07.200 them too late because of that reason. But yeah, I 0:11:07.240 --> 0:11:10.240 think that in terms of thirties, I'm excited for what 0:11:10.280 --> 0:11:12.960 it will bring for me. I'm like, Okay, I've got 0:11:13.000 --> 0:11:15.800 another six months, mind you. I'm not thirty until May, 0:11:15.880 --> 0:11:19.400 so I'm like halfway there from twenty nine. But I'm 0:11:19.400 --> 0:11:21.839 looking forward to it. I think my thirtieth year will 0:11:21.880 --> 0:11:24.360 be the year the year of like elevation. 0:11:24.880 --> 0:11:27.280 Yeah, yeah, I feel like it's some sort of like 0:11:28.120 --> 0:11:31.600 SIMS game, will like PCA game where you level up. 0:11:31.720 --> 0:11:32.080 Level up. 0:11:32.720 --> 0:11:35.560 Feel like I'm leveling up, but not leveling up where 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:38.000 I thought I would be leveling up in different ways. 0:11:38.000 --> 0:11:41.280 But I think it's all making sense to me now because. 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:42.800 I'm not to go with the flow kind of girl. 0:11:42.880 --> 0:11:44.520 I want to encourage you to do all the things 0:11:44.600 --> 0:11:46.920 you want to do. You know, you're talking about traveling solo, 0:11:47.080 --> 0:11:49.920 like go and do it, go to New York, Go 0:11:49.960 --> 0:11:52.560 and explore the art scene over there, do all the 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:54.959 things that you want to do before you know, you 0:11:55.480 --> 0:11:58.800 even consider having a child, because as we know, children 0:11:59.400 --> 0:12:02.720 then become out priority and everything else sort of you know, 0:12:03.360 --> 0:12:04.960 does have to get put on the back burner for 0:12:05.000 --> 0:12:05.560 a little while. 0:12:05.920 --> 0:12:06.640 Yeah, exactly. 0:12:06.840 --> 0:12:09.200 And I've always said when I do want to have kids, 0:12:09.200 --> 0:12:11.600 which I'm no problem, you know, I know women have. 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:15.240 You know, time restraint and you know their bodies. 0:12:15.760 --> 0:12:17.960 But I feel like I've already spoken about freezing my 0:12:18.040 --> 0:12:21.240 eggs and you know that will happen when I can 0:12:21.280 --> 0:12:24.079 dedicate the time and like emotional capacity. Because I'm also 0:12:24.120 --> 0:12:26.320 scared needles and you have to like inject yourself, so 0:12:26.320 --> 0:12:28.480 it's quite an overwhelming experience. 0:12:28.960 --> 0:12:36.760 That's why I've never done steroids. Well like say never, never, never, kidding, 0:12:37.559 --> 0:12:38.840 but yeah, I'm really scared. 0:12:39.080 --> 0:12:42.320 Yeah, well that's what I mean. Yeah, injecting yourself like 0:12:42.440 --> 0:12:45.440 terrifies me. But I don't know. I don't also don't 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:46.160 care if I was. 0:12:46.080 --> 0:12:48.960 An older mom, like yeah, in a way, because I 0:12:48.960 --> 0:12:51.400 think I would be quite a philosophical mom, like I 0:12:51.400 --> 0:12:55.240 wouldn't be a yeller or I want to train myself 0:12:55.280 --> 0:12:57.360 out of being a helicopter mom, because I'm a bit 0:12:57.360 --> 0:12:59.959 of a helicopter mom with my dog and I don't 0:13:00.040 --> 0:13:01.960 want to be like that as a mum, and so 0:13:02.080 --> 0:13:05.599 I think I need more, I know, because you just 0:13:05.640 --> 0:13:08.200 don't want them to hurt themselves, and you know, you 0:13:08.280 --> 0:13:09.079 have a duty of. 0:13:09.040 --> 0:13:11.400 Care, Like where are you going to the cinemas? Okay, 0:13:11.440 --> 0:13:12.880 I'm going to have a steak out with your dad. 0:13:12.880 --> 0:13:14.000 Am I going to watch you? 0:13:14.240 --> 0:13:14.480 Yeah? 0:13:14.840 --> 0:13:16.920 Like I'll be across the road in the car with 0:13:17.000 --> 0:13:21.400 the binoculars like, yeah, okay, he's there. He's a good 0:13:21.440 --> 0:13:22.280 imagine myself. 0:13:23.000 --> 0:13:24.600 But you know what, I think that the first thing 0:13:24.679 --> 0:13:28.400 is that we probably will be parents that we didn't have. 0:13:28.679 --> 0:13:31.520 And I'm not saying your parents are not beautiful and 0:13:31.679 --> 0:13:34.560 you know, you know you don't love them deeply, but I. 0:13:34.480 --> 0:13:37.640 Love them, but they absolutely weren't there for me. Yeah 0:13:37.800 --> 0:13:38.600 you know when I was young. 0:13:38.679 --> 0:13:40.360 Yeah, I want to be like a really I want 0:13:40.360 --> 0:13:43.320 to be a hands on mum, but like you go 0:13:43.360 --> 0:13:45.240 and explore. Because I was talking to this my friends 0:13:45.280 --> 0:13:48.080 yesterday because obvious they've just had their first and then 0:13:48.520 --> 0:13:50.880 you know, I didn't want to overstep and ask them like, oh, 0:13:50.880 --> 0:13:55.320 when's your second? But like my friend Beck was like, yeah, 0:13:55.440 --> 0:13:56.920 sometimes I just want to get over and done with 0:13:57.000 --> 0:13:59.280 because a lot of her stuff is on hold because 0:13:59.320 --> 0:14:01.360 of the maybe and so she's like, if I just 0:14:01.440 --> 0:14:03.520 get it all the way then yeah, and then I 0:14:03.559 --> 0:14:05.280 get to go back to my life quicker. 0:14:05.520 --> 0:14:06.360 Isn't that sad? 0:14:07.160 --> 0:14:09.520 But isn't that I think like that too, you know. 0:14:09.800 --> 0:14:12.640 Yeah, yeah, fast, fast and then yes. 0:14:13.080 --> 0:14:15.319 It's sort of like I think about that too. It's 0:14:15.440 --> 0:14:19.320 it's the decision between holding off and getting shit done 0:14:19.400 --> 0:14:22.120 now or having a baby and then getting back to it. 0:14:22.440 --> 0:14:26.000 My mentality around and bringing a child into the world 0:14:26.120 --> 0:14:29.360 is exactly that. I'm concerned that, like when do I 0:14:29.400 --> 0:14:31.720 bring the baby into the world, because even for me, 0:14:31.800 --> 0:14:32.880 I'm going to be like the mum, you know what 0:14:32.920 --> 0:14:34.120 I mean, I'm going to be the one to take 0:14:34.160 --> 0:14:35.880 time off. I'm going to be the one that has to, 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:38.440 you know, really put in the effort. I feel so 0:14:39.200 --> 0:14:42.840 like I'm worried about that timeline as well. It's like 0:14:42.920 --> 0:14:44.360 when do you do it? Do you do it now 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:46.400 and then you know, get it over and done with, 0:14:46.560 --> 0:14:49.960 or do you wait and then or you don't. 0:14:49.840 --> 0:14:52.280 Have to carry it for nine months? On topics like 0:14:52.360 --> 0:14:54.360 actually total ability starting like. 0:14:56.200 --> 0:14:58.440 Much. It's much more for a for a woman who's 0:14:58.440 --> 0:15:00.640 carrying a baby, of course, yeah, it's and that's. 0:15:00.960 --> 0:15:01.880 Just a crazy thing. 0:15:02.480 --> 0:15:07.040 Anyways, I feel like, you know, babies are on the cards, 0:15:07.160 --> 0:15:12.360 but I think maybe in the next decade, what is. 0:15:12.280 --> 0:15:13.880 It that you want to tick off? I know, acting? 0:15:14.280 --> 0:15:15.760 You know, you got to twenty nine and now you're 0:15:15.760 --> 0:15:16.280 doing acting. 0:15:16.440 --> 0:15:17.200 I know, isn't it. 0:15:17.240 --> 0:15:20.120 I wish I did it sooner, But I'm so glad 0:15:20.160 --> 0:15:22.880 that I'm doing it now because I've got so much 0:15:22.920 --> 0:15:24.800 more life experience to bring to the table. 0:15:24.960 --> 0:15:26.200 And I think, you know, there is. 0:15:26.080 --> 0:15:29.400 That feeling like, oh am I too old? But I'm like, look, 0:15:29.800 --> 0:15:31.800 I look like fucking eighteen. 0:15:31.640 --> 0:15:34.560 Like totally calm down, Brook, you need to chill. 0:15:36.280 --> 0:15:39.120 I do have a list and I am a mental list, 0:15:40.120 --> 0:15:43.200 and I feel like, you know, it's crazy because I 0:15:43.200 --> 0:15:45.800 have we both have achieved so much in such a 0:15:45.800 --> 0:15:47.920 short period of time. Like when you think about it, right, 0:15:48.040 --> 0:15:51.320 like I'd say, we're probably like one of very. 0:15:51.240 --> 0:15:53.960 The youngest duos in podcasts. 0:15:54.320 --> 0:15:57.040 Like there's younger people obviously, but like I feel like 0:15:58.000 --> 0:16:02.880 we're the youngest like First Nations duo in what. 0:16:02.800 --> 0:16:03.280 Do you call it? 0:16:03.480 --> 0:16:05.560 You know, we're the youngest. But we're also like one 0:16:05.560 --> 0:16:08.520 of the only first nations JeOS with a podcast on 0:16:08.600 --> 0:16:10.360 mainstream on a mainstream network. 0:16:10.360 --> 0:16:13.360 That's what probably trying to spin out, sorry, trying to 0:16:13.360 --> 0:16:16.960 spend out in my thirties. 0:16:17.000 --> 0:16:25.720 I want to learn English English? Do you want to 0:16:25.800 --> 0:16:30.160 learn another language? I am doing the US accents. I'm 0:16:30.240 --> 0:16:31.960 practicing US and British accent. 0:16:32.160 --> 0:16:33.520 Can you give me a US accent? 0:16:33.640 --> 0:16:38.400 Absolutely not, No, I'm still learning. I feel like. 0:16:38.360 --> 0:16:42.600 I've got the Yeah, I've got the idea of like 0:16:42.760 --> 0:16:47.280 Southern New York's really hard, like Brooklyn, New York, like Boston, 0:16:48.800 --> 0:16:55.640 Boston Valley Girl's easy, Like yeah. 0:16:54.280 --> 0:16:55.920 How are you? 0:16:56.600 --> 0:17:01.520 And it's weird about your mouth? And I'm learning, But 0:17:01.560 --> 0:17:02.440 that's on the list. 0:17:04.000 --> 0:17:05.639 Obviously a lot of travel solo, you. 0:17:05.680 --> 0:17:06.879 Said, climbing and hiking. 0:17:07.359 --> 0:17:11.159 Yeah, like you know, I want to say that I've done. 0:17:13.000 --> 0:17:15.000 Well like things. God, where's that. 0:17:19.119 --> 0:17:19.280 Right? 0:17:19.359 --> 0:17:22.600 Where's Mount k Where is that? It's South America? 0:17:22.720 --> 0:17:26.080 Yeah, Africa, Africa. It's not. 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:29.520 Yeah, but you know, like have those like things that 0:17:29.600 --> 0:17:32.400 I could say to the kids, like there's your mom 0:17:32.800 --> 0:17:34.000 that was me after. 0:17:33.760 --> 0:17:34.600 I hiked. 0:17:36.240 --> 0:17:37.760 That photo exactly. 0:17:38.160 --> 0:17:38.360 Yeah. 0:17:38.400 --> 0:17:42.920 Yeah, because I want my kids to like future children 0:17:43.080 --> 0:17:45.040 or and my family to be like, oh that is 0:17:45.080 --> 0:17:47.679 so cool, Like yeah, I want to do that, you know, 0:17:47.840 --> 0:17:50.080 and and aspire for more because I feel like I've 0:17:50.080 --> 0:17:50.520 just been in. 0:17:50.480 --> 0:17:53.520 My Aussie bubble and I have you know. 0:17:53.520 --> 0:17:57.320 Been so passionate about First Nations culture and you know, 0:17:57.400 --> 0:17:59.960 pushing that forward and I think there's a huge ship. 0:18:00.400 --> 0:18:04.320 I've noticed a lot of a lot more like I 0:18:04.440 --> 0:18:07.160 just I'm seeing mob everywhere, which is amazing, Like it's 0:18:07.240 --> 0:18:09.880 just so good. Like I saw Billy Jean honestly Folly 0:18:10.160 --> 0:18:13.400 campaign and I know, I'm like that is a sleigh 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:16.399 Like seeing that is like, oh my god, amazing. You know, 0:18:17.880 --> 0:18:20.280 but I think, you know, I have like you know, 0:18:20.320 --> 0:18:23.280 I said I was going to be my best fitness. 0:18:23.680 --> 0:18:25.080 What is that my best error? 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:28.080 Well, I just feel good about my body at the moment, 0:18:28.240 --> 0:18:29.960 at the moment, at the moment. 0:18:30.119 --> 0:18:33.680