WEBVTT - The Truth About Love Island (Part 2) 0:00:00.440 --> 0:00:03.520 I've definitely dated my fair share of douchebags. My time. 0:00:04.519 --> 0:00:05.200 Let's get tingling. 0:00:06.720 --> 0:00:09.080 Oh I'm spiraling. Oh my God, tell us. 0:00:09.119 --> 0:00:12.080 Everything flame emojis cleft, right and center. 0:00:12.560 --> 0:00:15.000 Matt loves a bit of God. 0:00:15.040 --> 0:00:17.200 And I need to text you back. I really need. 0:00:17.960 --> 0:00:18.200 I know. 0:00:18.280 --> 0:00:20.479 I'm jealous. I'm the most jealous person ever. 0:00:20.760 --> 0:00:23.000 Relationships like a fart. If you have to force it, 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:24.040 it's probably shiit Hi. 0:00:24.120 --> 0:00:25.400 City dot Com for you. 0:00:25.640 --> 0:00:27.760 I'll be a bloody single and alone with ten cats 0:00:27.760 --> 0:00:28.720 for the rest of my life. 0:00:28.880 --> 0:00:29.080 Lie. 0:00:30.240 --> 0:00:32.839 On today's episode of Where's Your Head Out, we are 0:00:32.920 --> 0:00:36.120 jumping straight back into our Love Island tea spill. 0:00:36.240 --> 0:00:38.279 All right, I know, let's not fuck spiders. Let's get 0:00:38.320 --> 0:00:39.279 straight back into it. 0:00:45.960 --> 0:00:48.400 Where's Your Head At is a podcast that talks all 0:00:48.479 --> 0:00:53.840 things relationships, breakups, reality TV, trending shows, and everything in between. 0:00:54.120 --> 0:00:56.840 This is your new go to destination for laughs, gossip, 0:00:57.000 --> 0:01:04.760 intimate details, advice, and much more. All right, and so 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:08.120 we've already spilt a lot of tea, a lot of tea. 0:01:08.160 --> 0:01:10.559 So we've asked you guys to ask us your top 0:01:10.640 --> 0:01:14.000 questions about Love Island and our experience. So do we 0:01:14.040 --> 0:01:16.360 want to jump in let's do it all right. So 0:01:16.400 --> 0:01:18.720 the first one is do you have access to the 0:01:18.760 --> 0:01:19.920 outside world at all? 0:01:20.600 --> 0:01:21.559 No. 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:24.360 So you literally get off of the plane because we 0:01:24.440 --> 0:01:29.640 filmed in Fiji, and they take away your phone, your passport. 0:01:29.959 --> 0:01:32.479 You literally become a prisoner you do. 0:01:32.560 --> 0:01:34.800 So. I remember literally coming off the plane and the 0:01:34.800 --> 0:01:38.080 producer was standing there and she's like passport and wallet 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:39.960 and phone, and I was just like, it's like, can 0:01:40.000 --> 0:01:42.320 I least say good to my mum? And she was 0:01:42.319 --> 0:01:44.160 like yeah, sure, and I was just like see your mom, 0:01:44.920 --> 0:01:47.319 see on the other side, and then just handed it over. 0:01:47.800 --> 0:01:49.280 I remember being in the car on the way to 0:01:49.320 --> 0:01:52.120 the hotel where we stayed out. I was like real stress, 0:01:52.200 --> 0:01:53.880 Like I was like, shit, this is real. 0:01:53.680 --> 0:01:57.080 Now, it's all becoming very real. Yeah. 0:01:57.120 --> 0:02:01.920 So you basically away from your phone for seven weeks, 0:02:02.040 --> 0:02:05.080 which is crazy in itself because people wantn't get off 0:02:05.080 --> 0:02:09.120 their phone these days seven minutes seven minutes, let alone 0:02:09.200 --> 0:02:13.040 seven weeks. And when you actually get your phone back, 0:02:13.200 --> 0:02:15.720 the feeling is so bizarre. 0:02:15.840 --> 0:02:18.680 It just feels like a different world. 0:02:18.919 --> 0:02:21.200 I remember picking up my phone, like turning it back 0:02:21.240 --> 0:02:23.680 on and like I was looking at like their notifications 0:02:23.720 --> 0:02:26.720 because it was seven weeks of it, and I remember shaking, 0:02:27.000 --> 0:02:29.360 like my hand was shaking. I was like, I was like, 0:02:29.400 --> 0:02:31.040 I'm not ready for this, you know what I mean? 0:02:31.560 --> 0:02:34.040 And like everything had happened, people had seen everything that 0:02:34.040 --> 0:02:34.799 had happened in there. 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:37.560 You don't know, and you don't know what they've seen, 0:02:37.639 --> 0:02:38.440 and you don't. 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:41.239 Know do you remember that? Like the four of us 0:02:41.520 --> 0:02:43.440 we all just I remember just taking a phone charge 0:02:43.520 --> 0:02:45.120 and I sat in like the restaurant of the thing, 0:02:45.160 --> 0:02:46.720 and I just sat on my phone. I was like 0:02:46.760 --> 0:02:50.000 for two or three hours just scrolling replying back to people. 0:02:50.000 --> 0:02:51.679 I didn't even know where any of you guys were. 0:02:51.720 --> 0:02:53.280 I was just engulfed in it because I was like, 0:02:53.320 --> 0:02:54.600 what the fuck has happened? Yeah. 0:02:54.680 --> 0:02:58.160 I remember calling my parents and the reception was really bad, 0:02:58.200 --> 0:02:59.600 and I was like, oh, I just want to talk 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:02.520 to people normally and calling my best friends and then 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:05.440 being like knowing who Josh was and like, how do 0:03:05.520 --> 0:03:05.840 you know? 0:03:05.960 --> 0:03:08.239 I haven't told you exactly? And I'm in the group 0:03:08.280 --> 0:03:10.000 chat with the boys. They're like talking about like cart 0:03:10.080 --> 0:03:12.760 hearing that, and I was like, what the fuck? You 0:03:12.800 --> 0:03:14.000 know what I mean? I was like, this is wild. 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:16.240 They're like talking about her coming to like our parties 0:03:16.240 --> 0:03:17.800 in that, and I was just like, I was like, 0:03:17.840 --> 0:03:18.480 what the fuck. 0:03:18.600 --> 0:03:23.040 It almost feels like an invasion of privacy because you 0:03:23.080 --> 0:03:25.080 go on the show and you know it's being filmed. 0:03:25.080 --> 0:03:27.400 You know you're being filmed the whole time, and in 0:03:27.440 --> 0:03:30.240 the back of your mind to some level, know that 0:03:30.320 --> 0:03:33.000 people are watching. But when you get your phone back 0:03:33.440 --> 0:03:36.280 and they've actually been watching, You're like, oh my god. 0:03:36.600 --> 0:03:39.800 I remember when I first got my phone back and 0:03:39.880 --> 0:03:41.720 someone had sent me a clip and it was a 0:03:41.720 --> 0:03:46.520 clip of Josh and I in the shower and how 0:03:46.520 --> 0:03:48.720 do I describe this? They had cut me off just 0:03:48.760 --> 0:03:52.760 before the so we basically like are naked in the 0:03:52.760 --> 0:03:58.160 shower together. And I was like, oh my god, I 0:03:58.200 --> 0:04:01.560 am humiliated. And it had like millions of years, so 0:04:01.600 --> 0:04:05.560 I was shocked. I was like, what have I done that, 0:04:05.720 --> 0:04:07.320 I've ruined my life? 0:04:09.040 --> 0:04:10.920 Yeah, I remember that was wild. And then like the 0:04:10.920 --> 0:04:12.720 little clips I was seeing and I was like, I 0:04:12.720 --> 0:04:14.240 even don't even remember saying this. 0:04:14.600 --> 0:04:16.760 I was like, what the it's wild. 0:04:16.880 --> 0:04:19.760 It was next question that you guys want to know, 0:04:20.000 --> 0:04:23.120 do you agree with how they made you look on 0:04:23.200 --> 0:04:23.640 the show. 0:04:24.839 --> 0:04:27.920 We spoke about it before, Yeah, I do, I do. 0:04:28.279 --> 0:04:31.440 I mean, like I said, they pick one bit of 0:04:31.480 --> 0:04:34.720 your personality. They could have picked anything. I mean, I 0:04:34.920 --> 0:04:37.480 was the funny guy I should have been from the start, 0:04:37.920 --> 0:04:39.920 but the way it is, they made me the emotional guy. 0:04:40.120 --> 0:04:43.400 Yeah, the emotional model. Well with the sense of humor. 0:04:43.640 --> 0:04:46.559 I think at the start they wanted me to be 0:04:46.760 --> 0:04:49.360 a bit of like the player ahead and the player, 0:04:50.000 --> 0:04:52.120 and then I think they realized, quick spark that that's 0:04:52.200 --> 0:04:54.880 not my personality. Yeah, I'm not actually like the player, 0:04:55.080 --> 0:04:56.880 Like I come across like that, but. 0:04:59.160 --> 0:05:02.119 Would someone dis I agree, I do it tastefully at least, 0:05:03.080 --> 0:05:06.200 what is being a player tastefully that Like, No, I don't. 0:05:06.040 --> 0:05:08.360 Know, I'm not. I just yeah, I'm not like that. 0:05:08.480 --> 0:05:11.000 Then they realized that quick smart, and they're like, we're 0:05:11.000 --> 0:05:11.760 gonna have to like. 0:05:12.240 --> 0:05:15.800 Adapts adapt said, yeah, I mean, look, I definitely think 0:05:15.960 --> 0:05:20.200 my personality was shown. I definitely was seen to be 0:05:20.279 --> 0:05:22.280 doing a lot of mothering of cars, yeah, which is 0:05:22.279 --> 0:05:26.120 definitely in my personality, and very nurturing my relationship with Josh, 0:05:26.160 --> 0:05:28.159 like we were obsessed with each other, so that was 0:05:28.160 --> 0:05:30.760 seen a lot. The one thing they didn't show is 0:05:30.800 --> 0:05:32.440 if Josh and I had a bit of a fight. 0:05:32.800 --> 0:05:36.240 I remember that that was that like when we, like 0:05:36.360 --> 0:05:37.680 you guys were hating each. 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:39.200 Other, we were having a massive fight. 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:41.760 Yes, thinking the right time. 0:05:41.920 --> 0:05:44.040 Yeah, And I remember we were in the fight and 0:05:44.120 --> 0:05:46.440 Josh got on the bike and they asked a question 0:05:46.480 --> 0:05:49.520 about me and he said something cute and I smiled 0:05:49.560 --> 0:05:51.880 like just like a little bit, And that was the 0:05:51.880 --> 0:05:53.320 only part that they showed. 0:05:53.360 --> 0:05:55.520 And the whole time I was like, I was like 0:05:55.560 --> 0:05:57.799 in a bad mood. I was like this guy. 0:05:57.760 --> 0:05:57.960 Yeah. 0:05:58.080 --> 0:05:58.320 Yeah. 0:05:58.680 --> 0:06:00.400 None of the fights of Josh and I was showing 0:06:00.400 --> 0:06:02.760 because they wanted us to look like this amazing couple 0:06:02.760 --> 0:06:04.640 who were so in love and would never fight. 0:06:05.200 --> 0:06:06.599 But that just wasn't the reality. 0:06:06.720 --> 0:06:09.080 So another question is is love and scripted? Do the 0:06:09.120 --> 0:06:10.520 producers tell you what to do? 0:06:11.240 --> 0:06:12.200 It's not scripted. 0:06:12.400 --> 0:06:14.440 None of it is scripted, none of it. We're out 0:06:14.440 --> 0:06:18.240 there doing our own thing. But the one thing they 0:06:18.240 --> 0:06:21.040 tell you to do would be where to sit to 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:23.120 have certain conversations. 0:06:22.640 --> 0:06:26.000 You and you're constantly probed to talk about your emotions 0:06:26.040 --> 0:06:29.400 with people, even if it's been like ten minutes since 0:06:29.400 --> 0:06:31.280 you said that you like them. They're like, go have 0:06:31.320 --> 0:06:34.520 a chat and discuss how you feel, which is so 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:37.239 uncomfortable and would never happen in real life, but. 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:38.800 That early into a relationships totally. 0:06:39.200 --> 0:06:43.359 I think one thing that people don't really get a 0:06:43.360 --> 0:06:46.080 clear sense of is we obviously go into the beach 0:06:46.160 --> 0:06:50.640 hut to talk with the producers, which comes is edited 0:06:50.720 --> 0:06:53.800 into the footage that they have from the day or 0:06:53.880 --> 0:06:57.160 the week or whatever. And I think you get a 0:06:57.240 --> 0:07:01.159 clear sense of what the producers want you to say. 0:07:01.720 --> 0:07:05.680 And I think that in a way could be classified 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:09.680 as being somewhat manipulated, because they might say to you. 0:07:09.960 --> 0:07:11.960 I remember that they never would straight up asking what 0:07:12.080 --> 0:07:15.000 to say. They would have a roundabout sort of way. 0:07:15.080 --> 0:07:18.440 Yet they would have an angle, and you could tell 0:07:18.520 --> 0:07:20.960 what their angle was, and until you said it. 0:07:20.960 --> 0:07:22.800 You're not getting out of that beacht. You're not coming 0:07:22.840 --> 0:07:23.200 to bed. 0:07:23.880 --> 0:07:27.400 So they'd be like, so, Matt, you like Isabelle and Jordan. 0:07:27.800 --> 0:07:30.440 You actually like Jordan more. But they would be like, 0:07:30.840 --> 0:07:33.120 but we think that you and Isabelle are so cute. 0:07:33.200 --> 0:07:36.400 Let's talk about Isabelle. And then in your head you'd 0:07:36.480 --> 0:07:39.000 know that they wanted you to be with Isabelle. 0:07:39.120 --> 0:07:42.280 Yes, yes, which brings us to the next question, did 0:07:42.280 --> 0:07:46.800 the producers matchmake couples? And I think that I've told you. 0:07:46.880 --> 0:07:48.960 I think that was the only time that I was 0:07:49.040 --> 0:07:52.560 steered in one direction. Yeah, and they never told me 0:07:52.560 --> 0:07:54.720 who to pick, but the way they were talking, they 0:07:54.720 --> 0:07:57.960 steered me to Isabelle away from Jordan, which naturally I 0:07:57.960 --> 0:07:59.920 would have picked Jordan. Yeah, but I felt like I 0:08:00.120 --> 0:08:01.200 was steered in that direction. 0:08:01.320 --> 0:08:03.440 And you've told me that you regret that, right, Yes. 0:08:03.400 --> 0:08:05.360 I do regret not picking Jordan. Yeah, I would have 0:08:05.360 --> 0:08:09.880 picked her. She was definitely my flavor. Yeah. So next 0:08:09.960 --> 0:08:12.480 question we were asked is do any of the couples 0:08:12.480 --> 0:08:13.480 have sex on the show? 0:08:15.200 --> 0:08:18.400 Yeah? I think a lot more than you'd probably think. 0:08:18.720 --> 0:08:18.920 Yeah. 0:08:19.120 --> 0:08:23.080 I remember when I first arrived into the Love Island 0:08:23.160 --> 0:08:26.840 villa and Matt's bed was situated very close to mine. 0:08:27.400 --> 0:08:30.200 I'm comfortably close, and there was a lot of noise 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:35.040 coming from your bed. I was like, wow, like we're 0:08:35.080 --> 0:08:37.480 on camera, like it's the series. 0:08:38.360 --> 0:08:43.600 I remember when I got off what I didn't have 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:48.880 any fants on and you were like fuck, Matt, I 0:08:48.920 --> 0:08:55.520 was like, oh, disgusting. Yeah, I think a lot of 0:08:55.520 --> 0:08:58.080 the couples did. But did it even show any of 0:08:58.080 --> 0:08:58.760 that sort of stuff? 0:08:58.880 --> 0:09:02.679 Yeah, So they definitely don't show anyone having sex obviously, 0:09:02.720 --> 0:09:08.280 because it's not born, but it's implied. It's definitely implied, 0:09:09.000 --> 0:09:11.120 And some people got a worse edit than others. Like 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:14.199 I felt so sorry for Margarita, Like people were getting 0:09:14.280 --> 0:09:17.720 up to serious mischief in the bedroom and they made 0:09:17.720 --> 0:09:21.360 it out like she was going crazy with Blake in 0:09:21.400 --> 0:09:24.520 the bed. So I was like, when I watched it back, 0:09:24.559 --> 0:09:26.160 I was like, I feel bad for Like, if I 0:09:26.559 --> 0:09:29.000 was targeted like that after seeing what everyone else was 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:29.680 getting up to, I. 0:09:29.679 --> 0:09:30.520 Would be pissed. 0:09:30.880 --> 0:09:33.960 Yeah, I mean yeah, I went into the show being like, 0:09:34.200 --> 0:09:37.240 there's no way I'm going to be sleeping with anyone 0:09:37.679 --> 0:09:38.520 on there, Like. 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:40.840 I'm never going to be having sex on camera. 0:09:41.040 --> 0:09:45.360 Like even saying that out loud feels so wild. But yeah, 0:09:45.400 --> 0:09:48.640 when you're sleeping in bed with someone who you really 0:09:48.800 --> 0:09:50.680 like every single night. 0:09:51.080 --> 0:09:51.800 You're only human. 0:09:54.880 --> 0:09:57.640 He'd be surprised what happens under the cover. 0:09:57.800 --> 0:10:03.840 Ye gonna crack it or get angry about that. So 0:10:04.120 --> 0:10:08.319 another question is are there cameras in the Love Island toilets? Yes, sirious, 0:10:08.360 --> 0:10:11.040 there's cameras everywhere. You literally cannot get off camera the 0:10:11.040 --> 0:10:14.040 whole time. Yeah. I remember I was having a little 0:10:14.040 --> 0:10:17.120 silk one time and I was laying on the back 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:22.000 and I literally watched the camera follow me get off, 0:10:22.520 --> 0:10:24.960 like sit somewhere else that I've tried to walk to 0:10:25.000 --> 0:10:27.280 another place, and it literally was following year and I 0:10:27.360 --> 0:10:29.280 was just like, fuck off. I was like, seriously with 0:10:29.400 --> 0:10:30.320 some time to myself. 0:10:30.360 --> 0:10:33.960 And you know what, every single person in there, literally 0:10:34.000 --> 0:10:37.120 within forty eight hours has had a mild to large 0:10:37.200 --> 0:10:40.199 mental breakdown, mainly on the large side, Like I think 0:10:40.240 --> 0:10:41.360 twenty four hours in I. 0:10:41.280 --> 0:10:42.280 Was bawling my eyes out. 0:10:42.440 --> 0:10:46.160 Yeah, but it just wasn't shown because it's such a 0:10:46.240 --> 0:10:50.679 foreign environment. You literally have a breakdown because it's so overwhelming. 0:10:50.800 --> 0:10:53.400 Like the feeling of being in there and being on 0:10:53.480 --> 0:10:56.800 camera twenty four to seven is, without a doubt, the 0:10:56.800 --> 0:10:59.400 most overwhelmed I've ever felt in my life. And I 0:10:59.440 --> 0:11:01.599 remember one so I was also having a bit of 0:11:01.679 --> 0:11:06.200 a breakdown and I just felt claustrophobic, like I felt 0:11:06.240 --> 0:11:08.600 like the walls were closing in on me and I 0:11:08.640 --> 0:11:11.880 couldn't get out, and I actually they could see me 0:11:12.160 --> 0:11:15.200 freaking out and I started crying and they took me 0:11:15.280 --> 0:11:16.960 out to the front of the villa just so I 0:11:16.960 --> 0:11:20.240 could have a breath because I was like, honestly felt 0:11:20.320 --> 0:11:24.600 like just an overwhelming I was basically heading towards having 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:26.360 a panic attack, and I think they could see that, 0:11:26.760 --> 0:11:28.600 and so they took me out the front to just 0:11:29.200 --> 0:11:30.320 take a break breath. 0:11:30.440 --> 0:11:31.280 Yeah. 0:11:31.320 --> 0:11:34.280 Well, in saying there's cameras everywhere and you're aways on camera, 0:11:34.360 --> 0:11:36.880 you do forget though, Like I felt like I forgot 0:11:36.920 --> 0:11:37.720 that I was on camera. 0:11:38.320 --> 0:11:40.959 I mean for the first twenty four hours, I definitely 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:43.680 was watching the cameras and kind of figured out where 0:11:43.720 --> 0:11:44.679 they were all places. 0:11:44.800 --> 0:11:46.839 See, how could you not they were standing there, Like. 0:11:47.160 --> 0:11:51.000 Yeah, yeah, they were everywhere, And I think that was 0:11:51.480 --> 0:11:52.560 a lot to take in. 0:11:52.640 --> 0:11:55.400 But honestly, after the twenty. 0:11:55.160 --> 0:12:00.959 Four hours of your first being in their passes, totally forget, 0:12:01.200 --> 0:12:04.800 like it's such a far distant memory that you're on 0:12:04.920 --> 0:12:06.080 camera because. 0:12:05.840 --> 0:12:07.520 There's a lot of other concerns Other than. 0:12:07.559 --> 0:12:11.320 There's a lot of other concerns, like there's so much drama. 0:12:11.400 --> 0:12:13.360 You're constantly on edge. 0:12:13.440 --> 0:12:17.280 Like we used to always say the moment you felt 0:12:17.320 --> 0:12:20.319 like oh my God, like I can actually relax, something 0:12:20.400 --> 0:12:23.280 really bad would happen and they'd bring someone else in, 0:12:23.480 --> 0:12:27.520 they'd bring in a bomb squad, Like it was constant stress. 0:12:27.640 --> 0:12:30.840 Like I think for seven whole weeks, I was in 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:33.240 a constant state of anxiety. 0:12:33.840 --> 0:12:35.720 The same I reckon I was as well. I used 0:12:35.720 --> 0:12:37.679 to like everyone used to be like, yeah, we've got 0:12:37.679 --> 0:12:40.439 a challenge today. Woo, I'm so excited. And I used 0:12:40.440 --> 0:12:42.360 to sit there like, fuck, what are they gonna do 0:12:42.440 --> 0:12:43.440 to fuck with me today? 0:12:43.600 --> 0:12:46.120 I just like, have I done? 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:46.400 Yeah? 0:12:47.480 --> 0:12:48.880 I was like, what the fuck are they going to 0:12:48.920 --> 0:12:50.920 do to me today? So with other challenges, I wasn't 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:53.280 as stressed as the ones when I was coupled with 0:12:53.400 --> 0:12:54.920 Vanessa because I knew that they were going to try 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:56.640 a driver wedge between me and her. 0:12:56.880 --> 0:13:01.240 Yeah all right. 0:13:01.320 --> 0:13:04.160 So the final question we got was did anyone have 0:13:04.200 --> 0:13:04.800 a breakdown? 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:09.360 I mean, I think everyone had a breakdown at some point. 0:13:10.120 --> 0:13:13.000 Yeah, I definitely did documented that I did. 0:13:13.160 --> 0:13:15.920 I remember I actually because I came in with Phoebe 0:13:16.600 --> 0:13:19.240 and I remember getting in there, and I think I 0:13:19.320 --> 0:13:22.320 adapted to the situation a little bit better than she did. 0:13:22.400 --> 0:13:25.520 And I remember Phoebe just being like, oh my god, 0:13:26.080 --> 0:13:28.120 I know that I'm on a TV show, but I 0:13:28.120 --> 0:13:31.440 didn't expect it to be this full on, like I'm 0:13:31.480 --> 0:13:37.240 being filmed constantly, and she was right like it was insane, 0:13:37.440 --> 0:13:41.160 Like we would be in the shower number one. The 0:13:41.240 --> 0:13:44.360 showers were very communal, like everyone in the whole villa 0:13:44.400 --> 0:13:47.400 saw each other naked. There was no sort of privacy, 0:13:47.480 --> 0:13:50.520 and you have to remember this is people you don't know, 0:13:51.160 --> 0:13:54.319 and you're like trying to form relationships with these people. 0:13:54.840 --> 0:13:57.319 And yeah, Phoebe was just like I can't even shower. 0:13:57.600 --> 0:13:59.320 I remember when I walked out to the shower and 0:13:59.360 --> 0:14:01.640 I'd like look at the cameras and they'd like swing 0:14:01.720 --> 0:14:03.520 onto the shower and I'm like, fuck, just a little 0:14:03.520 --> 0:14:05.360 bit of privacy wouldn't hurt. 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:07.319 Yeah, Like, couldn't go to the bathroom. 0:14:08.080 --> 0:14:09.640 The only thing we were allowed to do is take 0:14:09.679 --> 0:14:12.480 our mics off to actually go to the bathroom. 0:14:12.520 --> 0:14:15.120 But there was a massive, massive camera. 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:16.880 Remember every time I walked in through the bathroom, I 0:14:16.880 --> 0:14:19.240 was like, guys, you don't want to hear this. And 0:14:19.440 --> 0:14:21.480 I was like gotta be a big one, like strip 0:14:21.560 --> 0:14:24.000 the micro right off and throw it on the counter. Yeah. 0:14:24.040 --> 0:14:27.640 Like, it was just constant anxiety, and when you're in 0:14:27.680 --> 0:14:31.200 a state of constant anxiety, breakdowns are inevitable. Yeah, like 0:14:31.600 --> 0:14:35.400 everyone's going to break down. It's really difficult. And as 0:14:35.440 --> 0:14:39.400 we touched on before, everyone's mental health issues really. 0:14:39.120 --> 0:14:40.760 Got brought to the surface. So we're going to talk 0:14:40.760 --> 0:14:45.280 about that next, all. 0:14:45.280 --> 0:14:47.960 Right, and let's discuss the mental health issues that come 0:14:48.000 --> 0:14:51.600 with being on a reality TV show. Obviously, before we 0:14:51.680 --> 0:14:55.280 go on, they do all the psychological testing. They have 0:14:55.320 --> 0:14:58.320 a psychologist watching us the whole time we're on there, 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:01.400 and we have access to him. But that doesn't take 0:15:01.400 --> 0:15:04.400 away from the stuff that comes at being on that show. 0:15:04.840 --> 0:15:09.200 I mean, yeah, I think they definitely, for their own 0:15:09.320 --> 0:15:12.440 legal purposes, have to have a psychologist watching over everything. 0:15:12.520 --> 0:15:14.440 But I mean, there was definitely a few times that 0:15:14.480 --> 0:15:18.080 I would see people hit breaking point and the psychologists 0:15:18.120 --> 0:15:22.120 never really came in to rescue anyone, but people were 0:15:22.200 --> 0:15:25.040 kind of just like talked off alledge in the villa 0:15:25.080 --> 0:15:26.520 because they didn't want anyone to leave. 0:15:26.760 --> 0:15:29.359 I remember when I was having one of my first 0:15:29.400 --> 0:15:33.280 big breakdown in the beach Hut and they offered him 0:15:33.280 --> 0:15:34.760 to me, and I said. 0:15:34.560 --> 0:15:36.840 No, oh, okay, So they did offer him. 0:15:37.040 --> 0:15:38.720 I thought of it as a sign of like I 0:15:38.760 --> 0:15:40.800 was like, no, I don't, like, I'm not that bad, 0:15:40.880 --> 0:15:42.120 do you know what I mean? Like, I didn't want 0:15:42.160 --> 0:15:44.680 it to be portrayed because if I thought in my head, 0:15:44.680 --> 0:15:46.680 if it's that bad. Imagine how it's going to look, 0:15:46.920 --> 0:15:48.240 do you know what I mean? So I was trying to, 0:15:48.280 --> 0:15:51.480 like myself, talk myself out of it, but obviously it 0:15:51.480 --> 0:15:54.360 got aired and I was pulling my eyes out. 0:15:54.480 --> 0:15:57.120 So that's interesting because I didn't know that. So when 0:15:57.160 --> 0:15:59.600 you were crying in the beach Hut and really upset, 0:15:59.680 --> 0:16:03.120 normally only when everyone because literally you weren't the only person. 0:16:03.200 --> 0:16:06.200 Every single person had those moments. But they've just aired 0:16:06.240 --> 0:16:09.560 yours because they were going along with Matt Cryes all 0:16:09.600 --> 0:16:11.240 the time, that type of vibe. 0:16:11.400 --> 0:16:13.480 Yeah, so they aired mine, and they probably didn't air 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:18.000 anyone else's I don't think. Which was not about Vanessa. 0:16:18.240 --> 0:16:20.200 That crying, if you want to know the hot goss, 0:16:20.200 --> 0:16:23.000 it was not about Vanessa. I was missing someone on 0:16:23.040 --> 0:16:27.040 the outside and I was crying about that. It was 0:16:27.040 --> 0:16:30.080 bringing up old emotions from that. Wow, And then they 0:16:30.160 --> 0:16:32.040 made it out like it was Vanessa. 0:16:32.320 --> 0:16:32.600 Wow. 0:16:32.680 --> 0:16:34.520 I was crying about my ex and they made it 0:16:34.560 --> 0:16:37.320 out like it was Vanessa because it was bringing old 0:16:37.320 --> 0:16:38.120 emotions to the search. 0:16:38.240 --> 0:16:40.000 That's some serious tea. Just yeah. 0:16:40.560 --> 0:16:41.720 Yeah. 0:16:41.760 --> 0:16:44.440 So I mean, look, and I think for anyone who 0:16:44.480 --> 0:16:47.240 has never been on a reality TV show, which is 0:16:47.280 --> 0:16:50.960 most people, they run you on not a lot of sleep, 0:16:51.080 --> 0:16:54.200 Like I reckon, we would be getting three to five 0:16:54.240 --> 0:16:57.440 hours of sleep at night mat max max. So there 0:16:57.520 --> 0:16:59.840 was times when the sun was coming up and we 0:17:00.080 --> 0:17:01.520 were only just going to bed. 0:17:01.760 --> 0:17:05.520 So when we film those beach huts, when we're talking 0:17:05.560 --> 0:17:09.520 to the camera, that's after a full day. So when 0:17:09.520 --> 0:17:11.600 we're in our going like our dress up close for 0:17:11.640 --> 0:17:14.359 the night, that's we don't have any concept of time either. 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:16.960 Don't forget that, but that was probably between three to 0:17:17.000 --> 0:17:19.080 four am in the morning. That's why we look so 0:17:19.720 --> 0:17:22.760 like tired and what we're saying is actually complete garbage 0:17:22.800 --> 0:17:23.800 if you think about it. 0:17:24.119 --> 0:17:26.640 Yeah, So just to touch on that more, we don't 0:17:26.640 --> 0:17:31.760 have any clocks watches like obviously phones with time on it, 0:17:31.840 --> 0:17:36.440 so we basically rely on their time schedule. 0:17:36.680 --> 0:17:39.520 Yeah, which they would change, I'm assuming to keep us guessing, 0:17:39.520 --> 0:17:41.680 because I remember sometimes dinner would be when there was sun. 0:17:42.000 --> 0:17:44.960 Sometimes it'd be like felt like hours after the sun 0:17:44.960 --> 0:17:46.520 had set. Yeah, it was wild. 0:17:47.040 --> 0:17:50.080 Yeah, So I mean, yeah, we were definitely overly emotional 0:17:50.119 --> 0:17:52.520 because we were running on a lack of sleep. And 0:17:52.600 --> 0:17:55.320 I remember coming out of the villa and everyone had 0:17:55.320 --> 0:17:58.080 a meeting with the psychologist, and he said to me, 0:17:59.600 --> 0:18:02.120 don't be surprised if you sleep for like a week 0:18:02.240 --> 0:18:05.840 or two weeks straight, because you've not actually been getting 0:18:05.880 --> 0:18:06.920 a lot of sleep in there. 0:18:07.520 --> 0:18:10.840 And he related it somewhat. 0:18:10.400 --> 0:18:14.000 To people who have gone away in the army and 0:18:14.160 --> 0:18:16.480 haven't slept for days on end, and then they'll come 0:18:16.520 --> 0:18:19.479 home and do a massive sleep And basically that's what 0:18:19.560 --> 0:18:23.520 he told me. So even psychologically, I was just like, what, 0:18:24.160 --> 0:18:26.840 like that sounds bizarre, And he was right. I came 0:18:26.920 --> 0:18:29.840 back from Fiji and I slept for like a week 0:18:29.880 --> 0:18:30.520 and a half straight. 0:18:30.640 --> 0:18:32.119 I was exhausted. 0:18:32.840 --> 0:18:35.920