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Speaker 1: Apogee Production. Welcome to the Sheep Risers Podcast. I'm Ashy

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Speaker 1: and I'm Tiana.

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Speaker 2: This podcast is about female empowerment and encouraging you to

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Speaker 2: be your biggest, boldest, and most authentic version of yourself.

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Speaker 1: We help you shed the shame, grow to new level.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna laugh, cry, and talk about the topics everyone

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Speaker 1: else is too afraid to talk about.

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Speaker 2: Get ready for your next level of self.

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Speaker 1: Hello everybody, Welcome back to another week of podcasting with

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Speaker 1: your favorite podcasting hosts, Tiana and Ashy. Back in your ears.

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Speaker 2: We're so excited to be here.

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Speaker 1: This episode actually makes me a bit nervous. If I'm

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Speaker 1: being honest, I'm really nervous for this one.

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Speaker 2: I could throw up a little bit. Yeah, that's like

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Speaker 2: sick feeling in your stomach. We're just like, yeah, everything's

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Speaker 2: off limits here.

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Speaker 1: We had an idea, fun idea that turned out not

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Speaker 1: to be so fun.

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Speaker 2: I felt like, yeah, it took a turn.

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Speaker 1: It really did put up one of those not gonna

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Speaker 1: lie boxes where people can make assumptions about us. We

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Speaker 1: thought it might be like a fun, playful episode, but

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Speaker 1: holy shit, goes a brutal end. The assumptions that came through.

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Speaker 1: I can't even believe that some people actually think this

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Speaker 1: about us.

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Speaker 2: It actually blows my mind. Like you guys did not

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Speaker 2: hold back whatsoever, and like a few of them are

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Speaker 2: pretty brutal, Like we're like, okay, I think we need

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Speaker 2: to delete this. We did, we did.

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Speaker 1: We've got enough for a whole episode. We kept reading

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Speaker 1: this about us. Given a list we've got is quite long,

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Speaker 1: Holy molly. But before we get into that, what's your

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Speaker 1: share of the week?

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Speaker 2: My share of the week is just about diet. So

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Speaker 2: for me recently since New Year, since we went away

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Speaker 2: to Byron. When we were down in Byron, all of

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Speaker 2: us who were there there was like five different couples

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Speaker 2: and everyone was just eating like a carnival diet. It

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Speaker 2: was full of meat and it was awesome to see

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Speaker 2: everyone on it. And since then I felt really good

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Speaker 2: in terms of energy, and I've noticed that my body

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Speaker 2: really responds to like a high protein, high fat diet.

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Speaker 2: So for me, it's a little bit cardival, little bit keto,

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Speaker 2: bit of mix in the middle, and I just have

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Speaker 2: like I'm not eating until like after one o'clock now,

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Speaker 2: and I just have more energy throughout the day, I'm

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Speaker 2: See how you feel, see how your body responds, and

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Speaker 2: give it a go. Honestly, it changed the game for me.

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Speaker 1: You should see Tiana's breakfast. I'm not even kidding you.

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Speaker 1: In Byron, I was like, whoa half an avocado, two eggs,

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Speaker 1: was just like wo but so much food, but just good,

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Speaker 1: high fat, high protein, and you just felt so amazing.

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Speaker 2: So incredible. Yeah, Like I can't even explain to you,

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Speaker 2: no brain fog, no crashes throughout the day, like sustained

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Speaker 2: energy fuels your training sessions as well, which I need.

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Speaker 1: Your body has changed, not that anything was wrong with

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Speaker 1: your body at all. It's perfection, but you've definitely like

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Speaker 1: almost tightened up everything even more, which you've expressed you

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Speaker 1: felt leaner but more toned.

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Speaker 2: good in my body, like I feel like what you mentioned,

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Speaker 1: I just like it.

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Speaker 1: I think we diet. It's so important. I did a

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Speaker 1: whole episode whil you guys can go back and listen

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Speaker 1: to on my food Journey. I think it's really important,

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Speaker 1: as much as you're saying to recommend this everyone to

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Speaker 1: try a different things. Yes, you don't know how your

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Speaker 1: So It's really important to try and see what works

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Speaker 2: What's your sharedly?

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Speaker 1: Oh, mine is one of our favorite restaurants. Mine is

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Speaker 1: Stea's favorite restaurants. A lot of my friend his favorite restaurant,

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Speaker 1: Kaomi in the Casino on the Gold Coast. If you

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Speaker 1: Valentine's Night. It is the most delicious food. The menu,

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Speaker 1: the quality, the way they cook it, the flavors, the steak,

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Speaker 1: the toothfish, even the freaking broccoli and corn are the

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Speaker 1: best broccoln corn I've ever had in last Oh my god. Honestly,

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Speaker 1: the restaurant is Chef's Kiss. Ten out of ten recommendation

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Speaker 1: spicy tuna rolls. Oh, that's right, highly recommend It sounds

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Speaker 1: like this is sponsored. It is not. I would love

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Speaker 2: That would be a dream. Yeah, it is a little

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Speaker 2: bit more pricey, but it's some way that you go

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Speaker 2: or Innoson's birthday or something like that. So if you're

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Speaker 2: the big foodie and you love Japanese, yes, all right,

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Speaker 2: take a breath, guys, we are shook at these assumptions.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely sure, I'll go first. Oh my god, I'm scared, Tiana.

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Speaker 1: Do you feel comfortable having such fake boobs or would

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Speaker 1: is not a dig, just genuinely curious, you know what.

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Speaker 1: This is actually a question on assumption.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, this is a funny one. So when I read this,

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Speaker 2: I was just like, oh my god, that's so funny

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Speaker 2: to read. Because I got my implants when I was

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Speaker 2: So where I'm at right now, I cannot wait to

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Speaker 2: get my implants smaller. Yeah, because the size that they

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Speaker 2: So it's just incongruent with how I feel now and

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Speaker 2: It's probably like a next year thing, yeah, because I

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Speaker 1: Oh gosh.

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Speaker 2: So the assumption is that the previous co host was

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Speaker 2: not a good friend to Ashi. She didn't go visit

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Speaker 1: I think at the end of the day, these are assumptions. Yes,

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Speaker 1: People have lives, people have children, people have shit going on. Now.

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Speaker 1: I would never deem them as a bad friend. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: so that's definitely an outside assumption. But yeah, it's not

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Speaker 2: Do you think it's harder to be friends with other

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Speaker 2: I bloody loved this new podcast.

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Speaker 1: Oh it's nice. Well that's more of a question, not

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Speaker 1: No, I kind of think it's a little bit easier

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Speaker 1: I don't really I don't know. I don't really have

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Speaker 1: But I love having friends that are in this world

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Speaker 1: And I think there's so much power in collaboration. You

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Speaker 1: I have sex every single day. No, we don't have

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Speaker 2: is spicy.

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00:18:26,681 --> 00:18:29,321
Speaker 1: Wow. What do you have to say about that? Oh

432
00:18:29,360 --> 00:18:32,360
Speaker 1: my god, I don't think you would like no.

433
00:18:32,561 --> 00:18:34,961
Speaker 2: One, It's not something that I would want to become

434
00:18:34,961 --> 00:18:35,521
Speaker 2: famous from.

435
00:18:35,681 --> 00:18:38,520
Speaker 1: Gosh. No, you know, I mean in hindsight, with only fans. Now,

436
00:18:38,521 --> 00:18:39,881
Speaker 1: maybe you could have made some money, but you made

437
00:18:39,921 --> 00:18:41,721
Speaker 1: any money off that? No, I didn't make any money

438
00:18:41,761 --> 00:18:42,601
Speaker 1: off you know what I mean?

439
00:18:42,681 --> 00:18:44,401
Speaker 2: Like and yeah, like saying like, you know, I wanted

440
00:18:44,441 --> 00:18:46,961
Speaker 2: to be famous like Kim K, but not like this. No,

441
00:18:47,001 --> 00:18:49,720
Speaker 2: you know, it's just so different and plays victim. I

442
00:18:49,721 --> 00:18:52,521
Speaker 2: wouldn't say that. I mean, I don't know. Maybe on

443
00:18:52,521 --> 00:18:54,160
Speaker 2: the outside it might look like that, but I definitely

444
00:18:54,241 --> 00:18:55,961
Speaker 2: don't feel like I do. I feel like I've taken

445
00:18:56,001 --> 00:18:59,121
Speaker 2: a lot of responsibility for the choices that I made

446
00:18:59,120 --> 00:19:03,281
Speaker 2: that got me into that position, and also the outcome

447
00:19:03,321 --> 00:19:05,041
Speaker 2: of that was out of my hands as well. Yeah,

448
00:19:05,201 --> 00:19:07,201
Speaker 2: it was also the behavior and choices of somebody else

449
00:19:07,201 --> 00:19:08,280
Speaker 2: who decided to do that.

450
00:19:08,521 --> 00:19:09,561
Speaker 1: You were a victim to that?

451
00:19:09,921 --> 00:19:12,561
Speaker 2: Yeah, Yeah, No, I don't think that I play victim

452
00:19:12,561 --> 00:19:15,281
Speaker 2: to it. I don't think I've ever spoken spoken to

453
00:19:15,321 --> 00:19:16,960
Speaker 2: it in a way where I've been like poor me,

454
00:19:17,041 --> 00:19:19,241
Speaker 2: Oh my god, feel bad for me, pity me. Anytime

455
00:19:19,281 --> 00:19:22,201
Speaker 2: that I've shared it has simply been to build awareness

456
00:19:22,201 --> 00:19:26,921
Speaker 2: for other women of two things. One awareness of your

457
00:19:26,961 --> 00:19:30,720
Speaker 2: boundaries and being like strong enough in yourself to honor

458
00:19:30,761 --> 00:19:32,480
Speaker 2: what you need in the moment when you need it.

459
00:19:33,080 --> 00:19:37,200
Speaker 2: And two that these things are possible happening, and you

460
00:19:37,281 --> 00:19:39,641
Speaker 2: never think that it will happen until it happens to you.

461
00:19:39,761 --> 00:19:42,760
Speaker 2: So for me, it's about building awareness and just helping

462
00:19:42,801 --> 00:19:46,081
Speaker 2: you realize that you can prevent these situations if you're

463
00:19:46,120 --> 00:19:48,281
Speaker 2: strong in your boundaries, you know who you are and

464
00:19:48,321 --> 00:19:50,360
Speaker 2: what you want, and you know where you're no lies.

465
00:19:50,640 --> 00:19:53,041
Speaker 2: Yeah that's really important to me. So good.

466
00:19:53,321 --> 00:19:56,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, as she always threatens her ex besties with legal

467
00:19:56,681 --> 00:20:02,001
Speaker 1: action during friendship breakdowns, false never happened. No, no, and no,

468
00:20:02,761 --> 00:20:03,440
Speaker 1: you're up next.

469
00:20:03,640 --> 00:20:05,681
Speaker 2: I feel like I've taken t I've kind of seen

470
00:20:05,761 --> 00:20:08,680
Speaker 2: my face that I just pulled before reading this out. Gosh,

471
00:20:09,801 --> 00:20:12,161
Speaker 2: I've heard Tiana had a massive falling out with two bessies,

472
00:20:12,241 --> 00:20:15,401
Speaker 2: all in the coaching industry. So I had a friendship

473
00:20:15,441 --> 00:20:18,080
Speaker 2: breakdown with one of my old best friends.

474
00:20:18,561 --> 00:20:19,961
Speaker 1: So, firstly, is the assumption true?

475
00:20:20,961 --> 00:20:23,721
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I mean I guess yeah, like by her standards, yes,

476
00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:26,441
Speaker 2: by my standards, a friendship breakdown, it's.

477
00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:28,720
Speaker 1: The same thing. I don't know, I think, so yeah.

478
00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:32,521
Speaker 2: Okay, So is the assumption true, I mean technically yes, yeah. Yeah.

479
00:20:32,561 --> 00:20:34,920
Speaker 2: So we did end up having just like a falling out.

480
00:20:34,961 --> 00:20:37,801
Speaker 2: Our friendship ended up breaking down, and it was really

481
00:20:37,801 --> 00:20:40,640
Speaker 2: with only one of the girls who was my best

482
00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:42,640
Speaker 2: friend at the time, and then the other woman who

483
00:20:42,721 --> 00:20:45,081
Speaker 2: was We were like a tripod kind of friendship, and

484
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:47,721
Speaker 2: she naturally decided with her because she was closer with her.

485
00:20:48,241 --> 00:20:51,161
Speaker 2: And so, yeah, it is true. But I wouldn't say

486
00:20:51,160 --> 00:20:54,481
Speaker 2: that it ended like crazy bad. I mean, there were

487
00:20:54,521 --> 00:20:56,360
Speaker 2: some things that were said about me that I know

488
00:20:56,441 --> 00:20:59,360
Speaker 2: are not true that I've heard from other people who

489
00:20:59,360 --> 00:21:02,480
Speaker 2: have told me. But yeah, I mean in my standards,

490
00:21:02,600 --> 00:21:06,321
Speaker 2: it was we were like not on line as friends anymore,

491
00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:08,680
Speaker 2: and like I was super anxious, and I was also

492
00:21:08,961 --> 00:21:13,041
Speaker 2: taking full responsibility at that time, feeling really insecure in

493
00:21:13,080 --> 00:21:15,600
Speaker 2: our friendship. I was also a little bit resentful as well,

494
00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:17,801
Speaker 2: because I was in this really people pleasing kind of

495
00:21:17,801 --> 00:21:20,400
Speaker 2: phase of my journey, and so I wouldn't say what

496
00:21:20,441 --> 00:21:22,001
Speaker 2: I wanted to do. I wouldn't do the things I

497
00:21:22,001 --> 00:21:23,361
Speaker 2: wanted to do, and I was kind of always going

498
00:21:23,360 --> 00:21:25,161
Speaker 2: with the flow. And so I got to a point

499
00:21:25,201 --> 00:21:28,041
Speaker 2: where I did have little passive aggressive stabs and things

500
00:21:28,041 --> 00:21:29,921
Speaker 2: like that that would come out in a really non

501
00:21:29,921 --> 00:21:33,840
Speaker 2: productive way. And so yeah, I believe that contributed to

502
00:21:34,201 --> 00:21:37,121
Speaker 2: our friendship breaking down and her potentially not feeling as

503
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:39,241
Speaker 2: safe as what she did in the beginning of our friendship.

504
00:21:39,600 --> 00:21:42,761
Speaker 2: But we were living together, we were doing everything together.

505
00:21:42,801 --> 00:21:44,960
Speaker 2: She was also my business coach, my best friend. We

506
00:21:45,001 --> 00:21:47,480
Speaker 2: spent every single waking moment together, going to the gym together,

507
00:21:47,561 --> 00:21:49,080
Speaker 2: so we were on top of each other all the time,

508
00:21:49,640 --> 00:21:51,961
Speaker 2: and it just worked out that way that it didn't

509
00:21:52,001 --> 00:21:55,521
Speaker 2: work out at the time. I couldn't hold my anxiousness

510
00:21:55,561 --> 00:21:57,641
Speaker 2: in the way that I can now. It's not even

511
00:21:57,681 --> 00:22:00,121
Speaker 2: a problem for me now, whereas before, I think even

512
00:22:00,160 --> 00:22:02,081
Speaker 2: she couldn't hold me in my anxiousness. So there were

513
00:22:02,201 --> 00:22:04,400
Speaker 2: a few things that kind of like fell apart. I

514
00:22:04,441 --> 00:22:06,400
Speaker 2: am disappoint it in the things that I've heard that

515
00:22:06,441 --> 00:22:08,881
Speaker 2: have been said about me, If I'm being honest, I'm

516
00:22:08,921 --> 00:22:11,801
Speaker 2: really disappointed about that because I was a friend, a

517
00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:13,881
Speaker 2: good friend. Yeah, I was a good friend. I did

518
00:22:13,880 --> 00:22:15,360
Speaker 2: so many things so her children, and I was like

519
00:22:15,360 --> 00:22:16,961
Speaker 2: a second mom to them and stuff, and they meant

520
00:22:16,961 --> 00:22:19,160
Speaker 2: a lot to me, you know, just I couldn't handle

521
00:22:19,281 --> 00:22:20,241
Speaker 2: my own shit at the time.

522
00:22:20,441 --> 00:22:22,400
Speaker 1: So I hear from that or not all. But is

523
00:22:22,441 --> 00:22:25,440
Speaker 1: that takes two to tango? Yeah, you both play your roles.

524
00:22:25,481 --> 00:22:27,120
Speaker 1: It's not here to blame or to take all the

525
00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:31,720
Speaker 1: responsibility either. Every breakdown there is two sides to the story,

526
00:22:31,761 --> 00:22:34,561
Speaker 1: and both sides are often very true because it's that

527
00:22:34,640 --> 00:22:38,520
Speaker 1: individual person's experience. You know, with every breakdown that you

528
00:22:38,561 --> 00:22:40,321
Speaker 1: see or that you go through, or that you've heard

529
00:22:40,321 --> 00:22:43,121
Speaker 1: of or you know of, there's two people in it. Yeah,

530
00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:46,561
Speaker 1: it's true, sometimes three, sometimes three, and everyone's got their

531
00:22:46,561 --> 00:22:48,921
Speaker 1: own experience and everyone plays their role.

532
00:22:49,041 --> 00:22:51,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, And I'm not like discrediting anybody's experience, like everyone

533
00:22:52,041 --> 00:22:54,321
Speaker 2: gets to have their experience, this was mine. Yes, And

534
00:22:54,360 --> 00:22:56,321
Speaker 2: then also again I'm still taking responsibility.

535
00:22:56,481 --> 00:22:57,960
Speaker 1: It was I just allowed to tell your story.

536
00:22:58,080 --> 00:23:00,041
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I still feel like I'm not even like

537
00:23:00,681 --> 00:23:02,801
Speaker 2: you know, yeah, it's not there's things that are just

538
00:23:02,840 --> 00:23:05,521
Speaker 2: not worth sharing, Like I'm not here to lie, bad

539
00:23:05,561 --> 00:23:08,240
Speaker 2: mouth anybody or anything. Like I'd rather just take responsibility

540
00:23:08,281 --> 00:23:10,201
Speaker 2: for its mine and leave what's not leave the rest

541
00:23:10,201 --> 00:23:12,281
Speaker 2: in the past kind of thing, you know what that Yeah.

542
00:23:12,080 --> 00:23:15,721
Speaker 1: That's awesome. Would you class yourselves as bisexual and would

543
00:23:15,721 --> 00:23:18,200
Speaker 1: you be open to experimenting with women and your husband

544
00:23:18,201 --> 00:23:18,880
Speaker 1: and boyfriend?

545
00:23:19,441 --> 00:23:24,161
Speaker 2: Oh my god, No, I don't class myself as bisexual.

546
00:23:24,721 --> 00:23:26,080
Speaker 2: I've never been with a woman.

547
00:23:25,921 --> 00:23:28,640
Speaker 1: And bisexual that would mean that you would be open

548
00:23:28,681 --> 00:23:32,120
Speaker 1: to having a relationship with a woman. It's not just

549
00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:34,641
Speaker 1: to experiment and play. That's what I would my understanding.

550
00:23:34,761 --> 00:23:35,801
Speaker 2: It's like I'm dating a woman.

551
00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:37,640
Speaker 1: I'm dating a woman, which I have never done, and

552
00:23:37,681 --> 00:23:38,721
Speaker 1: I don't think I ever would do.

553
00:23:39,321 --> 00:23:41,400
Speaker 2: I'm the same. I think women beautiful when women are

554
00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:44,440
Speaker 2: the coolest in the video, but I've never dated a woman.

555
00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:46,441
Speaker 2: I don't think I could ever be with a woman either.

556
00:23:46,561 --> 00:23:49,001
Speaker 2: I love men, too much, like I do. I love

557
00:23:49,360 --> 00:23:51,360
Speaker 2: We were talking about this the other day. I love

558
00:23:51,761 --> 00:23:55,920
Speaker 2: the masculine feel that men have, that safety and provider

559
00:23:56,120 --> 00:23:59,721
Speaker 2: that protector energy. Are like so attracted to that, draw

560
00:23:59,801 --> 00:24:02,160
Speaker 2: into it, so drawn to it. However, we have had

561
00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:05,880
Speaker 2: a conversation of curiosity of like, oh, would be open

562
00:24:05,921 --> 00:24:09,201
Speaker 2: to this? In my head, like in terms of a fantasy,

563
00:24:09,561 --> 00:24:12,200
Speaker 2: it sounds cool on paper, like you know, I'd be like, oh, like,

564
00:24:12,201 --> 00:24:14,920
Speaker 2: would I want to try that? Maybe? But have I

565
00:24:14,961 --> 00:24:15,761
Speaker 2: had the balls to know?

566
00:24:16,041 --> 00:24:18,720
Speaker 1: I've played around a little bit with a girl before,

567
00:24:19,321 --> 00:24:23,041
Speaker 1: and I'm open and I'm curious. However, when I was single,

568
00:24:23,840 --> 00:24:26,360
Speaker 1: I had a girlfriend who was bisexual and she played

569
00:24:26,360 --> 00:24:28,801
Speaker 1: with me more so. Yeah, so I haven't actually done

570
00:24:28,801 --> 00:24:31,680
Speaker 1: a lot for women. I find women very beautiful and

571
00:24:31,721 --> 00:24:35,200
Speaker 1: I'm very drawn too feminine energy because they're so soft

572
00:24:35,241 --> 00:24:36,720
Speaker 1: and sensual and safe.

573
00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:36,840
Speaker 2: Yeah.

574
00:24:36,961 --> 00:24:39,160
Speaker 1: I just love connection. I value that so much, and

575
00:24:39,160 --> 00:24:41,921
Speaker 1: that's something women to women to connect on so much.

576
00:24:42,041 --> 00:24:44,360
Speaker 1: There's a lot of depth there with women. But yes,

577
00:24:44,481 --> 00:24:47,041
Speaker 1: I don't think I could ever date women, but yeah,

578
00:24:47,281 --> 00:24:48,360
Speaker 1: curious maybe.

579
00:24:48,561 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what as well, listen to this like

580
00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:57,681
Speaker 2: oh hello again, It's like interesting conversation ladies. And there

581
00:24:57,681 --> 00:24:59,400
Speaker 2: have been times like when I was younger, where I

582
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:00,761
Speaker 2: would like get drunk and like cook it with my

583
00:25:00,761 --> 00:25:03,681
Speaker 2: girlfriends and all that. I feel like everyone does that.

584
00:25:03,761 --> 00:25:05,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like about this all the time. We

585
00:25:05,961 --> 00:25:08,480
Speaker 1: go to discos or just like events and we just

586
00:25:08,481 --> 00:25:11,161
Speaker 1: hook up on the dance floor because everyone's like, yeah girls. Yeah.

587
00:25:11,241 --> 00:25:13,721
Speaker 2: I think it's definitely like that's like fifteen at the time.

588
00:25:13,761 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 2: At least it wasn't like, oh, I'm like doing this

589
00:25:16,120 --> 00:25:19,121
Speaker 2: because I'm into you. It's like, oh, we're drunk shit.

590
00:25:19,281 --> 00:25:21,921
Speaker 1: Never more for show. Yeah, it's more for show show

591
00:25:21,961 --> 00:25:24,001
Speaker 1: and pressure and just being young. Yeah.

592
00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:24,440
Speaker 2: Yeah.

593
00:25:24,640 --> 00:25:26,360
Speaker 1: So no, definitely not bisexual.

594
00:25:27,120 --> 00:25:29,521
Speaker 2: People think you started drama with the previous co host,

595
00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:33,120
Speaker 2: hence why you guys aren't friends anymore? As she the

596
00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:33,960
Speaker 2: floor is yours.

597
00:25:34,201 --> 00:25:38,640
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, No, not at all. I loved our friendship.

598
00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:41,680
Speaker 1: I would never in a million years thought that we

599
00:25:41,721 --> 00:25:44,440
Speaker 1: would have our friendship breakdown. When she came to me

600
00:25:44,481 --> 00:25:47,400
Speaker 1: and wanted to leave the podcast because she needed to

601
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:49,641
Speaker 1: be there for her family more, I was in full support.

602
00:25:50,201 --> 00:25:52,880
Speaker 1: I even tried not to show my emotions of her

603
00:25:52,961 --> 00:25:55,121
Speaker 1: leaving because I didn't want her to ever feel pressure

604
00:25:55,521 --> 00:25:58,241
Speaker 1: I just wanted to support what she needed in that time.

605
00:25:58,721 --> 00:26:00,881
Speaker 1: And then when she encouraged me to a new podcast hosts,

606
00:26:00,921 --> 00:26:03,121
Speaker 1: I did that. The friendship was all good. It wasn't

607
00:26:03,201 --> 00:26:06,360
Speaker 1: until later on when the friendship broke down, but starting

608
00:26:06,441 --> 00:26:08,840
Speaker 1: drama with one of my best friends. That could not

609
00:26:08,921 --> 00:26:12,521
Speaker 1: be more further from the truth. All I ever wanted

610
00:26:12,640 --> 00:26:15,840
Speaker 1: was to prepare to talk, to communicate, and that was

611
00:26:15,840 --> 00:26:17,920
Speaker 1: something that wasn't able to happen.

612
00:26:18,281 --> 00:26:20,721
Speaker 2: Someone who's been there from the beginning of the journey

613
00:26:20,921 --> 00:26:22,721
Speaker 2: like it just it's so far from the truth.

614
00:26:22,721 --> 00:26:25,761
Speaker 1: It's so funny. You could literally interview our podcast producers,

615
00:26:25,801 --> 00:26:28,640
Speaker 1: everyone involved, and they would back that to the cows

616
00:26:28,681 --> 00:26:33,120
Speaker 1: come home. Yeah, that is total opposite. Got to expect

617
00:26:33,120 --> 00:26:35,241
Speaker 1: these to come in, and we wanted to bring all

618
00:26:35,241 --> 00:26:36,761
Speaker 1: of these in because we know so many of you

619
00:26:36,801 --> 00:26:38,801
Speaker 1: are curious about so much of this. Maybe not the

620
00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:45,240
Speaker 1: sexual stuff, but yeah, next, is Tiana even qualified to

621
00:26:45,241 --> 00:26:48,121
Speaker 1: be a life coach at only age twenty six?

622
00:26:48,281 --> 00:26:51,281
Speaker 2: Yes? Oh my god, that's so funny. I mean, depends

623
00:26:51,281 --> 00:26:53,680
Speaker 2: how you're measuring. I get this projection a lot. Actually,

624
00:26:53,801 --> 00:26:56,240
Speaker 2: I've seen it online. I've seen people be like, oh, like,

625
00:26:56,241 --> 00:26:58,840
Speaker 2: you're too young. This and that, and I get that. Like,

626
00:26:58,880 --> 00:27:00,761
Speaker 2: don't get me wrong, if I was somebody who was

627
00:27:01,281 --> 00:27:03,840
Speaker 2: my senior and I was looking for someone to support me,

628
00:27:04,441 --> 00:27:06,120
Speaker 2: would I think that I was call it fed to

629
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:09,321
Speaker 2: support me? I don't know. It depends what fall right.

630
00:27:09,360 --> 00:27:10,840
Speaker 2: I don't know what it would be like if I

631
00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:13,880
Speaker 2: were in that position. However, I don't look at age.

632
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:18,281
Speaker 2: I don't think age equals competency or skills equivalent in

633
00:27:18,321 --> 00:27:21,361
Speaker 2: life experience. And that's how I base me and what

634
00:27:21,441 --> 00:27:24,281
Speaker 2: I do of is that I'm a coach because I've

635
00:27:24,321 --> 00:27:26,440
Speaker 2: been able to coach myself through what I believe is

636
00:27:26,441 --> 00:27:29,041
Speaker 2: a significant amount of challenging things in my life. And

637
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:31,961
Speaker 2: I believe that there are really valuable lessons that I've

638
00:27:32,041 --> 00:27:34,720
Speaker 2: learned that I help a lot of women through, and

639
00:27:34,761 --> 00:27:36,281
Speaker 2: I have been able to help a lot of women

640
00:27:36,321 --> 00:27:38,761
Speaker 2: through in the past. And you know what's really interesting,

641
00:27:39,201 --> 00:27:41,561
Speaker 2: A lot of my clients are anywhere up to like

642
00:27:41,721 --> 00:27:45,720
Speaker 2: forty three years old, women who were literally double my age,

643
00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:47,880
Speaker 2: putting all of their trust and faith in me to

644
00:27:48,001 --> 00:27:50,521
Speaker 2: lead them in something that they don't feel they have

645
00:27:50,561 --> 00:27:52,880
Speaker 2: a strong suit in, whereas I do. You know, and

646
00:27:52,961 --> 00:27:55,400
Speaker 2: vice versa. There are things that you know other women,

647
00:27:55,481 --> 00:27:58,760
Speaker 2: or other coaches or whoever else, who is you know,

648
00:27:58,961 --> 00:28:01,080
Speaker 2: more skilled at than I am. Say, for example, one

649
00:28:01,120 --> 00:28:03,921
Speaker 2: of my clients, she's got two daughters, she's forty two,

650
00:28:04,360 --> 00:28:07,241
Speaker 2: and she's more skilled at being a parent. She has

651
00:28:07,441 --> 00:28:10,161
Speaker 2: patience for children in a way that I wouldn't because

652
00:28:10,201 --> 00:28:13,440
Speaker 2: I haven't had that experience yet. However, in terms of confidence,

653
00:28:13,681 --> 00:28:17,120
Speaker 2: her struggling with confidence for thirty three years something that

654
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:20,080
Speaker 2: I've been able to overcome. I can lead her through

655
00:28:20,080 --> 00:28:22,840
Speaker 2: that and condense the time that she gets there. And

656
00:28:22,961 --> 00:28:24,680
Speaker 2: she's been dealing with this with thirty three years and

657
00:28:24,801 --> 00:28:27,881
Speaker 2: was able to overcome it within three months, not one

658
00:28:27,961 --> 00:28:31,640
Speaker 2: hundred percent, but fully, fully on the journey of her

659
00:28:31,681 --> 00:28:34,321
Speaker 2: feeling comfortable in her own skin after thirty three years.

660
00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:37,160
Speaker 2: So again it depends how you're measuring. Do you believe

661
00:28:37,201 --> 00:28:39,481
Speaker 2: that I'm confident? I don't know. That's maybe your own

662
00:28:39,481 --> 00:28:41,641
Speaker 2: thing and there's no judgment, Like if you think that

663
00:28:41,641 --> 00:28:44,001
Speaker 2: that's totally fine, you feel you can have that one

664
00:28:44,041 --> 00:28:46,361
Speaker 2: hundred percent. You might feel more comfortable with somebod who's

665
00:28:46,361 --> 00:28:48,961
Speaker 2: little bit older. You might want somebody who's been through

666
00:28:49,001 --> 00:28:51,321
Speaker 2: the things that you've been through. You might maybe if

667
00:28:51,321 --> 00:28:53,801
Speaker 2: you experience sexual shame. I'm probably a good person to

668
00:28:53,841 --> 00:28:56,681
Speaker 2: go to because I've experienced that. So it just really

669
00:28:56,681 --> 00:28:59,481
Speaker 2: depends where you're at, what you want, and who you

670
00:28:59,561 --> 00:29:00,241
Speaker 2: resonate with.

671
00:29:00,321 --> 00:29:01,681
Speaker 1: Actually, yeahred percent.

672
00:29:01,721 --> 00:29:05,001
Speaker 2: Who you feel safe with as a coach is so important.

673
00:29:05,441 --> 00:29:07,441
Speaker 1: Yeah. I had this projection come at me the other day,

674
00:29:07,481 --> 00:29:10,121
Speaker 1: actually about Claudia, who I hired for the social content

675
00:29:10,121 --> 00:29:12,361
Speaker 1: for Hideaway. And I had a girl and she's swiped.

676
00:29:12,441 --> 00:29:15,321
Speaker 1: She said, why did you hire Claudia? She's fun? I

677
00:29:15,361 --> 00:29:17,561
Speaker 1: found her on TikTok. I just thought she matched exactly

678
00:29:17,561 --> 00:29:19,921
Speaker 1: what I was envisioning to bring to life to the brand.

679
00:29:20,281 --> 00:29:22,081
Speaker 1: And she wrote back and she said, is she qualified

680
00:29:22,081 --> 00:29:24,881
Speaker 1: at anything? Has she started marketing? She's so young? What

681
00:29:24,961 --> 00:29:27,041
Speaker 1: was her experience? And like fully asking me all these questions.

682
00:29:27,041 --> 00:29:30,081
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh interesting, And I voiced message

683
00:29:30,081 --> 00:29:32,041
Speaker 1: back as I do sometimes, and I said, look, I

684
00:29:32,081 --> 00:29:35,401
Speaker 1: don't discredit qualifications. I've got Ava who's studying marketing. I've

685
00:29:35,441 --> 00:29:37,521
Speaker 1: got Georgia who's young and has done her degree in

686
00:29:37,521 --> 00:29:40,601
Speaker 1: marketing and business. I think qualifications are amazing and serve

687
00:29:40,641 --> 00:29:42,841
Speaker 1: their purpose, but it's not all I'm going to look

688
00:29:42,841 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 1: for when I hire. I'm big on energy. I'm big

689
00:29:46,121 --> 00:29:49,480
Speaker 1: on passion. I'm big on people being really honed in

690
00:29:49,521 --> 00:29:51,841
Speaker 1: on their nie. She's a gen z. She's all over

691
00:29:51,881 --> 00:29:54,240
Speaker 1: social media. I could see just from what she posts

692
00:29:54,241 --> 00:29:56,361
Speaker 1: that's exactly what I wanted to bring them hideaway. I

693
00:29:56,361 --> 00:29:59,200
Speaker 1: could bring someone in who's thirty, who has lots of

694
00:29:59,281 --> 00:30:01,961
Speaker 1: experience in marketing, who's been in the issue for years,

695
00:30:01,961 --> 00:30:04,681
Speaker 1: and lots of unity degrees. They don't have the personality.

696
00:30:05,241 --> 00:30:07,041
Speaker 1: It's not all about that. And it's the same with

697
00:30:07,521 --> 00:30:13,841
Speaker 1: life coaches versus psychologists, vers psychotherapists, counselors, energy healers. They

698
00:30:14,041 --> 00:30:16,641
Speaker 1: all serve their purpose and it depends on who you

699
00:30:16,681 --> 00:30:19,561
Speaker 1: are and what you're looking for personally. I love life

700
00:30:19,561 --> 00:30:23,081
Speaker 1: coaches because I feel the relationship I build with them

701
00:30:23,161 --> 00:30:25,721
Speaker 1: is a lot more personal and relatable, and they're more

702
00:30:25,721 --> 00:30:28,601
Speaker 1: open to sharing their stuff. I resonate with that a

703
00:30:28,641 --> 00:30:30,601
Speaker 1: lot more, and I've grown so much more from them

704
00:30:30,641 --> 00:30:32,881
Speaker 1: than compared to when I've gone to a psychologist. I've

705
00:30:32,881 --> 00:30:35,401
Speaker 1: had Steff who's a food psychologist, on the podcast twice

706
00:30:35,401 --> 00:30:38,001
Speaker 1: now and I think she's incredible. What she does depends

707
00:30:38,041 --> 00:30:39,721
Speaker 1: on who you are and what you're needing, and yeah,

708
00:30:39,721 --> 00:30:43,361
Speaker 1: how you're measuring. Yeah, so it's a cool question. Cool assumption. Yeah,

709
00:30:43,681 --> 00:30:44,801
Speaker 1: I've got to tackle that one.

710
00:30:45,161 --> 00:30:48,361
Speaker 2: I assume you are rich both happiness and money, but

711
00:30:48,401 --> 00:30:50,681
Speaker 2: you can just buy whatever you want when you want it.

712
00:30:51,121 --> 00:30:53,201
Speaker 1: Look, I'd love to buy a g wagon outright, it's

713
00:30:53,241 --> 00:30:55,521
Speaker 1: not happening. I'm not in a position to buy a

714
00:30:55,561 --> 00:30:57,761
Speaker 1: g wagon outright. They're like five hundred grand. Yeah, oh

715
00:30:57,761 --> 00:31:00,841
Speaker 1: my god. But do I live a comfortable life? Yes,

716
00:31:01,401 --> 00:31:03,321
Speaker 1: But no, I can't just buy whenever I want, whenever

717
00:31:03,321 --> 00:31:07,641
Speaker 1: I want. Yeah, I'm not Kim Kardashian. Literally, I wish.

718
00:31:07,601 --> 00:31:10,521
Speaker 2: Many shiny things. But no, No, I definitely feel very

719
00:31:10,601 --> 00:31:13,641
Speaker 2: rich in terms of happiness. I feel very content with

720
00:31:13,681 --> 00:31:16,480
Speaker 2: life at the moment. However, it hasn't always been like that,

721
00:31:16,641 --> 00:31:19,240
Speaker 2: and even the contrast of my life from now to

722
00:31:19,601 --> 00:31:22,440
Speaker 2: a year ago or six months ago, if I had

723
00:31:22,441 --> 00:31:24,361
Speaker 2: answered this question, it probably would have looked a little

724
00:31:24,401 --> 00:31:26,441
Speaker 2: differently because I was in a bit of a trenches

725
00:31:26,561 --> 00:31:29,881
Speaker 2: kind of season. However, now I just feel really grateful,

726
00:31:29,921 --> 00:31:32,641
Speaker 2: really happy, blessed for the people in my life, and

727
00:31:32,721 --> 00:31:36,521
Speaker 2: just rich in love, connection and all those things. In

728
00:31:36,601 --> 00:31:38,961
Speaker 2: terms of money, there's always room to grow, Like, I'm

729
00:31:38,961 --> 00:31:40,801
Speaker 2: definitely not at the point that I would want to

730
00:31:40,841 --> 00:31:42,161
Speaker 2: be because I'm always.

731
00:31:41,881 --> 00:31:42,841
Speaker 1: Can't retire tomorrow.

732
00:31:42,961 --> 00:31:45,001
Speaker 2: Yes, I can't retire tomorrow. I would love to also

733
00:31:45,081 --> 00:31:47,201
Speaker 2: get a g wagon, but that's not happening today or tomorrow.

734
00:31:47,521 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 2: But yeah, I'm always striving for more. So am I

735
00:31:50,241 --> 00:31:52,681
Speaker 2: at the point that I want to be? No? Am

736
00:31:52,681 --> 00:31:54,721
Speaker 2: I okay with where I'm at? Absolutely? Do I feel

737
00:31:54,721 --> 00:31:55,921
Speaker 2: comfortable with where I'm at? Yeah?

738
00:31:55,921 --> 00:31:56,201
Speaker 1: I do.

739
00:31:56,761 --> 00:31:58,401
Speaker 2: But I want more?

740
00:31:58,561 --> 00:32:00,601
Speaker 1: Yeah, I want more.

741
00:32:00,641 --> 00:32:03,601
Speaker 2: Giving myself permission to want more, you know, and always

742
00:32:03,681 --> 00:32:06,201
Speaker 2: like being okay that I'm always going to want more

743
00:32:06,241 --> 00:32:08,520
Speaker 2: because I'm always going to want to strive and achieve

744
00:32:08,521 --> 00:32:10,201
Speaker 2: it a new level. The more it's a new level.

745
00:32:10,201 --> 00:32:12,761
Speaker 2: It's like proving to myself when I'm capable of achieving

746
00:32:12,841 --> 00:32:15,841
Speaker 2: and overcoming and again who you become on the journey.

747
00:32:15,921 --> 00:32:18,601
Speaker 1: It's also hitting goals too, It's like hit a million

748
00:32:18,601 --> 00:32:20,921
Speaker 1: downloads and podcasts. It's like, amazing, Now I'm going to

749
00:32:21,001 --> 00:32:21,401
Speaker 1: go for two.

750
00:32:21,481 --> 00:32:21,721
Speaker 2: Yeah.

751
00:32:21,721 --> 00:32:24,721
Speaker 1: When you hit different levels of finances, you aim higher.

752
00:32:25,001 --> 00:32:27,480
Speaker 1: It's just the natural progression of it all. It really is,

753
00:32:27,561 --> 00:32:30,321
Speaker 1: you know what, I feel rich into health after having

754
00:32:30,321 --> 00:32:33,481
Speaker 1: my brain surgery and finding out about my brain aneurysms.

755
00:32:34,001 --> 00:32:35,720
Speaker 1: The fact that I can get up and have energy

756
00:32:35,761 --> 00:32:38,521
Speaker 1: and go and train and have energy to run around

757
00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:41,601
Speaker 1: my kids and not crash in the afternoon. Oh that's

758
00:32:41,681 --> 00:32:44,561
Speaker 1: rich to me. You've got health, you have everything, you

759
00:32:44,641 --> 00:32:47,361
Speaker 1: know healthy, you have your body, You're not here, so

760
00:32:47,401 --> 00:32:49,481
Speaker 1: I feel so rich in life in that aspect.

761
00:32:49,921 --> 00:32:52,121
Speaker 2: Mic Drop just end the episode there.

762
00:32:53,841 --> 00:32:56,041
Speaker 1: No, it's still got some juicy ones to do that

763
00:32:56,041 --> 00:33:00,721
Speaker 1: that's more coming. Oh my gosh, Tiana is covered in tattoos.

764
00:33:00,921 --> 00:33:03,601
Speaker 1: She used to be a drug dealer or a stripper.

765
00:33:04,081 --> 00:33:07,721
Speaker 2: Oo, do look like a drug dealer or a stripper?

766
00:33:08,001 --> 00:33:12,961
Speaker 1: No? Sexy af but like, no, oh my good drug dealer.

767
00:33:13,641 --> 00:33:15,521
Speaker 1: Do people look at people with tattoos and think.

768
00:33:15,361 --> 00:33:18,841
Speaker 2: That I never in my life, like, never in my

769
00:33:18,881 --> 00:33:21,681
Speaker 2: life have had anybody had an assumption like that of me.

770
00:33:22,601 --> 00:33:26,241
Speaker 2: I do have tattoos covered in tattoos. I don't know. No,

771
00:33:26,361 --> 00:33:28,281
Speaker 2: I have like six little ones and one big one

772
00:33:28,281 --> 00:33:32,361
Speaker 2: on my hip, but covered in tattoos, so they're all

773
00:33:32,401 --> 00:33:36,201
Speaker 2: little quotes. I've got serendipity on my God's sake.

774
00:33:36,081 --> 00:33:37,321
Speaker 1: And your parents' birthdates.

775
00:33:37,441 --> 00:33:39,161
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh my god, that's funny.

776
00:33:39,241 --> 00:33:41,441
Speaker 1: And you're getting them all removed right now. I am

777
00:33:41,481 --> 00:33:42,041
Speaker 1: the process.

778
00:33:42,201 --> 00:33:45,561
Speaker 2: Well, first of all, I'm not a drug dealer. Second,

779
00:33:46,561 --> 00:33:49,001
Speaker 2: not a stripper. Thank you for the assumption, but no,

780
00:33:49,081 --> 00:33:51,161
Speaker 2: thank you. Appreciate the girls on stage, it's just not you.

781
00:33:51,641 --> 00:33:54,561
Speaker 2: Power to them. Power to them, but it's not for me.

782
00:33:55,001 --> 00:33:56,921
Speaker 2: Like otherwise I would have just sold the sex tape.

783
00:33:56,961 --> 00:33:58,881
Speaker 2: And I'm just going to do that, okay, Like it's

784
00:33:58,921 --> 00:34:01,521
Speaker 2: not what I want. If you guys have seen my

785
00:34:01,561 --> 00:34:04,641
Speaker 2: posts recently or if you haven't, I am getting all

786
00:34:04,681 --> 00:34:06,921
Speaker 2: my tatoos removed. So I'm just in the process. Now,

787
00:34:06,921 --> 00:34:09,281
Speaker 2: I've started all of them, so we'll see over the

788
00:34:09,361 --> 00:34:11,281
Speaker 2: next year or two, I will have clear skin.

789
00:34:11,321 --> 00:34:13,321
Speaker 1: Again, we go, ooh.

790
00:34:13,441 --> 00:34:16,641
Speaker 2: Assumption that Ashy is a girl's girl, meaning regardless of

791
00:34:16,681 --> 00:34:19,161
Speaker 2: who you are, a stranger off the street or a

792
00:34:19,201 --> 00:34:21,441
Speaker 2: best friend, she has your heart in her best interest

793
00:34:21,841 --> 00:34:24,721
Speaker 2: one thousand percent. One thousand percent.

794
00:34:25,161 --> 00:34:27,001
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's really nice to hear that after all the

795
00:34:27,001 --> 00:34:27,401
Speaker 1: other ones.

796
00:34:27,601 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 2: That's a really beautiful assumption because I'm such a girl's girl.

797
00:34:31,601 --> 00:34:33,201
Speaker 2: You really are. You're a love a girl at heart,

798
00:34:33,281 --> 00:34:35,721
Speaker 2: like you love so hard on the people that you love,

799
00:34:35,841 --> 00:34:38,961
Speaker 2: and even from the moment that we met, you always

800
00:34:39,041 --> 00:34:43,201
Speaker 2: just so warm, welcoming, open and I never felt any

801
00:34:43,201 --> 00:34:45,961
Speaker 2: ego from you from the very beginning. There was no walls,

802
00:34:46,001 --> 00:34:48,161
Speaker 2: there was no protection, there was no I'm keeping you

803
00:34:48,161 --> 00:34:51,041
Speaker 2: at arm's length. It was just like straight away, yeah,

804
00:34:51,161 --> 00:34:53,241
Speaker 2: give me a hug, and it was really beautiful.

805
00:34:53,241 --> 00:34:55,441
Speaker 1: I think anyone that meets me can feel my energy.

806
00:34:55,561 --> 00:34:55,801
Speaker 2: Yeah.

807
00:34:55,841 --> 00:34:58,440
Speaker 1: I love bringing women together. I love spending time with women.

808
00:34:58,521 --> 00:35:01,121
Speaker 1: That's why I still reply to I was gonna say,

809
00:35:01,121 --> 00:35:02,721
Speaker 1: I reply to every DM. Have you looked at the

810
00:35:02,961 --> 00:35:06,881
Speaker 1: hidden messages on Instagram? It's a whole another album of messages.

811
00:35:07,121 --> 00:35:07,521
Speaker 2: Recently.

812
00:35:07,601 --> 00:35:09,601
Speaker 1: I didn't even realize this was a thing. I looked

813
00:35:09,601 --> 00:35:11,721
Speaker 1: in the other day and there's so many in there. Oh,

814
00:35:11,801 --> 00:35:14,641
Speaker 1: got my actually inbox? I reply to everyone. Yeah, there's

815
00:35:14,681 --> 00:35:17,001
Speaker 1: all these other ones. Anyways, I for fifteen years I

816
00:35:17,081 --> 00:35:19,401
Speaker 1: replied to every single woman because everyone's important. It's not

817
00:35:19,441 --> 00:35:22,601
Speaker 1: just a number to me. I love connection. I love

818
00:35:22,761 --> 00:35:26,081
Speaker 1: making sure someone feels heard. I love making women feel safe.

819
00:35:26,601 --> 00:35:29,681
Speaker 1: I love sisterhood. I really do. It's so important to me.

820
00:35:29,841 --> 00:35:33,801
Speaker 1: It is. Gianna is not friends with anyone from her past.

821
00:35:33,841 --> 00:35:36,241
Speaker 1: There's so much friendship stuff in here for me and you.

822
00:35:36,921 --> 00:35:39,121
Speaker 1: I think it's because a lot of people go through it,

823
00:35:39,201 --> 00:35:42,761
Speaker 1: so they're asking, projecting, curious, curious, wanting to not feel

824
00:35:42,761 --> 00:35:44,161
Speaker 1: alone in their journal. Friendship.

825
00:35:44,481 --> 00:35:46,521
Speaker 2: I do have a couple of close friends, So I've

826
00:35:46,561 --> 00:35:49,561
Speaker 2: got like a handful of acquaintances from like years and

827
00:35:49,641 --> 00:35:52,881
Speaker 2: years ago, like I'm talking when I was fifteen, a

828
00:35:52,881 --> 00:35:55,521
Speaker 2: handful of acquaintance. But I've got a handful of really

829
00:35:55,641 --> 00:35:58,241
Speaker 2: close girlfriends that I've known since I was like eleven,

830
00:35:58,841 --> 00:36:01,641
Speaker 2: and yeah, I just love them to bits, honestly. But

831
00:36:02,001 --> 00:36:04,681
Speaker 2: in terms of everyone else there, I've definitely been through

832
00:36:04,681 --> 00:36:08,481
Speaker 2: different seasons of my life where as I've changed and evolved,

833
00:36:08,721 --> 00:36:10,721
Speaker 2: I've let go of all of the friends that I

834
00:36:10,801 --> 00:36:14,001
Speaker 2: became friends with because I just I evolved out of

835
00:36:14,001 --> 00:36:17,721
Speaker 2: those friendships, and I learned with time, as you do

836
00:36:17,881 --> 00:36:21,401
Speaker 2: in relationships and friendships, that those people weren't actually for me.

837
00:36:21,561 --> 00:36:23,481
Speaker 2: Like there were times where I was friends with people

838
00:36:23,721 --> 00:36:26,201
Speaker 2: because I was trying to fit in, not because I

839
00:36:26,241 --> 00:36:28,481
Speaker 2: actually thought that they liked me or that I genuinely

840
00:36:28,521 --> 00:36:30,201
Speaker 2: liked them as people. It was like, these are the

841
00:36:30,201 --> 00:36:32,961
Speaker 2: people I'm supposed to be friends with, or trying to

842
00:36:33,161 --> 00:36:35,960
Speaker 2: mold myself into groups that I actually was never meant

843
00:36:36,001 --> 00:36:38,681
Speaker 2: to be a part of. So I just gave myself

844
00:36:38,681 --> 00:36:40,641
Speaker 2: a lot of permission that like, if this person isn't

845
00:36:40,681 --> 00:36:42,041
Speaker 2: my person, it's okay to let them go.

846
00:36:42,241 --> 00:36:42,841
Speaker 1: That's nice.

847
00:36:42,921 --> 00:36:47,081
Speaker 2: Yeah, just a beautiful part of the journey. Yeah, actually

848
00:36:47,081 --> 00:36:49,161
Speaker 2: actually donates and gives a lot behind closed doors, but

849
00:36:49,201 --> 00:36:50,961
Speaker 2: doesn't post about it because of haters.

850
00:36:51,561 --> 00:36:56,201
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't donate to post, but also I wouldn't

851
00:36:56,201 --> 00:36:58,801
Speaker 1: post about it genuinely. I don't think, oh, I'm going

852
00:36:58,801 --> 00:37:01,681
Speaker 1: to donate to post. But yeah, when I have posted

853
00:37:02,001 --> 00:37:04,761
Speaker 1: in the past that I've donated money or encouraging people

854
00:37:04,761 --> 00:37:07,201
Speaker 1: to do the same, people assume that I'm doing it

855
00:37:07,281 --> 00:37:10,601
Speaker 1: for attention. So I just sig, no matter what you do, Yeah,

856
00:37:10,761 --> 00:37:13,321
Speaker 1: you can't to lose those situations. But Steve and I

857
00:37:13,361 --> 00:37:15,521
Speaker 1: donate and help a lot more than what I think

858
00:37:15,521 --> 00:37:18,681
Speaker 1: people realize because we want to. Yeah. I've always said

859
00:37:18,681 --> 00:37:20,401
Speaker 1: if I was in a position to help, whether that's

860
00:37:20,401 --> 00:37:22,440
Speaker 1: through having a voice and a platform, or if that's

861
00:37:22,561 --> 00:37:25,881
Speaker 1: financially like for example, every Christmas, I'll find a family

862
00:37:26,001 --> 00:37:28,201
Speaker 1: to buy the groceries for for the Christmas lunch, and

863
00:37:28,241 --> 00:37:30,841
Speaker 1: I love doing that. We were talking about taking tag

864
00:37:31,001 --> 00:37:34,521
Speaker 1: next year to a soup kitchen and volunteering on Christmas day.

865
00:37:34,841 --> 00:37:36,921
Speaker 1: But yeah, there's always so many families in need. I

866
00:37:37,121 --> 00:37:39,721
Speaker 1: share go fund accounts all the time my Instagram, not

867
00:37:39,801 --> 00:37:42,321
Speaker 1: so much that it's every single day, because then my

868
00:37:42,361 --> 00:37:44,641
Speaker 1: audience would feel so helpless that they can't donate and

869
00:37:44,681 --> 00:37:46,521
Speaker 1: help to everyone. But I choose a couple of families

870
00:37:46,521 --> 00:37:48,801
Speaker 1: each month that I help with the ala fires I've

871
00:37:48,841 --> 00:37:50,841
Speaker 1: donated to. You know, I always try and do my

872
00:37:50,881 --> 00:37:53,081
Speaker 1: bit where I can, And if I've got more money,

873
00:37:53,121 --> 00:37:55,401
Speaker 1: if I'm in a really good financial position, I'll donate

874
00:37:55,441 --> 00:37:57,281
Speaker 1: even more. If I'm not, it might be a little

875
00:37:57,321 --> 00:37:59,241
Speaker 1: bit less. Yeah, I always want to do my bit

876
00:37:59,281 --> 00:37:59,761
Speaker 1: where I can.

877
00:37:59,961 --> 00:38:02,401
Speaker 2: I love that use your platform for good exactly. It's cool.

878
00:38:02,441 --> 00:38:03,761
Speaker 2: We were talking about this for she Risers.

879
00:38:03,801 --> 00:38:05,841
Speaker 1: Actually, yes, some plans there.

880
00:38:05,921 --> 00:38:06,161
Speaker 2: Yeah.

881
00:38:06,361 --> 00:38:10,561
Speaker 1: Yeah, is Tiana dating older because he's rich? You got

882
00:38:10,641 --> 00:38:11,361
Speaker 1: to see this coming.

883
00:38:11,441 --> 00:38:13,561
Speaker 2: Oh, it's true. It's true. That's fair.

884
00:38:14,001 --> 00:38:16,721
Speaker 1: It's true that you're dating because he's rich. No, it's kidding,

885
00:38:16,801 --> 00:38:17,361
Speaker 1: I'm kidding.

886
00:38:18,281 --> 00:38:21,521
Speaker 2: No, it's true that to be expected that this come in.

887
00:38:21,681 --> 00:38:24,281
Speaker 2: So for anyone who's listening and doesn't know the man

888
00:38:24,281 --> 00:38:26,481
Speaker 2: that I'm dating, Lee, we have an age gap, so

889
00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:28,081
Speaker 2: he's older than me and we have a sixteen year

890
00:38:28,121 --> 00:38:31,081
Speaker 2: age gap. And no, I'm not dating him because he's rich.

891
00:38:33,281 --> 00:38:35,801
Speaker 2: He definitely is very provider energy and not that I've

892
00:38:35,801 --> 00:38:38,001
Speaker 2: ever claimed that he's rich or anything like that, just

893
00:38:38,041 --> 00:38:41,481
Speaker 2: so everyone he knows he is very like provided energy.

894
00:38:41,481 --> 00:38:44,161
Speaker 2: But he takes care of my heart and that's been

895
00:38:44,201 --> 00:38:49,041
Speaker 2: the biggest thing. Is very emotionally intelligent, very emotionally safe,

896
00:38:49,561 --> 00:38:51,521
Speaker 2: wants to grow with me. It was one hundred percent

897
00:38:51,561 --> 00:38:53,361
Speaker 2: certain about me from the moment he met me, and

898
00:38:53,401 --> 00:38:55,361
Speaker 2: it just has been really healing for me.

899
00:38:55,561 --> 00:38:59,001
Speaker 1: So it's also really cool even as an outside now

900
00:38:59,001 --> 00:39:00,961
Speaker 1: i've met Lean and spent some time with him, that

901
00:39:01,041 --> 00:39:02,961
Speaker 1: he is successful and good on him. He's worked as

902
00:39:03,001 --> 00:39:05,521
Speaker 1: absolute freaking butt off. Like I hope he comes on

903
00:39:05,561 --> 00:39:08,081
Speaker 1: and shares his story one day if you're listeningly, please do.

904
00:39:08,481 --> 00:39:10,601
Speaker 1: I really hope he does. He's an incredible man that's

905
00:39:10,601 --> 00:39:12,440
Speaker 1: worked so hard and should be so proud of its

906
00:39:12,441 --> 00:39:14,641
Speaker 1: to where he's at, and that's awesome.

907
00:39:14,761 --> 00:39:17,121
Speaker 2: He has an incredible story as well, like where he

908
00:39:17,161 --> 00:39:19,481
Speaker 2: has come from and what he has done with his

909
00:39:19,561 --> 00:39:23,001
Speaker 2: life from where he first started and where his journey started.

910
00:39:23,081 --> 00:39:24,681
Speaker 2: I'm like so proud of him for the man that

911
00:39:24,721 --> 00:39:27,441
Speaker 2: he is and just it's been incredible to witness the

912
00:39:27,561 --> 00:39:30,601
Speaker 2: type of man that he is today, regardless of all

913
00:39:30,601 --> 00:39:34,521
Speaker 2: those things. It's very impressive and I'm very in awe

914
00:39:34,641 --> 00:39:35,601
Speaker 2: of him as a man.

915
00:39:35,441 --> 00:39:37,201
Speaker 1: And an attractor and drawn to that kind of fan.

916
00:39:37,321 --> 00:39:39,921
Speaker 1: And he takes responsibility and stuff make something of.

917
00:39:39,881 --> 00:39:42,601
Speaker 2: His life, does he ever? And he just also has

918
00:39:42,641 --> 00:39:45,561
Speaker 2: his beautiful way of like balancing masculine and feminine energy.

919
00:39:45,721 --> 00:39:47,921
Speaker 2: So he's very much masculine, like got to get it done,

920
00:39:48,041 --> 00:39:50,921
Speaker 2: you know, achieve big things. But he's also I need

921
00:39:50,961 --> 00:39:52,521
Speaker 2: to connect with myself when I need to do it

922
00:39:52,561 --> 00:39:54,561
Speaker 2: from a place and listen to my intuition. He's very

923
00:39:54,561 --> 00:39:57,041
Speaker 2: connected in that sense. So it's very beautiful to see

924
00:39:57,041 --> 00:39:59,241
Speaker 2: the both both love so good.

925
00:40:00,561 --> 00:40:04,721
Speaker 1: Oh this one, I'm guessing this is you have a

926
00:40:04,801 --> 00:40:08,401
Speaker 1: rape eating disorder and only eat for camera, then you

927
00:40:08,481 --> 00:40:11,441
Speaker 1: throw it all up. I do even know what they

928
00:40:11,441 --> 00:40:13,881
Speaker 1: mean eat for camera. I don't really feel myself eating

929
00:40:14,241 --> 00:40:17,521
Speaker 1: a lot, but that is far from the truth. I

930
00:40:17,561 --> 00:40:21,201
Speaker 1: have one of the most healthiest relationship with foods. Like honestly,

931
00:40:21,241 --> 00:40:24,001
Speaker 1: I still have friends that struggle with their relationship with food,

932
00:40:24,041 --> 00:40:27,641
Speaker 1: but mine is nothing but healthy. I love food. I

933
00:40:27,681 --> 00:40:29,881
Speaker 1: love it for fuel. I love it for enjoyment, I

934
00:40:29,921 --> 00:40:32,401
Speaker 1: love it for connection, I love it for experience. Yes,

935
00:40:32,481 --> 00:40:36,561
Speaker 1: there is never any guilt or shame or any negative

936
00:40:36,641 --> 00:40:40,001
Speaker 1: thought process behind the food that I eat. Ever, can't

937
00:40:40,001 --> 00:40:42,001
Speaker 1: always say it's been like that once again, If you

938
00:40:42,041 --> 00:40:44,721
Speaker 1: guys listen to my food journey, I go over having

939
00:40:44,761 --> 00:40:47,801
Speaker 1: disordered eat when I was younger, going through different diet

940
00:40:47,801 --> 00:40:50,601
Speaker 1: phases and pressure that I felt online. It's from my

941
00:40:50,601 --> 00:40:52,001
Speaker 1: twelve Days of Christmas. Do you guys want to go

942
00:40:52,041 --> 00:40:53,801
Speaker 1: and listen to that if you're open to hearing it.

943
00:40:54,201 --> 00:40:56,641
Speaker 1: But no, I've got a very healthy relationship with food.

944
00:40:57,281 --> 00:40:59,601
Speaker 2: As she has someone to reply to her dms, it's

945
00:40:59,681 --> 00:41:00,601
Speaker 2: never actually her.

946
00:41:01,081 --> 00:41:05,481
Speaker 1: Oh interesting. No, in the past, my pa has a me.

947
00:41:05,561 --> 00:41:08,081
Speaker 1: There'll be days where say I would wake up and

948
00:41:08,121 --> 00:41:11,041
Speaker 1: there's five hundred DMS. I would message Ash, my old pa,

949
00:41:11,321 --> 00:41:12,961
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, can you jump in and help me?

950
00:41:13,321 --> 00:41:15,041
Speaker 1: And she would reply as if she was my pa,

951
00:41:15,121 --> 00:41:17,321
Speaker 1: so they knew it wasn't me. We would never have

952
00:41:17,361 --> 00:41:19,881
Speaker 1: someone pretend to be me. But now I don't have

953
00:41:19,921 --> 00:41:21,961
Speaker 1: a PA anymore. When I close down baseline, obviously I

954
00:41:21,961 --> 00:41:24,241
Speaker 1: didn't need a PA anymore. I do it all myself

955
00:41:24,281 --> 00:41:26,161
Speaker 1: and I really have for fifteen years. But yes, there's

956
00:41:26,161 --> 00:41:28,681
Speaker 1: been times of PAS have assisted me. Otherwise when you

957
00:41:28,721 --> 00:41:33,521
Speaker 1: write in it is me, yeah, amazing, it's a brutal assumption.

958
00:41:34,241 --> 00:41:35,641
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'll open that up again for

959
00:41:35,681 --> 00:41:37,441
Speaker 1: a little while. I feel like I need to have

960
00:41:37,521 --> 00:41:40,841
Speaker 1: a little breather. It's a lot, it was. I'm actually

961
00:41:40,841 --> 00:41:42,960
Speaker 1: glad came up though, that we got to clear up,

962
00:41:43,161 --> 00:41:45,241
Speaker 1: because it's been some things I suppose I haven't wanted

963
00:41:45,241 --> 00:41:48,321
Speaker 1: to talk about in fear of I don't know, causing

964
00:41:48,401 --> 00:41:51,641
Speaker 1: drama or upsetting someone. But it's also nice just for

965
00:41:51,721 --> 00:41:54,721
Speaker 1: truth to be out there, you know. So it feels good.

966
00:41:54,721 --> 00:41:58,281
Speaker 1: But it was a lot. Yeah, I need Yeah, Oh

967
00:41:58,321 --> 00:42:06,321
Speaker 1: my god, Bye bye