WEBVTT - The MAFS Groom Forced to Flea Australia (ft Morena) 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:02.600 This podcast was recorded and produced on gadigal Land. 0:00:02.759 --> 0:00:05.400 We would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians and pay 0:00:05.440 --> 0:00:07.280 our respect to Elder's past and present. 0:00:08.080 --> 0:00:10.719 Ladies and gentlemen, Can I please have your attention? This 0:00:10.760 --> 0:00:14.200 is my final MATHS related interview. Are they talking about me? 0:00:14.240 --> 0:00:18.440 She's like yeah, it was Australia's reactions paused a lot 0:00:18.520 --> 0:00:20.240 of drama and they never got it. 0:00:20.239 --> 0:00:22.200 It just went nuts. 0:00:24.160 --> 0:00:26.720 Hello and welcome back to back to reality. 0:00:26.880 --> 0:00:28.800 I'm Selena and I'm Tany. 0:00:29.240 --> 0:00:33.159 We are so excited very because we have our first 0:00:33.360 --> 0:00:35.040 official mass. 0:00:34.920 --> 0:00:41.720 Guess yes, and it's no other than Morena. 0:00:42.280 --> 0:00:45.159 Hello, beautiful ladies, thank you for having me, Thank you 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:49.720 for all way from Melbourne. Absolutely this class o. 0:00:52.159 --> 0:00:55.360 Love it. Let's get into it? Shall we tell us? 0:00:55.400 --> 0:00:56.640 How are you going so far? 0:00:57.120 --> 0:00:57.880 I'm going great? 0:00:58.440 --> 0:00:59.280 Love it, love to hear it? 0:01:00.080 --> 0:01:02.640 Yeah, what isn't there to love? 0:01:03.000 --> 0:01:07.880 I have to know what made you sign up for Maths? 0:01:08.240 --> 0:01:11.399 What was your going into a What did you sign 0:01:11.440 --> 0:01:12.840 up for Maths or did you get scouted? 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:20.520 They've tried to get me for three years. Really boom, 0:01:21.120 --> 0:01:24.640 that's because I signed up for another show which didn't 0:01:24.840 --> 0:01:27.399 I got I got into the end, and then it 0:01:27.440 --> 0:01:31.600 didn't go ahead, and that show didn't go ahead, or 0:01:31.680 --> 0:01:33.960 the yeah, yeah, go ahead, and then they had all 0:01:33.959 --> 0:01:36.920 my details okay, and they were like, we love you, 0:01:37.760 --> 0:01:40.319 we want you, and I'd say, no, Look, I got 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:43.600 married once to someone that I knew. I ain't going 0:01:43.680 --> 0:01:48.080 to go marry a stranger, no chance. And then I 0:01:48.160 --> 0:01:51.440 don't know, It's just like, what am I scared off? 0:01:51.760 --> 0:01:59.600 Why not have courage? Take the risk? And I literally, look, 0:01:59.600 --> 0:02:02.080 I really am looking for my best friend to grow 0:02:02.080 --> 0:02:05.080 old with. Is that crazy to think that I was 0:02:05.080 --> 0:02:09.200 going to get it on Meredith this site? Yeah, but 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:13.720 I did. I really believed in the process, So we 0:02:13.800 --> 0:02:14.080 get it. 0:02:14.080 --> 0:02:15.480 We were the same, we did this, we had the 0:02:15.520 --> 0:02:18.680 same And it's like that, even though it's a small, small, 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:21.440 small bit of hope, you're like, oh, maybe I'll meet 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:23.840 someone in this crazy way, it's going to be this 0:02:24.000 --> 0:02:25.679 magical experience. 0:02:26.720 --> 0:02:31.320 And yeah, I really believed it was my turn. Yeah 0:02:31.400 --> 0:02:33.360 I really believed. Well why not me? It has worked 0:02:33.400 --> 0:02:36.640 for one out of every hundred or is it one 0:02:36.680 --> 0:02:38.919 out of every million, whatever it is, it has. It's 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:40.480 worked for some people, it's worked for a few us, 0:02:40.520 --> 0:02:43.040 So why not why not me? Why not me? 0:02:43.280 --> 0:02:46.080 I think everyone thinks that. Yeah, so you were matched 0:02:46.080 --> 0:02:49.520 with Tony? Yes, and I know he. 0:02:49.480 --> 0:02:53.520 Seems lovely is isn't he? On camera? Oh? 0:02:53.720 --> 0:02:56.280 Okay, Well let's delve into that a little bit more 0:02:56.280 --> 0:02:57.960 because I've seen a lot of things that you've put 0:02:58.000 --> 0:03:01.320 on social media that he was married or is married or. 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:07.920 Is not was she's not an ex is? And what's that? 0:03:08.000 --> 0:03:08.480 Are like? 0:03:08.600 --> 0:03:10.600 Living together situation? 0:03:11.120 --> 0:03:16.880 So they both live in America with an adopted daughter. Yep, 0:03:17.760 --> 0:03:21.639 and they're calling him Phony Tony. It's gorgeous. I love 0:03:21.680 --> 0:03:25.000 that name. Phony Tony did something. I don't know what 0:03:25.040 --> 0:03:26.679 it was. He never told me because I want to 0:03:26.680 --> 0:03:31.040 talk about it. Okay. Where he's been removed from America. 0:03:32.560 --> 0:03:34.160 It's got to do with visa. I don't know what 0:03:34.160 --> 0:03:35.880 he did. I actually don't care what he did. I 0:03:35.920 --> 0:03:38.480 don't care. I really don't care. I really don't care. 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:43.600 So he's back here in Australia. She's very intelligent. She's 0:03:43.640 --> 0:03:47.000 still there. I'd be there too. He's in Woollongong. She's 0:03:47.000 --> 0:03:51.440 in Vegas. Oh, I know what, I'd prefer to stay Vegas. 0:03:51.960 --> 0:03:56.200 So he's been here for two years and he's trying 0:03:56.200 --> 0:03:57.680 to work out how am I going to get back there? 0:03:58.320 --> 0:04:02.000 So he had this amazing idea, like amazing idea. I'll 0:04:02.040 --> 0:04:04.840 go and marry at First Sight, and when I go 0:04:04.920 --> 0:04:07.080 on there, I'm going to drop a bombshell. I'm going 0:04:07.160 --> 0:04:11.200 to tell directors and producers, let's bring my wife in 0:04:11.840 --> 0:04:15.080 because I love my wife. I want my wife bringer in. 0:04:15.160 --> 0:04:17.760 It's going to make a great, great show. Now. He 0:04:17.839 --> 0:04:20.240 said all of this on camera. He said all of 0:04:20.279 --> 0:04:25.560 this on the commitment ceremony, which one can the one 0:04:25.560 --> 0:04:30.000 that they didn't show obviously, the first commitment ceremony. When 0:04:30.000 --> 0:04:33.800 I sat at the first CC ladies, I thank The 0:04:33.800 --> 0:04:39.080 first thing I did was thank everyone, production, directors, film crew, 0:04:39.400 --> 0:04:42.760 everyone for the best wedding ever. Sorry, my wedding was 0:04:42.760 --> 0:04:43.480 better than yours. 0:04:44.040 --> 0:04:45.080 You have no idea. 0:04:45.920 --> 0:04:51.880 It was so magical, everything I wanted. I've never felt 0:04:51.920 --> 0:04:56.520 like that in my life. My kids, my beautiful friends, 0:04:56.760 --> 0:04:59.120 they all cried because it was just so I'm going 0:04:59.200 --> 0:05:02.479 to get goosebumps in so real. It was so I 0:05:02.520 --> 0:05:05.360 thank production for that. They they gave me everything I wanted. 0:05:07.920 --> 0:05:13.479 And then it wasn't no, like literally within hours, within hours. 0:05:13.480 --> 0:05:16.560 It all started with I didn't order a fifty seven 0:05:16.600 --> 0:05:20.080 year old. Okay, I'm too old. Here's a repulse by that. 0:05:20.320 --> 0:05:22.160 You know what, I don't really care. That's fine. You're 0:05:22.160 --> 0:05:26.520 repulse by me because I'm old. That's okay. You're entitled 0:05:26.560 --> 0:05:29.240 to have your checklist. So I really thought that was 0:05:29.279 --> 0:05:32.120 my bombshell. We get to the honeymoon the next day. 0:05:32.800 --> 0:05:34.560 Did you see the honeymoon on air? 0:05:34.960 --> 0:05:36.040 Where did you guys even go? 0:05:36.279 --> 0:05:39.080 Oh, darling, it doesn't matter. I owned it. That's why 0:05:39.080 --> 0:05:47.200 there's no footage. Oh, how did Modena ruin it? We 0:05:47.279 --> 0:05:50.120 see that the commit at the honesty box. 0:05:50.200 --> 0:05:52.400 Yeah, that, which was so. 0:05:52.400 --> 0:05:55.719 As soon as we arrived to our honeymoon, the first 0:05:55.720 --> 0:05:59.400 thing we did was try and light the fire because 0:05:59.400 --> 0:06:03.719 it was freezing mm hmm. And from that, get ready Morenna, 0:06:04.080 --> 0:06:06.719 you're going on a date. Oh okay, and it said, 0:06:06.760 --> 0:06:08.080 you know, we're going to go to the restaurant. They 0:06:08.080 --> 0:06:11.599 close up the restaurant. I felt like Lady Gaga. It 0:06:11.680 --> 0:06:14.200 was amazing. I did. I felt like wow, look like wow, 0:06:14.360 --> 0:06:17.680 what an experience. As we got there, we sat, we 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:22.000 were miked up. He said, Modnna, I have to tell 0:06:22.000 --> 0:06:23.760 you something, and they told me I have to tell 0:06:23.800 --> 0:06:27.280 you now. Oh and straight away. I thought, okay, so 0:06:27.360 --> 0:06:30.000 it mustn't be the age thing. They told him. You 0:06:30.040 --> 0:06:32.520 have to tell me now, I thought, okay, here's bombshell 0:06:32.600 --> 0:06:36.560 number two. We sit over the box and he says 0:06:36.760 --> 0:06:42.640 I'm married. I just went sorry, no, no, no, nothing 0:06:42.680 --> 0:06:44.640 came out of my mouth. The wine just sat here. 0:06:45.320 --> 0:06:48.559 I remember it as if it was happening right now. 0:06:48.720 --> 0:06:50.320 I took a sip of the wine because I thought, 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:55.880 don't talk, don't talk, don't talk, camera, camera, camera, camera, 0:06:56.839 --> 0:07:01.520 because are you going to say anything. I swallowed my 0:07:01.640 --> 0:07:05.840 wine and I said, you mean you're separated, because people 0:07:06.000 --> 0:07:09.960 under pressure can say the wrong thing. Hecause, no, I'm married. 0:07:11.560 --> 0:07:17.520 God bless my producer, Jane your gold. She then comes in, okay, guys, 0:07:17.960 --> 0:07:20.440 can you move it along? And I looked at her 0:07:20.440 --> 0:07:22.800 and I said, move what along? We're not going to 0:07:22.800 --> 0:07:25.400 talk about that anymore. Can you just reset and can 0:07:25.440 --> 0:07:27.920 we just go on with the box. I'm so sorry. 0:07:28.240 --> 0:07:31.480 He's just Tommy, he's married. And I got clarification, Jimmy, 0:07:31.520 --> 0:07:34.560 you're separating. No, I'm not separated. I'm married. I love 0:07:34.680 --> 0:07:39.040 my wife. I want my wife, so that holy crap. 0:07:39.760 --> 0:07:45.200 That okay, Marina, don't talk all I did was no, Jane, 0:07:46.000 --> 0:07:48.480 you don't want to talk about this situation. Well, I'm 0:07:48.520 --> 0:07:51.520 not done. So I went on and I went on 0:07:51.960 --> 0:07:55.560 and I went on and I went on, and all 0:07:55.600 --> 0:07:58.160 I got from my producer you are ruining filming time, 0:07:58.240 --> 0:08:00.400 am I? Well, why don't you take me right out 0:08:00.400 --> 0:08:02.760 of this equation because I'm happy to go home? Wow, 0:08:03.760 --> 0:08:07.200 And it just got worse and worse and worse. Day 0:08:07.200 --> 0:08:11.240 two ruined the confession box. So that wasn't shown was that, 0:08:11.320 --> 0:08:15.160 of course, day two, we're going to set up a 0:08:15.240 --> 0:08:16.720 date for you, and you're going to go on a date. 0:08:16.840 --> 0:08:19.040 And I said, what with the married man? Stop saying that. 0:08:19.280 --> 0:08:23.920 Stop talking? So that stopped talking. Started from there. He 0:08:23.920 --> 0:08:25.600 would say to the producer, you said that we're not 0:08:25.600 --> 0:08:28.400 going to talk about it anymore. And she'd say, well, 0:08:28.400 --> 0:08:30.440 I can't help that she's going on about it. I said, 0:08:30.680 --> 0:08:34.320 I'm sorry, guys, I'm right here. I am going to 0:08:34.360 --> 0:08:35.959 go on about it. I'm so sorry. I need to 0:08:36.080 --> 0:08:41.160 understand what the hell's going on. I expected to be 0:08:41.280 --> 0:08:45.560 matched with an idiot. I expected to be matched with 0:08:46.200 --> 0:08:49.040 someone who was not attracted to me. I was expected 0:08:49.080 --> 0:08:51.560 to be matched with somebody who potentially had bad breath. 0:08:51.960 --> 0:08:55.800 I have all these scenarios, but never I'm married. 0:08:56.800 --> 0:09:01.160 Never what I got. So anyway, okay, I agreed, Okay, 0:09:01.200 --> 0:09:03.319 let's have a date. And I said I'm not going 0:09:03.360 --> 0:09:05.920 anywhere though, okaying anywhere with him? That was my attitude. 0:09:05.960 --> 0:09:09.680 I'm sorry. Yeah. So we sit downstairs by the pool 0:09:09.960 --> 0:09:11.920 and we get a beautiful cheese platter. It was a 0:09:11.960 --> 0:09:16.400 tower and all I want to do is eat? Can 0:09:16.400 --> 0:09:21.439 you stop eating? Sorry? Is it hurting your mic? Because 0:09:21.440 --> 0:09:23.559 that's what it was doing, you know, because the mic 0:09:23.679 --> 0:09:26.240 was there and it's like, stop chewing. Anyway, and we 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:28.200 sit down, said so, Tony, we need to take off. 0:09:28.360 --> 0:09:30.760 We need to continue from where we left off yesterday. 0:09:31.360 --> 0:09:34.200 He cracked it. You said we weren't going to talk 0:09:34.200 --> 0:09:38.920 about it anymore. Who said that. I don't know what 0:09:38.960 --> 0:09:42.160 you're doing here, but you're matched here with me. You 0:09:42.160 --> 0:09:44.520 need to explain to me what's going on? He said. Look, 0:09:44.600 --> 0:09:46.960 he just keeps saying, I'm sorry. I go. Do you 0:09:47.040 --> 0:09:50.680 understand you've taken up the space of somebody who potentially 0:09:51.440 --> 0:09:54.560 could have really been looking for someone? Why are you here? 0:09:54.840 --> 0:09:58.040 He goes? I want fun? You want fun? He goes, yeah, 0:09:58.040 --> 0:10:01.079 and you're no fun. I'm not am I. No, no, 0:10:01.200 --> 0:10:04.440 I'm actually not. But this is what you've done to me. 0:10:05.720 --> 0:10:08.920 You've automatically shut me down before I even begin. Did 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:11.240 you see the wedding day? How amazing it was. That's 0:10:11.320 --> 0:10:14.240 me to a tee. Now, I'm a human being. I 0:10:14.240 --> 0:10:16.880 don't act. I'm not an actress. I wasn't there since 0:10:16.960 --> 0:10:19.880 the cameras come on to go, okay, the cameras are on. No, 0:10:19.920 --> 0:10:23.200 that wasn't me. If I was angry, I was really angry. 0:10:24.520 --> 0:10:26.320 If I was sad, I was sad. If I was happy, 0:10:26.360 --> 0:10:29.920 I was really happy. So he said, I just wanted 0:10:29.920 --> 0:10:33.240 a holiday. I wanted my nephew. I wanted my nephew 0:10:33.240 --> 0:10:35.200 to know what it's like to run the charter business 0:10:35.240 --> 0:10:40.319 on his own, to realize how important I am. And 0:10:40.360 --> 0:10:42.280 he goes, and I've really thought I could get my 0:10:42.320 --> 0:10:45.560 wife in there, And I said, your wife from where? 0:10:46.520 --> 0:10:51.480 Like I was so confused. Well then I understood very quickly. 0:10:52.240 --> 0:10:54.440 He really did believe he could get her in because 0:10:54.480 --> 0:10:55.439 he can't get to her. 0:10:56.280 --> 0:10:58.040 Wow, have you spoken to her since? 0:10:58.440 --> 0:11:02.000 Or why would I want to speak to her? It's 0:11:02.000 --> 0:11:09.319 got nothing to do with her. Yeah, Now I think 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:11.240 it was yesterday because I don't look at all this 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:14.240 rubbish it's going on the internet. It's hilarious. I just laugh. 0:11:15.040 --> 0:11:18.760 In fact, the more I'm getting from viewers, the more 0:11:18.800 --> 0:11:22.880 it's fueling me for positiveness. It's not doing whatever these 0:11:22.960 --> 0:11:25.880 viewers are trying to do to me. I just thank them, 0:11:26.200 --> 0:11:29.200 I really do. You're not going to break me with 0:11:29.320 --> 0:11:31.600 words sitting behind a computer. 0:11:31.720 --> 0:11:33.480 It's a great attitude to have. I think it can 0:11:33.520 --> 0:11:35.320 be hard when it's so. 0:11:35.720 --> 0:11:38.160 I think every year it gets worse and worse with 0:11:38.360 --> 0:11:39.200 what people say. 0:11:39.400 --> 0:11:42.200 Yeah, the TikTok video is how aggressive it gets. 0:11:42.240 --> 0:11:46.400 So it's actually so great that you have that like mentality. Yeah, 0:11:46.480 --> 0:11:48.240 mindset when it comes to it, because it's hard. I 0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:50.360 can't even imagine what it'd be like in that position. 0:11:51.000 --> 0:11:54.679 Honey, it's very easy. You're talking out of your rear end. 0:11:55.440 --> 0:11:57.800 Why would I be? You don't know me, Why would 0:11:57.800 --> 0:11:59.559 I be? Why would I care what you're saying or 0:11:59.600 --> 0:12:03.640 what you're thinking? Kink bring Yeah, love it, but I 0:12:03.760 --> 0:12:07.480 mean it. I've truly mean it. Now are the days 0:12:07.520 --> 0:12:10.080 where I just think, wow, why of course I do? 0:12:10.720 --> 0:12:13.600 I think. I think I've got a heart and veins 0:12:13.640 --> 0:12:19.600 and blood. I'm human. When I see my kids upset. Hey, guys, 0:12:19.600 --> 0:12:22.760 you're crossing the line. My kids are My kids are divine. 0:12:23.120 --> 0:12:27.640 My son's got a disability. Back off, I'll killed for 0:12:27.720 --> 0:12:32.000 my kids. You've crossed the line. Yeah, for sure. So 0:12:32.240 --> 0:12:33.800 that's what I've got to say to you, is it's okay. 0:12:33.800 --> 0:12:35.760 If you don't like me, you don't have to like me. 0:12:36.720 --> 0:12:40.560 But realize that this is entertainment. I actually didn't realize 0:12:40.559 --> 0:12:44.120 that I really believed that I was going into something. 0:12:44.120 --> 0:12:46.480 This is what I believed. I believed I was going 0:12:46.520 --> 0:12:50.600 to go into this experiment. I'm divorced because I've messed 0:12:50.640 --> 0:12:53.880 up in life. Because if I didn't mess up, i'd 0:12:53.880 --> 0:12:57.280 still be married. Okay, when there's a divorce, it takes two. 0:12:57.720 --> 0:13:02.040 That's just one to get to a divorce. So I thought, now, okay, 0:13:02.120 --> 0:13:04.319 by going on to this show, I'm going to have 0:13:05.200 --> 0:13:07.800 I call them puppeteers because that's what they are. They're 0:13:07.840 --> 0:13:11.839 not experts, they're hilarious. I really thought that they were 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:15.640 going to give me strategies on whatever's going on in 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:19.600 our marriage. Even though it's a pretend marriage. Viewers, it's 0:13:19.600 --> 0:13:25.080 a pretend marriage. It's not real. Can you see I'm single, 0:13:26.040 --> 0:13:29.559 very single. So I thought that whatever we encounter, now 0:13:29.800 --> 0:13:32.440 for me to be in an experiment and to be 0:13:32.640 --> 0:13:36.920 in a to share. I've never lived with anyone except 0:13:36.960 --> 0:13:41.000 for my ex husband. Wow, like I thought, Wow, that's 0:13:41.000 --> 0:13:43.640 going to be amazing. And then no matter what he is, 0:13:44.520 --> 0:13:49.640 I want to learn how to adapt to personalities problems. 0:13:50.679 --> 0:13:53.440 Have I said something in the wrong tone? Teach me? 0:13:54.000 --> 0:13:58.800 But I was wrong. They wanted me aggressive, so they 0:13:58.880 --> 0:14:01.720 threw all these scenarios at me behind the scenes. I 0:14:01.760 --> 0:14:03.160 mean they called me cunt. 0:14:04.000 --> 0:14:06.280 What as ah your juices? 0:14:06.440 --> 0:14:10.800 All the experts, Oh yeah, we won't even mention names 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:12.920 because you know what. You know who you are and 0:14:12.960 --> 0:14:15.000 you ought to be ashamed of yourself. But you know 0:14:15.040 --> 0:14:19.720 what did they get? Aggression out of me? Tones out 0:14:19.720 --> 0:14:23.800 of me? Hell yeah? But you get cornered in a 0:14:23.880 --> 0:14:27.200 corner and you get told you don't do this and 0:14:27.240 --> 0:14:31.440 you will never work in Australia again. Holy shit. You 0:14:31.520 --> 0:14:34.480 don't get to do that to a decent human being 0:14:34.840 --> 0:14:38.360 who's turned her life around. It's taken me seven years 0:14:38.880 --> 0:14:42.000 to get to where I am today. This is not 0:14:42.040 --> 0:14:46.360 what I signed up for. So you think now you're 0:14:46.360 --> 0:14:50.120 going to break me? All the best keep going. All 0:14:50.160 --> 0:14:56.200 you're doing is inspiring me to help others have courage, 0:14:56.880 --> 0:14:59.240 stand up for yourself, even though you might be different 0:14:59.240 --> 0:15:02.800 to everyone else. I don't want to yell at you. 0:15:03.880 --> 0:15:07.360 I don't want to carry on with you. But in 0:15:07.360 --> 0:15:10.520 that environment, after being locked up, I was always the 0:15:10.600 --> 0:15:14.640 longest in the tent. Always it was the tents were 0:15:14.680 --> 0:15:19.400 the honey honey girls. I was in there. It was daytime. 0:15:19.440 --> 0:15:21.920 I came out at night. I'm thinking, am I in space? 0:15:22.520 --> 0:15:22.680 Well? 0:15:22.720 --> 0:15:25.560 The time? Is it legit? Pitch black? 0:15:25.600 --> 0:15:26.640 No, No, you don't have to tell us. 0:15:26.680 --> 0:15:27.320 We've been through it. 0:15:27.400 --> 0:15:29.080 We lived and breathed, and we get you. 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:32.560 We understand it's a lot, especially if you're the last one. 0:15:33.280 --> 0:15:35.960 Was the last one only once out of the however 0:15:36.000 --> 0:15:39.520 many weeks, And it was like and I knew it 0:15:39.560 --> 0:15:42.120 was like kind of punishment for something that happened that 0:15:42.160 --> 0:15:43.880 my partner had done. And I knew that they were 0:15:43.920 --> 0:15:46.680 like punishing us for what he did. And I was like, yeah, 0:15:46.760 --> 0:15:49.280 this is like this is a reaction to something he's 0:15:49.320 --> 0:15:51.360 done that's pissed them off, and now we have to 0:15:51.400 --> 0:15:53.720 like suffer by like being dragged out for this. 0:15:53.760 --> 0:15:55.480 I just knew. I just knew that's how it worked. 0:15:55.720 --> 0:15:59.800 It's interesting from what I saw from my from my perspective, 0:16:00.720 --> 0:16:03.360 they look at you, they look at you, and they go, 0:16:05.080 --> 0:16:06.480 we're going to roll the dice and we're going to 0:16:06.520 --> 0:16:09.240 give it to you. You're good, We're going to give 0:16:09.240 --> 0:16:13.080 it to you, no reason, no reason. I remember being 0:16:13.120 --> 0:16:16.000 on the couch at every CC give it to her. 0:16:16.080 --> 0:16:18.360 She's going to crack. Give it to her, and I'm 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:20.960 sitting there and thought, I'm not going to crack. I 0:16:21.000 --> 0:16:24.760 only cried once. That's because they mentioned my daughter. 0:16:26.080 --> 0:16:31.640 How you know what this is such interesting insight. When Alyssa, 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:34.000 I don't know, if you watch my season, they would 0:16:34.120 --> 0:16:36.680 mention her son and then she would start crying, and 0:16:36.680 --> 0:16:39.680 the edit her reaction to something else. Yes, so I 0:16:39.680 --> 0:16:42.600 wouldn't be surprised if we watched that and her being 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:45.680 brought up is actually not shown, but your reactions then 0:16:46.160 --> 0:16:47.560 matched in with something else. 0:16:47.720 --> 0:16:50.400 Can I tell you what happened on that scenario. And 0:16:50.440 --> 0:16:54.600 it's really important to show viewers. Hey, when my scene 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:57.400 is up, they've either got me on the side. They've 0:16:57.400 --> 0:16:59.480 either got me on a frame where I don't move. 0:17:01.880 --> 0:17:04.679 My editing is so bad because all they had to 0:17:04.720 --> 0:17:07.439 go with me, is she talks too much? He's bored. 0:17:08.160 --> 0:17:10.919 I was thinking you had such good bombshells with me. 0:17:11.119 --> 0:17:15.080 I don't get it. See what Tim and Katie spot on. 0:17:15.760 --> 0:17:19.800 They got their story out, and I feel for Tim. 0:17:19.840 --> 0:17:23.119 He's still somebody's loved one. And I said to him, sweetheart, 0:17:23.400 --> 0:17:27.520 you can't talk like that. Now. That's a big lesson 0:17:27.560 --> 0:17:29.439 for him to learn, and I hope he's learned that 0:17:29.760 --> 0:17:32.520 you cannot talk to anyone like It's okay if you 0:17:32.600 --> 0:17:36.639 don't like what you see. We've all got checklists, but 0:17:36.720 --> 0:17:39.440 you don't have mine. But you know what they showed 0:17:39.480 --> 0:17:42.400 it for how it was. There was nothing exaggerated. There 0:17:42.440 --> 0:17:45.520 was nothing they showed it for how it was. Why 0:17:45.680 --> 0:17:47.760 was I denied that? That's what's maybe up to say 0:17:48.000 --> 0:17:49.600 the fact that I've got the crown this year the 0:17:49.640 --> 0:17:52.879 villain bring it on. Not many women can say on 0:17:53.000 --> 0:17:56.160 the villain. I'm happy. I don't care about my edit. 0:17:56.320 --> 0:17:58.760 I signed up with that, but I thought that they 0:17:58.800 --> 0:18:03.000 would really show why I'm reactive. So let's go to 0:18:03.040 --> 0:18:04.560 my tears on the couch, because you're only going to 0:18:04.600 --> 0:18:10.240 get it once. He calls me an s l ut? 0:18:11.720 --> 0:18:13.720 Why who even uses. 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:16.040 That word any more No no, no girls. 0:18:16.160 --> 0:18:20.119 Is crazy girls girls. Tony. Sorry, Tony says this to you. 0:18:21.160 --> 0:18:24.040 God, God bless him. And you know how we always 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:25.719 had to put on our outfits and then we had 0:18:25.720 --> 0:18:29.600 to get him improved. Yes, So the outfit that I 0:18:29.640 --> 0:18:32.520 got approved was a gorgeous brown dress. You're going to 0:18:32.560 --> 0:18:34.480 see it on the sea six cause when I was 0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:37.600 wearing at the CC, I just know that I just 0:18:37.680 --> 0:18:41.040 finished throwing up. So when you see me, I've just 0:18:41.080 --> 0:18:45.560 finished thrown up, and that is cheap. Nobody even noticed, 0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:50.000 no one, and that's what upsets me. Nobody noticed the 0:18:50.040 --> 0:18:52.760 amount of weight I lost from the start of the 0:18:52.800 --> 0:18:56.439 show to the end. Nobody knows I was invisible. But 0:18:56.520 --> 0:19:00.280 that's okay. So I come back with my up and 0:19:00.320 --> 0:19:01.760 I said, Tony, can you take a photo of this? 0:19:01.880 --> 0:19:04.920 He goes, oh, because she got the look of an 0:19:05.080 --> 0:19:08.560 s l u T. And I said, what did you say? 0:19:09.600 --> 0:19:11.679 What did you just say? You can call me whatever 0:19:11.720 --> 0:19:14.800 you want, as long as it's got some truth behind it, 0:19:15.480 --> 0:19:17.600 I'll get you around. 0:19:17.600 --> 0:19:19.200 When this happened, set. 0:19:19.040 --> 0:19:22.280 It in front of a producer, oh my god, and 0:19:22.320 --> 0:19:24.320 I looked at her and she goes, oh my god, Modena, 0:19:24.320 --> 0:19:25.960 you're about to fume, and I said, no, not at 0:19:26.000 --> 0:19:28.320 all talk to him because I don't want to look 0:19:28.320 --> 0:19:31.080 at him anyway. I walk away. She had a chat 0:19:31.080 --> 0:19:34.800 to him. He came and apologized to me. Sorry that 0:19:34.880 --> 0:19:39.920 apologies up your rear end when somebody has to tell you. Anyway. 0:19:40.160 --> 0:19:42.480 When we got to the commitment ceremony, I said to them, 0:19:42.560 --> 0:19:46.000 I sat there, I've waited a whole week to ask 0:19:46.119 --> 0:19:49.320 the three of you, how does a woman or a 0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:57.240 man deal with being called something? Madnna? What would you called? 0:19:58.280 --> 0:20:02.840 She had such a sweet voice on camera anyway, and 0:20:02.880 --> 0:20:05.360 I said, he said tonight, based on what I'm wearing, 0:20:05.359 --> 0:20:07.120 and I've got boots on. You'll see what I'm wearing 0:20:07.160 --> 0:20:10.040 when I wear it. I've got the look of a slut. 0:20:10.960 --> 0:20:14.680 What does Alessandro do? Bless you, darling your gold as well. 0:20:15.440 --> 0:20:20.480 Hope no one ever does this to you. Are you triggered, Morena? Morena? 0:20:20.520 --> 0:20:24.480 Are you triggered? You look very teary, Morena? What's going 0:20:24.480 --> 0:20:25.560 on in your. 0:20:25.720 --> 0:20:26.880 What an odd thing to say? 0:20:27.160 --> 0:20:29.960 No, it's not odd because they want a reaction and 0:20:30.040 --> 0:20:32.399 they're they're not going to show. They're not going to 0:20:32.480 --> 0:20:36.440 show what he called me. Because the dinner party of 0:20:36.480 --> 0:20:39.200 the night before that was brought up at the dinner 0:20:39.240 --> 0:20:42.840 table and one of the beautiful young young girls who 0:20:43.119 --> 0:20:44.959 the whole world loves her and I'm not mentioning her 0:20:45.040 --> 0:20:47.800 name because she'll be destroyed if they do show it. 0:20:48.200 --> 0:20:51.000 She said, get over it, big deal. He called you 0:20:51.040 --> 0:20:53.679 an slut. I wish my husband would call me an 0:20:53.720 --> 0:20:56.520 slut and slap me on the butt while he's saying it. 0:20:56.680 --> 0:21:02.520 Because of your age, you don't understand the terminology. I said, what, No, no, okay, 0:21:02.520 --> 0:21:04.359 what she said it means you're hot. 0:21:04.760 --> 0:21:06.240 No, it does not. It's a geogratory. 0:21:06.600 --> 0:21:11.600 Yeah. Time. No, I just said, stop talking. So I 0:21:11.600 --> 0:21:15.400 said to her, stop talking. She's my daughter's age. You're 0:21:15.440 --> 0:21:18.160 going to be wrong. Stop talking. She knows who she is. 0:21:18.400 --> 0:21:21.280 You ought to be ashamed of yourself. So nobody ever 0:21:21.359 --> 0:21:24.560 stuck up for or never, no one ever put Tony 0:21:24.600 --> 0:21:28.520 in place at the commitment ceremony. I'm not going to 0:21:28.520 --> 0:21:30.600 be shown, honey, No, won't be shore. So I started 0:21:30.600 --> 0:21:33.199 crying because I looked at Tony and I said, no 0:21:33.240 --> 0:21:36.880 one has ever made me look or feel the way 0:21:36.920 --> 0:21:39.840 you have in such a short time. And he turned 0:21:39.880 --> 0:21:44.840 around and said, you liar. Your ex husband has, I said, no, no, 0:21:45.000 --> 0:21:46.800 he has. My ex husband did a lot of things, 0:21:47.200 --> 0:21:49.840 but he never called me an slut. He called my 0:21:49.920 --> 0:21:53.560 daughter that twice. And that's when I started crying. And 0:21:53.600 --> 0:21:56.280 then I stood up at the commitment ceremony. I said, right, 0:21:56.720 --> 0:21:58.520 are you all going to be sharing that now about 0:21:58.560 --> 0:22:02.040 my daughter? And I said, Tara, I looked at that wall, 0:22:02.640 --> 0:22:06.760 Tara John Alex, get out here, get out here, now, 0:22:07.560 --> 0:22:10.879 come come and talk to me. Come are they going 0:22:10.920 --> 0:22:14.080 to show that now? No? All they're going to show 0:22:14.720 --> 0:22:18.640