1 00:00:05,921 --> 00:00:16,361 Speaker 1: Approche production. Mum was on the Gatorade saxophones. I think 2 00:00:16,361 --> 00:00:18,881 Speaker 1: my step stepdad was at the time. I think everyone 3 00:00:18,921 --> 00:00:21,680 Speaker 1: in the Bloody Court was at the time, all the 4 00:00:21,721 --> 00:00:22,561 Speaker 1: adults are. 5 00:00:23,241 --> 00:00:26,121 Speaker 2: And so when we talk about that, just for our listeners, 6 00:00:26,201 --> 00:00:28,641 Speaker 2: let's let's be a little bit clearer. Yeah, we talked 7 00:00:28,801 --> 00:00:30,761 Speaker 2: bombs or we talk yeah. 8 00:00:31,081 --> 00:00:34,281 Speaker 3: Yeah. So there on there on the bongs, I'm just 9 00:00:34,281 --> 00:00:34,961 Speaker 3: smoking weed. 10 00:00:35,641 --> 00:00:40,121 Speaker 1: From there, there's there's one moment back, like my stepdad 11 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:42,961 Speaker 1: used to just get stoned and he plays Nintendo sixty 12 00:00:42,961 --> 00:00:45,920 Speaker 1: four and pissed mom off one time and she ended 13 00:00:46,001 --> 00:00:49,400 Speaker 1: up smashing his Nintendo sixty four and dragged his cartridges 14 00:00:49,441 --> 00:00:50,801 Speaker 1: through the mud and stuff like that. 15 00:00:52,040 --> 00:00:54,801 Speaker 3: And another time he might not have to come home 16 00:00:54,881 --> 00:00:58,481 Speaker 3: or something. Man he had he had a car and yeah. 17 00:00:58,321 --> 00:01:00,320 Speaker 1: And she just took a best of block for his 18 00:01:00,481 --> 00:01:02,681 Speaker 1: through all his windows one time, smashed it all up. 19 00:01:02,721 --> 00:01:04,161 Speaker 1: He had to flog it off her cheap because he 20 00:01:04,161 --> 00:01:05,881 Speaker 1: didn't have the money to get the windows pigs and 21 00:01:05,921 --> 00:01:06,961 Speaker 1: it was just going to get fucked. 22 00:01:08,281 --> 00:01:10,240 Speaker 3: And that's that's kind of where it started going. 23 00:01:10,401 --> 00:01:16,681 Speaker 1: And then from there there was one time and mum, 24 00:01:17,721 --> 00:01:21,200 Speaker 1: Mum snapped and her and Rob were having a fight, 25 00:01:21,280 --> 00:01:25,161 Speaker 1: and I remember being in a lounge and there's just screaming. 26 00:01:25,200 --> 00:01:28,601 Speaker 1: There's heavy screaming, and all of a sudden, my stepdad 27 00:01:28,801 --> 00:01:32,241 Speaker 1: he runs out and he pulls the door shut into 28 00:01:32,321 --> 00:01:34,321 Speaker 1: the hallway and Mum's on the other side of it. 29 00:01:35,081 --> 00:01:37,561 Speaker 1: And I don't know how well my memory is with it, 30 00:01:37,601 --> 00:01:40,601 Speaker 1: but I'm pretty sure she had a knife and she 31 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:41,481 Speaker 1: was trying to stab. 32 00:01:41,321 --> 00:01:44,640 Speaker 3: Him, and from there she was it. 33 00:01:44,721 --> 00:01:47,520 Speaker 1: Was like a huge Johnny moment coming through the top, 34 00:01:47,921 --> 00:01:50,761 Speaker 1: and I'm pretty sure kicking it. She might have had big, 35 00:01:51,801 --> 00:01:55,601 Speaker 1: big boots on the weather then leather boots and kick 36 00:01:55,681 --> 00:01:56,161 Speaker 1: him through there. 37 00:01:56,201 --> 00:01:57,881 Speaker 3: And I got ushered out by that. 38 00:01:57,881 --> 00:02:01,041 Speaker 1: Point, I think by my mum's best friend, and I'm 39 00:02:01,041 --> 00:02:06,361 Speaker 1: obviously freaking out, and Mum couldn't get through, and she 40 00:02:06,441 --> 00:02:10,121 Speaker 1: ended up taking a knife to herself and she slid 41 00:02:10,161 --> 00:02:16,681 Speaker 1: her wrists and from there that's when she actually found 42 00:02:16,721 --> 00:02:18,281 Speaker 1: out she was bipolar. 43 00:02:19,601 --> 00:02:21,881 Speaker 3: So she was admitted into award. 44 00:02:21,960 --> 00:02:25,921 Speaker 1: And obviously, as I mentioned before, with the smoking weed 45 00:02:27,001 --> 00:02:31,361 Speaker 1: that I personally don't think that helped by myself. 46 00:02:31,520 --> 00:02:34,041 Speaker 2: And do you think it was more drug in juice psychosis? 47 00:02:34,081 --> 00:02:38,281 Speaker 1: Would you personally from seeing it later on from seeing 48 00:02:38,281 --> 00:02:42,561 Speaker 1: it later on in life. I think that my mum, 49 00:02:42,641 --> 00:02:46,081 Speaker 1: I've had discussions with her and she said it's a 50 00:02:46,161 --> 00:02:48,201 Speaker 1: probability that it could have been that. 51 00:02:49,520 --> 00:02:50,440 Speaker 3: I think she doesn't. 52 00:02:50,201 --> 00:02:52,361 Speaker 1: Want to be if she says it, it's it's holding 53 00:02:52,361 --> 00:02:55,561 Speaker 1: her accountable for me. And the way I explained that 54 00:02:55,641 --> 00:03:00,401 Speaker 1: to her, I said, holding yourself accountable is the first 55 00:03:01,201 --> 00:03:02,721 Speaker 1: step of making change. 56 00:03:03,520 --> 00:03:06,761 Speaker 2: That's the first step of healing, right, Yeah, very powerful. 57 00:03:07,161 --> 00:03:09,720 Speaker 1: Yeah so and that's what I said. So I think 58 00:03:09,761 --> 00:03:12,800 Speaker 1: she she got the help she needed. She got put 59 00:03:12,841 --> 00:03:17,201 Speaker 1: on by polar meds, and she she got off the weed. 60 00:03:17,561 --> 00:03:23,521 Speaker 1: I think not long after that we were I don't 61 00:03:23,520 --> 00:03:26,841 Speaker 1: know what the decision was, but my stepdad and mum 62 00:03:28,041 --> 00:03:31,561 Speaker 1: said we're moving to Queensland. So we got out of 63 00:03:31,561 --> 00:03:35,281 Speaker 1: our little commission house in that street and we ended 64 00:03:35,361 --> 00:03:38,521 Speaker 1: up moving to Queensland. And my mum and sisters flew 65 00:03:38,601 --> 00:03:41,321 Speaker 1: up first and my stepdad and I caught the bus up. 66 00:03:42,161 --> 00:03:44,521 Speaker 1: Funnily enough, that's when I found out had I get 67 00:03:44,561 --> 00:03:46,601 Speaker 1: motion sickness And I was throwing up for three days 68 00:03:46,601 --> 00:03:50,841 Speaker 1: on the bus. The poor for everyone, yeah, pour everyone 69 00:03:50,841 --> 00:03:54,001 Speaker 1: else on the bus, just just me vile coming up 70 00:03:54,001 --> 00:03:54,601 Speaker 1: the whole time. 71 00:03:55,121 --> 00:03:56,681 Speaker 3: It was not good. And we get up there. It 72 00:03:56,801 --> 00:03:58,401 Speaker 3: was a hottest day they had on record. 73 00:03:58,441 --> 00:04:01,521 Speaker 1: It was it would have been like two thousands, early 74 00:04:01,561 --> 00:04:03,601 Speaker 1: two thousands, and it was like forty five degrees. And 75 00:04:03,641 --> 00:04:08,321 Speaker 1: I come from Seymour with pissing down all the time 76 00:04:08,401 --> 00:04:10,641 Speaker 1: kind of thing, and we got there forty five degrees 77 00:04:10,641 --> 00:04:15,001 Speaker 1: in no air on worked how But up there life 78 00:04:15,081 --> 00:04:15,441 Speaker 1: was good. 79 00:04:15,681 --> 00:04:19,041 Speaker 3: Life was honestly really good. Mum was good. 80 00:04:19,121 --> 00:04:21,640 Speaker 1: Dad was working, Stepdad. I called him Dad my whole 81 00:04:21,681 --> 00:04:28,361 Speaker 1: life kind of thing. He was working, he was concrete, and. 82 00:04:26,601 --> 00:04:30,201 Speaker 3: And yeah, it was. It was so good. 83 00:04:30,201 --> 00:04:32,161 Speaker 1: If I honestly, if we had a stayed up there, 84 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,001 Speaker 1: it would have been so good. There was There's one thing, 85 00:04:36,281 --> 00:04:40,200 Speaker 1: and it was this is my first introduction to seeing 86 00:04:40,241 --> 00:04:43,481 Speaker 1: a side of something. And then I didn't fully understand it, 87 00:04:43,521 --> 00:04:44,441 Speaker 1: but I knew it was. 88 00:04:44,561 --> 00:04:50,041 Speaker 3: There was something going on. My uncle, so he came 89 00:04:50,121 --> 00:04:53,001 Speaker 3: up and visited, but he was actually had a warrant 90 00:04:53,041 --> 00:04:55,641 Speaker 3: and he just bailed and took up the Queen's and 91 00:04:55,641 --> 00:04:57,841 Speaker 3: so they couldn't get him out there. 92 00:04:57,841 --> 00:05:00,041 Speaker 1: He just done the dodge and comes there with us. 93 00:05:00,081 --> 00:05:04,281 Speaker 1: And by this point skateboarding is my thing, Like. 94 00:05:04,481 --> 00:05:07,281 Speaker 3: I can't the fuck up about it, it's it's that's 95 00:05:07,361 --> 00:05:07,801 Speaker 3: my thing. 96 00:05:07,841 --> 00:05:10,441 Speaker 1: I'd say, we're all on the spectrum and that that's 97 00:05:10,440 --> 00:05:13,481 Speaker 1: my thing that I grabbed and and it always has been. 98 00:05:14,001 --> 00:05:16,481 Speaker 1: And he's get me ged up, and he's like, we're 99 00:05:16,521 --> 00:05:18,601 Speaker 1: going to go for a skate. We'll go skate all 100 00:05:18,641 --> 00:05:23,241 Speaker 1: these parks. We'll go around the whole Sunshine Coast. I'm like, yeap, grease, 101 00:05:23,401 --> 00:05:24,801 Speaker 1: this is living Berry. 102 00:05:25,361 --> 00:05:28,961 Speaker 3: And from there, all of a sudden, I reckon. 103 00:05:28,961 --> 00:05:31,921 Speaker 1: We hit two parks all day, and that the reason 104 00:05:31,961 --> 00:05:34,361 Speaker 1: for that is because he went around to every doctor's 105 00:05:34,880 --> 00:05:38,760 Speaker 1: on the Sunshine Coast and told him about his back 106 00:05:39,601 --> 00:05:44,841 Speaker 1: pain from his rugby accident he had and was obviously 107 00:05:44,961 --> 00:05:47,520 Speaker 1: just trying to get some morphine or and don't or 108 00:05:48,041 --> 00:05:51,720 Speaker 1: something like that so he could get on and yeah, yeah, 109 00:05:51,761 --> 00:05:55,481 Speaker 1: and he he's the whole day, we honestly spent probably 110 00:05:55,521 --> 00:05:59,721 Speaker 1: half an hour collectively collectively at two parks. And then 111 00:05:59,921 --> 00:06:02,440 Speaker 1: the last, the last doctor, went to everyone he was 112 00:06:02,561 --> 00:06:05,721 Speaker 1: he was blacklisted or weather the doctors, and the last 113 00:06:05,761 --> 00:06:09,241 Speaker 1: one gave it to him and then he's like, all right, cool, 114 00:06:09,361 --> 00:06:11,481 Speaker 1: And that's when we went to escape up the last 115 00:06:11,481 --> 00:06:13,121 Speaker 1: skape park and had a skate there and. 116 00:06:15,361 --> 00:06:18,001 Speaker 3: We got home and he. 117 00:06:18,081 --> 00:06:20,001 Speaker 1: Stopped and got a lighter on the way or something, 118 00:06:20,961 --> 00:06:23,881 Speaker 1: and all of a sudden we pull over just around 119 00:06:23,921 --> 00:06:25,681 Speaker 1: the corner from my house. They're building a new estate 120 00:06:25,841 --> 00:06:29,721 Speaker 1: just there, and he's gone in and he's like, you 121 00:06:29,801 --> 00:06:32,401 Speaker 1: sit in the back, just don't look up the front. 122 00:06:32,841 --> 00:06:35,241 Speaker 1: So I'm sitting in the back, and all of a sudden, 123 00:06:35,561 --> 00:06:38,241 Speaker 1: he's just putting his spoon down, he's putting his bag down, 124 00:06:38,281 --> 00:06:41,080 Speaker 1: he's putting everything down just on top of the center 125 00:06:41,081 --> 00:06:44,080 Speaker 1: console while he's just getting it all ready, and he's 126 00:06:44,161 --> 00:06:48,121 Speaker 1: just whipped up in the front seat with me in 127 00:06:48,161 --> 00:06:51,520 Speaker 1: the back, I'm watching everything. You tell a little kid 128 00:06:51,601 --> 00:06:53,321 Speaker 1: like me not to look at something, that's the first 129 00:06:53,361 --> 00:06:53,960 Speaker 1: thing I'm going to do. 130 00:06:55,961 --> 00:06:56,881 Speaker 3: And yeah, he was. 131 00:06:56,921 --> 00:07:00,601 Speaker 2: He was basically breaking down the opiate tablets to get 132 00:07:00,641 --> 00:07:04,080 Speaker 2: stoned and injecting that not not so much chasing heroin, 133 00:07:04,161 --> 00:07:05,881 Speaker 2: but chasing anything. 134 00:07:05,921 --> 00:07:06,320 Speaker 3: Basically. 135 00:07:06,361 --> 00:07:08,001 Speaker 2: I think you get to get him stoned. 136 00:07:08,401 --> 00:07:10,601 Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, one hundred percent. So, And. 137 00:07:12,801 --> 00:07:14,881 Speaker 1: I ended up like we'll touch on it soon. But 138 00:07:14,921 --> 00:07:16,481 Speaker 1: I ended up living with him later on because I 139 00:07:16,481 --> 00:07:18,921 Speaker 1: had no other choice. And he was just a smackhead 140 00:07:18,961 --> 00:07:21,281 Speaker 1: man like, and that's he still is. And I don't 141 00:07:21,321 --> 00:07:25,721 Speaker 1: speak to him for this reason. But from there we 142 00:07:25,761 --> 00:07:29,401 Speaker 1: were actually going to move up to Cans. My stepdad 143 00:07:29,441 --> 00:07:31,761 Speaker 1: got some work further up, so we're going to move 144 00:07:31,841 --> 00:07:34,361 Speaker 1: up there. And that's when all the floods happened, and 145 00:07:34,441 --> 00:07:36,161 Speaker 1: we had already got out of the house and we 146 00:07:36,201 --> 00:07:39,201 Speaker 1: got stuck in accommodation. All the floods and Cans happened, 147 00:07:39,201 --> 00:07:41,600 Speaker 1: we had no where to live up there. We're stuck 148 00:07:41,641 --> 00:07:44,881 Speaker 1: in accommodation on the Sunshine Coast and it was just 149 00:07:44,921 --> 00:07:48,921 Speaker 1: costing too much. So my mum decided said that stuff this, 150 00:07:49,041 --> 00:07:52,001 Speaker 1: We're moving back to Seymour. I've got friends and stuff there. 151 00:07:53,281 --> 00:07:54,601 Speaker 3: And that's just kind of. 152 00:07:54,721 --> 00:07:58,161 Speaker 1: Where it all fell apart. That's where it all went 153 00:07:58,241 --> 00:08:03,761 Speaker 1: back to shit. I think for everyone. That's we got 154 00:08:03,801 --> 00:08:06,081 Speaker 1: back and my stepdad stayed in cans and we're going 155 00:08:06,121 --> 00:08:08,441 Speaker 1: to move up further. And once mum got a taste 156 00:08:08,441 --> 00:08:12,881 Speaker 1: for it back in and Seymour here, she. 157 00:08:12,601 --> 00:08:16,281 Speaker 3: Said, no, I'm not leaving kind of things. So anyway 158 00:08:16,361 --> 00:08:16,921 Speaker 3: he gets. 159 00:08:16,761 --> 00:08:19,160 Speaker 2: More just sort of sticking with what she knew best 160 00:08:19,201 --> 00:08:21,601 Speaker 2: in that comfort zone of just she knew the knew 161 00:08:21,601 --> 00:08:24,481 Speaker 2: the environment, knew exactly what she could do where and. 162 00:08:24,401 --> 00:08:27,521 Speaker 1: How am I, And yeah, I don't. 163 00:08:27,801 --> 00:08:29,481 Speaker 3: I think she missed her friends. I don't think it 164 00:08:29,481 --> 00:08:31,561 Speaker 3: was a high life or anything she chased. 165 00:08:31,881 --> 00:08:36,281 Speaker 1: I think it was just familiar already whatever, like just 166 00:08:36,481 --> 00:08:39,241 Speaker 1: being familiar with everyone and everyone knows everyone. 167 00:08:39,361 --> 00:08:42,961 Speaker 3: Small town antics kind of thing. So yeah, so. 168 00:08:44,641 --> 00:08:48,961 Speaker 1: And in Queensland one thing that because I wouldn't shut 169 00:08:49,041 --> 00:08:51,121 Speaker 1: up about skateboarding, I was a little bit pudgy. I 170 00:08:51,201 --> 00:08:53,481 Speaker 1: wasn't I wasn't bad or anything, but kids, kids are 171 00:08:53,481 --> 00:08:56,041 Speaker 1: brutal in Queensland. I copped a bit of shit. Sometimes 172 00:08:56,081 --> 00:08:58,161 Speaker 1: we can't go to school for a couple of months 173 00:08:58,161 --> 00:09:01,321 Speaker 1: at a time just because I was going. And I 174 00:09:01,361 --> 00:09:03,441 Speaker 1: was a bit precious when I was, I was you 175 00:09:03,481 --> 00:09:07,241 Speaker 1: know what, I wear it and I'm soft especially these days, 176 00:09:07,361 --> 00:09:09,161 Speaker 1: like I was soft then, I was a bit precious. 177 00:09:10,081 --> 00:09:13,761 Speaker 1: I've come to find later in life and now I 178 00:09:13,801 --> 00:09:18,681 Speaker 1: realize I'm probably my whole life been undiagnosed ADHD. It's 179 00:09:18,761 --> 00:09:20,321 Speaker 1: just a thing for it. Then that I could feel 180 00:09:20,361 --> 00:09:22,241 Speaker 1: more emotions and stuff when I was younger, and I 181 00:09:22,241 --> 00:09:24,441 Speaker 1: didn't know how to how to deal with everything then, 182 00:09:25,201 --> 00:09:26,681 Speaker 1: and then when I got to see more. 183 00:09:27,281 --> 00:09:29,401 Speaker 2: You're you're diagnosed now you are. 184 00:09:29,401 --> 00:09:31,601 Speaker 3: No, no, I'm not actually diagnosed. 185 00:09:32,721 --> 00:09:36,681 Speaker 1: I think for the sake of talking on it and 186 00:09:36,721 --> 00:09:40,561 Speaker 1: stuff like that and given some empowerment to people, I 187 00:09:40,601 --> 00:09:45,401 Speaker 1: will be going to get diagnosed. I think at the 188 00:09:45,401 --> 00:09:47,601 Speaker 1: moment of how busy and stuff I am, and now 189 00:09:47,721 --> 00:09:51,521 Speaker 1: I use that as my superpower. Back it's as you're 190 00:09:51,521 --> 00:09:53,841 Speaker 1: hear from my schooling, it didn't work for me at all, 191 00:09:53,921 --> 00:09:56,321 Speaker 1: and now that's that's what keeps me going. 192 00:09:57,641 --> 00:10:00,201 Speaker 3: So yeah, So from there. 193 00:10:01,961 --> 00:10:04,521 Speaker 1: I got to see more and I thought, this is 194 00:10:04,561 --> 00:10:06,441 Speaker 1: my chance to kind of be cool kind of thing, 195 00:10:06,481 --> 00:10:07,361 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like. 196 00:10:08,321 --> 00:10:09,361 Speaker 3: Let's get in. 197 00:10:09,521 --> 00:10:12,841 Speaker 1: I don't have to and I got to see MOREE 198 00:10:13,001 --> 00:10:14,801 Speaker 1: my mate who I was friends with in the court, 199 00:10:14,921 --> 00:10:17,081 Speaker 1: he was already he knew everyone. 200 00:10:17,161 --> 00:10:18,881 Speaker 3: At a small town, it's not hard to kind of 201 00:10:18,881 --> 00:10:19,361 Speaker 3: do anything. 202 00:10:20,401 --> 00:10:22,641 Speaker 1: And then so when I got there, I wasn't I 203 00:10:22,721 --> 00:10:24,641 Speaker 1: wasn't as shy and stuff like that. So I didn't 204 00:10:24,641 --> 00:10:27,881 Speaker 1: just sit in class and shut up. I would be 205 00:10:28,281 --> 00:10:30,161 Speaker 1: the b the class clown and stuff like that. And 206 00:10:30,201 --> 00:10:33,401 Speaker 1: I was putting this box man, and I'm sure so 207 00:10:33,441 --> 00:10:36,161 Speaker 1: many people can relate and top like giving something on 208 00:10:36,161 --> 00:10:38,361 Speaker 1: a board and said this is what you're learning. And 209 00:10:38,401 --> 00:10:40,641 Speaker 1: for me, there's so much more interesting just going on 210 00:10:40,721 --> 00:10:44,961 Speaker 1: around me let alone in the world. So school just 211 00:10:45,041 --> 00:10:49,401 Speaker 1: quickly went down the pipe. Year seven expelled, suspended until 212 00:10:49,401 --> 00:10:52,761 Speaker 1: they expelled me from there. I was under sixteen. They 213 00:10:52,761 --> 00:10:54,681 Speaker 1: had to take me back. They tried to give me 214 00:10:54,721 --> 00:10:56,841 Speaker 1: to other schools. I was going to get baptized at 215 00:10:56,841 --> 00:10:58,881 Speaker 1: one point so I could go to a Catholic school 216 00:10:58,881 --> 00:11:00,001 Speaker 1: because then they had to take me. 217 00:11:01,561 --> 00:11:02,841 Speaker 3: So yeah, so year. 218 00:11:02,721 --> 00:11:07,481 Speaker 1: Seven, at twelve was straight to the skate park. I 219 00:11:07,481 --> 00:11:10,801 Speaker 1: met people there. I was no one's responsibility. I had 220 00:11:10,841 --> 00:11:14,321 Speaker 1: no older siblings. I was no one's younger brother. No 221 00:11:14,361 --> 00:11:16,601 Speaker 1: one knew my parents and stuff like that. So all 222 00:11:16,601 --> 00:11:19,641 Speaker 1: of a sudden, I'm getting invited to parties and stuff, 223 00:11:19,641 --> 00:11:22,921 Speaker 1: and I'm twelve and I'm going out with sixteen seventeen 224 00:11:23,001 --> 00:11:25,001 Speaker 1: year olds. And that's when I just started getting pissed. 225 00:11:25,121 --> 00:11:28,561 Speaker 1: When I was twelve, so heavily drinking, passing out nearly 226 00:11:28,601 --> 00:11:29,121 Speaker 1: every time. 227 00:11:30,361 --> 00:11:31,201 Speaker 3: And yeah, as I. 228 00:11:31,121 --> 00:11:36,161 Speaker 1: Said, I was no one's responsibility. And from there atkin 229 00:11:36,321 --> 00:11:37,721 Speaker 1: I got caught, got grounded for. 230 00:11:37,761 --> 00:11:38,441 Speaker 3: A few months. 231 00:11:38,761 --> 00:11:42,201 Speaker 1: My stepdad he skated and stuff when he was younger, 232 00:11:42,281 --> 00:11:44,321 Speaker 1: so I was just like, oh, the boys are going 233 00:11:44,401 --> 00:11:46,041 Speaker 1: motor ride, and can I just go stay with them 234 00:11:46,081 --> 00:11:47,961 Speaker 1: and then we'll go motor ride in the morning. Yeah, 235 00:11:48,041 --> 00:11:49,641 Speaker 1: go for it, you motorid, and that's sweet. I'll just 236 00:11:49,641 --> 00:11:52,761 Speaker 1: go get pissed again. So that was my little loophole 237 00:11:52,801 --> 00:11:58,921 Speaker 1: around that. And then from there I kind of got 238 00:11:58,921 --> 00:12:01,601 Speaker 1: a little bit older, and that's when the skate park 239 00:12:01,641 --> 00:12:03,281 Speaker 1: fights and stuff started happened. 240 00:12:03,401 --> 00:12:05,601 Speaker 3: I think people could smell it, smell me coming from. 241 00:12:05,561 --> 00:12:07,721 Speaker 1: A mile away and knew I was a bit lame 242 00:12:07,761 --> 00:12:11,281 Speaker 1: and a bit weird, a bit different, and they and 243 00:12:11,481 --> 00:12:13,281 Speaker 1: they would call me out and I'd just have to 244 00:12:13,601 --> 00:12:16,721 Speaker 1: keep that balloon chest on and kind of that's when 245 00:12:16,721 --> 00:12:21,401 Speaker 1: all that stuff kind of started. And then fourteen that's 246 00:12:21,441 --> 00:12:25,241 Speaker 1: that's where that's where it actually the kind of story starts. 247 00:12:26,521 --> 00:12:26,961 Speaker 3: Yep it. 248 00:12:30,521 --> 00:12:35,201 Speaker 1: Mum, stepdad. He's down here. By this point, they're real rocky. 249 00:12:36,481 --> 00:12:40,121 Speaker 1: He just one day gets up and leaves. He just 250 00:12:40,201 --> 00:12:40,761 Speaker 1: takes off. 251 00:12:40,961 --> 00:12:43,121 Speaker 3: He like he was. 252 00:12:43,441 --> 00:12:46,961 Speaker 1: I lies him as my dad. All I knew was 253 00:12:46,961 --> 00:12:50,681 Speaker 1: a dad, and he was my sister's biological father. And 254 00:12:50,721 --> 00:12:53,321 Speaker 1: he just had enough of my mum and left. And 255 00:12:53,601 --> 00:12:59,121 Speaker 1: by this point he was always smoking weed. Just suddenly 256 00:12:59,281 --> 00:13:01,241 Speaker 1: nothing too much him in the Queen's Land. But he 257 00:13:01,281 --> 00:13:04,281 Speaker 1: could handle that kind of stuff. Before he left, him 258 00:13:04,281 --> 00:13:07,481 Speaker 1: and mum smoking a bit of weed. So then when 259 00:13:07,481 --> 00:13:10,281 Speaker 1: he's left, that's that's all that was there for My 260 00:13:10,401 --> 00:13:14,041 Speaker 1: mum was that she thought she needed to go out 261 00:13:14,041 --> 00:13:16,161 Speaker 1: and socialize. So she's getting pierced and going to the 262 00:13:16,201 --> 00:13:19,881 Speaker 1: pub and stuff like that. And at fourteen, that's kind 263 00:13:19,921 --> 00:13:23,001 Speaker 1: of when by that point, I'm trying to sneak into 264 00:13:23,041 --> 00:13:24,481 Speaker 1: the pub for as long as I can before I 265 00:13:24,521 --> 00:13:27,041 Speaker 1: get kicked out. So sometimes i'd sneak into the pub 266 00:13:27,081 --> 00:13:29,081 Speaker 1: my mom's in there dancing, might stay. 267 00:13:28,961 --> 00:13:32,801 Speaker 3: Away from me, like you don't want people going, oh 268 00:13:32,841 --> 00:13:33,801 Speaker 3: look there's your mum man. 269 00:13:35,121 --> 00:13:41,121 Speaker 1: And yeah, So she's she started smoking quite heavily and 270 00:13:43,481 --> 00:13:49,081 Speaker 1: eventually she's kind of she's up to She would sit 271 00:13:49,121 --> 00:13:51,281 Speaker 1: there and smoke quarter her a day sometimes, like she 272 00:13:51,281 --> 00:13:53,281 Speaker 1: would just sit in the back room. I wouldn't see 273 00:13:53,321 --> 00:13:56,121 Speaker 1: all day. She she'ld get the girl sort of some 274 00:13:56,161 --> 00:13:58,521 Speaker 1: food and she would just sit there and smoke, just 275 00:13:58,601 --> 00:14:03,921 Speaker 1: flatch out, just going. And then she started to lose again, 276 00:14:04,001 --> 00:14:07,241 Speaker 1: like her she she's told me her meds got changed 277 00:14:08,041 --> 00:14:10,801 Speaker 1: for a bipolar and once again, it was never the 278 00:14:10,801 --> 00:14:12,001 Speaker 1: weed for me. 279 00:14:13,001 --> 00:14:14,441 Speaker 3: She wasn't there because of the weed. 280 00:14:14,601 --> 00:14:17,361 Speaker 1: Like she was in that background smoking when she'd come 281 00:14:17,361 --> 00:14:19,881 Speaker 1: home from the pub, like I might be home and 282 00:14:19,921 --> 00:14:21,921 Speaker 1: she just brought a party back to her house. And 283 00:14:21,961 --> 00:14:25,481 Speaker 1: like then when I was younger, that was cool, man, 284 00:14:25,521 --> 00:14:27,001 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I'm around all these older 285 00:14:27,001 --> 00:14:30,041 Speaker 1: people and stuff like that. But once again, that's kind 286 00:14:30,081 --> 00:14:33,401 Speaker 1: of one of my downfalls is I got used to 287 00:14:33,441 --> 00:14:38,801 Speaker 1: that life like she. At one point she I wasn't 288 00:14:38,841 --> 00:14:42,401 Speaker 1: getting I would ask her for money, There'd be no food, 289 00:14:42,481 --> 00:14:44,201 Speaker 1: house find chill with it. 290 00:14:44,281 --> 00:14:47,601 Speaker 3: And from there I would be like, can I have 291 00:14:47,641 --> 00:14:48,961 Speaker 3: some money? She's like, no, I've got none. 292 00:14:49,481 --> 00:14:52,721 Speaker 1: Can I take By this point, my mate's are smoking weed. 293 00:14:52,841 --> 00:14:54,721 Speaker 1: I'm not smoking weed because I see what it does 294 00:14:54,721 --> 00:14:58,321 Speaker 1: to my mum. I start selling her weed so I 295 00:14:58,321 --> 00:15:01,801 Speaker 1: can go get money for food, and I would just 296 00:15:01,801 --> 00:15:03,641 Speaker 1: do it. I would just do it cheaper. 297 00:15:03,361 --> 00:15:05,041 Speaker 3: Than everyone in town. I'm getting it for free. Man. 298 00:15:05,601 --> 00:15:09,081 Speaker 1: Mom was buying bags and stuff at a time. It's 299 00:15:09,241 --> 00:15:13,121 Speaker 1: no worries whatever, So I would just grab sell fifteen 300 00:15:13,161 --> 00:15:16,161 Speaker 1: dollars six sticks to the boys. People started catching onto that, 301 00:15:16,241 --> 00:15:17,601 Speaker 1: or the older blokes wanted off me. 302 00:15:19,041 --> 00:15:19,641 Speaker 3: So then all of a. 303 00:15:19,641 --> 00:15:24,401 Speaker 1: Sudden, that kick started me into selling weed. I've kind 304 00:15:24,401 --> 00:15:26,201 Speaker 1: of seen that there's a life in it for me 305 00:15:26,361 --> 00:15:30,241 Speaker 1: doing that, and that's the way I can. I can 306 00:15:30,321 --> 00:15:34,481 Speaker 1: take care of myself. And then it was hard to 307 00:15:34,521 --> 00:15:39,481 Speaker 1: be at home. Mum had a couple of boyfriends, and yeah, 308 00:15:39,641 --> 00:15:42,801 Speaker 1: I couldn't stand any of them, and one of her 309 00:15:42,801 --> 00:15:46,161 Speaker 1: boyfriends he used to throw me around a little bit 310 00:15:47,161 --> 00:15:47,961 Speaker 1: and I would. 311 00:15:47,761 --> 00:15:48,521 Speaker 3: Never fight back. 312 00:15:49,041 --> 00:15:53,641 Speaker 1: It's yeah, I didn't know how I was forty kilos, ringing, 313 00:15:53,681 --> 00:15:57,041 Speaker 1: wet like Honestly, I wouldn't have been able to do much. 314 00:15:57,161 --> 00:15:59,801 Speaker 3: And the one time that all changed. 315 00:16:00,521 --> 00:16:04,121 Speaker 1: He was throwing me around a bit and my mum 316 00:16:04,201 --> 00:16:06,321 Speaker 1: stepped in to get off him, get off him, and 317 00:16:06,361 --> 00:16:08,081 Speaker 1: he turned around and he clocked my mum in front 318 00:16:08,081 --> 00:16:08,361 Speaker 1: of me. 319 00:16:09,161 --> 00:16:09,641 Speaker 3: And. 320 00:16:11,161 --> 00:16:14,481 Speaker 1: From there that was the first time I fought back, 321 00:16:15,241 --> 00:16:20,601 Speaker 1: and that punch was a very crucial punch in my life. 322 00:16:21,041 --> 00:16:22,961 Speaker 1: It was a big ship mixer. I didn't I didn't 323 00:16:22,961 --> 00:16:25,601 Speaker 1: know how to swing properly. It was a big haymaker. 324 00:16:25,921 --> 00:16:28,921 Speaker 1: He's just stepped back. He spun me around, clocked me 325 00:16:28,961 --> 00:16:30,921 Speaker 1: in the back of the head, threw me up against 326 00:16:30,921 --> 00:16:33,721 Speaker 1: the fridge, started wailing into me a bit. Mums kind 327 00:16:33,721 --> 00:16:34,401 Speaker 1: of ripped him off. 328 00:16:34,441 --> 00:16:37,601 Speaker 3: But after that first punch. That's my knuckle state by. 329 00:16:38,041 --> 00:16:42,041 Speaker 3: I was angry at the world. I was. That's that's 330 00:16:42,081 --> 00:16:47,841 Speaker 3: what I was, Just filled with anger and just hatred 331 00:16:48,201 --> 00:16:52,961 Speaker 3: for him.