1 00:00:00,800 --> 00:00:06,280 Speaker 1: Hi, everyone, Welcome back to today's episode Tuesday's episode of 2 00:00:06,400 --> 00:00:10,840 Speaker 1: Hotter Than Yesterday, reporting live on my Sunday evening. We 3 00:00:10,880 --> 00:00:15,040 Speaker 1: are having a Sunday debrief. You're me girls, We're having 4 00:00:15,080 --> 00:00:21,279 Speaker 1: a true Sunday debrief. I I'm hung I'm hungover, so 5 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:23,920 Speaker 1: I feel like grab some popcorn. Let's get crazy. Maybe 6 00:00:23,960 --> 00:00:25,680 Speaker 1: you guys are driving to work and you're in a 7 00:00:25,680 --> 00:00:28,560 Speaker 1: better situation than me. But we're getting real and raw 8 00:00:28,640 --> 00:00:31,560 Speaker 1: on today's episode because I don't have a lot in me, 9 00:00:31,760 --> 00:00:33,960 Speaker 1: but I feel like we can really get down to 10 00:00:33,960 --> 00:00:38,000 Speaker 1: the nitty gritty. It is a gloomy and gross I 11 00:00:38,080 --> 00:00:39,600 Speaker 1: just got back from Sunday roast. 12 00:00:40,760 --> 00:00:44,199 Speaker 2: Ha ha. She's poet and she doesn't even know it. 13 00:00:44,760 --> 00:00:47,400 Speaker 1: We went to John Summit last night with White Fox 14 00:00:47,440 --> 00:00:51,520 Speaker 1: and it was so so much fun. I don't really 15 00:00:51,600 --> 00:00:53,400 Speaker 1: remember it a lot of it, to be honest, because 16 00:00:53,479 --> 00:00:55,120 Speaker 1: I have a. 17 00:00:55,040 --> 00:00:56,400 Speaker 3: Friend called Bree. 18 00:00:57,160 --> 00:00:59,000 Speaker 1: She's one of my London friends, and it was her 19 00:00:59,040 --> 00:01:02,880 Speaker 1: birthday to where we celebrated it yesterday and we started 20 00:01:02,920 --> 00:01:04,200 Speaker 1: drinking from twelve. 21 00:01:04,920 --> 00:01:08,520 Speaker 3: We went to this lovely restaurant called Zephyr. It's like 22 00:01:08,520 --> 00:01:11,479 Speaker 3: a Greek restaurant. It's in notting Hill, like where the Portobello. 23 00:01:11,160 --> 00:01:14,760 Speaker 1: Markets are, and we had a lovely, like long lunch. 24 00:01:14,959 --> 00:01:19,160 Speaker 1: I fucking love a long lunch. Like being a girl 25 00:01:19,319 --> 00:01:22,200 Speaker 1: is so good, because what do you mean we can 26 00:01:22,240 --> 00:01:27,160 Speaker 1: have a Saturday a long lunch with Tommy's Margarita's lovely, 27 00:01:27,480 --> 00:01:30,760 Speaker 1: lovely food and just chat shit for a few hours. 28 00:01:30,800 --> 00:01:32,480 Speaker 2: Like that is girlhood. 29 00:01:33,240 --> 00:01:35,120 Speaker 1: And the fact that men don't get to do that, 30 00:01:35,160 --> 00:01:36,679 Speaker 1: Like obviously you guys get to go to the pub 31 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:38,120 Speaker 1: and you have like a pub meal and like a 32 00:01:38,120 --> 00:01:41,839 Speaker 1: palma and shit like that palm palma, but like it's 33 00:01:41,920 --> 00:01:46,200 Speaker 1: not the same, it's not the same. Like that is 34 00:01:46,400 --> 00:01:50,800 Speaker 1: peak girlhood right there. Like I'm so and like yesterday, 35 00:01:50,800 --> 00:01:53,040 Speaker 1: like when I was sitting there, like I didn't know 36 00:01:53,240 --> 00:01:56,760 Speaker 1: any of the girls, Like they're all girls from Australia. 37 00:01:57,400 --> 00:02:01,560 Speaker 1: It was Maddi, Dylan, Layla and and Free. They're all 38 00:02:01,560 --> 00:02:04,880 Speaker 1: Australian girls. But we've all become such good friends. All 39 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:08,760 Speaker 1: of us probably wouldn't have been friends if we all 40 00:02:08,800 --> 00:02:11,720 Speaker 1: weren't in London like experiencing and doing kind of the 41 00:02:11,760 --> 00:02:14,560 Speaker 1: same thing this year with ourselves. And like I just 42 00:02:14,600 --> 00:02:16,840 Speaker 1: like sat at lunch and I was like, you guys 43 00:02:16,840 --> 00:02:19,000 Speaker 1: have like honestly become some of the most important people 44 00:02:19,040 --> 00:02:20,480 Speaker 1: in my life. And I didn't know you a couple 45 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:23,520 Speaker 1: of months ago, and that is something that I'm really 46 00:02:23,560 --> 00:02:25,760 Speaker 1: really grateful for the experience that I've had. And if 47 00:02:25,800 --> 00:02:29,200 Speaker 1: any of you are wondering, like how you meet friends 48 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:31,360 Speaker 1: and how you make friends when you're over in a 49 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:33,520 Speaker 1: country away from your family and stuff like that, is 50 00:02:33,560 --> 00:02:36,639 Speaker 1: like your friends become your family, and like you may 51 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:39,120 Speaker 1: not know them for a really really long time, but 52 00:02:39,160 --> 00:02:42,720 Speaker 1: they truly become your everything, and like they're your home 53 00:02:42,760 --> 00:02:45,919 Speaker 1: away from home. You get so close to people quickly, 54 00:02:46,120 --> 00:02:49,200 Speaker 1: and you're also because you're so far away from home, 55 00:02:49,200 --> 00:02:51,600 Speaker 1: you're out of your comfort zone and you're like more 56 00:02:51,760 --> 00:02:54,480 Speaker 1: likely to like go out there message people and like 57 00:02:55,480 --> 00:02:57,400 Speaker 1: do things that you're not comfortable with, Like I just 58 00:02:57,440 --> 00:02:59,560 Speaker 1: went to Sunday Roast with somebody else that I didn't 59 00:02:59,560 --> 00:03:01,839 Speaker 1: really know, and it's like you just have to say 60 00:03:01,919 --> 00:03:04,640 Speaker 1: yes to like meeting people and go outside your comfort 61 00:03:04,720 --> 00:03:08,120 Speaker 1: zone and then that's ends up being comfortable. Like I 62 00:03:08,120 --> 00:03:10,840 Speaker 1: have met so many people in the last couple of 63 00:03:10,840 --> 00:03:14,360 Speaker 1: months and I never ever, ever probably would have met 64 00:03:14,440 --> 00:03:16,919 Speaker 1: when I just like lived in Australia because you're you've 65 00:03:16,919 --> 00:03:19,359 Speaker 1: got your friends in Australia, you've got your family, you've 66 00:03:19,360 --> 00:03:22,079 Speaker 1: got your group of friends and like your plans and 67 00:03:22,120 --> 00:03:24,400 Speaker 1: your routine and everything like that. But because you don't 68 00:03:24,440 --> 00:03:26,920 Speaker 1: have it here, you're like you have no choice but 69 00:03:27,000 --> 00:03:27,840 Speaker 1: to say. 70 00:03:27,680 --> 00:03:28,440 Speaker 2: Yes to things. 71 00:03:28,480 --> 00:03:30,680 Speaker 1: Like the same group of girls and I went out 72 00:03:30,680 --> 00:03:32,280 Speaker 1: on Thursday night and we just like went to this 73 00:03:32,320 --> 00:03:35,240 Speaker 1: place called the Devonshire, which is like a very famous 74 00:03:35,240 --> 00:03:40,080 Speaker 1: pub in Soho and it's like the Guinness Pub and 75 00:03:40,200 --> 00:03:44,440 Speaker 1: everyone goes there and it's always busy, and we met 76 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:46,920 Speaker 1: up with other girls that, like one girl was from London. 77 00:03:47,000 --> 00:03:49,720 Speaker 1: It's like Leila's new housemates, and met up with them, 78 00:03:49,840 --> 00:03:52,520 Speaker 1: had a whole night with them, like then went to 79 00:03:52,560 --> 00:03:54,800 Speaker 1: another pub and we ended up sitting with these irishmen 80 00:03:54,840 --> 00:03:56,839 Speaker 1: and we're like speaking to the Irish men all night. 81 00:03:57,040 --> 00:04:00,080 Speaker 3: They ended up being fucked up, which is like crazy. 82 00:04:00,640 --> 00:04:03,200 Speaker 1: They were like sitting across from us and we just 83 00:04:03,200 --> 00:04:05,840 Speaker 1: like started chatting and started having like good chats, and he, 84 00:04:06,240 --> 00:04:07,400 Speaker 1: like one of the Irish men. 85 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,360 Speaker 3: Like bought all of us all roses and it. 86 00:04:09,440 --> 00:04:11,720 Speaker 1: Was like so cute and everything like that, and then 87 00:04:12,080 --> 00:04:15,760 Speaker 1: they ended up getting into a punch on and hitting 88 00:04:15,800 --> 00:04:20,200 Speaker 1: Phoebe like accidentally, but she ended up getting punched by 89 00:04:20,240 --> 00:04:22,240 Speaker 1: one of the irishmen and we were like, oh my god, 90 00:04:22,360 --> 00:04:24,240 Speaker 1: Like one second you're buying as roses, the next second 91 00:04:24,279 --> 00:04:26,039 Speaker 1: you're getting on a punch on because another guy was 92 00:04:26,040 --> 00:04:29,960 Speaker 1: trying to crack on Phoebe. Very possessive, very weird, but 93 00:04:31,080 --> 00:04:34,479 Speaker 1: it was crazy. I'm like every time I wake up, 94 00:04:34,520 --> 00:04:36,400 Speaker 1: because obviously you guys know, I have like really bad 95 00:04:36,480 --> 00:04:38,240 Speaker 1: anxiety and anxiety. 96 00:04:38,680 --> 00:04:40,359 Speaker 2: I'm like my level. 97 00:04:40,640 --> 00:04:42,520 Speaker 1: I'm not like a big drinker back at home, but 98 00:04:42,560 --> 00:04:45,840 Speaker 1: like I've just like because there's so many things and 99 00:04:45,880 --> 00:04:48,599 Speaker 1: like meeting friends and when you're young and you're like 100 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:50,360 Speaker 1: always out, like the thing to do is like go 101 00:04:50,400 --> 00:04:52,120 Speaker 1: to a bar and drink, like that's how you kind 102 00:04:52,120 --> 00:04:54,640 Speaker 1: of socialize at our age. So like drinking a lot 103 00:04:54,680 --> 00:04:58,080 Speaker 1: more than I usually would, which is like not something 104 00:04:58,120 --> 00:05:01,160 Speaker 1: I love. Like I've pretty good, like I'm not getting 105 00:05:01,240 --> 00:05:02,880 Speaker 1: hungover and like I'll still get up and do things 106 00:05:02,920 --> 00:05:05,640 Speaker 1: the next day, Like I'm not like a bedrodder, but 107 00:05:05,720 --> 00:05:10,280 Speaker 1: like I went out Sunday night last week with some 108 00:05:10,320 --> 00:05:14,880 Speaker 1: more friends from Melbourne, my friend Ethan that I know 109 00:05:15,080 --> 00:05:18,320 Speaker 1: of from Melbourne, and then I went out Thursday night, 110 00:05:18,400 --> 00:05:21,039 Speaker 1: and then I went out Saturday night, and I'm like, 111 00:05:21,240 --> 00:05:24,640 Speaker 1: my body's just like hating me. Like I'm feeling really bloated, 112 00:05:24,800 --> 00:05:27,880 Speaker 1: I'm not eating well. My body dysmorphya is really bad. 113 00:05:28,680 --> 00:05:30,919 Speaker 1: The way I'm viewing myself is bad. 114 00:05:31,000 --> 00:05:31,680 Speaker 2: And I know. 115 00:05:33,160 --> 00:05:36,839 Speaker 1: That it's from all the drinking. Alcohol and I have 116 00:05:36,880 --> 00:05:39,480 Speaker 1: a very weird relationship where like I'll still drink it. 117 00:05:39,760 --> 00:05:42,560 Speaker 1: I drink it because I love the social aspect of it, 118 00:05:42,960 --> 00:05:46,200 Speaker 1: but because of my past with eating and stuff like that, 119 00:05:46,680 --> 00:05:49,360 Speaker 1: alcohol is like very messy in my brain. 120 00:05:49,760 --> 00:05:51,000 Speaker 3: I always like work through it. 121 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:54,359 Speaker 1: But I'd be interested to know if other people that 122 00:05:54,480 --> 00:05:57,599 Speaker 1: have had eating problems in the past, because I like 123 00:05:57,680 --> 00:06:00,440 Speaker 1: to talk to you guys about like how I overcame 124 00:06:00,480 --> 00:06:01,200 Speaker 1: things and stuff. 125 00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:03,560 Speaker 2: But I would also like to know your opinions, like. 126 00:06:04,040 --> 00:06:07,919 Speaker 1: Girls with eating problems, have you always struggled with alcohol, 127 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:11,280 Speaker 1: because it's something I'm still trying to work through, but 128 00:06:11,320 --> 00:06:14,159 Speaker 1: I do really struggle with it. Like for so long, 129 00:06:14,200 --> 00:06:17,960 Speaker 1: I never ever drank cocktails, but now, like I love 130 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:21,520 Speaker 1: a cocktail, but there's so much guilt that comes with cocktails, 131 00:06:21,520 --> 00:06:23,839 Speaker 1: and like then the next day, like my just food 132 00:06:23,880 --> 00:06:25,839 Speaker 1: noise and head noise is really really bad when it 133 00:06:25,839 --> 00:06:29,280 Speaker 1: comes to alcohol, and because I'm drinking, and that's probably 134 00:06:29,320 --> 00:06:33,520 Speaker 1: why in Australia, I maybe minimize the amount I drink, 135 00:06:34,160 --> 00:06:38,200 Speaker 1: like how frequently I drink, but over the last couple 136 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:41,400 Speaker 1: of months, because I'm like obviously being a lot more social, 137 00:06:42,440 --> 00:06:46,880 Speaker 1: I'm drinking a lot more and it's probably why the 138 00:06:47,000 --> 00:06:51,240 Speaker 1: noise is a lot louder. So yeah, I think I'm 139 00:06:51,279 --> 00:06:53,120 Speaker 1: just kind of asking, like, do you guys struggle with 140 00:06:53,200 --> 00:06:57,080 Speaker 1: that and do you guys have that, because it's something 141 00:06:57,120 --> 00:07:02,800 Speaker 1: I'm noticing about myself a lot more that I don't 142 00:07:02,800 --> 00:07:04,839 Speaker 1: really know how to work through. So if you have 143 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:07,920 Speaker 1: worked through that, you have experienced that, like I would 144 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:10,640 Speaker 1: really love to know your advice or to hear your 145 00:07:10,680 --> 00:07:16,080 Speaker 1: experiences about that, because it's definitely something that I'm recognizing 146 00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:19,520 Speaker 1: I really really struggle with and I'm still struggling with 147 00:07:19,560 --> 00:07:20,240 Speaker 1: it quite a lot. 148 00:07:20,720 --> 00:07:21,440 Speaker 2: I don't let it. 149 00:07:21,480 --> 00:07:23,400 Speaker 1: Rule my life and I don't let it consume it 150 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:26,360 Speaker 1: and I don't let it like deter away from what 151 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:29,440 Speaker 1: I want to actually do. But it is something that 152 00:07:29,480 --> 00:07:34,320 Speaker 1: I'm noticing a lot more because I'm doing it a 153 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:38,160 Speaker 1: lot more, and probably why you didn't do it in 154 00:07:38,160 --> 00:07:42,640 Speaker 1: the past is because I was avoiding it. But you 155 00:07:42,720 --> 00:07:44,440 Speaker 1: got to face your problems head on. And that's just 156 00:07:44,480 --> 00:07:48,840 Speaker 1: something I'm definitely recognizing in myself. But some of the 157 00:07:48,920 --> 00:07:51,920 Speaker 1: best memories I've had is like around alcohol, not because 158 00:07:51,920 --> 00:07:53,000 Speaker 1: I'm drug but. 159 00:07:53,040 --> 00:07:54,880 Speaker 2: It's because the alcohol is involved. 160 00:07:55,240 --> 00:07:57,760 Speaker 1: You're in a social aspect, you're a meeting amazing people, 161 00:07:58,360 --> 00:08:03,760 Speaker 1: and yeah, like London is so much fun for that stuff, 162 00:08:03,760 --> 00:08:07,000 Speaker 1: and London does have quite a big drinking culture. I 163 00:08:07,000 --> 00:08:10,720 Speaker 1: would say something I've really noticed about the UK and 164 00:08:10,800 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 1: like London and being over here and kind of living 165 00:08:13,680 --> 00:08:16,800 Speaker 1: over here, is that people don't live for the weekends 166 00:08:16,840 --> 00:08:20,560 Speaker 1: like they live for the weekends in Australia. There is 167 00:08:20,600 --> 00:08:22,720 Speaker 1: a lot more events on the weekends, but there's also 168 00:08:22,800 --> 00:08:26,240 Speaker 1: so much on during the week and people go out 169 00:08:26,280 --> 00:08:30,760 Speaker 1: for dinner, people like really lap up post work time. 170 00:08:30,920 --> 00:08:32,120 Speaker 2: They don't just like go home. 171 00:08:32,480 --> 00:08:35,480 Speaker 1: It's like nine to five and everything like that. And 172 00:08:35,520 --> 00:08:37,640 Speaker 1: I think it's because not a lot of people drive, 173 00:08:38,160 --> 00:08:39,839 Speaker 1: so it's like you find your friends that you take 174 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:42,840 Speaker 1: public transport home that maybe live near you, and it's like, oh, 175 00:08:42,920 --> 00:08:45,440 Speaker 1: we'll grab dinner after and like you're all working in 176 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:46,880 Speaker 1: the city and a lot of you don't live in 177 00:08:46,880 --> 00:08:49,800 Speaker 1: the city, so it's like you meet up with people 178 00:08:49,880 --> 00:08:53,719 Speaker 1: when you're in there, like safety work in like so Ho, 179 00:08:53,920 --> 00:08:57,640 Speaker 1: which might be like South Era, because other people probably 180 00:08:57,720 --> 00:08:59,560 Speaker 1: might also be living out there, but you don't live 181 00:08:59,679 --> 00:09:02,160 Speaker 1: I mean, I might be working out there, but you 182 00:09:02,160 --> 00:09:05,560 Speaker 1: guys don't live in proximity. Normally you will seize the 183 00:09:05,559 --> 00:09:07,839 Speaker 1: opportunity because you guys are working there, so a lot 184 00:09:07,880 --> 00:09:11,120 Speaker 1: more goes on after work. Does that make sense? And 185 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:15,319 Speaker 1: because I'm unemployed, No, I am employed. I do earn money, 186 00:09:15,320 --> 00:09:17,319 Speaker 1: so I am employed, But Sam, I'm self employed and 187 00:09:17,400 --> 00:09:20,440 Speaker 1: I don't go to an office when in Australia like 188 00:09:21,080 --> 00:09:23,720 Speaker 1: those things and opportunities don't come around as much, but 189 00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:28,200 Speaker 1: because it is here, you notice it a lot more. 190 00:09:28,840 --> 00:09:31,000 Speaker 2: I don't really know what I'm saying. Does that makes sense? 191 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:35,040 Speaker 1: But apart from that, John Summit was really really good, 192 00:09:35,040 --> 00:09:36,760 Speaker 1: but it was at the O two Arena, which is 193 00:09:36,840 --> 00:09:39,520 Speaker 1: kind of like Rod Labor. It was like a concert 194 00:09:40,120 --> 00:09:41,400 Speaker 1: and I felt like it should have been like more 195 00:09:41,400 --> 00:09:44,280 Speaker 1: of it a boiler room vibes, but it was really fun. 196 00:09:44,760 --> 00:09:46,600 Speaker 1: I wasn't like a big I'm not like a big 197 00:09:46,679 --> 00:09:48,640 Speaker 1: John Summit fan, but I do love a concert, and 198 00:09:48,720 --> 00:09:53,160 Speaker 1: I do love like house and DJ events and stuff 199 00:09:53,200 --> 00:09:55,280 Speaker 1: like that, so it was really good to go ticked 200 00:09:55,280 --> 00:09:58,040 Speaker 1: it off the off the list, I guess, and where 201 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:00,400 Speaker 1: with Maddie it was really fun. We ended up meeting 202 00:10:00,440 --> 00:10:02,320 Speaker 1: all these other people and being in the suite with 203 00:10:02,360 --> 00:10:05,000 Speaker 1: them and they were other content creators, so again, really 204 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:07,320 Speaker 1: nice to meet more people in the industry over. 205 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:10,319 Speaker 3: Here, but it's hard to keep up with it. 206 00:10:10,840 --> 00:10:12,720 Speaker 1: I'm a tired girl. Like my brain is just like 207 00:10:12,800 --> 00:10:15,319 Speaker 1: running on overdrive. And I think it's because like I 208 00:10:15,360 --> 00:10:17,400 Speaker 1: don't want to miss out on any opportunities. I keep 209 00:10:17,400 --> 00:10:24,319 Speaker 1: saying yes to everything, but probably not prioritizing my mental 210 00:10:24,360 --> 00:10:27,720 Speaker 1: health and like my health and what's actually good for 211 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:33,120 Speaker 1: me mentally, which is probably why I'm like tired and 212 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:37,360 Speaker 1: like drained and run down. But again, all a part 213 00:10:37,440 --> 00:10:39,720 Speaker 1: of the experience. I feel like that's just like your 214 00:10:39,720 --> 00:10:42,200 Speaker 1: twenties and I like said to my friend the other day, 215 00:10:42,200 --> 00:10:43,880 Speaker 1: I was like, fuck, I've got seven more years of this. 216 00:10:44,760 --> 00:10:47,400 Speaker 1: Like your twenties are really hard and really confusing, and 217 00:10:47,400 --> 00:10:50,880 Speaker 1: everyone is at different stages and you never really know 218 00:10:51,120 --> 00:10:53,920 Speaker 1: what you're doing right and like what's the right thing 219 00:10:54,000 --> 00:10:58,720 Speaker 1: to be doing, And it's overwhelming me sometimes because I'm like, 220 00:10:59,600 --> 00:11:01,400 Speaker 1: sometimes i feel like I'm just like wasting my life 221 00:11:01,400 --> 00:11:03,440 Speaker 1: away and I'm not doing anything that's like contributing and 222 00:11:03,480 --> 00:11:07,160 Speaker 1: helping it. But I know it's part of the journey 223 00:11:07,200 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 1: and I will have it all figured out one day 224 00:11:09,760 --> 00:11:13,200 Speaker 1: and I'll be grateful for the experiences and everything that 225 00:11:13,200 --> 00:11:15,679 Speaker 1: I'm going through now. But like sometimes being a part 226 00:11:15,720 --> 00:11:18,439 Speaker 1: of it and doing the experiences, I'm like, Okay, enough 227 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:21,640 Speaker 1: enough life lessons. I've dated a fuck with, I've been 228 00:11:21,679 --> 00:11:25,439 Speaker 1: in a toxic relationship. Like when something good gonna happen, 229 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:29,000 Speaker 1: when something good gonna happen, But sometimes you got to 230 00:11:29,040 --> 00:11:31,480 Speaker 1: go through the hardest shit to have the best outcomes. 231 00:11:31,880 --> 00:11:34,000 Speaker 2: That's what we're manifesting. It's what we're manifesting. 232 00:11:34,240 --> 00:11:37,199 Speaker 1: In terms of like any dating updates, I literally have 233 00:11:37,320 --> 00:11:39,880 Speaker 1: none for you guys, Like I really wish it was 234 00:11:39,920 --> 00:11:42,280 Speaker 1: like way more excited, but like obviously I was in 235 00:11:42,280 --> 00:11:47,360 Speaker 1: that situation shit and that's over now, and I'm just 236 00:11:47,400 --> 00:11:50,520 Speaker 1: like I'm not a good data. I'm not a good 237 00:11:51,200 --> 00:11:54,920 Speaker 1: I really love being single, and like dating just seems 238 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:55,720 Speaker 1: like so much effort. 239 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:57,560 Speaker 2: But I know that, like it would be fun. 240 00:11:57,320 --> 00:12:00,679 Speaker 1: For you guys to have the update, but I really 241 00:12:00,720 --> 00:12:02,440 Speaker 1: don't have any, Like I probably just need to get 242 00:12:02,480 --> 00:12:04,480 Speaker 1: my friends on, Like I'm gonna get Maddie Dylan on 243 00:12:04,920 --> 00:12:06,920 Speaker 1: the podcast. I'm gonna rent out of studio to have 244 00:12:07,040 --> 00:12:10,760 Speaker 1: her on because I feel like she wouldn't her dating 245 00:12:10,800 --> 00:12:13,800 Speaker 1: life and like dating stories are way more entertaining than 246 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:16,800 Speaker 1: what I ever will be. But there will be one 247 00:12:16,840 --> 00:12:19,040 Speaker 1: day where I will be able to fully spill the 248 00:12:19,160 --> 00:12:20,320 Speaker 1: law and the tea. 249 00:12:20,559 --> 00:12:22,199 Speaker 2: But I really don't have anything. 250 00:12:22,559 --> 00:12:24,120 Speaker 1: I think we might be going in a double date 251 00:12:24,120 --> 00:12:26,960 Speaker 1: though that she's teeing up, so could be reporting back 252 00:12:26,960 --> 00:12:28,800 Speaker 1: on that with her. But I asked over on my 253 00:12:28,880 --> 00:12:33,160 Speaker 1: Instagram assumptions about me because I saw Katie from Jhem 254 00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:36,960 Speaker 1: do a TikTok about it, and I was like, I 255 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:40,320 Speaker 1: want to do an assumptions about me, So I'm going 256 00:12:40,360 --> 00:12:42,000 Speaker 1: to read some of them. I haven't really looked at them, 257 00:12:42,040 --> 00:12:50,760 Speaker 1: to be honest, but yeah, let's just dive in. Someone 258 00:12:50,800 --> 00:12:53,240 Speaker 1: said that I would be a really fun friend to have. 259 00:12:53,400 --> 00:12:55,240 Speaker 1: I'm going to start off with a nice assumption because 260 00:12:55,280 --> 00:12:59,240 Speaker 1: that's really such a good compliment. I would say I 261 00:12:59,280 --> 00:13:03,480 Speaker 1: am a very very good friend. I'm extremely extremely loyal 262 00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:06,480 Speaker 1: and like once you're my friend, like I will I'm 263 00:13:06,559 --> 00:13:08,880 Speaker 1: right or die for you. I'm the type of friend 264 00:13:08,880 --> 00:13:10,440 Speaker 1: that's like I will tell you how it is not 265 00:13:10,480 --> 00:13:13,400 Speaker 1: what you want to hear. But I like those type 266 00:13:13,440 --> 00:13:15,719 Speaker 1: of friendships. Or I am always like I'm going to 267 00:13:15,760 --> 00:13:17,640 Speaker 1: treat my friends how I would be want to be 268 00:13:17,679 --> 00:13:21,800 Speaker 1: treated in friendships, which sometimes has like disappointed me because 269 00:13:21,840 --> 00:13:25,120 Speaker 1: I probably do so much for my friends and growing up, 270 00:13:25,160 --> 00:13:27,520 Speaker 1: like I wasn't that close with my family, so I 271 00:13:27,559 --> 00:13:30,360 Speaker 1: did put a lot of effort into my friendships, and 272 00:13:30,360 --> 00:13:31,760 Speaker 1: my friendships do mean so much. 273 00:13:31,760 --> 00:13:32,920 Speaker 2: And because I live away from. 274 00:13:32,760 --> 00:13:35,520 Speaker 1: Home, my friendships out of home, like my friendships mean 275 00:13:35,880 --> 00:13:38,720 Speaker 1: a lot to me. But yeah, I would say I 276 00:13:38,760 --> 00:13:40,720 Speaker 1: am a very fun friend when I'm in the mood. 277 00:13:41,040 --> 00:13:42,920 Speaker 1: I'm the type of friend of like you can't convince 278 00:13:43,000 --> 00:13:44,719 Speaker 1: me to do anything, like when my mind is made 279 00:13:44,800 --> 00:13:46,240 Speaker 1: up on something like if I don't want to go out, 280 00:13:46,240 --> 00:13:49,400 Speaker 1: I'm not going to go out. But when I go out, bitch, 281 00:13:49,400 --> 00:13:51,280 Speaker 1: I'm going to you to do sixty kloshots and you're 282 00:13:51,280 --> 00:13:52,520 Speaker 1: going to have the time of your life. Like I'm 283 00:13:52,559 --> 00:13:55,520 Speaker 1: a fun friend, like I love fun friends, Like I 284 00:13:55,559 --> 00:13:58,760 Speaker 1: hope I'm a fun friend. I don't want to be 285 00:13:58,760 --> 00:14:01,640 Speaker 1: a borrowing friend. But yeah, I would say I am 286 00:14:01,679 --> 00:14:04,040 Speaker 1: a fun friend. I'd say I'm a good friend too. 287 00:14:04,800 --> 00:14:06,920 Speaker 1: Another person says, is my assumption is that I go 288 00:14:06,960 --> 00:14:09,080 Speaker 1: out at the time I go out when I'm not 289 00:14:09,280 --> 00:14:11,280 Speaker 1: in countries that i'm born in, Like I don't go 290 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:14,280 Speaker 1: out a lot in Melbourne. I'm a very big homebody 291 00:14:14,280 --> 00:14:16,679 Speaker 1: in Melbourne. I don't really go out, like I'll go 292 00:14:16,920 --> 00:14:18,880 Speaker 1: like to a wine by with my friends maybe, but like, 293 00:14:19,160 --> 00:14:22,720 Speaker 1: I'm not like a partier in Melbourne. But I think 294 00:14:22,720 --> 00:14:24,560 Speaker 1: it's because I'm in Europe and I'm meeting more people 295 00:14:24,600 --> 00:14:27,360 Speaker 1: and I'm like really loving the opportunities and I'm like 296 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:30,360 Speaker 1: super happy and I'm like wanting to like meet more 297 00:14:30,400 --> 00:14:32,360 Speaker 1: people and stuff like that. I have been going out 298 00:14:32,360 --> 00:14:35,360 Speaker 1: a lot more than usual, but I'm not necessarily a partier, 299 00:14:35,800 --> 00:14:38,440 Speaker 1: if that makes sense. I don't like clubs. I don't 300 00:14:38,520 --> 00:14:41,200 Speaker 1: like going to clubs. I don't like nightclubs. I find 301 00:14:41,200 --> 00:14:43,880 Speaker 1: them very overwhelming. I like places that you can sit down. 302 00:14:44,320 --> 00:14:46,160 Speaker 1: I love I love a dance but I'm like more 303 00:14:46,200 --> 00:14:47,800 Speaker 1: of a beach club kind of girl, like in like 304 00:14:47,840 --> 00:14:52,360 Speaker 1: tropical countries, like I love it like that, if that 305 00:14:52,400 --> 00:14:55,800 Speaker 1: makes sense. But I'm not like a clubber. I love 306 00:14:55,800 --> 00:14:59,240 Speaker 1: a house party, but I'm not a clubber. I don't 307 00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:01,480 Speaker 1: like them, but I I love a beach club in 308 00:15:01,560 --> 00:15:02,720 Speaker 1: like Mickenos. 309 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:03,560 Speaker 2: Do you know what I mean? 310 00:15:04,040 --> 00:15:07,680 Speaker 1: I'm like a time and place partier. But I would 311 00:15:07,760 --> 00:15:11,720 Speaker 1: say I don't go out any more than anybody else 312 00:15:11,760 --> 00:15:14,360 Speaker 1: my age, like once or twice a week max, And 313 00:15:14,400 --> 00:15:16,640 Speaker 1: I don't back it up like I'm not like Friday 314 00:15:16,640 --> 00:15:20,800 Speaker 1: and Saturday. I'm either Friday or Saturday. This week was different. 315 00:15:21,280 --> 00:15:24,520 Speaker 1: This week was an odd week for me. Someone says 316 00:15:24,520 --> 00:15:29,160 Speaker 1: that I seek male validation. She goes, I don't think 317 00:15:29,200 --> 00:15:30,840 Speaker 1: this is what, this is who you are, but I 318 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:34,000 Speaker 1: just wanted to get your opinion. I okay, I know 319 00:15:34,160 --> 00:15:37,800 Speaker 1: I speak about like being single and like not having 320 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:39,560 Speaker 1: a boyfriend, and like I make it like quite a 321 00:15:39,600 --> 00:15:42,400 Speaker 1: bit of my personality and stuff like that, but I 322 00:15:42,960 --> 00:15:44,960 Speaker 1: and I'm not trying to like come across like pick me. 323 00:15:45,600 --> 00:15:48,680 Speaker 3: But I think because I. 324 00:15:48,600 --> 00:15:52,560 Speaker 1: Grew up in a male, very male dominated environment, like 325 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:56,320 Speaker 1: I lived at a boys boarding school and I had brothers, 326 00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:59,960 Speaker 1: I don't look at men for validation and I don't 327 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:03,360 Speaker 1: don't seek validation from men, like if I don't want 328 00:16:03,360 --> 00:16:04,960 Speaker 1: a man to call me pretty. I don't want, like 329 00:16:05,280 --> 00:16:07,360 Speaker 1: want to pool men on a night out, like I've 330 00:16:08,360 --> 00:16:11,880 Speaker 1: never like and not that it's wrong, but I'm just 331 00:16:11,880 --> 00:16:13,800 Speaker 1: like explaining the type of person I am, Like I've 332 00:16:13,800 --> 00:16:15,760 Speaker 1: never had a one night stand and I've never gone 333 00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:17,480 Speaker 1: home with a man on a night out, and I've 334 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:20,520 Speaker 1: never like met a man on a night out and 335 00:16:20,600 --> 00:16:25,320 Speaker 1: been like yes, like obviously like I've sp spoken to 336 00:16:25,320 --> 00:16:27,760 Speaker 1: guys on a night out, but like I don't. That's 337 00:16:27,800 --> 00:16:30,920 Speaker 1: not my intention when I go out, and I don't. 338 00:16:31,160 --> 00:16:33,640 Speaker 1: I definitely don't dress for the male gaze, like my 339 00:16:33,680 --> 00:16:37,960 Speaker 1: outfits are so for the girls, and I don't seek 340 00:16:38,040 --> 00:16:41,480 Speaker 1: validation from men. If anything, I probably seek more validation 341 00:16:41,720 --> 00:16:42,880 Speaker 1: externally from women. 342 00:16:43,680 --> 00:16:47,480 Speaker 3: I yeah, I'm not very I don't think i'd give 343 00:16:47,480 --> 00:16:49,280 Speaker 3: off energy two. 344 00:16:49,240 --> 00:16:51,640 Speaker 1: Men on a night out that like, like I rarely 345 00:16:51,640 --> 00:16:55,160 Speaker 1: get approached if anything, and spoken too, because I just 346 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:55,680 Speaker 1: don't think I. 347 00:16:55,760 --> 00:16:56,720 Speaker 2: Give off that aura. 348 00:16:57,320 --> 00:17:00,520 Speaker 1: I don't really give a fuck if men love or 349 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:02,840 Speaker 1: hate me. Couldn't actually give a shit, to be honest, 350 00:17:02,880 --> 00:17:05,719 Speaker 1: And that's just like not someone I am. But I 351 00:17:05,760 --> 00:17:09,920 Speaker 1: think that's because I grew up like viewing men as 352 00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:12,639 Speaker 1: just like individuals, and I don't really care, Like if 353 00:17:12,680 --> 00:17:14,640 Speaker 1: you don't like me, I don't care, and I don't 354 00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:16,879 Speaker 1: want your approval and I don't want your validation that 355 00:17:16,920 --> 00:17:18,720 Speaker 1: you think I'm pretty, Like I couldn't give a fuck 356 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:21,440 Speaker 1: because nine times out of ten, like I probably don't 357 00:17:21,480 --> 00:17:23,760 Speaker 1: rate you, and I don't want you to think that 358 00:17:23,800 --> 00:17:27,160 Speaker 1: I'm gonna validate you. I don't really compliment men. I'm 359 00:17:27,160 --> 00:17:29,439 Speaker 1: not very nice to them. I'm a bit of a 360 00:17:29,480 --> 00:17:31,920 Speaker 1: hater if anything. So like I just never want to 361 00:17:31,960 --> 00:17:34,560 Speaker 1: put myself in an environment that I'm gonna get validation 362 00:17:34,640 --> 00:17:36,200 Speaker 1: from them, because like a majority of the time, I 363 00:17:36,240 --> 00:17:39,119 Speaker 1: won't give them validation and I'm not giving them the energy. 364 00:17:39,600 --> 00:17:42,960 Speaker 1: But that doesn't mean that, like it isn't nice. Like 365 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:45,520 Speaker 1: of course, like a man calling you beautiful and everything 366 00:17:45,560 --> 00:17:47,960 Speaker 1: like that is so lovely, but it doesn't make me 367 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:50,240 Speaker 1: feel better. It doesn't make me feel good, like at 368 00:17:50,280 --> 00:17:51,919 Speaker 1: the end of the day, like I still view myself 369 00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:54,520 Speaker 1: the same way, whether a man compliments to me or not. 370 00:17:55,160 --> 00:17:55,920 Speaker 2: And I'm so. 371 00:17:56,000 --> 00:17:57,960 Speaker 1: Glad that I was kind of brought up like that 372 00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:04,080 Speaker 1: because of my brothers. So no, if anything, I probably 373 00:18:04,080 --> 00:18:06,160 Speaker 1: seek more validation from women. And I have a big 374 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:09,320 Speaker 1: fear about women not liking me and women not thinking 375 00:18:09,359 --> 00:18:11,520 Speaker 1: I'm cool and like pretty and shit like that. Like 376 00:18:11,560 --> 00:18:16,480 Speaker 1: I definitely would seek more validation from women. Someone says 377 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:19,960 Speaker 1: you're an appall spirit scale. No, guys, I hate Aperol spirits. 378 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:22,560 Speaker 1: I don't really like bubbly alcoholic drinks because I think 379 00:18:22,560 --> 00:18:24,840 Speaker 1: it just makes me feel good. I'm a Tommy's Mark 380 00:18:24,880 --> 00:18:28,399 Speaker 1: girl through and through. And there's this drink called a 381 00:18:28,520 --> 00:18:32,720 Speaker 1: gin basil smash. My ex introduce me to them because 382 00:18:32,720 --> 00:18:35,280 Speaker 1: he's European, and they're so fucking good. But I don't 383 00:18:35,320 --> 00:18:37,120 Speaker 1: know if you can get them in Australia. I don't 384 00:18:37,160 --> 00:18:39,679 Speaker 1: know if they're a common drink. But it's like a 385 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:42,919 Speaker 1: basil drink. It's so fucking good. And I am a 386 00:18:42,960 --> 00:18:45,919 Speaker 1: Tommy's Margarita girl, but they don't do Tommy's Margarita is 387 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:49,440 Speaker 1: very well here. They do them really good in Australia, 388 00:18:49,520 --> 00:18:52,000 Speaker 1: like I think it's a very Australian drink. I have 389 00:18:52,440 --> 00:18:55,439 Speaker 1: gotten a little bit more onto the Aperol spirits, Like 390 00:18:55,640 --> 00:18:57,560 Speaker 1: when I was in Italy, i'd have like maybe one 391 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:59,399 Speaker 1: with dinner, but it's like a one and done kind 392 00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:01,639 Speaker 1: of thing, and I'm wanting to sip on a drink 393 00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:04,359 Speaker 1: because I'm a sculler. If I get a match up, 394 00:19:04,400 --> 00:19:06,320 Speaker 1: if I get a coffee, if I get a margarita, 395 00:19:06,680 --> 00:19:08,880 Speaker 1: that shit's gone in three or four drinks. And I'm 396 00:19:08,920 --> 00:19:13,120 Speaker 1: not a sipper, so margarita is they go down very quickly, 397 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:14,879 Speaker 1: like I'm a sculler, and then I'm like another one, 398 00:19:14,880 --> 00:19:16,600 Speaker 1: another one, another one, and then next second. 399 00:19:16,440 --> 00:19:17,640 Speaker 2: Like I'm obliterated. 400 00:19:17,720 --> 00:19:19,720 Speaker 1: Because I just like love to drink my drinks like 401 00:19:19,720 --> 00:19:22,080 Speaker 1: I'm a drink I'm a beverage girl, like I have 402 00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:26,359 Speaker 1: so many beverages throughout the day. So I have noticed. 403 00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:30,879 Speaker 1: I sip Apperol spirits is because I don't really like them. 404 00:19:30,960 --> 00:19:33,280 Speaker 1: So if I want to sip a drink and I 405 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:35,240 Speaker 1: don't actually really want to get drunk, I get an 406 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:37,359 Speaker 1: Apple sprits because I don't actually like the taste. I 407 00:19:37,359 --> 00:19:40,399 Speaker 1: don't like the taste of prosecco. I don't like wine 408 00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:44,240 Speaker 1: and anything like that. So I have reckon. I now 409 00:19:44,320 --> 00:19:46,000 Speaker 1: know if I actually don't really want to drink but 410 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:48,600 Speaker 1: everyone's drinking around me, I will get an Apperl spritz 411 00:19:48,880 --> 00:19:52,600 Speaker 1: for the vibe, not because I like it, if that 412 00:19:52,680 --> 00:19:54,440 Speaker 1: makes sense, but they're warming up to me. 413 00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:55,760 Speaker 2: I've had like a few. 414 00:19:55,600 --> 00:19:59,679 Speaker 1: Good apparo spritzers. Someone says, you're into femboys. Okay, me 415 00:19:59,720 --> 00:20:05,200 Speaker 1: my friend talking about this, I my type has completely changed. 416 00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:08,080 Speaker 1: Like I used to say that my type was like 417 00:20:08,119 --> 00:20:10,280 Speaker 1: my ex boyfriend that you guys all know, but now 418 00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:12,520 Speaker 1: I'm like not attracted to that at all, Like that 419 00:20:12,720 --> 00:20:16,240 Speaker 1: is not my type at all. I wouldn't say I'm 420 00:20:16,320 --> 00:20:20,119 Speaker 1: not into fem men, but I'm not necessarily attracted to them. 421 00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:24,080 Speaker 1: I think I like a bit of a protector mentality, 422 00:20:24,119 --> 00:20:27,480 Speaker 1: a bit of a man. Not that fanboys aren't men, 423 00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:30,280 Speaker 1: because I also want a man that's really emotionally in touch. 424 00:20:30,400 --> 00:20:33,120 Speaker 1: So if you say a fan boy, I don't really 425 00:20:33,200 --> 00:20:38,000 Speaker 1: like the standards of like mask and fem but I 426 00:20:38,040 --> 00:20:41,199 Speaker 1: think societally fan boys they say that they're more in 427 00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:44,000 Speaker 1: touch with their emotions and everything like that. So if 428 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:47,520 Speaker 1: you say, if you're talking about like emotionally, yes, I'm 429 00:20:47,560 --> 00:20:52,240 Speaker 1: into fem men in quotation marks, I really don't like 430 00:20:52,400 --> 00:20:56,160 Speaker 1: speaking about it like that, but yes, I'm into emotionally 431 00:20:57,160 --> 00:21:03,040 Speaker 1: mature men because I think think my feelings grow a 432 00:21:03,080 --> 00:21:07,480 Speaker 1: lot more emotionally. I'm like physical attraction obviously is a thing, 433 00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:10,080 Speaker 1: but I can appreciate a good looking man but if 434 00:21:10,080 --> 00:21:12,320 Speaker 1: I don't have an emotional connection with them, like I 435 00:21:12,359 --> 00:21:16,840 Speaker 1: don't really care, like I wasn't Like for my last 436 00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:21,960 Speaker 1: situationship with the European guy, he wasn't very emotionally available, 437 00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:24,960 Speaker 1: and that's what stopped me from growing emotion like developing 438 00:21:25,400 --> 00:21:30,320 Speaker 1: stronger feelings for him because emotionally we weren't aligning. So 439 00:21:30,400 --> 00:21:32,560 Speaker 1: if you're talking about it from that aspect, yes, I'm 440 00:21:32,600 --> 00:21:35,600 Speaker 1: into more feminine men who like are happy to speak 441 00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:38,560 Speaker 1: about their emotions and not just like come off tough 442 00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:42,360 Speaker 1: all the time. I don't like that. But I am 443 00:21:42,400 --> 00:21:47,840 Speaker 1: like into a cool guy like my type now, like, oh, 444 00:21:47,920 --> 00:21:51,919 Speaker 1: I'm obsessed with Like the guy I'm obsessing it with 445 00:21:52,160 --> 00:21:55,800 Speaker 1: over at the moment is dasmond Idris. 446 00:21:56,160 --> 00:21:59,960 Speaker 2: He's in the Formula one movie. He's in Snowball. 447 00:21:59,520 --> 00:22:04,000 Speaker 1: And like, oh he's Aura, Like I'm into auras like 448 00:22:04,359 --> 00:22:08,200 Speaker 1: cool guy called fashion, like dresses a little bit cool, 449 00:22:08,240 --> 00:22:10,119 Speaker 1: like doesn't give a fuck, Like I don't want you 450 00:22:10,119 --> 00:22:12,600 Speaker 1: to dress basic, like I want you to dress cool. 451 00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:15,240 Speaker 3: Like style is a really big thing for me. 452 00:22:15,320 --> 00:22:18,119 Speaker 1: An Aura like vibe, like you just gotta have a 453 00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:21,919 Speaker 1: vibe to you. That's what I'm attracted to, Like Aura 454 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:25,919 Speaker 1: do you know what I mean? Like, dos'man Damnson's just 455 00:22:25,920 --> 00:22:29,400 Speaker 1: got aura like he's so hot, like Asap Rocky, they've 456 00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:30,879 Speaker 1: got aura like that. 457 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:32,240 Speaker 2: Shit, your aura. 458 00:22:32,040 --> 00:22:34,639 Speaker 1: Is so cool Like my ex had aura, like he 459 00:22:34,760 --> 00:22:38,240 Speaker 1: was so cool. That's what I'm attracted to, not like 460 00:22:39,320 --> 00:22:42,400 Speaker 1: mask and fem And then big personality is a big one, 461 00:22:42,400 --> 00:22:49,280 Speaker 1: but everyone's got a different personality. I guess someone says 462 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:54,479 Speaker 1: you're the biggest case of tall Poppy syndrome ever, that's like, 463 00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:57,480 Speaker 1: I wouldn't really say that's an assumption about me, But 464 00:22:57,640 --> 00:23:01,960 Speaker 1: I think in Australia people struggle to be happy for 465 00:23:02,080 --> 00:23:05,800 Speaker 1: people doing something different, and I think that's maybe why, 466 00:23:07,320 --> 00:23:10,879 Speaker 1: maybe why I get hate online quite a lot, because 467 00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:15,080 Speaker 1: like I am doing something different or maybe I'm doing 468 00:23:15,119 --> 00:23:17,320 Speaker 1: what you wish you should be doing. But again, I 469 00:23:17,359 --> 00:23:19,720 Speaker 1: don't really like to put myself in that situation where 470 00:23:19,720 --> 00:23:21,639 Speaker 1: I think I'm better than other people because I'm not. 471 00:23:22,280 --> 00:23:25,560 Speaker 1: And I don't think there should be any reason to 472 00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:28,600 Speaker 1: have tall Poppy syndrome about me because I just like 473 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:31,040 Speaker 1: preach living your best life, doing what makes you happy, 474 00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:34,280 Speaker 1: and following that, chasing your dreams and you'll get there. 475 00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,560 Speaker 1: And if you have a dream, quit that job. Do that, Like, 476 00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:40,520 Speaker 1: you're on this earth once and you've gotta make it 477 00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:42,560 Speaker 1: fucking worth it. The only person that you're going to 478 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,840 Speaker 1: have the rest of your life is you, So make 479 00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:47,520 Speaker 1: it fucking worth it. Do your fucking thing that you 480 00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:50,000 Speaker 1: want to do. Quit that fucking job and travel around 481 00:23:50,040 --> 00:23:52,639 Speaker 1: the world, like just say yes. And I think that's 482 00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:54,879 Speaker 1: like something I preach. So I'm like, you shouldn't have 483 00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:58,240 Speaker 1: tall poppies syndrome because like anyone could be doing what 484 00:23:58,320 --> 00:24:00,360 Speaker 1: they want and you could be doing what you want. 485 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:01,560 Speaker 2: You just got to fucking do it. 486 00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,960 Speaker 1: And yeah, I just am like, there's no reason to 487 00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:07,800 Speaker 1: then have top poppy syndrome about me because I just 488 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:10,879 Speaker 1: preached to live your best life. Someone says, one hundred percent, 489 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:12,760 Speaker 1: NEPO baby parents fund your life. 490 00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:13,879 Speaker 2: How do you make money? 491 00:24:13,880 --> 00:24:17,479 Speaker 1: Honestly, I actually saw this and then made a TikTok 492 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:19,399 Speaker 1: about it about like raiding the wallets that I've had 493 00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:22,960 Speaker 1: in the past. First of all, my parents have never 494 00:24:23,080 --> 00:24:25,840 Speaker 1: struggled with money, but I was definitely just like a 495 00:24:25,880 --> 00:24:29,280 Speaker 1: middle class, like normal family. Both my parents worked full 496 00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:32,399 Speaker 1: time since I was like four years old. Like my 497 00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:34,879 Speaker 1: mom always worked, my dad always worked. Both of them 498 00:24:34,920 --> 00:24:37,320 Speaker 1: were working, and they were both in education, so like 499 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,359 Speaker 1: they had a very simple wage. I went to a 500 00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:43,439 Speaker 1: private school which my parents worked their butts off to 501 00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:45,560 Speaker 1: be able to afford to take me there. But I 502 00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:47,879 Speaker 1: also went on discount because my mom was in the 503 00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:50,760 Speaker 1: leadership team there, so like if you have a kid, 504 00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:53,160 Speaker 1: if you work at the school, your kid most likely 505 00:24:53,240 --> 00:24:55,639 Speaker 1: goes in a discount. So I was again very blessed 506 00:24:55,680 --> 00:24:57,960 Speaker 1: that I went to a private school on a discount 507 00:24:58,359 --> 00:24:59,600 Speaker 1: because my mum worked there. 508 00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:00,840 Speaker 2: I didn't go on. 509 00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:03,040 Speaker 1: Luxurious holidays as a kid, like I had never gone 510 00:25:03,080 --> 00:25:05,960 Speaker 1: to Europe before until I funded it myself, which is 511 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:07,800 Speaker 1: the first time that I've been able to do that, 512 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:09,520 Speaker 1: and that was this year when I was twenty three. 513 00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:14,159 Speaker 1: My parents not cut me off, but stopped paying for 514 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:15,800 Speaker 1: shit when I was eighteen, Like as soon as I 515 00:25:15,840 --> 00:25:17,800 Speaker 1: got a job when I finished school, they were like, okay, 516 00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:21,480 Speaker 1: you go, like we're not paying for you or stuff 517 00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:23,480 Speaker 1: like that, Like when I was in school, Like of 518 00:25:23,480 --> 00:25:25,200 Speaker 1: course they supported me, but I got a job when 519 00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:27,359 Speaker 1: I was fifteen, Like if I want to clothes, I 520 00:25:27,400 --> 00:25:29,160 Speaker 1: had to buy it as soon as I got a job, 521 00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:31,200 Speaker 1: Like if I wanted something, I had to buy it 522 00:25:31,240 --> 00:25:34,280 Speaker 1: like my parents obviously supported me like when they needed to, 523 00:25:34,440 --> 00:25:37,480 Speaker 1: but I wasn't. I have not had never had my 524 00:25:37,520 --> 00:25:40,200 Speaker 1: life funded for me. And then the second I moved 525 00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:42,399 Speaker 1: out of home, which is when I was twenty years old, 526 00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:46,720 Speaker 1: they've never paid for my rent. I bought my first 527 00:25:46,760 --> 00:25:50,479 Speaker 1: car outright, which was an Audi Q three from like 528 00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:53,040 Speaker 1: a secondhand dealership. I bought that out right. They never 529 00:25:53,040 --> 00:25:58,160 Speaker 1: paid for my car. I bought my second car by myself. Yeah, 530 00:25:58,160 --> 00:26:00,280 Speaker 1: I've always paid for my own rent, paid for my 531 00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:02,760 Speaker 1: own clothes. Like, my parents have not given me a 532 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:04,840 Speaker 1: single thing since the second I left out of home, 533 00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:08,200 Speaker 1: Like they even took me off like private health insurance. 534 00:26:08,240 --> 00:26:10,080 Speaker 1: They were like, nah, Like you want to move out 535 00:26:10,080 --> 00:26:11,480 Speaker 1: of home, then you've got to fund your life and 536 00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:13,280 Speaker 1: you've got to figure you're gotta make ends me. If 537 00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:16,199 Speaker 1: I was seriously struggling and I needed money, like I 538 00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:18,119 Speaker 1: would have to move back home in with them, and 539 00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:20,040 Speaker 1: they would obviously help me out. But like they have 540 00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,600 Speaker 1: not given me a single cent since I was probably 541 00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:23,840 Speaker 1: definitely since I was. 542 00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:25,520 Speaker 2: Twenty years old. Ever. 543 00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:29,240 Speaker 1: Actually now that like if I go hang out with them, 544 00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:32,080 Speaker 1: majority of the time, I'll pay for dinner, I'll pay 545 00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:34,919 Speaker 1: for the coffee, Like I know, I'm very lucky to 546 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,119 Speaker 1: be able to earn an income for myself at twenty 547 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:39,120 Speaker 1: three full time and support myself. 548 00:26:39,119 --> 00:26:40,240 Speaker 2: Like I know, I'm really lucky. 549 00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:45,560 Speaker 1: Like they're like hell no, Like we ain't paying for you, babe, 550 00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:48,159 Speaker 1: especially now, like if they were paying for my life 551 00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:52,480 Speaker 1: while they're working full time in education and like they're 552 00:26:52,480 --> 00:26:54,400 Speaker 1: wanting to retire, assume they're not going to be paying 553 00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:56,280 Speaker 1: for my life to go live over in London and 554 00:26:56,480 --> 00:27:00,240 Speaker 1: me just live my best life. Like hell no, my 555 00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:04,160 Speaker 1: brothers would fucking kill them too. Like I know, I'm 556 00:27:04,440 --> 00:27:07,760 Speaker 1: my families. My family's not well off. My family's not 557 00:27:07,800 --> 00:27:10,919 Speaker 1: got like generational money and stuff like that. They're just 558 00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:14,119 Speaker 1: working class like people just in Australia. They're just like 559 00:27:14,160 --> 00:27:16,960 Speaker 1: normal people like a lot of the time as well, 560 00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:20,199 Speaker 1: like my parents, because my dad lived my dad was 561 00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:23,200 Speaker 1: a director of boarding. The houses that we lived at 562 00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:26,520 Speaker 1: growing up were funded by like that was like part 563 00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:28,240 Speaker 1: of his contract. 564 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:28,280 Speaker 2: With his job. 565 00:27:28,440 --> 00:27:30,760 Speaker 1: So like when I lived in Wa, like we didn't 566 00:27:30,760 --> 00:27:33,320 Speaker 1: pay for rent there, Like we didn't buy a house there, 567 00:27:33,359 --> 00:27:34,879 Speaker 1: Like we lived at the school, we lived. 568 00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:35,320 Speaker 2: At the campus. 569 00:27:35,359 --> 00:27:40,679 Speaker 1: So like living for them like that was very lucky 570 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:42,159 Speaker 1: and very blessed that we didn't have to pay for 571 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:45,040 Speaker 1: a lot of our living situations. And then when I 572 00:27:45,119 --> 00:27:47,240 Speaker 1: lived at Moburn GRADMA, like again that came in my 573 00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:49,920 Speaker 1: dad's job description, like that was part of his job 574 00:27:50,240 --> 00:27:52,080 Speaker 1: that he got a house to live out with his 575 00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:54,720 Speaker 1: family because he had to live on campus, and so 576 00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,399 Speaker 1: like when your parents are boarding, like their house is 577 00:27:57,400 --> 00:27:59,879 Speaker 1: supplied for them. So I was very lucky that, like 578 00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:03,320 Speaker 1: my parents didn't have to pay rent all like own 579 00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:05,640 Speaker 1: houses and stuff like that. My parents' own houses now 580 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:09,600 Speaker 1: they don't live at Melbourne Grammar anymore. But like I 581 00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:12,040 Speaker 1: was very lucky, and that's probably where then I was 582 00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:15,920 Speaker 1: blessed in other areas like going on family holidays to 583 00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:19,360 Speaker 1: Bali and stuff where my parents were just like teachers 584 00:28:19,400 --> 00:28:22,719 Speaker 1: because their living situation I got very lucky with. 585 00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:24,360 Speaker 2: But that doesn't mean I'm an EPO baby. 586 00:28:24,600 --> 00:28:27,000 Speaker 1: I can guaran, I can one hundred percent recognize, and 587 00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:28,959 Speaker 1: I'm very blessed, and the way I was grown up 588 00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:30,320 Speaker 1: was very very blessed. 589 00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:31,840 Speaker 2: But I ain't an EPO baby. 590 00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:36,359 Speaker 1: Someone says that I cheated on Caleb with Prime Train guys, 591 00:28:36,440 --> 00:28:39,120 Speaker 1: I think I've had maybe a five minute conversation with 592 00:28:39,160 --> 00:28:42,400 Speaker 1: Prime Train my whole life. Like that photo of us, 593 00:28:42,440 --> 00:28:44,160 Speaker 1: we were just like all with friends, Like all of 594 00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:45,880 Speaker 1: us are in the social media scene. All of us 595 00:28:45,880 --> 00:28:49,320 Speaker 1: were with untitled group at BTV, so we're all dancing together. 596 00:28:49,360 --> 00:28:50,880 Speaker 1: There was a photo. Someone took a photo of us 597 00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:54,360 Speaker 1: and they got posted online, like I'm pretty sure he 598 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:57,080 Speaker 1: was with his ex girlfriend at the time. Like, no, 599 00:28:57,240 --> 00:28:59,000 Speaker 1: I've never kissed Prime Train. 600 00:28:59,080 --> 00:28:59,440 Speaker 2: I didn't. 601 00:28:59,480 --> 00:29:04,560 Speaker 1: I've never on anyone, So yeah, that assumption is very incorrect. 602 00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:08,880 Speaker 1: Someone says you come across as fake, but I feel 603 00:29:08,880 --> 00:29:12,719 Speaker 1: like you're actually pretty genuine. I mean, correct me if 604 00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:15,600 Speaker 1: I'm wrong, But I don't feel like I come across 605 00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:20,680 Speaker 1: as a fake person. I definitely protect my energy, but 606 00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:23,120 Speaker 1: that's just because I get a lot of hate online. 607 00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:26,520 Speaker 1: But I wouldn't say i'm I would say I'm a 608 00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:30,320 Speaker 1: very genuine person and I'm not a fake person. And 609 00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:33,400 Speaker 1: I think that's probably why it's gotten me in trouble online, 610 00:29:33,560 --> 00:29:35,280 Speaker 1: is because I. 611 00:29:34,720 --> 00:29:36,120 Speaker 3: Don't like fake people. 612 00:29:36,720 --> 00:29:39,360 Speaker 1: I think this industry can be very fake, and obviously 613 00:29:39,440 --> 00:29:43,240 Speaker 1: at times I probably have been fake, just because you like, 614 00:29:43,360 --> 00:29:45,680 Speaker 1: at any situation, I feel like anyone at any point 615 00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:48,040 Speaker 1: of their life has been fake, but I feel like 616 00:29:48,080 --> 00:29:50,040 Speaker 1: that's probably why it's got me in trouble is because 617 00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:52,040 Speaker 1: I'm not afraid to speak my mind. I'm not afraid 618 00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:55,120 Speaker 1: to speak up. I don't like people speaking badly about 619 00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:57,480 Speaker 1: people behind their back and then they're nice to their face. So, 620 00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:00,560 Speaker 1: like I would say, me not being fake has actually 621 00:30:00,560 --> 00:30:03,320 Speaker 1: gotten me in a lot of trouble because I will 622 00:30:03,360 --> 00:30:06,320 Speaker 1: speak my mind and I'm not afraid to speak my mind. 623 00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:09,480 Speaker 1: Someone says that you'd only ever date famous boys. I've 624 00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:14,400 Speaker 1: never dated someone famous. I've been obviously like well known 625 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:17,040 Speaker 1: people have sitten into my dams, and I've like spoken 626 00:30:17,080 --> 00:30:20,040 Speaker 1: to well known people. But I don't think I ever 627 00:30:20,080 --> 00:30:22,200 Speaker 1: want to date someone famous. I wouldn't mind, like I 628 00:30:22,200 --> 00:30:24,640 Speaker 1: wouldn't not date them because they're famous, But I feel 629 00:30:24,680 --> 00:30:26,959 Speaker 1: like dating someone famous there comes to so much more 630 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:30,719 Speaker 1: baggage that I'm not necessarily attracted to, and that's not 631 00:30:30,760 --> 00:30:33,080 Speaker 1: something I want in my life. Would I date a 632 00:30:33,080 --> 00:30:37,520 Speaker 1: well known person maybe, but like a class celebrity. No, 633 00:30:37,720 --> 00:30:41,400 Speaker 1: And I've never dated an a class celebrity or a 634 00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:44,239 Speaker 1: famous person. For that example, I have I dated like 635 00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:48,200 Speaker 1: people with following Yes, have I dated well like spoken 636 00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:51,160 Speaker 1: to well known people yes, but that's not what I'm 637 00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:54,320 Speaker 1: looking for, and I would never only date someone for that. 638 00:30:54,360 --> 00:30:56,400 Speaker 1: Like again, I want to one of my biggest things 639 00:30:56,400 --> 00:30:59,240 Speaker 1: in life is to find true love. And if they're 640 00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:02,080 Speaker 1: nobody then and that's my true love, then that's perfect, 641 00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:10,120 Speaker 1: like ideal situation. To be honest, someone says you secretly 642 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:12,720 Speaker 1: hate being popular on social media because of what it 643 00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:14,800 Speaker 1: does to your private life. I feel like there's a 644 00:31:14,800 --> 00:31:17,120 Speaker 1: big push and pull with that. I love being on 645 00:31:17,160 --> 00:31:19,239 Speaker 1: social media and I love showing my life like I 646 00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:22,560 Speaker 1: love I'm an oversharer online and I love what it's 647 00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:25,280 Speaker 1: done and the opportunities that it's bought. Do I like 648 00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:28,360 Speaker 1: that people feel entitled to know certain things about my 649 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,200 Speaker 1: life that I choose to keep private. No, But I 650 00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:33,680 Speaker 1: can also recognize that comes with the industry that I'm in, 651 00:31:34,200 --> 00:31:37,200 Speaker 1: and that is what I signed up for. Is it 652 00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:40,040 Speaker 1: annoying sometimes yes? And does it like get on my 653 00:31:40,120 --> 00:31:43,200 Speaker 1: nerves sometimes one hundred percent. But I know that that's 654 00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:46,720 Speaker 1: what comes with the territory that I'm in, and that's 655 00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:49,200 Speaker 1: just like what you got to do, and having a 656 00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:53,680 Speaker 1: life on there is on the internet is what I 657 00:31:53,720 --> 00:31:54,480 Speaker 1: signed up for. 658 00:31:55,120 --> 00:31:56,920 Speaker 2: But there's also a lot of stuff. 659 00:31:56,640 --> 00:31:58,960 Speaker 1: In my private life that you guys don't know about, 660 00:31:59,360 --> 00:32:02,120 Speaker 1: and like that's for everyone that goes on social media, 661 00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:05,160 Speaker 1: Like I probably share about forty. 662 00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:06,160 Speaker 2: Percent of things. 663 00:32:06,320 --> 00:32:08,520 Speaker 1: Or if I'm telling you a story, i might not 664 00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:11,040 Speaker 1: be telling you the full story and I'll just like 665 00:32:11,360 --> 00:32:14,560 Speaker 1: tell you little bits and pieces because there is things 666 00:32:14,560 --> 00:32:16,720 Speaker 1: that I need to protect and there are people in 667 00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:18,440 Speaker 1: my life that I need to protect. And because I 668 00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:22,720 Speaker 1: share my life doesn't mean other people should have their 669 00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:26,800 Speaker 1: life online just because they're associated with me. So No, 670 00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:29,080 Speaker 1: I do like being popular on social media. I guess 671 00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:31,480 Speaker 1: you can say I love it. If anything, I do 672 00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:34,479 Speaker 1: really love it. Someone says that Caleb and I will reunite. No, 673 00:32:35,040 --> 00:32:38,239 Speaker 1: Caleb and I would never reunite. Caleb and I are 674 00:32:38,280 --> 00:32:41,040 Speaker 1: never going to be back together. I will be one 675 00:32:41,080 --> 00:32:43,280 Speaker 1: hundred percent honest. I did think at one point, especially 676 00:32:43,320 --> 00:32:45,120 Speaker 1: when we first broke up, and maybe for a year 677 00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:48,160 Speaker 1: after we broke up, I did think that we would rekindle. 678 00:32:48,240 --> 00:32:51,400 Speaker 1: It won't lie there. But now that all the stuff 679 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:55,120 Speaker 1: that's unfolded this year, I have way too much self 680 00:32:55,160 --> 00:32:59,840 Speaker 1: respect for myself and I've completely and utterly fallen out 681 00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:01,920 Speaker 1: of love with him, and I don't I ever want 682 00:33:01,920 --> 00:33:04,280 Speaker 1: to go back there. You can't read the same book 683 00:33:04,360 --> 00:33:07,320 Speaker 1: and expect a different ending. So that's not the ending 684 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:09,760 Speaker 1: I want in my life. I do not want that 685 00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:14,320 Speaker 1: at Also, there will be no reconnection there. Someone says, 686 00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:16,400 Speaker 1: you don't know your own self worth. No, I don't, 687 00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:19,160 Speaker 1: and it's definitely something I'm trying to learn and figure out. 688 00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:21,760 Speaker 1: I don't know my self worth. I speak so badly 689 00:33:21,800 --> 00:33:24,920 Speaker 1: about myself. I speak so negatively about myself. I'm my 690 00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:27,640 Speaker 1: worst own worst enemy. I don't have a lot of 691 00:33:27,720 --> 00:33:30,040 Speaker 1: nice things to say about myself. I definitely give into 692 00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:32,600 Speaker 1: what people think about me online. I preach a lot 693 00:33:32,600 --> 00:33:34,280 Speaker 1: of shit, but I don't listen to a lot of shit. 694 00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:34,560 Speaker 2: That I say. 695 00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:37,800 Speaker 1: And I really don't like that about myself. And I'm 696 00:33:37,840 --> 00:33:41,520 Speaker 1: really noticing it about myself, and it's my biggest downfall. 697 00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:44,360 Speaker 1: I don't know my own worth and it really sucks 698 00:33:44,440 --> 00:33:47,440 Speaker 1: to be honest. Someone says, an assumption is that I'm 699 00:33:47,480 --> 00:33:50,800 Speaker 1: high maintenance. I would not say I'm a high maintenance girl. Like, yes, 700 00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:53,760 Speaker 1: I love beauty appointments, but like I get my hair 701 00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:56,880 Speaker 1: dyed maybe once or twice a year. My nails are 702 00:33:56,920 --> 00:33:59,080 Speaker 1: my natural nails. I get them done maybe once a month. 703 00:34:00,040 --> 00:34:02,160 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm a pretty chill person, Like I 704 00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:03,960 Speaker 1: don't put makeup on every day. I don't need to 705 00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:06,200 Speaker 1: do makeup to leave the house. I don't need to 706 00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:08,040 Speaker 1: get ready to leave the house, like I'll walk out 707 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:10,719 Speaker 1: of the house like wearing anything, Like I don't really care. 708 00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:13,919 Speaker 1: Do I love getting dressed up and making myself feel 709 00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:16,879 Speaker 1: good and like looking cue and like putting a que 710 00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:17,400 Speaker 1: outfit on. 711 00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:19,920 Speaker 2: Yes? Is that high maintenance to you? Maybe? 712 00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:22,680 Speaker 1: I think everybody has a different level of high maintenance. 713 00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:25,320 Speaker 1: And I also don't judge people that are high maintenance 714 00:34:25,760 --> 00:34:27,920 Speaker 1: and that's what makes them. I think at the end 715 00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:29,560 Speaker 1: of the day, it's like, if you want to be 716 00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:31,920 Speaker 1: high maintenance because that makes you feel good, be my 717 00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:35,520 Speaker 1: guest like it's your own thing. But I would say, 718 00:34:35,640 --> 00:34:40,640 Speaker 1: like societally, I probably wouldn't categorize with myself as high maintenance. 719 00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:43,480 Speaker 1: But everybody has a different level of high maintenance, and 720 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:45,520 Speaker 1: there isn't an issue if you are high maintenance, if 721 00:34:45,560 --> 00:34:46,800 Speaker 1: you want to walk out of the house with a 722 00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:48,560 Speaker 1: full face and makeup on every day because that's what 723 00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:52,640 Speaker 1: makes you feel good, be my guest, Like do that, babe, 724 00:34:52,680 --> 00:34:55,080 Speaker 1: Like please, do that make yourself feel good, like put 725 00:34:55,120 --> 00:34:57,520 Speaker 1: makeup on, put a que outfit on every day, like 726 00:34:57,920 --> 00:35:01,120 Speaker 1: get your head done every week, Like there are some 727 00:35:01,160 --> 00:35:03,000 Speaker 1: parts of me that are high maintenance, Like I do 728 00:35:03,080 --> 00:35:05,360 Speaker 1: love getting my head done. I do love having a blowout. 729 00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,319 Speaker 1: I love like having my eyebrows nice and neat. I 730 00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:11,520 Speaker 1: do love having my nails done. Like if that's high maintenance, 731 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:14,239 Speaker 1: then like yeah, maybe, but like yeah, I don't know. 732 00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:18,000 Speaker 1: I think I think it's like a such a subjective question. 733 00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:23,719 Speaker 1: Someone said, you would get a boob job. No, I 734 00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:26,520 Speaker 1: don't know if I could do anything something permanently to myself. 735 00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:29,800 Speaker 1: If I knew, I couldn't like reverse it. I also 736 00:35:29,960 --> 00:35:33,759 Speaker 1: don't think big boobs would suit me. I have no 737 00:35:33,880 --> 00:35:36,000 Speaker 1: judgment about people getting a boob job if that makes 738 00:35:36,040 --> 00:35:38,560 Speaker 1: them happy. Like I think Easy's boobs look absolutely amazing 739 00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:40,960 Speaker 1: on her, and like the confidence that I've seen it's 740 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:43,480 Speaker 1: given her is like amazing. And I'm like so on 741 00:35:43,560 --> 00:35:46,200 Speaker 1: board with like surgeries, and if you want to get 742 00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:50,000 Speaker 1: a surgery, get it. But I have never been interested 743 00:35:50,160 --> 00:35:52,480 Speaker 1: or like drawn to getting a boop job. I don't 744 00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:54,880 Speaker 1: really mind the size of my boobs, Like I don't 745 00:35:55,239 --> 00:35:58,040 Speaker 1: really want big boobs, like I kind of like, I 746 00:35:58,080 --> 00:36:00,600 Speaker 1: just don't think it would suit my frame, and it's 747 00:36:00,640 --> 00:36:04,080 Speaker 1: just not something I've ever had, Like I'd probably get 748 00:36:04,120 --> 00:36:07,000 Speaker 1: other surgeries way before that, and it's just like not 749 00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:09,480 Speaker 1: something I've ever think. I don't think i'd ever get 750 00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:13,960 Speaker 1: a plastic surgery. But I'm an awful botox. I love botox. 751 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:17,280 Speaker 1: I will always get botox one hundred percent. Someone says 752 00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:21,680 Speaker 1: you were shy and an introvert, I'm an introverted extrovert 753 00:36:21,800 --> 00:36:26,239 Speaker 1: or an extroverted introvert. I can be extroverted in situations. 754 00:36:26,920 --> 00:36:29,880 Speaker 1: I'm quite an outgoing person. I love like conversations. I 755 00:36:29,880 --> 00:36:34,960 Speaker 1: can speak to anyone about anything, and I'm very like outgoing. 756 00:36:35,200 --> 00:36:38,520 Speaker 1: But there are situations because of my anxiety, and I 757 00:36:38,560 --> 00:36:42,160 Speaker 1: have very bad social anxiety where I am quite introverted 758 00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:45,880 Speaker 1: sometimes and especially if I don't know you, in situations 759 00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:48,920 Speaker 1: where I'm like new or like if I join a 760 00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:51,279 Speaker 1: friend and she knows all those people, like, I can 761 00:36:51,360 --> 00:36:54,279 Speaker 1: be quite shy and introverted and like in big group 762 00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:58,640 Speaker 1: situations like a big event or a party or something 763 00:36:58,680 --> 00:37:01,280 Speaker 1: like that, Like I'm not gonna be like this big 764 00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:03,960 Speaker 1: extroverted person that you probably see on me online, Like 765 00:37:04,040 --> 00:37:07,480 Speaker 1: a lot of the time, social media people and content 766 00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,759 Speaker 1: creators are actually quite shy people because they're filming in 767 00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:13,000 Speaker 1: the comfort of their room or their house or stuff 768 00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:16,319 Speaker 1: like that. But in big situations sometimes I can be 769 00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:20,480 Speaker 1: quite shy or be quite introverted because I'm nervous and 770 00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:23,680 Speaker 1: I get quite anxious. But once I warm up to you, like, 771 00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:25,520 Speaker 1: good luck shouting me up, do you know what I mean? 772 00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:28,960 Speaker 1: Someone says that the hate doesn't bother me. Hate comments 773 00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:32,600 Speaker 1: don't necessarily bother me because I think I've become immune 774 00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:35,080 Speaker 1: to it and I don't really listen, and I know 775 00:37:35,160 --> 00:37:38,440 Speaker 1: that hate comes from a place of them not liking 776 00:37:38,480 --> 00:37:41,960 Speaker 1: something about themselves, because I would never comment hate or 777 00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:45,560 Speaker 1: spread hate online, so I don't necessarily understand it. And 778 00:37:45,600 --> 00:37:49,319 Speaker 1: because I don't understand it, it doesn't bother me. But 779 00:37:49,680 --> 00:37:54,120 Speaker 1: it does as well. It's very weird. Like some people 780 00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:56,080 Speaker 1: always go like, yeah, you get so much hate online, 781 00:37:56,080 --> 00:37:58,480 Speaker 1: like I feel so bad for you, and I'm like, oh, 782 00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:03,280 Speaker 1: like that's I'm like, oh, like, it doesn't like registered 783 00:38:03,360 --> 00:38:06,600 Speaker 1: to me, Like it's kind of just like white noise now, 784 00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:09,399 Speaker 1: but at the start it really did. You're really hard 785 00:38:09,440 --> 00:38:12,279 Speaker 1: on yourself sometimes, but you're working on it. I am 786 00:38:12,360 --> 00:38:15,000 Speaker 1: my worst enemy. I am so hard on myself. I like, 787 00:38:15,080 --> 00:38:16,960 Speaker 1: have so much pressure to have to shit figured out 788 00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:21,319 Speaker 1: all the time, and I like I put unnecessary expectations 789 00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:23,600 Speaker 1: on myself and I am so hard on myself and 790 00:38:23,680 --> 00:38:25,640 Speaker 1: it is something I am working on, and it is 791 00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:28,719 Speaker 1: something I don't like about myself because I don't like 792 00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:30,319 Speaker 1: it when my friends are hard on themselves. I don't 793 00:38:30,320 --> 00:38:31,799 Speaker 1: like it when other people are hard on themselves, and 794 00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:33,440 Speaker 1: I'm like, you're so young, you're figuring it out, Like 795 00:38:33,480 --> 00:38:35,440 Speaker 1: why are you putting so much pressure? But I that 796 00:38:35,520 --> 00:38:37,759 Speaker 1: put that pressure on myself. I put pressure that I 797 00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:40,680 Speaker 1: need to have it figured out. And because I am 798 00:38:40,760 --> 00:38:43,920 Speaker 1: maybe on social media, I have to. I feel so 799 00:38:44,040 --> 00:38:46,160 Speaker 1: much pressure on myself to have it figured out, to 800 00:38:46,200 --> 00:38:48,239 Speaker 1: tell you guys how to figure it out. But I 801 00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:51,600 Speaker 1: am like so confused myself, and it is something I 802 00:38:51,640 --> 00:38:56,800 Speaker 1: really don't like about myself and I want to fix 803 00:38:56,880 --> 00:38:59,319 Speaker 1: it out. People keep on asking that I'm no longer 804 00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:02,760 Speaker 1: friends with Ezzy. I am friends with Easy. Someone says 805 00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:07,279 Speaker 1: it might be too personal, but my ed and recovery 806 00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:12,360 Speaker 1: and mental health is still there. Definitely, it doesn't affect 807 00:39:12,400 --> 00:39:13,920 Speaker 1: me as much as it is but I think you're 808 00:39:13,920 --> 00:39:15,759 Speaker 1: gonna have If you have an eating disorder, you're gonna 809 00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:17,080 Speaker 1: have it for the rest of your life. It just 810 00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:19,520 Speaker 1: it's how you deal with it. I don't give it 811 00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:22,359 Speaker 1: into my eating disort of thoughts necessarily anymore, but it's 812 00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:25,400 Speaker 1: definitely something I'm really struggling with at the moment. I 813 00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:27,279 Speaker 1: don't like how I look in the mirror, I don't 814 00:39:27,360 --> 00:39:30,120 Speaker 1: like how I physically look, and I don't think I've 815 00:39:30,160 --> 00:39:32,720 Speaker 1: ever liked it. But it's really really loud at the moment. 816 00:39:33,280 --> 00:39:35,200 Speaker 1: My food noise and my head noise and my body 817 00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:38,719 Speaker 1: dysmorphia is probably the worst it's ever been. And I 818 00:39:38,719 --> 00:39:41,760 Speaker 1: can recognize that about myself, and I'm glad that I can. 819 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:45,000 Speaker 1: But it is a thing that I think I'm going 820 00:39:45,040 --> 00:39:46,600 Speaker 1: to struggle with for the rest of my life. And 821 00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:50,640 Speaker 1: I know that about myself, which is really sad. But yeah, 822 00:39:50,680 --> 00:39:51,880 Speaker 1: I think I know I'm gonna have it for the 823 00:39:51,920 --> 00:39:53,640 Speaker 1: rest of my life, and it's going to come in 824 00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:57,160 Speaker 1: ebbs and flows and shit like that. But yeah, it's 825 00:39:57,200 --> 00:39:59,839 Speaker 1: something I'm working on and I think I'll be working 826 00:39:59,840 --> 00:40:02,000 Speaker 1: on it for the rest of my life. And if 827 00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:05,040 Speaker 1: you are going through the same, my heart goes out 828 00:40:05,080 --> 00:40:08,319 Speaker 1: to you. But yeah, they're pretty much all of the 829 00:40:08,360 --> 00:40:12,040 Speaker 1: basics of my assumptions about me. And that was my 830 00:40:12,280 --> 00:40:15,719 Speaker 1: rundown of the weekend. Thank you guys so much for 831 00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:19,800 Speaker 1: tuning into today's episode. I love you all very very much, and. 832 00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:20,839 Speaker 2: Yeah, let me know. 833 00:40:21,280 --> 00:40:25,160 Speaker 1: I ask you guys a few things about alcohol, eating 834 00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:27,320 Speaker 1: and stuff like that. I would love to know your opinions, 835 00:40:27,400 --> 00:40:29,319 Speaker 1: and if you guys are struggling with the same things, 836 00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:30,960 Speaker 1: please reach out to me. I would love to hear 837 00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:33,960 Speaker 1: your opinions and your advice because sometimes I give you 838 00:40:34,239 --> 00:40:36,959 Speaker 1: guys advice, but I would like some back. But yeah, 839 00:40:37,040 --> 00:40:38,360 Speaker 1: I love you guys so much and I'll see you 840 00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:39,160 Speaker 1: guys next week. 841 00:40:39,600 --> 00:40:44,279 Speaker 3: Bye.