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Speaker 2: to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people's here today.

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Speaker 3: Welcome to the Grow and Glow Podcast. I'm Ashy, I'm Kiara.

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Speaker 3: Let's go deep, let the emotions flow, and find the

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Speaker 1: Nothing is off the table with Grow and Glow, and

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Speaker 1: we're here to be your expander. Hi, guys, welcome back.

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Speaker 4: To Hello and Glow.

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Speaker 1: Oh. Today I'm going to be sharing a breath work

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Speaker 1: experience that I had. Hi, I'm really excited to And

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Speaker 1: then I've asked here if she can reshare some of

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Speaker 1: yours that you had, because we did do a whole

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Speaker 1: episode on it. But in case you're new to Grow

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Speaker 1: and Glow, maybe you've missed that episode. We've done quite

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Speaker 1: a few episodes now, I wonder how many.

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Speaker 4: We've done over a hundred.

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Speaker 3: I think it's like around probably one hundred and ten,

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Speaker 3: maybe more by the time.

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Speaker 1: Yes, it was a long time ago. You did that episode. Yes,

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Speaker 1: So yeah, I want to talk about my experience because

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Speaker 1: breath work, as we spoke about with Levi, it's very

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Speaker 1: trendy and people talk about it a lot, and you

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Speaker 1: see on social media a lot. It is honestly incredible

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Speaker 1: to experience. So I run the Ultimate Girl's day out,

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Speaker 1: so I'm always holding space for women because breath work

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Speaker 1: is one of the activities that we do at our

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Speaker 1: day retreats, but I don't go and do it a

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Speaker 1: lot myself, and I always get quite envious of the

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Speaker 1: girls that come to our days because it's just such

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Speaker 1: a cool day and to watch them have those releases

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Speaker 1: and have the visions and have the experience, I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I want to do that. And I've done probably six

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Speaker 1: or seven breath works and only one of them I've

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Speaker 1: had another good experience, But like I had an experience

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Speaker 1: the rest, I fell asleep. I got distracted by the noise.

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Speaker 1: I just couldn't drop in for whatever reason. So anyways,

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Speaker 1: I booked myself in to do this breath work session.

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Speaker 1: It's really good. We did ice bath and they did

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Speaker 1: like a little meditation beforehand. But I told myself, I

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Speaker 1: was like, this is your time. To be held. This

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Speaker 1: is your time, like go hard, Like make sure I

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Speaker 1: really put everything into it, because the breath is actually work.

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Speaker 1: You actually have to be so conscious to be breathing

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Speaker 1: at a certain rate and taking full breath in because

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Speaker 1: you're trying to release the DMT. You're trying to get

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Speaker 1: yourself in an altered state. So it's actually quite hard.

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Speaker 4: And even like my mouth was getting really.

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Speaker 1: I've got the biggest slayer of lip. But long before

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Speaker 1: he started, what idea, Yeah, so I'll set the scene.

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Speaker 1: We all got stage and we walked in and it's

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Speaker 1: And I've done Ayahuascar once and you feel a lot

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Speaker 1: when you know what You're starting to get there. As

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Speaker 1: the fuck out. I pull my eyemask off. I'm literally

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Speaker 1: And as I'm saying this, I'm trying to stay in it.

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Speaker 1: But I could also hear like the logical part of

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Speaker 1: This is your edge, And in that moment, I was like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I was like, this is my age, this is my age.

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Speaker 1: settle down. Lots of tears came out, massive, massive tears.

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Speaker 1: I cried so much, and then there was a really

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Speaker 1: There's this vision of me there rocking, and then Taj

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Speaker 1: she must have known a little bit about my history

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Speaker 1: with my stepdad. When she's like, this is your age

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Speaker 1: our past that we haven't healed through and released out

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Speaker 4: There's so much value in one way.

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Speaker 1: Brisbane August eleventh is so exciting, life changing day, life changing.

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Speaker 1: If you can get yourself there, it's one of the

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Speaker 3: And it's also like really great place to start your journey,

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Speaker 3: I feel like, because you go there and you learn

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Speaker 3: so much for any area of your journey, Like whenever

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Speaker 3: But especially if you're like, oh, I don't know, it's

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Speaker 3: like no, if you're not sure, like yeah, go do it.

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Speaker 1: And if you wanted to surround yourself with like minded people,

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Speaker 1: because everyone's there wanting the same things, they're on that

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Speaker 1: similar vibration of wanting to grow and expand and unpack

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Speaker 1: and be around women that can hold them. You know.

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Speaker 1: I think that's really special, and that's really hard to

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Speaker 1: find adult friendships and people that on that same page.

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Speaker 3: Definitely well aligned friendships.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so looking for a sign to do it. This

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Speaker 3: Thanks for sharing your experience to ability.

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Speaker 4: It's awesome here. I've been waiting to hear, waiting for

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Speaker 4: the podcast.

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Speaker 1: I want to tell you to go on there. I

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Speaker 1: was like, oh wait, oh, so freaking cool. All right, well,

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Speaker 1: we'll see you guys. Don't forget. We have a little

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Speaker 1: short episode on Friday. Otherwise, we'll see you next week

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Speaker 1: on Monday.

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Speaker 4: See you then, Fine,