WEBVTT - Read This: An Evening with Alan Hollinghurst

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<v Speaker 1>Hi there, it's Ruby Jones and it's time for you

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<v Speaker 1>to sit back, relax and enjoy another episode of Read This,

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<v Speaker 1>Schwartz Media's weekly books podcast. It's hosted as always by

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<v Speaker 1>the editor of The Monthly, Michael Williams, and features conversations

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<v Speaker 1>with some of the most talented writers from Australia and

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<v Speaker 1>around the world. In this episode, we're going to hear

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<v Speaker 1>from Booker Prize winning author Alan Hollinghurst, whose latest novel

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<v Speaker 1>is called Our Evenings. As always, I'm joined by Michael

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<v Speaker 1>to tell me a little more about the episode.

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<v Speaker 2>Him, Michael Ruby Jones. I love the idea of sitting

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<v Speaker 2>back and relaxing to read this. I want people tense,

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<v Speaker 2>on the edge of their seats, anxious what book talk

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<v Speaker 2>is going on this week and how will I handle it?

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<v Speaker 1>So, Michael, Alan Hollinghurst has been described by The Guardian

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<v Speaker 1>as one of the great writers of our time. However,

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<v Speaker 1>I have to admit that I'm not terribly familiar with

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<v Speaker 1>his work, so tell me a bit about his career.

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<v Speaker 2>He's one of those writers about whom you can honestly

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<v Speaker 2>use the word beloved. The people who have read him

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<v Speaker 2>adore him and kind of obsessively wait for a new

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<v Speaker 2>book by him each time. He was probably best known

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<v Speaker 2>for his book, a prize winning book, The Line of Beauty.

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<v Speaker 2>His book before that, The Swimming Pool Library, was a

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<v Speaker 2>kind of modern classic of queer writing and was hugely

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<v Speaker 2>popular in some circles. But it really was with the

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<v Speaker 2>Line of Beauty that he broke out to the mainstream.

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<v Speaker 2>And as a consequence, the people who love what he

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<v Speaker 2>does are absolutely in the tank for it, and I

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<v Speaker 2>count myself amongst them.

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<v Speaker 1>And so his latest novel is called Our Evenings Tell

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<v Speaker 1>Me About the Themes.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, In many ways it is classic Hollinghurst, all the

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<v Speaker 2>kind of themes that he's known for, about memory and regret,

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<v Speaker 2>about passion both repressed and expressed, about the artistic life,

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<v Speaker 2>and what it is to kind of move through the

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<v Speaker 2>different strata of British society. But this time around he

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<v Speaker 2>has an arrator, a guy called Dave Wynn who's half Burmese,

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<v Speaker 2>and he's kind of grappling with outsider themes in a

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<v Speaker 2>different way to the way Hollinghurst has written about it

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<v Speaker 2>in the past. Race is very much an element, but

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<v Speaker 2>as our questions of performance, Dave's an actor and so

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<v Speaker 2>we get a kind of beautiful insight into that world

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<v Speaker 2>as well. It's very Hollinghurst, but he's pushing himself in

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<v Speaker 2>exciting ways.

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<v Speaker 1>Coming up in just a moment an evening with Alan Hollinghurst.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought I might start with something I remember from

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<v Speaker 2>when we last spoke, actually, but I've seen it pop

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<v Speaker 2>up in a few interviews with you about this book,

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<v Speaker 2>which is I'm going to begin at the end and

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<v Speaker 2>at your sense of kind of fatigue and relief that

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<v Speaker 2>it's over, and you once again banning around the terrible

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<v Speaker 2>idea that you might not want to write another novel

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<v Speaker 2>after this.

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<v Speaker 3>That was my overwhelming feeling when I finished it, But

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<v Speaker 3>I think it was with the previous two certainly, and

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<v Speaker 3>it just gets more intent each time. It seems to

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<v Speaker 3>be more complicated and more exhausting.

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<v Speaker 2>How so, is it less pleasurable the act of writing

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<v Speaker 2>than it once was, or are you loaded up with

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<v Speaker 2>more and more expectations for yourself at this point leave

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<v Speaker 2>your career.

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<v Speaker 3>I suppose there is that element of wanting to do

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<v Speaker 3>something new. I think it's also something to do with

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<v Speaker 3>getting older, and that one of the results of that

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<v Speaker 3>for me has been writing these books. Which travel back

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<v Speaker 3>over large periods of time. This one covers sixty years

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<v Speaker 3>or more. On the previous two books even more than that,

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<v Speaker 3>So the essential novelist question of selection becomes very intense.

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<v Speaker 3>What out of this new book, Our Evenings is in

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<v Speaker 3>the form of a memoir of someone looking back in

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<v Speaker 3>his late sixties over his life. What is he going

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<v Speaker 3>to light on? What the episode is going to be?

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<v Speaker 3>So it was really a question of kind of the

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<v Speaker 3>design of the book that took me the longest. Once

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<v Speaker 3>I actually get two or three people in a row

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<v Speaker 3>and get them talking, I'm really happy. And that's the

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<v Speaker 3>part of writing I love. My bigger worries were sort

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<v Speaker 3>of structural.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there for you a kind of discipline to working

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<v Speaker 2>out the schematics before you dive into the people, the conversations,

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<v Speaker 2>the terrible writers' festivals, you know, whatever it might be.

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<v Speaker 3>I find it pretty scary to write without a plan

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<v Speaker 3>of some sort. Yeah, So I've always been a believer

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<v Speaker 3>in that, and I think some of my problems with

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<v Speaker 3>this book were trying to loosen up that practice a

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<v Speaker 3>bit and write in a more sort of spontaneous way.

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<v Speaker 3>But actually it just got me into a lot of trouble,

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<v Speaker 3>and unusually for me, because I'm such a slow and

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<v Speaker 3>cautious writer, generally, I wrote a lot of material in

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<v Speaker 3>this book which didn't make the final cut. I was

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<v Speaker 3>chasing little narrative lines and opening up scenes, and again

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<v Speaker 3>enjoying doing that, but then having to place up to

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<v Speaker 3>the fact that these seems really distant belong in this book.

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<v Speaker 3>So I tend to see the early part of the

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<v Speaker 3>book pretty clearly. I can see key episodes that are

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<v Speaker 3>going to occur later on, and almost certainly at the

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<v Speaker 3>very end of the book, but all sorts of you know,

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<v Speaker 3>the exciting thing is all the stuff you discover in

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<v Speaker 3>the course of writing it.

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<v Speaker 2>One of the products of the plan on this occasion,

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<v Speaker 2>as you mentioned, the kind of central conceit of the

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<v Speaker 2>book is that Dave wins recollections of his life. It's

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<v Speaker 2>the writing of his memoir, it's his voice, and then

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<v Speaker 2>that gives it a number of things structurally that I

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<v Speaker 2>think make for the kind of singular power of this book.

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<v Speaker 2>One of them is about pacing, about the kind of

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<v Speaker 2>languorous pace of ancient memory as opposed to the ever

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<v Speaker 2>quickening speed of life as it comes to where we're

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<v Speaker 2>living it was that pace always embedded in the idea

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<v Speaker 2>that you would luxuriate in thirteen year old Dave in

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<v Speaker 2>a way that you couldn't afford to let yourself luxuryate

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<v Speaker 2>in sixty year old Dave.

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<v Speaker 3>That was part of the idea. Yes, I mean, the

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<v Speaker 3>book's in two almost equal halves, and the first half

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<v Speaker 3>is all about his education, really, and so I saw

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<v Speaker 3>it as, yeah, the time of rich as he says

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<v Speaker 3>himself at some point, conveniently at his age, all sorts

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<v Speaker 3>of episodes from his past come back to him with amazing,

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<v Speaker 3>unexpected fullness, whereas it's quite hard to remember what he

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<v Speaker 3>did three weeks ago. And I think all of us,

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<v Speaker 3>as we get older, have that experience of time speeding

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<v Speaker 3>up in a terrifying way. So the first half of

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<v Speaker 3>the book, you know, it moves pretty slowly, and I

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<v Speaker 3>hope that it conveyed a sense of what it's like

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<v Speaker 3>for a young person who is contained within the structures

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<v Speaker 3>of education and life is divided into terms and school

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<v Speaker 3>years and university terms and so. And of course this

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<v Speaker 3>young person is growing inside and outside of changing it

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<v Speaker 3>all kinds of ways, but everything seemed to take a

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<v Speaker 3>lot longer. The sense of time is much more sort

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<v Speaker 3>of extensive somehow when you're when you're young. The books

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<v Speaker 3>that comes to big crisis in his life at the

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<v Speaker 3>end of the first half, and then we rejoin in

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<v Speaker 3>a year two later in the second half, and he

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<v Speaker 3>is sort of cut loose from this reassuring structure. So

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<v Speaker 3>I hope that the time scheme slightly disconcerts the reader,

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<v Speaker 3>as in life you just don't know where you're going

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<v Speaker 3>once you've left the educational system.

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<v Speaker 2>It does disconcert, but it also, I mean, there's such

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<v Speaker 2>a beautiful kind of inexorable quality to it, that sense

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<v Speaker 2>that you are privy to a life but also privy

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<v Speaker 2>to the act of remembering.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>One of the great surprises and delights in this book

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<v Speaker 2>is at all times you play fair with the reader,

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<v Speaker 2>but you don't always give them everything they need to

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<v Speaker 2>know at any given time.

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<v Speaker 3>That's absolutely right. Yes, that's an interesting aspect of writing

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<v Speaker 3>in the first person. Of course, it's a different sort

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<v Speaker 3>of mischief that a third person, the radar is doing.

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<v Speaker 3>It FEUs withholding things that the memoirrist could tell you

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<v Speaker 3>what he wants to with whold what he wants, and

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<v Speaker 3>the way that the writing of writing the first person

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<v Speaker 3>is an admission of the limits on your knowledge. A

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<v Speaker 3>third person narrator was assumed to know everything about its character. Actually,

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<v Speaker 3>I was very pleased to think that I didn't know

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<v Speaker 3>everything about Dave and he didn't know everything about himself.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean, I was going to say, it's by

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<v Speaker 2>my reckoning, it must be thirty years since you last

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<v Speaker 2>wrote a book entirely in the first person, that's right.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm curious. I remember reading you're talking about how

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<v Speaker 2>liberating the third person had been, how much you suddenly

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<v Speaker 2>were able to stretch, and you're able to do things

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<v Speaker 2>and have asides and be wry and not be as

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<v Speaker 2>credulous as your narrator, and all of that stuff to plan.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm curious about the homecoming to the first person.

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<v Speaker 2>As you say, from what I understand, part of it

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<v Speaker 2>is about recognizing the limits of how much you can

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<v Speaker 2>get into Dave's head.

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<v Speaker 3>That is it, Bartley? Yes, And I think it was

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<v Speaker 3>integral to the whole question of writing for the point

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<v Speaker 3>of view of a mixed race narrator. I'd wanted for

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<v Speaker 3>some time to sort of try and write something from

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<v Speaker 3>a different racial point of view. Again, I felt if

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<v Speaker 3>I was going to do that in the third person.

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<v Speaker 3>It would introduce all sorts of awkwardnesses of me apparently

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<v Speaker 3>knowing all about this person who is like me in

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<v Speaker 3>some respects but has very crucial difference of being half

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<v Speaker 3>Burmese and so being, you know, something of an anomalous

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<v Speaker 3>figure in many of the worlds that he moves through.

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<v Speaker 3>So I liked the merely partial knowledge, the modesty, if

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<v Speaker 3>you like, of writing it for the inside, which it

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<v Speaker 3>seems slightly paradoxical in a way, but it seemed to

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<v Speaker 3>be the more tactful and in the end more interesting

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<v Speaker 3>way of doing it.

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<v Speaker 2>That paradox and that tact I love the idea of

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<v Speaker 2>it as an act of text, like you're giving him

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<v Speaker 2>his space as he requires it. But it does seem

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<v Speaker 2>fascinating to me that for many years, and I think

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<v Speaker 2>you're a writer who's long written very well and very

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<v Speaker 2>interestingly about race, but the desire to write from the

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<v Speaker 2>perspective of a protagonist with a different racial makeup to

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<v Speaker 2>your own. I love that you held off on that

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<v Speaker 2>until the moment when it was the most culturally charged

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<v Speaker 2>it could be and the most fraud exercise. That seems

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<v Speaker 2>like a singular brand of.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, well, it became much more fraud during the years

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<v Speaker 3>when I was planning and actually writing the book, and

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<v Speaker 3>I was very exercised about all that. Of course. I

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<v Speaker 3>mean my position has always been that it's part of

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<v Speaker 3>the point of bigger immersionative writers that you can assume

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<v Speaker 3>any viewpoint you like, but of course everything depends on

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<v Speaker 3>how it's done in practice. But I felt potentially vulnerable

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<v Speaker 3>on the question, and I think that's why I settled

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<v Speaker 3>partly on the mix race thing, so that'll be the

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<v Speaker 3>sort of element of of someone who is more or

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<v Speaker 3>less like me, maybe more or less through the time

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<v Speaker 3>that I'd lived. And also choosing this actually very unusual

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<v Speaker 3>combination of the Dave who has a white English mother

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<v Speaker 3>and a Burmese father whom he he never knows, and

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<v Speaker 3>the Burmese culture is a very remote one which hasn't

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<v Speaker 3>left much of an imprint in British life, since it

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<v Speaker 3>would have been a very different matter to right side

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<v Speaker 3>from the point of view of the sort of second

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<v Speaker 3>generation Jamaican immigrant or something of that kind, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>who have a large cultural presence in Britain and a

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<v Speaker 3>literature of their own and everything. But Burma was much

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<v Speaker 3>much more marginal, but also has its kind of intrinsic

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<v Speaker 3>interest because it's the end of the colonial period and

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<v Speaker 3>Dave's mother met his father when she was working in

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<v Speaker 3>Rangoon for the British governor just before the Burmese independence

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<v Speaker 3>in nineteen forty seven, so it has those little resonances.

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<v Speaker 3>But Dave, of course, he's very, very remote. He never

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<v Speaker 3>actually goes to Burma.

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<v Speaker 2>And part of that colonial story is one of silences.

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<v Speaker 2>Dave's mother, for a range of reasons of her own

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<v Speaker 2>and otherwise, is not exactly forthcoming with stories about his father,

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<v Speaker 2>and so well, Dave has a kind of visual signifier

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<v Speaker 2>of difference while he's a man of color in a

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<v Speaker 2>part of Britain where it's relentlessly white. Beyond that, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>what's inside is very much a product of his mother's upbringing.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, that's absolutely right. Yes, Now, the only family that

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<v Speaker 3>we get to see his horrible uncle, his mother's brother.

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<v Speaker 2>Uncle is a proper shit.

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<v Speaker 3>He's a real shit. And you know, Dave's mother has,

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<v Speaker 3>of course her own had quite interesting life. In the book,

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<v Speaker 3>she's a courageous person. She's done this courageous thing of

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<v Speaker 3>going off to the other side of the world not

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<v Speaker 3>explained whim to get away. She returns to England pregnant.

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<v Speaker 3>So she gives birth as a single mother to a

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<v Speaker 3>brown faced child in this extremely conventional Berkshire country market town.

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<v Speaker 3>So she's a person who's having to deal with all

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<v Speaker 3>kinds of social stigma and potential ostracism and so forth.

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<v Speaker 3>And Dave himself, therefore is brought up in this peculiar

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<v Speaker 3>sort of world of partial acceptance. Averrol the mother, she

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<v Speaker 3>becomes a dressmaker, and this also gives her this strangely

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<v Speaker 3>intimate kind of access to various women in the town

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<v Speaker 3>for whom she's making clothes. Actually that springs a whole

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<v Speaker 3>new development in her life.

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<v Speaker 2>Averril is one of my favorite characters I think in

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<v Speaker 2>any of your books. So good the story is, her

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<v Speaker 2>story is magnificent, and her relationship with Davis is so

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<v Speaker 2>beautiful and so lovingly observed. And I don't want to

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<v Speaker 2>give away the many singular pleasures in the book, but

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<v Speaker 2>suffice it to say that she forms with Dave this

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<v Speaker 2>kind of unlikely queer family in the time and place

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<v Speaker 2>where they're coming together.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I mean, there's probably not too much of a spoiler,

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<v Speaker 3>as it's Okay, I think it's worth it. Yes, that

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<v Speaker 3>one of her customers, a rather rather overwhelming woman called

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<v Speaker 3>Lesby craft a rich divorce. He takes Dave fines. He's

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<v Speaker 3>gone off to boarding school, so he doesn't have his

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<v Speaker 3>his evenings with his mother any longer. And she's left

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<v Speaker 3>alone and is obviously rather lonely. And he finds that

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<v Speaker 3>in his absence, she's she's seeing more, more and more

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<v Speaker 3>of this this this other woman, and slowly, without anything,

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<v Speaker 3>as he was saying, she's she's not one for spelling

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<v Speaker 3>things out. All that's slowly this completely new situation establishes itself. Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I like the idea, as you say, this little alternative

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<v Speaker 3>queer family at the end of the first half of

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<v Speaker 3>what would all sorts of things have gone wrong, they

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<v Speaker 3>all eventually sort of come out to each other.

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<v Speaker 2>Would I be writing saying that's the first coming out

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<v Speaker 2>scene in one of your books. I was trying to

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<v Speaker 2>I was skipping back through and I couldn't remember another

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<v Speaker 2>coming out scene. And you know, for a writer who

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<v Speaker 2>is I think rightly heralded as one of the great

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<v Speaker 2>writers of the gay experience of the twentieth and twenty

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<v Speaker 2>first century, you know, one of the absolute masters. It

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<v Speaker 2>struck me that the coming out story is not one

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<v Speaker 2>that you've returned too much.

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<v Speaker 3>I've never done it at all before. No, I think

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<v Speaker 3>it was just that thing of starting or presumption that

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<v Speaker 3>one was at you know, it just didn't feature so yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I wrote, I sort of shyly, and eventually myself got

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<v Speaker 3>around to have anyone. There is this big atmosphere of

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<v Speaker 3>the unspoken between David as well as we were saying.

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<v Speaker 3>But it does mean that for the horrible, the horrible

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<v Speaker 3>uncle that I scene seems to have, you know, let

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<v Speaker 3>the family down badly twice, not only in a single

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<v Speaker 3>brother of a brown faced child, but also being a

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<v Speaker 3>larst bit. Except so they are officially excommunicated from the

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<v Speaker 3>horrible family and very happily form their own little family.

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<v Speaker 2>When we return, Ellen reveals why he didn't want to

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<v Speaker 2>write a Brexit novel, but why this might be the

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<v Speaker 2>closest he comes to writing his own memoir. We'll be

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<v Speaker 2>right back. It strikes me not just on the character

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<v Speaker 2>of the uncle, but you know, in particular Giles, but

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<v Speaker 2>other figures in this book. It strikes me reading through

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<v Speaker 2>your Evra, one of the things I know about you

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<v Speaker 2>is Ellen Hollinghurst is a man who despises a bully.

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<v Speaker 2>That a bully might be your most loathed character.

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<v Speaker 3>Is that fair? I just running by my back over

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<v Speaker 3>earlier things. Yes, I do hate bully. God knows we've

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<v Speaker 3>got cause enough to hate them. Yes, Dave's quite call

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<v Speaker 3>him his nemesis, but his sort of polar opposite for

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<v Speaker 3>the beauty of the book is Giles Hadlow. He wins

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<v Speaker 3>a scholarship to this little public school, boarding school, a

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<v Speaker 3>scholarship which is given by a family called had Those.

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<v Speaker 3>Giles is their son, considerably less clever than than Dave.

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<v Speaker 3>And yes, the bully someone who very much resents and

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<v Speaker 3>despises Dave. Yes, so it's not the kind of intimate

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<v Speaker 3>picture of the bully, but it's in need. There's something

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<v Speaker 3>I think unsolvably mysterious about why he's a bully. You know,

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<v Speaker 3>he's born to wealth, he has charming, delightful as parents.

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<v Speaker 3>But he just rebels from very early on against all

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<v Speaker 3>that sort of stop them in inflexible way. And we

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<v Speaker 3>never really get a glimpse of Giles's in their life.

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<v Speaker 3>He's just this kind of obstacle which keeps cropping up

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<v Speaker 3>in Dave's path, and he forgets about it for years

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<v Speaker 3>on end, and then at some crucial moment he will

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<v Speaker 3>pop up again. And in the latter part of the

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<v Speaker 3>book it becomes a very sort of right wing Euroskeptic

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<v Speaker 3>Tory MP who's very instrumental in the disastrous Brexit vote

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<v Speaker 3>and so forth. So in a sense, Giles actually wins. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>that's the annoying thing, unfortunately.

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<v Speaker 2>I think if the world's teaching us anything, it's that,

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<v Speaker 2>of course Giles wins. Giles wins again and again and again, absolutely,

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<v Speaker 2>but perhaps wins without being able to penetrate the kind

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<v Speaker 2>of the relationships of love or integrity or you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Giles is, in the context of the book, largely, as

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<v Speaker 2>you say, an obstacle, but also irrelevant to the life

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<v Speaker 2>that Dave builds for himself, and that seems kind of important.

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<v Speaker 3>I think that's right. Yeah, So the book is really,

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<v Speaker 3>of course, all about Dave's in a life and his

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<v Speaker 3>understanding of life, and not about Giles's. Dave becomes an actor,

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<v Speaker 3>and clearly quite a good one, though he can't reach

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<v Speaker 3>his full potential in his earlier adult life because of

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<v Speaker 3>his his skin color. So he his travels around around

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<v Speaker 3>Shaffle Alternative Theater Company.

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<v Speaker 2>Quite a good actor, but also very keen just to

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<v Speaker 2>get his kit off whenever he gets a chance. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>that seems to be a motivating factor.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, the company that he joins is which gets a

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<v Speaker 3>certain amount of scandalous attention by having a good deal

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<v Speaker 3>of nudity in it, and it's I had quite a

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<v Speaker 3>lot of fun with that little tactic.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, it is crucial that of having written so

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<v Speaker 2>well about literature and about visual arts and fine arts,

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<v Speaker 2>it makes sense that this time around the art in

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<v Speaker 2>question had to be about performance. It had to be

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<v Speaker 2>about artiverse that it had to be about how you

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<v Speaker 2>present in the world, both as a creative act but

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<v Speaker 2>also as an active survival.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I think that's absolutely right. And I didn't want

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<v Speaker 3>to write another book about it writer, but it seems

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<v Speaker 3>to be. It will be quite interesting meeting Dave as

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<v Speaker 3>a young teenager adapting to a new media. He discovers

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<v Speaker 3>he has this gift for mimicry, and he's clever, and

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<v Speaker 3>he can learn complicated speeches and so forth. And I

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<v Speaker 3>saw acting as being a way that he adapts to

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<v Speaker 3>his environment, becomes different things for different purposes, and different

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<v Speaker 3>situations and something for which he has a real, real gift,

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<v Speaker 3>which will be his way of escaping, I suppose, from

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<v Speaker 3>the world which it had seemed to confine him. In

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<v Speaker 3>the first half of the book.

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<v Speaker 2>You mentioned Brexit, and I think you know it's one

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<v Speaker 2>element of this novel. I know that you are very

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<v Speaker 2>keen not to write a Brexit novel, so I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>going to insult you by saying that you have. But

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<v Speaker 2>it seems to me that in the context of this book,

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<v Speaker 2>which is so much about memory, about nostalgia, about acceptance,

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<v Speaker 2>and about ideas of what the country you live in is,

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<v Speaker 2>all of that feeds very powerfully, I think, into a

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<v Speaker 2>kind of backdrop to a Britain that ultimately decides it

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<v Speaker 2>wants to leave Europe. Was that always in the kind

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<v Speaker 2>of DNA of this book or was that something that

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<v Speaker 2>became clearer as it took shape and as the arc

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<v Speaker 2>of Dave's life became clear.

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<v Speaker 3>No, it was very much from the start, actually, and

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<v Speaker 3>as you said, I really didn't want to write something

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<v Speaker 3>which grindingly went through all the stages of Brexit. There's

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<v Speaker 3>a chronological arc of the book from the early nineteen sixties,

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<v Speaker 3>when Britain was making its first attempts to join the

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<v Speaker 3>EU to the end of the book just after the

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<v Speaker 3>disastrous referendum result in twenty sixteen, so that gave it

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<v Speaker 3>a sort of temporal framework, if you like. But I'm

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<v Speaker 3>pleased to what you say about those larger ideas about

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<v Speaker 3>country belonging, landscape and so forth. And they were very

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<v Speaker 3>much part of my design from the beginning, and I

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<v Speaker 3>hoped that, yes, they would take on a certain weight

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<v Speaker 3>and resonance and interest through the book without it being

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<v Speaker 3>sort of a labored political analysis of what was going

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<v Speaker 3>on in kind of Euroskeptic thought and so forth. Some

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<v Speaker 3>reviewers of indignant Brexiteers have said, having done justice to

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<v Speaker 3>the full range, and they were a history of Euroskeptic

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<v Speaker 3>thought on the right, and that's so much not my intention.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you incredibly sad not to have a positive Good

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<v Speaker 2>Reads review from Nigel Farage?

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<v Speaker 3>What a loss?

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<v Speaker 2>What a burden that must be on you. I hope

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<v Speaker 2>you can sleep at that. How much in the space

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<v Speaker 2>of your seven books, in the space of your career

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<v Speaker 2>do you feel the environment for writing queer characters and

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<v Speaker 2>queer love stories. How much has that changed that Milieure.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh gosh, well, it has changed enormously as hardly anybody

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<v Speaker 3>was doing it really when I started out. I think

0:23:40.960 --> 0:23:45.119
<v Speaker 3>there was a great appetite for it then, and I

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<v Speaker 3>think that appetite has persisted. But of course the subject

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<v Speaker 3>itself has changed and developed, starting with what happened actually

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<v Speaker 3>whilst I was writing that first book, which was the

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<v Speaker 3>eruption of the AIDS crisis, which transformed the scape and

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<v Speaker 3>generated its own literature. As you know, I've tended to

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<v Speaker 3>like looking back and dropping in on episodes in the

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<v Speaker 3>past in British gay history, but always had I've always

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<v Speaker 3>had a sort of present day element, but that present

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<v Speaker 3>day is constantly moving forward. The gay novel as a

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<v Speaker 3>sort of genre, which was sort of really blossoming through

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<v Speaker 3>the eighties and nineties, now seems to be a slightly

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<v Speaker 3>sort of historic thing and borne out of a particular

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<v Speaker 3>time of emergency and novelty political moment. The political questions

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<v Speaker 3>now have probably changed, and the sense of sexuality is

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<v Speaker 3>now much more complex. People are interested in sort of

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<v Speaker 3>exploring sexuality rather than defining it. I feel, so it

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<v Speaker 3>feels to me a much more borderless sort of subject.

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<v Speaker 2>Is that exciting as a novelist.

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<v Speaker 3>I think it is.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, your mother, if I understand correctly, died before you

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<v Speaker 2>started writing this book.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, she did. She died when I was just in

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<v Speaker 3>the last phases of writing the previous one. Yes, in

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<v Speaker 3>twenty sixteen.

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<v Speaker 2>The book is dedicated to her.

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<v Speaker 3>I believe it is. Yes.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it again not to I certainly don't want to

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<v Speaker 2>spoil something which is deliciously ambiguous and has multiple meanings

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<v Speaker 2>when it comes to the possessive pronoun in the title.

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<v Speaker 2>But the evenings in question of note are those shared

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<v Speaker 2>between Dave and his mother, really, aren't they?

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<v Speaker 3>They are the sort of primary meaning I suppose yes,

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<v Speaker 3>And I love the phrase because it's so proves quite

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<v Speaker 3>elastic and recurs at various points throughout the narrative and

0:25:47.840 --> 0:25:51.320
<v Speaker 3>the different shades of meaning. But yes, I think that

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<v Speaker 3>they are fundamentally yes, that secure home relationship between the

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<v Speaker 3>boy and this public.

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<v Speaker 2>Part of what you reflect on is the ways in

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<v Speaker 2>which the loss of a parent has this kind of unmooring,

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<v Speaker 2>ungrounding effect. That to be an outsider, to be someone

0:26:11.640 --> 0:26:15.000
<v Speaker 2>who's struggling to work out a question and belonging, as

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<v Speaker 2>is the case for so many of your characters, but

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<v Speaker 2>you know, Dave I embodies are not just at a

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<v Speaker 2>level of his sexuality, of his class, but also of

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<v Speaker 2>his race. The loss of a parent being an ultimate

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<v Speaker 2>act and a loss of place as well.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, that was something which very much struck me personally.

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<v Speaker 3>After my mother died. I was an only child. We'd

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<v Speaker 3>lived in Lochstershire for most of my life. That had

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<v Speaker 3>been my sort of home landscape, and it was to

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<v Speaker 3>me a kind of unanticipated dimension of bereavement that I

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<v Speaker 3>lost not only my mother, who was ninety seven and

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<v Speaker 3>had had a good, long life, but I also lost

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<v Speaker 3>something enormous which was geographical, but with it something larger

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<v Speaker 3>and more indescribable about the sense of place and belonging somewhere.

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<v Speaker 3>And when I sold her house and sort of drove

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<v Speaker 3>back to London for the last time, I just just

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<v Speaker 3>had this whole sense of the landscape of my earlier

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<v Speaker 3>life being closed off to me. Obviously, I could jump

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<v Speaker 3>in the car again and go back there today if

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted to, but that's not quite the point it was.

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<v Speaker 3>It was a much larger sort of sense of dispossession,

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<v Speaker 3>if you like, from my earlier life.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm curious about whether you have ever contemplied a writing

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<v Speaker 2>memoir yourself, whether you keep a diary, whether you you

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<v Speaker 2>know whether you honest childhood memories for the process of

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<v Speaker 2>writing this book, or whether that's a very separate part

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<v Speaker 2>of your brain and your process.

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<v Speaker 3>I think this is as close to memoir as I'm

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<v Speaker 3>likely to get. Really, I did in writing this book.

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<v Speaker 3>I did five areas of my own adolescence in particular

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<v Speaker 3>time at Oxford suddenly opening up to me, and so

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<v Speaker 3>there was a big infusion of memoir, not in so

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<v Speaker 3>much precise narrative of detail, but in the kind of

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<v Speaker 3>vacation of a world, in the state of mind that

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<v Speaker 3>I was in at a particular time. I think I've

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<v Speaker 3>always felt a slight problem in writing anything non fictional

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<v Speaker 3>in the first person. I'm just not very good at it.

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<v Speaker 3>It sounds potentious, but not quite knowing who I am

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<v Speaker 3>or what the persona is that I'm putting before the public.

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<v Speaker 3>And if I make a joke, will they understand it

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<v Speaker 3>or will they think I'm, you know, just being a twap.

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<v Speaker 3>So in a way, the mask of the fictional character

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<v Speaker 3>is for me that the closest I think that I

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<v Speaker 3>can can get to it and it's a way of

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<v Speaker 3>talking about personal things without actually sort of directly presenting

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<v Speaker 3>myself to the public.

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<v Speaker 2>Alan Hollinghurst's beautiful seventh novel, Our Evenings, is available at

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<v Speaker 2>all Good bookstores.

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<v Speaker 3>Now.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for listening to another special episode

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<v Speaker 1>of Read This next week, we'll be sharing Michael's conversation

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<v Speaker 1>with writer LEC Blaine, who shares the incredible story of

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<v Speaker 1>his family in his new memoir Australian Gospel. As always,

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<v Speaker 1>if you want to dive further into Read this, you

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<v Speaker 1>can search for it wherever you listen to podcasts. There

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<v Speaker 1>are more than seventy episodes in the archive for you

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<v Speaker 1>to enjoy. See you next week.