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Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, welcome back to another Close Friends episode. We

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Speaker 1: have gotten a spicy email.

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Speaker 2: Well that's not that spicy, but it's prompting for a

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Speaker 2: good conversation it is.

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Speaker 1: Let's read it out.

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Speaker 2: As you know, we have our email, which is scrollers

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Speaker 2: at novas dot com. Yes, sorry, it was just a

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Speaker 2: triple checking. I was making sure you knew what was

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Speaker 2: going on. And we get emails all the time, and

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Speaker 2: as always, you can send us an email let us

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Speaker 2: know if you'd rather stay anonymous on the pod or

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Speaker 2: anything like that. But sometimes we decide to answer your

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Speaker 2: questions in a Close Friends episode. That's what we're doing today.

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Speaker 1: Hey, Britt and Matt long term follower slash scroller here,

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Speaker 1: we're talking twenty fourteen Britain, Matt.

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Speaker 2: Which is crazy because I started in twenty fifteen. So

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Speaker 2: what was she doing stalking me at the sand?

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Speaker 1: Close enough? Close enough?

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Speaker 2: Really, so wait, that might not be right, because I

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Speaker 2: did ten years this year. Yeah, No, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,

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Speaker 2: twenty one, two three four, that's ten years.

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Speaker 1: Okay. Recently you have both discussed how much your opinions

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Speaker 1: and ways of living have changed over time and as

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Speaker 1: you have gotten wiser. I've definitely seen this happen with

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Speaker 1: the both of your lives and resonate with this myself.

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Speaker 1: For example, years ago, Britt never wanted to own a house.

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Speaker 1: She said she wanted to rent exclusively. I will elaborate

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Speaker 1: on that and express her opinion about marriage and children.

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Speaker 1: Now Britt owns and is renovating, owning a massive company,

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Speaker 1: and more.

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Speaker 2: She also says, and Matt, being Matt like myself, always

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Speaker 2: saying what they think could be bs, but then maybe

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Speaker 2: a month or so later, realizing it wasn't the worst

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Speaker 2: decision or idea they'd heard of. I'll elaborate on that also,

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Speaker 2: or what his life in Sydney will look like. But then,

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Speaker 2: with the cost of living and rent going up, thinking

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Speaker 2: of moving to somewhere like Newcastle or Paramatta, somewhere I

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Speaker 2: thought that I'd never moved to.

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Speaker 1: So in saying this, what are your opinions now on

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Speaker 1: all things living, housing, career, education, friends, families, building a family,

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Speaker 1: you name it. Part of me is just curious and nosy,

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Speaker 1: but there is part of me wondering, as I've watched

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Speaker 1: you guys grow up yourself, how much your opinion has

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Speaker 1: changed over time. For me, it was only a few

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Speaker 1: years ago. I was early twenties, doing my teaching degree,

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Speaker 1: thinking of renting away from home with my boyfriend, eventually

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Speaker 1: getting married and having kids. When I was early thirties,

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Speaker 1: you know how things were meant to go. I've got

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Speaker 1: a lot of opinions on that too. But now, at

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Speaker 1: the end of twenty twenty four, I'm finding myself moving

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Speaker 1: into a brand new home my partner and I built,

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Speaker 1: same guy in Newcastle where I grew up, not married

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Speaker 1: nor engaged, no kids in sight. I know that's how

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Speaker 1: life works. But I guess what I am trying to

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Speaker 1: relate to you by? What steps were made to get

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Speaker 1: to where you are today? Wow? What a ramble. But

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Speaker 1: I don't often have a chance to actually write down

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Speaker 1: questions I have when listening to you guys.

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Speaker 2: Well, Firstie, thank you so much for taking the time

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Speaker 2: to email us. Yes, I saw this email, and I

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Speaker 2: was like, that's actually such a good topic to talk

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Speaker 2: about because I know you have a lot of thoughts

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Speaker 2: and opinions, particularly on change and when people say things

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Speaker 2: like you've changed and all the rest of that, and

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Speaker 2: how you know it correlates to growth in life and

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Speaker 2: if you're not changing, you're not growing.

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Speaker 1: Yes, I think one of the hard things about being

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Speaker 1: online is people will take what you say and like

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Speaker 1: run with that and if you ever, like do like

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Speaker 1: opposite of something that you said so long ago, like

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Speaker 1: they cling onto it. And I think we've seen it

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Speaker 1: through like our youtubing days. I know I did for sure,

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Speaker 1: Like people would comment, you know, three years into my

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Speaker 1: but like, hello, like we all changed. I think the

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Speaker 1: older we get, the more we realize like change is normal.

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Speaker 1: If anything, we should embrace it, oh for sure, Like

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Speaker 1: and I'm all for it. Like we've already spoken about this.

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Speaker 1: I at one point thought that getting a boob job

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Speaker 1: I'll start on my questions. First ages ago a Jane,

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Speaker 1: story talking as I always fucking do every single night

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Speaker 1: you as much, Matt, but in my career, the two questions,

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Speaker 1: whole youtubing careers when are you having kids? When are

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Speaker 2: Which is so funny because I never get any of

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Speaker 1: I were renting forever, lived in a million houses. This

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Speaker 1: saying fuck buying a house. Fuck it, I'm not gonna

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Speaker 1: Like I think I've always been one to kind of

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Speaker 1: I'm like, so, what like if we spend the rest

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Speaker 1: why does everyone keep saying to us like when are

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Speaker 1: going to get engaged? Like I was like, I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I was like, so what if we just decide that

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Speaker 1: we want to rent and we're happy renting? And I

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Speaker 2: But you also did some like little calculations and things

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Speaker 2: the insinuation was that renting was better than owning a

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Speaker 1: That time, like we were like I was happy doing that,

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Speaker 1: And that's what I was saying, Like, so what you know,

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Speaker 1: I'm like, society has made everyone feel like if you

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Speaker 1: But that's what I was trying to say on my story, you.

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Speaker 2: Haven't lived until you've had kids.

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Speaker 1: Yes, like this, And I get these questions all the time,

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Speaker 1: Like people still are like when are you and AJ

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Speaker 1: different because you used to rent to then be able

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so a lot has happened since I said that

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Speaker 1: so let's fucking buy a house. But the whole deal

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Speaker 1: So that's how the whole thing came about of us

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Speaker 2: My life, so you've renovated everything.

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Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, so that's how it all came to be.

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Speaker 2: Was a plan to renovate originally anyway when you because

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Speaker 1: A really old house, like old fashioned, so we're always

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Speaker 1: going to renovate it. But like, the whole reason that

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Speaker 1: then it fell through and we're like, all right, well

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Speaker 1: So that's my story why.

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Speaker 2: You decided to buy a house. Yeah. Nice. She's also said,

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Speaker 1: Is that you know you can still do it.

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Speaker 2: You can still do it for sure.

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Speaker 1: To sum it up, do whatever the fuck you want,

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Speaker 2: I think about that from episodes from three months ago.

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Speaker 2: It's part of life. And remember life is short. Any

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Speaker 2: of us could die tomorrow. So today, let's not waste

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Speaker 2: it harping on, you know, ridiculous bullshit like whether someone's

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Speaker 2: changed or not. Let's just enjoy every moment.

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Speaker 1: And can people stop asking me when I'm fucking getting

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Speaker 1: engaged in having kids please respectfully.

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Speaker 2: The kids one pisses me off as well, because they

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Speaker 2: don't know whether you could. You know, you don't have

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Speaker 2: had miscarriages. You could be on an IVF journey, blah

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Speaker 2: blah blah. You never know, you may be you may

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Speaker 2: be infertile and never be able to have kids. So

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Speaker 2: I think asking people when you're gonna have kids is

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Speaker 2: really rude. It is, and I still get I never

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Speaker 2: would I would never ask anyone that.

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Speaker 1: But for the record, I'm just not fucking interested right now.

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Speaker 1: I really like sleeping through the night. It's not interested

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Speaker 1: in changing a nappy or hearing screaming. Like genuinely, I'm

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Speaker 1: not that it does not interest me. Could that interest

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Speaker 1: me in three years? Yes? And if that does interest

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Speaker 1: me in three years, don't say well you said, because

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Speaker 1: shut the fuck up. Everyone says things.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, all right, Well it's getting heated. It is, it's

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Speaker 2: getting heated, So we better wrap this up. But thank

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Speaker 2: you for listening to another episode of Close Friend Scrollers.

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Speaker 1: Guess what see your next Tuesday, Your next Tuesday.