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Speaker 1: Apogee Production. Welcome to the She Rises Podcast. I'm Ashy

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Speaker 1: and I'm Tiana.

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Speaker 2: This podcast is about female empowerment and encouraging you to

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Speaker 2: be your biggest, boldest, and most authentic version of yourself.

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Speaker 1: We help you shed the shame, grow to a new level.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna laugh and cry and talk about the topics

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Speaker 3: Get ready for your next level of self.

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Speaker 1: I'm always excited to be in your ears, whether you're

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Speaker 1: on your way to work, or you're going from our

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Speaker 1: Stanley Walk, or maybe you're cooking dinner and you're just

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Speaker 1: wanting to be in our company. We're bringing you today

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Speaker 1: an episode about victim mentality. This is something we've been

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Speaker 1: asked quite a bit in our DMS and something we

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Speaker 1: love talking about. Something Tiana works with her clients, and

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Speaker 1: it's something we have definitely both experienced and lived in

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Speaker 1: for a while absolutely and still go there. Sometimes it's

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Speaker 1: not our emotional home to be a victim. We don't

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Speaker 1: stay there, we don't stay there. We move out of

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Speaker 1: there pretty quick. Yes, because it does not serve us

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Speaker 1: being a victim, It just disempowers us. So that's what

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Speaker 2: It feels super restrict.

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Speaker 1: Also, no one likes being there.

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Speaker 3: It's not a good time.

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Speaker 1: No, you can't grow, you can't enjoy life when you're

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Speaker 1: in victim mentality and you lose all of your power

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Speaker 1: because you decide that there's nothing you can do about it.

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Speaker 1: But there always is a new perspective and a new

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Speaker 1: way to switch lanes. So got to go there today,

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Speaker 1: switch lanes. Yeah, I'm going to talk about times in

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Speaker 1: our lives that we have felt victimized and like there

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Speaker 1: was no way out.

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Speaker 2: There was a time in my life where I was

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Speaker 2: surrounded by a whole new community of really conscious women

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Speaker 2: and a community of women who were all in the

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Speaker 2: coaching industry that I'm a part of. And it was

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Speaker 2: probably about two years into my personal development journey, so

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Speaker 2: I was quite fresh, fresh on the scene, fresh, surrounded

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Speaker 2: by women who were doing big things, really incredible things.

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Speaker 3: I remember going into the biggest ego death of my life.

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Speaker 3: It was so intense.

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Speaker 2: I was surrounded by all these women who were doing

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Speaker 2: here was little old me in five thousand dollars a

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Speaker 2: I was surrounded by women who are making like five

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Speaker 2: because I remember having this ego death and doing my

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Speaker 2: personal development journey, discovering things about myself, learning new parts

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Speaker 2: of myself, seeing shadow aspects of myself. It was really unraveling.

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Speaker 2: It was unraveling, and I just remember feeling like the

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Speaker 2: biggest victim because I couldn't, for the life of me,

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Speaker 2: figure out this missing secret ingredient that all of these

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Speaker 2: five k months for like a year, Like that's obviously

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Speaker 2: I had that experience, but I was so stuck in

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Speaker 2: has it easier than me, and everyone knows something that

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Speaker 2: It's like everyone is keeping it from me.

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Speaker 3: Why is no one telling me?

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Speaker 2: There's his secret that everyone knows that I don't know?

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Speaker 2: And everyone's getting there much faster than I am, and

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Speaker 2: I couldn't sit with that feeling. And so through this

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Speaker 3: I was stuck in this victim of vortex.

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Speaker 3: Wow, that's a clot That's exactly how it felt.

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Speaker 2: It was this victim vortex of every single day I

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Speaker 1: So how do you get yourself out of it?

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Speaker 2: I took radical responsibility and it was the most uncomfortable feeling.

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Speaker 2: put it, You're not going to do this, and everyone

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Speaker 2: else around you is going to succeed. It wasn't that,

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Speaker 2: in the process of going, Well, if you to just

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Speaker 2: to just implement what it is that they're doing if

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Speaker 1: Oh that's cool. Yeah, and that one time you did that,

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Speaker 1: for ever resurfaced. Yeah, anytime that comes up that you're

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Speaker 2: That was the most intense that it had come up

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Speaker 2: like what you just said, it got easy to deal

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Speaker 3: I was like, oh, like, it's that thing again that

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Speaker 2: It's just this mentality is keeping me here because I'm

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Speaker 2: fueling the thoughts by not taking action. But the moment

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Speaker 3: This isn't it.

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Speaker 1: You're not stuck here.

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Speaker 2: And when I realized I wasn't stuck there, I was like,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, like I can breathe.

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Speaker 3: It's just a story.

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Speaker 1: So cool. Yeah, now you get to help. So many

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Speaker 1: other women do that as well.

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Speaker 1: Mine was when I was going through the most intense

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Speaker 1: of being suicidal. I remember saying, no one else has

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Speaker 1: many influences at these massive events. I've never seen anything

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Speaker 1: not special. Plenty of people this happens too. You think

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Speaker 1: the comments is hate. Yeah. They pick on their sale life,

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Speaker 1: They pick on the way they parent, they pick on

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Speaker 1: There's always something that they're picking on. And unfortunately, when

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Speaker 1: of course I'm not the only one. This is happening too,

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Speaker 1: And if other people can get out of it, so

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Speaker 3: You know, It's like under a microscope.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, And I can choose to keep being a victim

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Speaker 1: still get messages from women just saying it's so cool

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Speaker 1: to see all the stuff that's happened to you and

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Speaker 2: Yeah, do you think if that experience hadn't happened, you

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Speaker 1: I'm never going to make anything of myself. Yeah, so

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Speaker 1: At the end of the day, whether you've got supportive

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Speaker 1: You get to appoint where you've got to stop blaming

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Speaker 2: So powerful it is the same thing circumstances. It doesn't

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Speaker 2: there to be there. It's not really about that.

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Speaker 3: It's about what you choose to do from here on out.

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Speaker 1: Yes, you can choose to.

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Speaker 2: Allow that experience or the circumstances that you're in to

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Speaker 2: You know, if I had allowed the sex tape to

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Speaker 2: I would have hid and you know what I wanted to.

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Speaker 2: I definitely felt victimized by that. Actually, similar to what

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Speaker 1: You felt like that in the moment else had a

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Speaker 2: Knew not yet, I didn't know anyone intimately, or anyone

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Speaker 3: Knew anyone no who had been through that.

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Speaker 2: Well, you do you.

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Speaker 3: Feel special in your pain?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because you just don't know anybody who's been through it,

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Speaker 1: And you are victimized, But you don't have to be

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Speaker 2: It's almost as if this is something that has happened

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Speaker 1: We're saying it happened for us to help us grow

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Speaker 2: Yeah, victim mentality is forcing you to grow, and for

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Speaker 1: And a big event like that, it almost is a

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Speaker 2: It's the best anything that you're expencing right now, hardship, pain, discomfort, victimize.

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Speaker 2: With the sex tape specifically, I remember telling myself anything

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Speaker 2: And I was like, well, I'm just not gonna have

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Speaker 2: It, and it will destroy it. It will ruin my credibility.

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Speaker 2: But it's in those very moments you get to choose.

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Speaker 1: Yes, you get to choose.

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Speaker 1: We've also said this before and I will keep saying

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you need it.

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Speaker 2: It's such a necessary part because if you don't acknowledge

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Speaker 1: Anyway, it comes out bigger, it just explodes. I remember

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Speaker 2: So I'm good.

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Speaker 2: In terms of being a victim or feeling like a victim,

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Speaker 1: Doing Oh wow, that's cool.

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Speaker 2: So if I want an outcome or a circumstance for

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Speaker 1: That's so true. What a good one.

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Speaker 3: It's helped me every.

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Speaker 1: there's some people that will enable that victim mentality. Oh

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Speaker 2: As well, you can play roles with people. Yeah, constantly

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Speaker 2: It's productive growth. It's being mindful of those things.

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Speaker 2: Know, emotion first, practicality later.

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Speaker 2: Yeah. I definitely used to do the fixing things straight

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Speaker 2: away and me too, Right, cool, what do we do?

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Speaker 3: Let's do this, this, this, and sometimes the.

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Speaker 2: People don't want to hear that automatically. I'm not listening

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Speaker 2: to anything.

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Speaker 1: Ready to change. I want to just sit here for

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Speaker 1: I want to bitch about it. I want to have

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Speaker 1: event Yep, I'm going to give you my meta report

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Speaker 1: of all the things that I'm thinking and feeling.

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Speaker 3: I've meta report.

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Speaker 1: Welcome, definitely, and we love them.

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Speaker 2: Thanks for listening, guys, we really appreciate you coming along

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Speaker 2: on this journey. And if, for whatever reason, you feel

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Speaker 2: it into the Facebook forum. Let's open up a thread,

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Speaker 2: open up a conversation, and let's start removing the shame

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Speaker 2: and just allowing you to have a place to come

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Speaker 2: the women in there are so supportive, So if you

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Speaker 2: below as well in the description.

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Speaker 1: Thanks, We'll see in the next episode. Bye bye,