1 00:00:00,680 --> 00:00:04,640 Speaker 1: Hi, guys, welcome back, Happy Tuesday to hoarder than yesterday. 2 00:00:04,800 --> 00:00:08,280 Speaker 1: It's two girl back in business and we had Blake. 3 00:00:08,960 --> 00:00:11,480 Speaker 2: Hi, Hello Darling in the flesh. 4 00:00:11,520 --> 00:00:13,680 Speaker 3: In the flesh. It's been what six months? 5 00:00:13,840 --> 00:00:16,320 Speaker 2: Yeah, I still like, don't believe that I'm looking at you. 6 00:00:16,360 --> 00:00:18,640 Speaker 2: When I hugged you on Friday, I think it was 7 00:00:18,800 --> 00:00:20,200 Speaker 2: I like had to do a double take. 8 00:00:20,520 --> 00:00:23,680 Speaker 1: It's so weird seeing everyone back in person because I'm like, 9 00:00:23,720 --> 00:00:25,920 Speaker 1: you guys have all just been like my little pen pals. 10 00:00:26,160 --> 00:00:28,840 Speaker 1: It's kind of like like I actually exist in person. 11 00:00:29,240 --> 00:00:32,319 Speaker 2: Yeah, we'll just like pretty much facetiming. Yeah, half a year. 12 00:00:32,560 --> 00:00:34,080 Speaker 1: I've been back for a week and a half and 13 00:00:34,120 --> 00:00:36,120 Speaker 1: it actually now feels like I haven't even left in 14 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:36,720 Speaker 1: the first place. 15 00:00:36,800 --> 00:00:39,360 Speaker 2: Yeah, how is like, let's just jump straight into it. 16 00:00:39,800 --> 00:00:42,280 Speaker 1: I forgot I don't know if anybody else has this. 17 00:00:42,400 --> 00:00:44,440 Speaker 1: When you travel or you go away for a really 18 00:00:44,479 --> 00:00:47,599 Speaker 1: really long time, you forget that other people's life continue 19 00:00:47,600 --> 00:00:50,760 Speaker 1: on as well. So like I kind of kept on thinking, 20 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:54,120 Speaker 1: like subconsciously, I'm like, well, nothing like everything went on 21 00:00:54,200 --> 00:00:56,840 Speaker 1: pause in Melbourne when I was away, and then like 22 00:00:56,880 --> 00:00:59,240 Speaker 1: it resumed when I started, because it like my life 23 00:00:59,280 --> 00:01:01,960 Speaker 1: resumes back in Melbourne, but everyone had the other stuff 24 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:02,440 Speaker 1: going on. 25 00:01:03,040 --> 00:01:05,320 Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean depends how you're looking at it. You 26 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:08,160 Speaker 2: were living just like the most insane life over there, 27 00:01:08,200 --> 00:01:11,640 Speaker 2: and I've just been working. So you've lived many lives. 28 00:01:11,640 --> 00:01:14,200 Speaker 2: I feel like mine's kind of the same somewhat. 29 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:14,959 Speaker 3: But then you. 30 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:16,880 Speaker 1: Guys forget that where and then like you go out 31 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:18,880 Speaker 1: for drinks and they're like, oh my god, you won't here. 32 00:01:18,920 --> 00:01:21,880 Speaker 1: When this happened the other day, I was speaking with 33 00:01:21,920 --> 00:01:23,600 Speaker 1: all my friends. We went out for drinks and they 34 00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:27,440 Speaker 1: started telling me about this guy who's like on the run, 35 00:01:28,160 --> 00:01:29,720 Speaker 1: Like I don't know any of this stuff, Like I 36 00:01:29,720 --> 00:01:32,160 Speaker 1: don't know any news that's happened in Australia or anything. 37 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:34,400 Speaker 1: And he shot someone who's on a run and there's 38 00:01:34,440 --> 00:01:35,440 Speaker 1: like a million dollar. 39 00:01:35,240 --> 00:01:38,600 Speaker 2: Award for him or something, the mill rewards. When I 40 00:01:38,640 --> 00:01:39,640 Speaker 2: first came out, I was. 41 00:01:39,600 --> 00:01:42,559 Speaker 3: Like, hey, it's like the isn't ned Kelly or something. 42 00:01:43,120 --> 00:01:47,240 Speaker 2: It's like, I think, don't quote me here. I think 43 00:01:47,280 --> 00:01:50,160 Speaker 2: he's hiding in like ned Kelly Country, which is like 44 00:01:50,920 --> 00:01:53,600 Speaker 2: a part of Victoria in the bush, right. I know 45 00:01:53,600 --> 00:01:56,520 Speaker 2: it's the bush really well, but his name's like Daisy 46 00:01:56,720 --> 00:01:57,280 Speaker 2: or something. 47 00:01:57,600 --> 00:01:59,520 Speaker 1: But it's like the modern day Ned Kelly or something 48 00:01:59,560 --> 00:02:01,480 Speaker 1: that's every what I'm saying. And he like doesn't believe 49 00:02:01,480 --> 00:02:02,720 Speaker 1: in any laws or something. 50 00:02:02,800 --> 00:02:06,640 Speaker 2: It's crazy goteo. Yeah, yeah, so keep your eye out 51 00:02:06,720 --> 00:02:07,120 Speaker 2: for him. 52 00:02:07,280 --> 00:02:07,480 Speaker 3: Yeah. 53 00:02:07,480 --> 00:02:09,440 Speaker 1: If you guys want a million bucks or you want 54 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:10,680 Speaker 1: to go fifty to fifty. 55 00:02:10,800 --> 00:02:13,760 Speaker 3: I can help you. No, don't go away from that. 56 00:02:13,960 --> 00:02:17,400 Speaker 2: But you've literally hit the ground running since you've come back. 57 00:02:17,480 --> 00:02:20,360 Speaker 2: Like how you feeling, how's it been seeing your family, 58 00:02:20,400 --> 00:02:23,160 Speaker 2: your friends would have been you've been up to. Yes, 59 00:02:23,200 --> 00:02:26,079 Speaker 2: it's different. What's the same, Like, it's kind of all. 60 00:02:25,960 --> 00:02:29,040 Speaker 3: The same, but it's also really really different. 61 00:02:29,080 --> 00:02:31,480 Speaker 1: I'm just trying to fucking navigate it a little bit 62 00:02:32,000 --> 00:02:34,600 Speaker 1: and kind of go warm myself back into it. But 63 00:02:34,639 --> 00:02:37,119 Speaker 1: I haven't done that well with like with my schedule. 64 00:02:37,160 --> 00:02:40,160 Speaker 1: I kind of jam packed my schedule a little bit 65 00:02:40,200 --> 00:02:43,160 Speaker 1: too tight that I haven't had time for myself or 66 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:44,440 Speaker 1: everything like that. 67 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:45,960 Speaker 3: And I think it's really hard when you. 68 00:02:45,919 --> 00:02:48,680 Speaker 1: Work for yourself because you have no time, no one 69 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:49,840 Speaker 1: really else to regulate you. 70 00:02:50,080 --> 00:02:51,720 Speaker 3: You have to regulate yourself. 71 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:54,120 Speaker 1: And I am worried I'm going to burn out a 72 00:02:54,120 --> 00:02:56,560 Speaker 1: little bit. But it's been so good to like get 73 00:02:56,560 --> 00:02:58,960 Speaker 1: back into the sewing of things, especially with work, because 74 00:02:58,960 --> 00:03:01,919 Speaker 1: I feel like I kind of lost a little bit 75 00:03:01,919 --> 00:03:02,880 Speaker 1: of love for it. 76 00:03:02,919 --> 00:03:05,560 Speaker 3: Or like knowing where I kind of fit in. 77 00:03:06,040 --> 00:03:07,800 Speaker 1: So now that I've been busy, I'm like, yeah, I 78 00:03:07,840 --> 00:03:10,600 Speaker 1: do love this shit and it's fun and everything like that, 79 00:03:10,639 --> 00:03:13,200 Speaker 1: but I think I'm getting a little bit overwhelmed and 80 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:15,480 Speaker 1: like my stress is really high. So I need to 81 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:19,840 Speaker 1: like prioritize like myself instead of like my social life, 82 00:03:20,240 --> 00:03:21,079 Speaker 1: my work. 83 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:22,800 Speaker 3: Life, Like it's all a bit out of balance. 84 00:03:22,880 --> 00:03:24,600 Speaker 1: But I'm trying to be nice on myself and be 85 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:26,240 Speaker 1: like that will come back with time. 86 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:29,040 Speaker 3: Just like give yourself a little bit of wiggle. 87 00:03:28,760 --> 00:03:31,079 Speaker 2: Room for sure. Because funnily enough, I think you did 88 00:03:31,080 --> 00:03:33,720 Speaker 2: this at the start of London. You book yourself in London. 89 00:03:33,760 --> 00:03:35,440 Speaker 2: I was like, Carol, you gotta give yourself. 90 00:03:35,600 --> 00:03:39,360 Speaker 1: Yeah. I just get really excited about the fosibilities and 91 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:41,680 Speaker 1: say yes to everything, and then when I actually have 92 00:03:41,720 --> 00:03:44,200 Speaker 1: to do the things, because it's like you say yes 93 00:03:44,200 --> 00:03:46,440 Speaker 1: in advance and then you look at your schedule and 94 00:03:46,440 --> 00:03:49,520 Speaker 1: you're like, holy fuck, that's the first week, and but 95 00:03:49,640 --> 00:03:51,080 Speaker 1: I've gotten over the first week. 96 00:03:51,320 --> 00:03:52,640 Speaker 3: I'd then go to Sydney. 97 00:03:52,360 --> 00:03:55,440 Speaker 1: Tomorrow and I think after then this week I'll be 98 00:03:55,520 --> 00:03:57,120 Speaker 1: a little bit more into routine. 99 00:03:57,520 --> 00:03:59,360 Speaker 3: But it's just like time, I hope. 100 00:03:59,400 --> 00:04:02,320 Speaker 2: So, like you're busier than me, and I've just been, 101 00:04:02,560 --> 00:04:03,600 Speaker 2: you know, in Melbourne. 102 00:04:03,960 --> 00:04:07,160 Speaker 1: Sometimes I say it's easier to have like a nine 103 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:09,120 Speaker 1: to five, I think, and again I'm prefacing it by 104 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:13,520 Speaker 1: not saying my job's hard, but because you fit your 105 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:15,760 Speaker 1: schedule into people who do work in nine to five. 106 00:04:15,800 --> 00:04:18,800 Speaker 1: So it's like like you, it's like organizing time for 107 00:04:18,880 --> 00:04:21,200 Speaker 1: like the podcasting and stuff like that, but I have 108 00:04:21,240 --> 00:04:23,799 Speaker 1: everything else on the other side that I'm also driving 109 00:04:23,839 --> 00:04:26,600 Speaker 1: into and fitting everybody else into their nine to five. 110 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:28,919 Speaker 1: It's like you spend a lot of time in the car. 111 00:04:29,240 --> 00:04:30,880 Speaker 1: You spend a lot of time doing all this shit 112 00:04:30,960 --> 00:04:33,400 Speaker 1: where it's like you don't even know how like what 113 00:04:33,480 --> 00:04:34,680 Speaker 1: you're doing majority of the time. 114 00:04:34,680 --> 00:04:35,760 Speaker 3: But it's like I'm always busy. 115 00:04:35,960 --> 00:04:37,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, And I love that. Such a thing for influence 116 00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:40,360 Speaker 2: as having to explain like, yes, I struggle with this, 117 00:04:40,440 --> 00:04:42,240 Speaker 2: but I'm not saying it's hard. But I think another 118 00:04:42,279 --> 00:04:45,600 Speaker 2: thing for you, just like me working with you, things 119 00:04:45,680 --> 00:04:49,359 Speaker 2: can't move until you've approved things. Yes, you are the 120 00:04:49,400 --> 00:04:51,520 Speaker 2: final say yeah, So like you. 121 00:04:51,480 --> 00:04:53,440 Speaker 3: Know, everyone's kind of waiting on me. 122 00:04:53,720 --> 00:04:55,719 Speaker 2: I have a team, so I can you know, bounce 123 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:57,720 Speaker 2: off them or they say yes for me. They keep 124 00:04:57,720 --> 00:04:59,279 Speaker 2: things moving, whereas you like. 125 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:02,039 Speaker 1: Have to be like the final saying nothing can go 126 00:05:02,080 --> 00:05:04,760 Speaker 1: ahead until live, like either done it, like film the 127 00:05:05,279 --> 00:05:09,520 Speaker 1: content or edit the content, approve the content. 128 00:05:09,279 --> 00:05:11,520 Speaker 3: Like reply to the to the messages. 129 00:05:11,560 --> 00:05:14,320 Speaker 1: But then sometimes it completely slips your mind and then 130 00:05:14,360 --> 00:05:17,160 Speaker 1: everyone is waiting on you, which is really really stressful. 131 00:05:17,320 --> 00:05:20,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's some insight, Like it's simply not just 132 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:21,680 Speaker 2: taking videos. 133 00:05:21,760 --> 00:05:24,360 Speaker 1: Bit like background guys, Like a lot of brands will 134 00:05:24,400 --> 00:05:26,280 Speaker 1: have like a date that things need to go live, 135 00:05:26,320 --> 00:05:29,320 Speaker 1: but they forget that you also have a life around that. 136 00:05:29,720 --> 00:05:32,039 Speaker 1: So like, yeah, they're waiting for your content because that's 137 00:05:32,080 --> 00:05:34,600 Speaker 1: their job, but they forget that you have like X, 138 00:05:34,720 --> 00:05:36,800 Speaker 1: Y and Z. Like for example, I had an eight 139 00:05:36,839 --> 00:05:39,480 Speaker 1: hour shoot day on Friday, and then I recorded the 140 00:05:39,520 --> 00:05:42,719 Speaker 1: podcast on Friday afternoon and then everyone's like, well, where's 141 00:05:42,720 --> 00:05:46,000 Speaker 1: this And I'm like I was out something all day. 142 00:05:46,080 --> 00:05:48,919 Speaker 3: Like it's really weird and you just have to navigate 143 00:05:48,920 --> 00:05:49,839 Speaker 3: it and take some time. 144 00:05:49,880 --> 00:05:51,359 Speaker 1: And because I think I've been out of it for 145 00:05:51,400 --> 00:05:54,360 Speaker 1: a little bit in London and things were a lot 146 00:05:54,400 --> 00:05:57,440 Speaker 1: more slower because like you don't have everything that you 147 00:05:57,520 --> 00:05:59,680 Speaker 1: know over there. It's kind of like, I'm it's just 148 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:01,480 Speaker 1: going to me a while to get back into stuff. 149 00:06:01,880 --> 00:06:04,000 Speaker 3: But it's nice to have like your own environment again. 150 00:06:04,120 --> 00:06:06,039 Speaker 2: Yeah, and it was so much more interactive for you 151 00:06:06,080 --> 00:06:09,360 Speaker 2: originally back here because I had people in London. It 152 00:06:09,400 --> 00:06:11,200 Speaker 2: would have been like, oh, I don't even know which 153 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:13,880 Speaker 2: way to turn or which area man, and also have 154 00:06:13,960 --> 00:06:15,039 Speaker 2: to find ways to do. 155 00:06:15,160 --> 00:06:17,719 Speaker 1: It makes it so much easier. But it's good, especially 156 00:06:17,800 --> 00:06:19,960 Speaker 1: with the podcast. I think that now I can hit 157 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:22,520 Speaker 1: the podcast a bit more running and smoothly and it 158 00:06:22,560 --> 00:06:24,680 Speaker 1: can all happen because it's like it is hard when 159 00:06:24,720 --> 00:06:27,279 Speaker 1: you're doing it alone. And I think that really taught 160 00:06:27,279 --> 00:06:28,960 Speaker 1: me that I do really need a team when it 161 00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:29,800 Speaker 1: comes to this stuff. 162 00:06:30,040 --> 00:06:32,560 Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm just so happy to finally have you back 163 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:34,960 Speaker 2: in the flash. Yeah, everything so much quicker. You've been 164 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:37,320 Speaker 2: back for two minutes and where already like three weeks ahead. 165 00:06:37,400 --> 00:06:39,880 Speaker 1: Three weeks ahead, but like I was like, I was 166 00:06:39,920 --> 00:06:41,880 Speaker 1: like twelve hours ahead. 167 00:06:42,240 --> 00:06:43,640 Speaker 3: Like I was like, yeah, the. 168 00:06:43,600 --> 00:06:45,080 Speaker 1: Podcast was a bit of a disaster, but I know 169 00:06:45,160 --> 00:06:46,960 Speaker 1: it's going to be really good now guys, so hold them. 170 00:06:47,000 --> 00:06:50,479 Speaker 2: Oh it's a promise. Yeah, we have so much things planned. 171 00:06:50,720 --> 00:06:53,920 Speaker 2: So after Sydney everything's going to be chilled, relaxed. What's 172 00:06:53,960 --> 00:06:56,280 Speaker 2: the plans for the summer. We haven't even sat down 173 00:06:56,360 --> 00:06:57,360 Speaker 2: to speak about theirs. 174 00:06:59,040 --> 00:07:01,839 Speaker 3: I don't know why I have a feeling that Sydney's 175 00:07:01,880 --> 00:07:02,159 Speaker 3: for me. 176 00:07:02,960 --> 00:07:03,799 Speaker 2: Oh my god. 177 00:07:03,839 --> 00:07:07,919 Speaker 1: All right, I'm not going to move there, but I 178 00:07:07,920 --> 00:07:10,240 Speaker 1: think I haven't want to spend a lot more time there. 179 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:13,680 Speaker 2: Definitely. I'm originally from Sydney, so talk to me. 180 00:07:13,960 --> 00:07:16,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, Like one of my you guys, know Bill, he 181 00:07:16,520 --> 00:07:18,800 Speaker 1: lives up there, so I always have a place to stay. 182 00:07:19,280 --> 00:07:21,040 Speaker 1: And I have a lot of friends up in Sydney 183 00:07:21,040 --> 00:07:23,320 Speaker 1: that I really want to like nurture those relationships and 184 00:07:23,360 --> 00:07:24,920 Speaker 1: like events and stuff up there. So I just like 185 00:07:24,960 --> 00:07:27,480 Speaker 1: really want to touch into the Sydney life. I think 186 00:07:27,520 --> 00:07:30,920 Speaker 1: someone Sydney could be really fun. So I kind of 187 00:07:30,920 --> 00:07:32,080 Speaker 1: want to spend New Years there. 188 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:35,520 Speaker 2: You should do it. It's the most stunning place to 189 00:07:35,560 --> 00:07:38,480 Speaker 2: spend New Years. Yeah, that's so funny because I met 190 00:07:38,520 --> 00:07:39,960 Speaker 2: you when I was from Sydney. 191 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:41,240 Speaker 3: Yeah, and I was a hater. 192 00:07:41,440 --> 00:07:43,200 Speaker 2: I would have happily talked you into it, but we 193 00:07:43,200 --> 00:07:45,240 Speaker 2: couldn't even get near that conversation, you were such a 194 00:07:45,280 --> 00:07:45,800 Speaker 2: Melbourne st. 195 00:07:46,320 --> 00:07:49,000 Speaker 1: I am a Melbourne Stan. I think it is the 196 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:53,120 Speaker 1: best city. I love this social life of Melbourne. But yeah, 197 00:07:53,160 --> 00:07:55,760 Speaker 1: I'm just like really wanting to just like go with 198 00:07:55,840 --> 00:07:58,880 Speaker 1: the flow, open arms, like I'm not planning too far ahead. 199 00:07:58,960 --> 00:08:01,560 Speaker 1: Like I again, like I was on a plane every 200 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:03,840 Speaker 1: couple days for the last six months, and I like, 201 00:08:03,880 --> 00:08:06,200 Speaker 1: I just want to stay in one place, so the 202 00:08:06,240 --> 00:08:08,600 Speaker 1: far furthest I'll go will probably be Gold Coast. Like 203 00:08:08,640 --> 00:08:11,040 Speaker 1: I'm not having an international trip for the rest of 204 00:08:11,080 --> 00:08:14,080 Speaker 1: the year, mark my words. And if you guys see 205 00:08:14,120 --> 00:08:19,440 Speaker 1: me in another country, I will pay for someone's flights 206 00:08:19,480 --> 00:08:20,480 Speaker 1: to come and lock me up. 207 00:08:21,080 --> 00:08:21,760 Speaker 3: Like don't let me. 208 00:08:21,960 --> 00:08:24,440 Speaker 2: I'm bloody holding you to that. Because let's. 209 00:08:26,080 --> 00:08:28,480 Speaker 1: Like Kitch, the other girl who works at the podcast 210 00:08:28,520 --> 00:08:31,040 Speaker 1: on the podcast network. She was like, hey, Sam, just 211 00:08:31,080 --> 00:08:32,760 Speaker 1: like wondering if you have any travel tips, and I 212 00:08:32,800 --> 00:08:35,520 Speaker 1: was like, none is far but never say never. 213 00:08:35,760 --> 00:08:38,400 Speaker 2: The most Sam response, Yeah. 214 00:08:37,840 --> 00:08:39,880 Speaker 1: I'm quite spontaneous when it comes to this stuff, and 215 00:08:39,920 --> 00:08:42,720 Speaker 1: I like that about myself, but it makes it hard 216 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:47,319 Speaker 1: to plan and just be yeah, yeah, I get an itch. 217 00:08:47,880 --> 00:08:48,760 Speaker 3: I just need to leave. 218 00:08:49,080 --> 00:08:52,080 Speaker 2: But I'm really supportive of Sydney for you, like I 219 00:08:52,120 --> 00:08:55,320 Speaker 2: think Sam in Bondi would be dangerous. Really, you'd be 220 00:08:55,360 --> 00:08:59,400 Speaker 2: living Dominicolisa's life. Yeah, I would suit you too well. Yeah, 221 00:08:59,480 --> 00:09:01,720 Speaker 2: I don't think you'd like the coffee. I would say 222 00:09:01,760 --> 00:09:04,000 Speaker 2: the night life isn't that good. But you don't go 223 00:09:04,080 --> 00:09:05,360 Speaker 2: out that much anyway. 224 00:09:05,679 --> 00:09:07,840 Speaker 1: I'm like not a goal or out or like you 225 00:09:07,840 --> 00:09:10,480 Speaker 1: don't see me at like a club, but I love 226 00:09:10,480 --> 00:09:12,480 Speaker 1: a wine or like a wine bar or like a 227 00:09:12,559 --> 00:09:13,520 Speaker 1: late afternoon drinks. 228 00:09:13,559 --> 00:09:15,720 Speaker 3: Like that's my vibe. It's good for that, like Pocket 229 00:09:15,720 --> 00:09:16,400 Speaker 3: bond Ie. 230 00:09:16,679 --> 00:09:19,119 Speaker 2: Okay. I feel like this should be a little storyline 231 00:09:19,120 --> 00:09:22,520 Speaker 2: on the podcast, like little testings of Sydney, see where 232 00:09:22,559 --> 00:09:23,280 Speaker 2: it ends up. 233 00:09:23,559 --> 00:09:26,600 Speaker 1: Like maybe I'm like itching because I'm like I know, 234 00:09:27,080 --> 00:09:30,200 Speaker 1: I like always don't feel like Melbourne's my place, and 235 00:09:30,280 --> 00:09:32,640 Speaker 1: maybe I'm like obviously I tried London and like that's 236 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:34,320 Speaker 1: way too far away, So like maybe I'm like in 237 00:09:34,360 --> 00:09:37,680 Speaker 1: my mind subconsciously being like maybe Sydney, you've had a 238 00:09:37,720 --> 00:09:39,920 Speaker 1: go be closer to home. 239 00:09:40,240 --> 00:09:40,680 Speaker 3: Who knows. 240 00:09:40,720 --> 00:09:42,719 Speaker 2: Then you'll probably go once and I feel like you're 241 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:45,480 Speaker 2: thing last time was the roads and like traveling around, 242 00:09:45,960 --> 00:09:47,920 Speaker 2: you're probably not going to be like you're probably not 243 00:09:47,960 --> 00:09:49,800 Speaker 2: going to like that. Then you're probably gonna come back. 244 00:09:49,840 --> 00:09:50,839 Speaker 2: Hey how about Gold Coast? 245 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:53,480 Speaker 3: No, Gold Coast is definitely not it's way too slow. 246 00:09:53,559 --> 00:09:54,960 Speaker 2: Yeah, I would agree. 247 00:09:55,160 --> 00:09:58,160 Speaker 1: Yeah, but I like I was speaking to Lil, my housemate, 248 00:09:58,679 --> 00:10:01,000 Speaker 1: and we were like, maybe we drive up to Sydney 249 00:10:01,000 --> 00:10:03,720 Speaker 1: for like a week in January, and like I drive 250 00:10:03,760 --> 00:10:05,079 Speaker 1: up so we have my car. 251 00:10:04,960 --> 00:10:07,640 Speaker 3: And everything like that. Yeah, and it's well it's an 252 00:10:07,640 --> 00:10:08,360 Speaker 3: eight hour drive. 253 00:10:08,520 --> 00:10:10,960 Speaker 2: Yeah, and you stay somewhere like Java spe My mom 254 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:13,160 Speaker 2: lives in Cayama. It's a really nice place to stay, 255 00:10:13,400 --> 00:10:15,760 Speaker 2: like find somewhere in the middle on the way. It's 256 00:10:15,800 --> 00:10:19,319 Speaker 2: actually gorgeous, going along oceans the whole time. Yeah, stunning, 257 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:23,280 Speaker 2: And like once you think about it, with the plane, 258 00:10:23,320 --> 00:10:25,280 Speaker 2: you've got to drive to the airport, which is like 259 00:10:25,360 --> 00:10:28,400 Speaker 2: forty two an hour, wait for an hour fly. It's 260 00:10:28,440 --> 00:10:29,080 Speaker 2: actually not that. 261 00:10:29,160 --> 00:10:30,160 Speaker 3: It's a fucking travel day. 262 00:10:30,200 --> 00:10:31,440 Speaker 2: And I will stay on the way back. 263 00:10:31,440 --> 00:10:36,360 Speaker 1: He'll be like a shish, Yeah, a fucking rive who knows, 264 00:10:36,400 --> 00:10:38,040 Speaker 1: stay tuned. But I need to get the k's up 265 00:10:38,040 --> 00:10:39,640 Speaker 1: in my car, so so. 266 00:10:40,120 --> 00:10:42,760 Speaker 2: Well that is one way. That's actually why I did 267 00:10:42,800 --> 00:10:43,400 Speaker 2: it as well. 268 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:45,880 Speaker 3: Yeah, but today we're doing a little Q and a 269 00:10:45,880 --> 00:10:48,600 Speaker 3: little catchup spieling some tea about everything you guys want 270 00:10:48,640 --> 00:10:48,840 Speaker 3: to know. 271 00:10:49,200 --> 00:10:51,560 Speaker 1: I really want to spill some tea, so like, ask 272 00:10:51,640 --> 00:10:53,840 Speaker 1: me some juicy questions, like I don't know, you guys, 273 00:10:53,880 --> 00:10:55,080 Speaker 1: we're raw dogging it as well. 274 00:10:59,720 --> 00:11:02,360 Speaker 2: We we're just talking about this, but I think it'll 275 00:11:02,400 --> 00:11:04,760 Speaker 2: be interesting for you to answer. Now, how long do 276 00:11:04,800 --> 00:11:06,119 Speaker 2: you plan on saying in Australia? 277 00:11:06,200 --> 00:11:08,400 Speaker 3: Now, I don't know. 278 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:11,640 Speaker 1: There's no way that I'm ever doing an Australian winter 279 00:11:12,280 --> 00:11:17,240 Speaker 1: like consistently ever. Yeah, But I think I've had like 280 00:11:17,280 --> 00:11:21,000 Speaker 1: a big realization that like I keep on running away 281 00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:24,240 Speaker 1: from problems and I don't allow myself to be in 282 00:11:24,360 --> 00:11:27,320 Speaker 1: one place at a time to like feel content, to 283 00:11:27,320 --> 00:11:30,480 Speaker 1: feel composed, to feel like not anxious. And I'm like, 284 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,360 Speaker 1: you know me, I'm like quite a highly strong person. 285 00:11:33,800 --> 00:11:36,440 Speaker 1: I think it's because I over I jam packed myself 286 00:11:36,440 --> 00:11:38,240 Speaker 1: and then I will like run away for like two 287 00:11:38,320 --> 00:11:41,720 Speaker 1: weeks like on a plane and then go everywhere else. 288 00:11:41,760 --> 00:11:43,520 Speaker 1: That it's like I don't really have time to like 289 00:11:43,600 --> 00:11:47,320 Speaker 1: settle in. Yeah, and I have yeah, And I've never 290 00:11:47,360 --> 00:11:49,240 Speaker 1: felt settled for a really long time. 291 00:11:49,800 --> 00:11:51,880 Speaker 3: So I definitely think for like the rest of the year. 292 00:11:52,040 --> 00:11:52,959 Speaker 3: I definitely will be. 293 00:11:52,920 --> 00:11:55,640 Speaker 1: In Australia, but then again, like I really love the 294 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:58,240 Speaker 1: routine of like going to America in April and then 295 00:11:58,280 --> 00:11:59,440 Speaker 1: maybe like a euro thing. 296 00:11:59,720 --> 00:12:00,000 Speaker 2: I think. 297 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:02,160 Speaker 1: I think I'll do the same thing that I did 298 00:12:02,200 --> 00:12:05,040 Speaker 1: with London, but I won't go for as long. Yeah, 299 00:12:05,080 --> 00:12:06,560 Speaker 1: so I think that that will be my next thing. 300 00:12:06,600 --> 00:12:09,000 Speaker 1: I definitely am going to my America next year, but 301 00:12:09,120 --> 00:12:10,360 Speaker 1: that will be like my next picture. 302 00:12:10,559 --> 00:12:13,200 Speaker 2: I think, would that be like holiday Vibe or I. 303 00:12:13,120 --> 00:12:15,000 Speaker 3: Want to go to Coachella. I'm manifesting Coachella. 304 00:12:15,120 --> 00:12:15,880 Speaker 2: I actually really want to. 305 00:12:15,840 --> 00:12:18,319 Speaker 3: Go with Yeah JB Sabrina Carpet Are kidding? 306 00:12:18,320 --> 00:12:22,120 Speaker 2: Mean it's on my birthday too? So gagged at that. 307 00:12:22,440 --> 00:12:24,000 Speaker 2: Did you miss your life back home? 308 00:12:24,840 --> 00:12:28,800 Speaker 1: I think I missed the convenience of my life back 309 00:12:28,840 --> 00:12:31,360 Speaker 1: home and the routine of my life, like being able 310 00:12:31,400 --> 00:12:33,040 Speaker 1: to get in my car, go to the gym, come 311 00:12:33,040 --> 00:12:35,400 Speaker 1: into the studio, and like being face to face with 312 00:12:35,400 --> 00:12:36,520 Speaker 1: people that I really knew. 313 00:12:37,160 --> 00:12:41,520 Speaker 3: But I don't think I liked how I felt. 314 00:12:42,320 --> 00:12:47,440 Speaker 1: I don't think I missed that because it wasn't I 315 00:12:47,559 --> 00:12:51,280 Speaker 1: wasn't very happy at the start of the year, and 316 00:12:51,320 --> 00:12:53,920 Speaker 1: I think so much has changed with friendships and it's 317 00:12:53,960 --> 00:12:56,160 Speaker 1: a very normal thing to happen with friendships in your 318 00:12:56,160 --> 00:12:56,960 Speaker 1: early twenties. 319 00:12:57,559 --> 00:13:00,760 Speaker 3: And just hearing what people say about me in Melbourne. 320 00:13:01,160 --> 00:13:03,680 Speaker 1: It was nice not ever hearing about that, and I 321 00:13:03,720 --> 00:13:09,320 Speaker 1: think people sometimes forget that, like I'm a person like 322 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:13,200 Speaker 1: I Again, I think I think quite extreme about this, obviously, 323 00:13:13,200 --> 00:13:15,880 Speaker 1: because like you think about yourself a lot more than like. 324 00:13:15,840 --> 00:13:17,560 Speaker 3: What actually people think about me. 325 00:13:18,000 --> 00:13:20,560 Speaker 1: But I think I found it really hard, and I 326 00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:22,720 Speaker 1: do find it really hard that Pete get people think that. 327 00:13:23,080 --> 00:13:25,160 Speaker 1: I sometimes think people think that I'm a bit of 328 00:13:25,160 --> 00:13:28,760 Speaker 1: an Ai Sims character and like talking about my life 329 00:13:28,840 --> 00:13:31,080 Speaker 1: like I don't exist, but there is a person behind 330 00:13:31,080 --> 00:13:33,959 Speaker 1: the screen, and I think people know that I'm now 331 00:13:34,040 --> 00:13:36,760 Speaker 1: vulnerable online, so then people continue to speak about it. 332 00:13:37,080 --> 00:13:39,560 Speaker 1: And it was really nice being away and not hearing it. 333 00:13:40,160 --> 00:13:42,240 Speaker 1: But like I've been back for like ten days and 334 00:13:42,800 --> 00:13:45,160 Speaker 1: I still I am already hearing about it again and 335 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:48,200 Speaker 1: people have opinions and everything like that, and it's hard 336 00:13:48,200 --> 00:13:51,760 Speaker 1: to then like separate yourself because you are so much 337 00:13:51,760 --> 00:13:53,520 Speaker 1: more a part of it when you're in Melbourne. 338 00:13:53,880 --> 00:13:55,680 Speaker 3: So that's something I'm really struggling with. 339 00:13:56,280 --> 00:13:58,920 Speaker 2: But this wasn't exactly a question. I mean it kind 340 00:13:58,920 --> 00:14:01,920 Speaker 2: of goes off what you're saying obviously, just like going 341 00:14:01,920 --> 00:14:05,200 Speaker 2: to London and coming back wasn't going to fix that 342 00:14:05,280 --> 00:14:07,920 Speaker 2: and how you felt about it. What has changed in 343 00:14:08,280 --> 00:14:10,199 Speaker 2: that it helps you cope better? 344 00:14:10,559 --> 00:14:13,480 Speaker 1: I think my perspective on it that like, I don't 345 00:14:13,559 --> 00:14:16,559 Speaker 1: voluntarily have to surround myself and put myself into situations 346 00:14:16,559 --> 00:14:18,360 Speaker 1: that I know are not going to make me feel good. 347 00:14:18,679 --> 00:14:22,120 Speaker 1: And I sometimes used to go to events or like 348 00:14:22,200 --> 00:14:25,160 Speaker 1: social settings because I was more nervous of if I 349 00:14:25,200 --> 00:14:27,440 Speaker 1: didn't go, what other people would say about me online, 350 00:14:27,440 --> 00:14:29,640 Speaker 1: if I wasn't posted up with this person, or I 351 00:14:29,680 --> 00:14:32,160 Speaker 1: wasn't at this person's birthday and stuff like that that 352 00:14:32,400 --> 00:14:34,880 Speaker 1: I would then sometimes go because I didn't like the 353 00:14:34,960 --> 00:14:37,560 Speaker 1: rumors about what it could say online, or like I 354 00:14:37,560 --> 00:14:42,280 Speaker 1: think people really read into things, especially with like influencers 355 00:14:42,280 --> 00:14:45,200 Speaker 1: online and friendships with influencers online, that it's like, oh, well, 356 00:14:45,200 --> 00:14:47,560 Speaker 1: she wasn't there, they must not be friends, or she 357 00:14:47,640 --> 00:14:49,560 Speaker 1: must have done something wrong because this person and this 358 00:14:49,600 --> 00:14:52,280 Speaker 1: person were together, and it's like, no, I actually was invited. 359 00:14:52,320 --> 00:14:54,040 Speaker 1: I just didn't want to go, yeah, and stuff like that, 360 00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:55,960 Speaker 1: And they used to force myself to go because I 361 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:56,680 Speaker 1: didn't want. 362 00:14:56,560 --> 00:14:58,760 Speaker 3: To start stuff online. 363 00:14:58,800 --> 00:15:01,360 Speaker 1: But now I'm like, I'm very good at I think 364 00:15:01,360 --> 00:15:03,360 Speaker 1: I've learned to be like do you want to go 365 00:15:03,680 --> 00:15:06,080 Speaker 1: or do you think you should be going? And deciphering 366 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:09,320 Speaker 1: between those things has been really helpful because it's like, 367 00:15:09,360 --> 00:15:11,400 Speaker 1: don't put yourself into situations and are not going to 368 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:15,280 Speaker 1: make you feel good. And I now thinking I'm good 369 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:18,200 Speaker 1: at reading and understanding of like maybe what's good for 370 00:15:18,240 --> 00:15:20,080 Speaker 1: me and what's bad for me. 371 00:15:20,080 --> 00:15:22,240 Speaker 2: Mentally, I reckon you would have learned that by not 372 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:25,080 Speaker 2: being in it, like being away from it and being like, hey, 373 00:15:25,160 --> 00:15:28,040 Speaker 2: everything actually is okay. But also in your defense, I 374 00:15:28,080 --> 00:15:30,000 Speaker 2: feel like there were things that you did go to 375 00:15:30,080 --> 00:15:32,920 Speaker 2: and people, so like she wasn't there. Yeah, it's like. 376 00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:35,680 Speaker 1: Action you really can't And I think like learning that 377 00:15:35,720 --> 00:15:39,800 Speaker 1: you just cannot control people and people's actions and everything 378 00:15:39,840 --> 00:15:41,800 Speaker 1: like that. So it's like I think I'm just happy 379 00:15:41,840 --> 00:15:45,640 Speaker 1: doing me, and like if doing me is gonna read 380 00:15:45,720 --> 00:15:48,560 Speaker 1: things online and people are gonna make rumors, and it's like, 381 00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:52,880 Speaker 1: so be it. But I think I'm very Also I've 382 00:15:52,960 --> 00:15:55,560 Speaker 1: learned a lot to like detach myself from my phone 383 00:15:56,040 --> 00:15:57,960 Speaker 1: and I don't really spend a lot of time on 384 00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:01,400 Speaker 1: my phone, and I just like I'm happy in my 385 00:16:01,480 --> 00:16:03,600 Speaker 1: own bubble and I really want to keep that up. 386 00:16:03,920 --> 00:16:05,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, well this is a nice question to go off. 387 00:16:06,120 --> 00:16:07,880 Speaker 2: What is making you happy at the moment. 388 00:16:08,680 --> 00:16:14,600 Speaker 3: I think my friends like my true friends, and I 389 00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:16,400 Speaker 3: don't know. I think, like, Okay, this is gonna sound 390 00:16:16,480 --> 00:16:19,479 Speaker 3: really deep. I'm really not happy with the person I am. 391 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:23,640 Speaker 1: And I think me being in London really because you 392 00:16:23,680 --> 00:16:27,160 Speaker 1: do spend a lot more time alone, really realize that 393 00:16:27,200 --> 00:16:29,680 Speaker 1: I'm not happy with the person I am and the 394 00:16:29,680 --> 00:16:32,960 Speaker 1: person I want to be. I'm not really representing right now. 395 00:16:33,520 --> 00:16:36,960 Speaker 1: So I'm trying to find happiness in myself again. Like 396 00:16:37,400 --> 00:16:39,240 Speaker 1: at the moment, I can't like look at my this 397 00:16:39,280 --> 00:16:40,880 Speaker 1: is so sad, and like, don't feel bad for me. 398 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:42,640 Speaker 3: I'm just like being honest. I can't even look at 399 00:16:42,640 --> 00:16:43,480 Speaker 3: myself in the mirror. 400 00:16:43,720 --> 00:16:45,640 Speaker 1: I can't even like I don't really like fashion at 401 00:16:45,640 --> 00:16:47,960 Speaker 1: the moment because I hate my body, and like I'm 402 00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:51,280 Speaker 1: like I need to get on top of that to 403 00:16:51,480 --> 00:16:54,120 Speaker 1: like love myself and love what I find what I 404 00:16:54,240 --> 00:16:57,440 Speaker 1: love again and like set myself in the path. I 405 00:16:57,440 --> 00:16:59,800 Speaker 1: think London like step took me back and removed me 406 00:16:59,840 --> 00:17:02,080 Speaker 1: from all of those things. And stripped all of that way. 407 00:17:02,320 --> 00:17:04,600 Speaker 1: So now I like in my mind and know when 408 00:17:04,640 --> 00:17:06,679 Speaker 1: I need to start again, and I've got like a 409 00:17:06,720 --> 00:17:08,480 Speaker 1: clean slate and I need to figure out like who 410 00:17:08,560 --> 00:17:13,720 Speaker 1: Sam is in Melbourne and like find my path again. 411 00:17:13,960 --> 00:17:16,080 Speaker 1: But I would say, like my work at the moment 412 00:17:16,240 --> 00:17:19,239 Speaker 1: is making me really happy. Like I'm loving doing all 413 00:17:19,240 --> 00:17:22,720 Speaker 1: the stuff. But yeah, as who I am as a 414 00:17:22,800 --> 00:17:27,280 Speaker 1: human being, I don't I'm not happy with That's so depressing. 415 00:17:27,400 --> 00:17:30,200 Speaker 2: But no, it's good to like talk it out loud, 416 00:17:30,320 --> 00:17:34,240 Speaker 2: and like I've been in that mind space plenty of times, 417 00:17:34,359 --> 00:17:35,840 Speaker 2: and you can just think of it as like I'm 418 00:17:35,880 --> 00:17:37,840 Speaker 2: not happy with who I am and of it, but 419 00:17:37,840 --> 00:17:40,400 Speaker 2: I almost feel like it's motivating you at the moment. Yeah, 420 00:17:40,400 --> 00:17:42,480 Speaker 2: and you're home with like a blank canvas, so yeah, 421 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:43,440 Speaker 2: really starting again. 422 00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:44,000 Speaker 3: Yeah. 423 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:45,720 Speaker 1: And I went to the farm with my friends on 424 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:48,040 Speaker 1: the weekend and like removed myself from the city and 425 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:50,479 Speaker 1: I was like, I was so happy there because I 426 00:17:50,520 --> 00:17:54,359 Speaker 1: was like nothing matters, Like you're on a farm with 427 00:17:54,520 --> 00:17:57,520 Speaker 1: cows on motorbikes and stuff like that, and I'm like, 428 00:17:57,840 --> 00:18:01,720 Speaker 1: this shit makes me happy. I think sometimes it's easy 429 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:03,680 Speaker 1: to get caught up in what everybody else is doing 430 00:18:04,040 --> 00:18:05,800 Speaker 1: and like what you should be doing, and I'm like 431 00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:08,359 Speaker 1: that stuff doesn't actually make me happy. So I just 432 00:18:08,400 --> 00:18:11,439 Speaker 1: like need to like get in tune with myself, I 433 00:18:11,440 --> 00:18:13,920 Speaker 1: think a little bit more and figure out like who 434 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:16,040 Speaker 1: I am and what makes me happy, because I think 435 00:18:16,080 --> 00:18:18,760 Speaker 1: I've lost that for a while, because you do get 436 00:18:18,760 --> 00:18:20,760 Speaker 1: caught up in so much shit and there is so 437 00:18:20,880 --> 00:18:23,359 Speaker 1: much to do all the time that it's like I 438 00:18:23,440 --> 00:18:26,360 Speaker 1: always think I struggle with like what does Sam want 439 00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:28,840 Speaker 1: to do compared to what people want Sam to do? 440 00:18:29,400 --> 00:18:31,199 Speaker 1: And I'm like trying to figure that out. And I 441 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:33,000 Speaker 1: definitely need to go to therapy and get on top 442 00:18:33,040 --> 00:18:36,040 Speaker 1: of some of my shit, being honest. 443 00:18:36,040 --> 00:18:39,359 Speaker 3: There the list, Yeah, add that to the fucking list. 444 00:18:39,400 --> 00:18:39,920 Speaker 3: Oh my god. 445 00:18:44,760 --> 00:18:47,399 Speaker 2: Three tips you wish you knew before traveling that you 446 00:18:47,440 --> 00:18:48,800 Speaker 2: wouldn't even think of. 447 00:18:50,359 --> 00:18:55,119 Speaker 1: I think, and this could be a really really dumb tip, 448 00:18:56,200 --> 00:19:00,920 Speaker 1: but I think sometimes not having everything booked when you 449 00:19:01,119 --> 00:19:01,760 Speaker 1: start your. 450 00:19:02,160 --> 00:19:03,480 Speaker 2: Trip that's a good point. 451 00:19:03,640 --> 00:19:06,119 Speaker 1: So say, if you're going for like five weeks, I 452 00:19:06,119 --> 00:19:09,880 Speaker 1: would plan maybe the first two to three and then 453 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:11,720 Speaker 1: kind of see where you want to go, because I 454 00:19:11,760 --> 00:19:15,320 Speaker 1: think sometimes you might get overtired, you might get really overwhelmed. 455 00:19:15,359 --> 00:19:17,920 Speaker 1: And you want to divert your trip or something like that, 456 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:21,040 Speaker 1: like maybe having a rough plan but not everything being 457 00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:24,920 Speaker 1: locked in booked to the t to the hour, because 458 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:28,840 Speaker 1: I think sometimes the intentions of your trip might want to. 459 00:19:28,880 --> 00:19:31,119 Speaker 2: Change, and you also don't know how you're going to 460 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:32,800 Speaker 2: feel exactly. 461 00:19:32,880 --> 00:19:35,680 Speaker 1: So I think sometimes doing a little things a little 462 00:19:35,680 --> 00:19:38,520 Speaker 1: bit differently. But then on the contrary to that, if 463 00:19:38,560 --> 00:19:42,199 Speaker 1: you are going to big cities, book places like for 464 00:19:42,280 --> 00:19:45,280 Speaker 1: dinners and stuff like that, because especially if you're going 465 00:19:45,320 --> 00:19:48,320 Speaker 1: over to Europe for example, for the really busy times 466 00:19:48,600 --> 00:19:50,480 Speaker 1: and you want to go to the TikTok places that 467 00:19:50,520 --> 00:19:52,919 Speaker 1: you see in the restaurants, everybody else is booking them 468 00:19:52,920 --> 00:19:54,760 Speaker 1: as well. So like book in advance if you want, 469 00:19:54,800 --> 00:19:56,080 Speaker 1: if you know you really want to go to a 470 00:19:56,080 --> 00:19:58,639 Speaker 1: certain restaurant that's like really well known, book don't just 471 00:19:58,720 --> 00:20:00,680 Speaker 1: rock up and think that you're going to get because 472 00:20:00,680 --> 00:20:03,600 Speaker 1: then you end up wandering the streets in Greece like 473 00:20:03,680 --> 00:20:04,680 Speaker 1: what the fuck am I doing? 474 00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:06,040 Speaker 3: Where am I gonna eat? And then you have a 475 00:20:06,040 --> 00:20:06,920 Speaker 3: shit dinner yea. 476 00:20:07,040 --> 00:20:09,879 Speaker 1: So like have certain places and places that you definitely 477 00:20:09,920 --> 00:20:11,320 Speaker 1: know you want to visit booked in. 478 00:20:11,880 --> 00:20:14,280 Speaker 3: But then also when it comes to like places. 479 00:20:14,760 --> 00:20:16,639 Speaker 1: I think having a little bit of spontaneity if you 480 00:20:16,680 --> 00:20:20,520 Speaker 1: want to extend your trip, like booking flexible dates two 481 00:20:20,560 --> 00:20:23,600 Speaker 1: things like maybe you have rough plans booked or like 482 00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:26,760 Speaker 1: your flights booked or something like that, but flexible. 483 00:20:26,280 --> 00:20:27,760 Speaker 3: Things of if you want to change it. 484 00:20:27,840 --> 00:20:29,800 Speaker 1: I think investing in that and spending a little bit 485 00:20:29,880 --> 00:20:35,119 Speaker 1: more more money for flexible flights is probably something that 486 00:20:35,160 --> 00:20:35,680 Speaker 1: I would do. 487 00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:38,520 Speaker 2: Yeah, how about something like safety, because I remember you 488 00:20:38,560 --> 00:20:41,280 Speaker 2: first posted and you'd put your phone on like windows 489 00:20:41,320 --> 00:20:43,800 Speaker 2: and film videos and everyone was like, do not do that. 490 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:46,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, so London stuff is really really unsafe with like 491 00:20:46,800 --> 00:20:47,760 Speaker 1: phone snatching and. 492 00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:48,320 Speaker 3: Stuff like that. 493 00:20:48,359 --> 00:20:49,680 Speaker 2: Oh I didn't know this random line. 494 00:20:49,840 --> 00:20:51,680 Speaker 1: Yeah, so like people will literally just like ride on 495 00:20:51,760 --> 00:20:54,399 Speaker 1: nine bikes and take your stuff. Oh my god, don't 496 00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:56,960 Speaker 1: And then I think that will be like safety, don't 497 00:20:57,119 --> 00:21:01,080 Speaker 1: bring your nice bags, your nice jewelry, your bougie shit, 498 00:21:01,320 --> 00:21:04,159 Speaker 1: because you never know if your lucky's just gonna get 499 00:21:04,200 --> 00:21:07,520 Speaker 1: stolen those things and valuables are really really nice, Like 500 00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:10,680 Speaker 1: don't bring like your fucking nice watch or your nice 501 00:21:10,760 --> 00:21:13,520 Speaker 1: rings and stuff like that, like get fakes off team 502 00:21:13,560 --> 00:21:15,840 Speaker 1: or if you need or something like that, like having 503 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:16,960 Speaker 1: a nice bags and everything. 504 00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:19,440 Speaker 3: I think just causes an unnecessary amount of stress. 505 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:22,920 Speaker 1: I think, get two little handbags that you don't really 506 00:21:22,960 --> 00:21:26,320 Speaker 1: mind if they get damaged, ruined or lost, because I 507 00:21:26,320 --> 00:21:28,480 Speaker 1: think then they can put a massive damprinter on your trip. 508 00:21:28,520 --> 00:21:31,159 Speaker 1: If you do lose your nice bags or your nice valuables, 509 00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:32,320 Speaker 1: it's just not worth it. 510 00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:35,439 Speaker 2: No, and you don't enjoy yourself being out like no 511 00:21:35,720 --> 00:21:38,920 Speaker 2: linging onto earth. Yeah no, someone did ask, and we 512 00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:40,920 Speaker 2: will get into like other questions. But I think, while 513 00:21:40,920 --> 00:21:44,600 Speaker 2: we're talking about overseas from now as well, do you 514 00:21:44,640 --> 00:21:47,240 Speaker 2: prefer London or Melbourne? Or is it like too early 515 00:21:47,440 --> 00:21:48,040 Speaker 2: to say that. 516 00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,720 Speaker 3: I think if I I this is like a joint. 517 00:21:51,800 --> 00:21:56,359 Speaker 1: I think if I had my direct network in London 518 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,359 Speaker 1: and if I built that up, I would love London. Yeah, 519 00:21:59,520 --> 00:22:01,840 Speaker 1: but I don't think I gave it enough time. And 520 00:22:01,960 --> 00:22:04,399 Speaker 1: I think because I didn't pack up all my shit. 521 00:22:04,960 --> 00:22:07,479 Speaker 1: I think if I completely and utterly gave up everything 522 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:09,760 Speaker 1: and moved over to London, I would love it way more. 523 00:22:09,880 --> 00:22:12,040 Speaker 1: But because I knew I was always coming back for summer, 524 00:22:12,359 --> 00:22:14,920 Speaker 1: I didn't fully immerse myself into it. 525 00:22:16,040 --> 00:22:18,720 Speaker 3: But I think Melbourne will always feel like home. 526 00:22:18,880 --> 00:22:20,959 Speaker 2: Yeah. I think it was a thing as well, Like 527 00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:24,960 Speaker 2: before you left, it was very much three months to us, 528 00:22:25,760 --> 00:22:28,119 Speaker 2: and it did extend as well, and I feel like 529 00:22:28,160 --> 00:22:30,320 Speaker 2: that was later on. So it's almost like I feel 530 00:22:30,359 --> 00:22:32,879 Speaker 2: like you lived the first three months and then realize, 531 00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:35,040 Speaker 2: oh no, I maybe want to stay longer. So it's 532 00:22:35,040 --> 00:22:37,679 Speaker 2: almost like you did two three month flocks, if you 533 00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:38,000 Speaker 2: get me. 534 00:22:38,280 --> 00:22:39,560 Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't really know. 535 00:22:39,640 --> 00:22:42,480 Speaker 1: I think it's like so different, but there is something 536 00:22:42,560 --> 00:22:45,359 Speaker 1: in I think Australia will always be home for me, 537 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,840 Speaker 1: but I don't know. I have this weird intuition that 538 00:22:49,359 --> 00:22:51,560 Speaker 1: I won't live in Australia for the rest of my life, 539 00:22:52,119 --> 00:22:54,080 Speaker 1: and I thought London could be that for me, but 540 00:22:54,160 --> 00:22:56,520 Speaker 1: I don't think it is. I love it and I 541 00:22:56,560 --> 00:22:59,600 Speaker 1: appreciate it, but I think I need somewhere where I 542 00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:01,720 Speaker 1: can drive out of the city and I'm at the beach, 543 00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:04,560 Speaker 1: and I think I really realized that, like I'm a 544 00:23:04,600 --> 00:23:06,320 Speaker 1: true Aussie when it comes to like I need the 545 00:23:06,320 --> 00:23:06,879 Speaker 1: beach near me. 546 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:08,520 Speaker 2: I know, I was feeling bad for you and you're 547 00:23:08,600 --> 00:23:13,720 Speaker 2: like forty degree days. Yeah, no, Erica diabolical. Do you 548 00:23:13,920 --> 00:23:17,680 Speaker 2: think the pressure of having to post on socials impact 549 00:23:17,720 --> 00:23:18,520 Speaker 2: your mental health? 550 00:23:18,760 --> 00:23:19,040 Speaker 3: Yes? 551 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,520 Speaker 2: Are you kidding me, unpacked. 552 00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:27,520 Speaker 3: I say this all the time, and like I this 553 00:23:27,560 --> 00:23:28,480 Speaker 3: is going to sound. 554 00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:31,320 Speaker 1: Like so sad and depressing, but like, I obviously just 555 00:23:31,359 --> 00:23:33,959 Speaker 1: went to Paris Fashion Week and you see all that 556 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:37,000 Speaker 1: stuff online and like I did, I had an amazing time. 557 00:23:37,040 --> 00:23:40,560 Speaker 1: But I've also like you're surrounded by beautiful people, Like 558 00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:41,480 Speaker 1: I've never felt. 559 00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:43,600 Speaker 3: Uglier in my life, do you know what I mean? 560 00:23:43,680 --> 00:23:47,040 Speaker 1: Like I've never I can't remember one time I went 561 00:23:47,040 --> 00:23:49,520 Speaker 1: to a fashion week, even in Sydney, and you like 562 00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:52,240 Speaker 1: the way you look, and then you have to show 563 00:23:52,320 --> 00:23:54,520 Speaker 1: up on social media and you're posting about it. But like, 564 00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:58,200 Speaker 1: the internal monologue that I suffer when I'm at those 565 00:23:58,240 --> 00:24:01,639 Speaker 1: things is diabolical, and I think that that is a 566 00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:06,240 Speaker 1: result of being online and seeing and humans weren't designed 567 00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:08,600 Speaker 1: to look at themselves in the mirror. Like humans, we 568 00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:11,520 Speaker 1: weren't designed to see what we look like. But in 569 00:24:11,640 --> 00:24:14,520 Speaker 1: days that like and again I'm prefacing that my job 570 00:24:14,600 --> 00:24:16,200 Speaker 1: is not hard, but in days where you don't like 571 00:24:16,240 --> 00:24:18,119 Speaker 1: the way you look, you do need to show up online. 572 00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:21,040 Speaker 1: You do have deadlines, you do have content to approve of. Yes, 573 00:24:21,080 --> 00:24:24,080 Speaker 1: it's not hard content, but mentally it can be really hard. 574 00:24:24,119 --> 00:24:26,280 Speaker 1: I don't want to put a tight corset on, but 575 00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:27,879 Speaker 1: I need to get it for a brand deal. Like 576 00:24:28,119 --> 00:24:29,960 Speaker 1: I don't want to take photos of myself. I don't 577 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:32,320 Speaker 1: like the way I look that day, but showing up 578 00:24:32,320 --> 00:24:36,000 Speaker 1: and then you have to inspect yourself and look at 579 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:39,800 Speaker 1: yourself so much. It's not healthy for you. There's no 580 00:24:39,880 --> 00:24:42,040 Speaker 1: way that someone can argue that it is good for you. 581 00:24:42,520 --> 00:24:46,240 Speaker 1: And posting photos that you don't necessarily like of yourself 582 00:24:46,359 --> 00:24:49,560 Speaker 1: or doing things because you don't you. 583 00:24:49,560 --> 00:24:53,760 Speaker 3: Need to show it online is weird. It's not normal. 584 00:24:54,160 --> 00:24:58,600 Speaker 1: I'd love it, but in days that you're not mentally strong, 585 00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:03,440 Speaker 1: it can be super hard mentally, Like I'm not saying 586 00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:06,800 Speaker 1: my job is harder than a doctor, but yeah, there's 587 00:25:06,840 --> 00:25:11,080 Speaker 1: no off time. There's nothing you can switch off by, 588 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:14,240 Speaker 1: like my if I want to see on my couch 589 00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:16,639 Speaker 1: and I need to look at something, it's right there, 590 00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:20,080 Speaker 1: and like learning boundaries and learning when to switch off, 591 00:25:20,119 --> 00:25:23,320 Speaker 1: like it's not healthy for you, and I don't know 592 00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:24,760 Speaker 1: when to stop. 593 00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:26,600 Speaker 3: And I think that is. 594 00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:29,720 Speaker 1: Really affecting my Like it does really affect my mental health. 595 00:25:29,720 --> 00:25:32,480 Speaker 1: If I having a bad body image day, I then 596 00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:34,280 Speaker 1: have to take photos and then I look at that 597 00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:38,960 Speaker 1: like it will ruin my mood, it will ruin everything 598 00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:43,040 Speaker 1: about me, and a surface level as it is, there 599 00:25:43,160 --> 00:25:46,040 Speaker 1: is a certain value of putting monetary value into how 600 00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:48,880 Speaker 1: you look in social media, and of course. 601 00:25:48,640 --> 00:25:50,240 Speaker 3: That's going to affect your mental health. 602 00:25:50,240 --> 00:25:54,880 Speaker 1: I have raging body dysmorphia, I have an eating disorder, 603 00:25:54,920 --> 00:25:57,359 Speaker 1: I have anxiety, like all of that stuff is. 604 00:25:57,680 --> 00:26:00,359 Speaker 3: And then you're in a job that's definitely not help it. 605 00:26:00,760 --> 00:26:03,680 Speaker 2: Yeah, And it's a trend based job almost and it's 606 00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,960 Speaker 2: a small scene in Australia, so if one person's getting something, 607 00:26:07,600 --> 00:26:10,280 Speaker 2: it becomes a trend in the others and it becomes 608 00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:12,119 Speaker 2: a normalizing or should I be getting that? 609 00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:13,040 Speaker 3: Yeah? 610 00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:15,480 Speaker 1: And like there's that side of it. But then there's 611 00:26:15,520 --> 00:26:18,240 Speaker 1: also like being vulnerable online for people to pick you 612 00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:22,800 Speaker 1: apart and hit you, and spots that are really sensitive. 613 00:26:22,440 --> 00:26:24,680 Speaker 2: Like yeah, ah, they will go for the worst. 614 00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:27,040 Speaker 3: Yeah, So then that that's obviously going to be hard 615 00:26:27,040 --> 00:26:27,440 Speaker 3: as well. 616 00:26:27,680 --> 00:26:29,400 Speaker 2: Yeah, and hearing it several. 617 00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:32,080 Speaker 1: Times, Yeah, hearing stuff people make videos about you, say 618 00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:34,520 Speaker 1: videos about you, positive or negative. 619 00:26:34,560 --> 00:26:37,200 Speaker 3: It's going to make you anxious, you know what I mean? 620 00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:39,919 Speaker 1: Totally, Like your life is a form of entertainment for 621 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:43,600 Speaker 1: other people. But there's no separation from that because like 622 00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:46,760 Speaker 1: Sam online, who is who Sam is in real life, 623 00:26:47,240 --> 00:26:48,359 Speaker 1: So it's like hard. 624 00:26:52,560 --> 00:26:56,560 Speaker 2: As an avoidant. How do you manage friendships and navigating 625 00:26:56,600 --> 00:26:57,480 Speaker 2: being vulnerable? 626 00:26:58,680 --> 00:26:59,920 Speaker 3: Really good question there. 627 00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:02,879 Speaker 1: I have a really bad problem of making jokes about 628 00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:06,400 Speaker 1: my life, and I think that's like my way of coping. 629 00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:12,840 Speaker 1: But I think the people who want to be in 630 00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,439 Speaker 1: your life will stick around for it, and like the 631 00:27:15,440 --> 00:27:19,560 Speaker 1: people who know you will know when you need help. 632 00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:23,040 Speaker 1: And it's taken me a while, but you're not going 633 00:27:23,119 --> 00:27:26,000 Speaker 1: to build meaningful relationships if you don't do that. So 634 00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:30,119 Speaker 1: starting small and opening up, or just tell people that 635 00:27:30,160 --> 00:27:31,960 Speaker 1: you don't feel well that day or you're having a 636 00:27:32,000 --> 00:27:35,800 Speaker 1: really tough day, just like letting them know, or even 637 00:27:35,840 --> 00:27:38,040 Speaker 1: saying like I don't want you to do anything about it, 638 00:27:38,080 --> 00:27:40,560 Speaker 1: but I'm really struggling with this, so just so people know, 639 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:43,520 Speaker 1: and then over time it might come a little easier. 640 00:27:43,600 --> 00:27:46,159 Speaker 1: But I tend to say that I'm kind of the 641 00:27:46,160 --> 00:27:48,399 Speaker 1: friend that people tell things too when I don't really 642 00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:51,840 Speaker 1: say how I feel, if that makes sense. So I 643 00:27:51,840 --> 00:27:55,439 Speaker 1: don't really know, but there are You don't need to 644 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:56,680 Speaker 1: have a lot of friends, You just need to have 645 00:27:56,760 --> 00:27:59,199 Speaker 1: a quality of friends and those people should make you 646 00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:01,200 Speaker 1: feel safe to open up. 647 00:28:01,440 --> 00:28:05,280 Speaker 2: As an overthinker. God, everyone knows you well today. How 648 00:28:05,520 --> 00:28:07,800 Speaker 2: do you get over the anxiety of caring about what 649 00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:08,480 Speaker 2: people think? 650 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:11,720 Speaker 1: I always just go down to the think of Kylie Jenner, 651 00:28:12,680 --> 00:28:15,040 Speaker 1: like she's obviously got to know so many people have 652 00:28:15,080 --> 00:28:20,359 Speaker 1: opinions on her. But the more you I care about 653 00:28:20,359 --> 00:28:22,119 Speaker 1: what people think, but I don't let it rule my 654 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:26,240 Speaker 1: everyday life obviously, Like I think I care about people's 655 00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:31,920 Speaker 1: acceptance of me, but I don't necessarily care when people 656 00:28:31,920 --> 00:28:34,280 Speaker 1: have an opinion on what I'm doing because I'm like, 657 00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:38,120 Speaker 1: you shouldn't care, Like it's not impacting your life, So 658 00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:41,280 Speaker 1: like what do you and I I'm chasing after my dreams, 659 00:28:41,360 --> 00:28:43,600 Speaker 1: not chasing after yours. And if you're spending so much 660 00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:45,840 Speaker 1: time thinking about what I'm doing, then. 661 00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:46,880 Speaker 2: Let's scroll on. 662 00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:50,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, And like I'm so happy and I love to 663 00:28:50,760 --> 00:28:53,600 Speaker 1: see people like succeed even if it's not something that 664 00:28:53,680 --> 00:28:55,560 Speaker 1: I necessarily would want to do myself. 665 00:28:55,640 --> 00:28:56,760 Speaker 3: I don't really care. 666 00:28:56,880 --> 00:28:58,600 Speaker 1: So I know it comes from a place of like, 667 00:28:58,880 --> 00:29:01,520 Speaker 1: maybe you're not happy with your own life. Like I 668 00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:04,760 Speaker 1: love everything that I do. I love my job, even 669 00:29:04,760 --> 00:29:06,920 Speaker 1: though it kind of just I feels like I've complained 670 00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:08,959 Speaker 1: about my job. I'm not complaining about my job. I 671 00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:12,240 Speaker 1: love my job. I just answering some of the hard 672 00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:14,880 Speaker 1: parts about it. But like I love my job, I'd 673 00:29:14,880 --> 00:29:16,360 Speaker 1: love that I get to wake up and do this 674 00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,760 Speaker 1: every day. I'm motivated to keep on doing it every 675 00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:21,480 Speaker 1: day that I don't really care about what other people 676 00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:24,240 Speaker 1: are doing in their own lives because my job makes 677 00:29:24,280 --> 00:29:26,760 Speaker 1: me happy and what I'm doing in my everyday life 678 00:29:26,960 --> 00:29:31,320 Speaker 1: makes me happy. So if you people focused on their 679 00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:35,160 Speaker 1: own lives enough, you probably shouldn't care and you shouldn't 680 00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:37,040 Speaker 1: have an opinion. Like if someone told me, you told 681 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:38,440 Speaker 1: me that they wanted to be an astronaut and go 682 00:29:38,480 --> 00:29:40,720 Speaker 1: to Mars, I'd be like, fuck, yeah, good on you, 683 00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:42,040 Speaker 1: because I'm like, I. 684 00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:44,080 Speaker 3: Don't want to do that. So it comes from a 685 00:29:44,080 --> 00:29:45,360 Speaker 3: place of them not being happy, I. 686 00:29:45,360 --> 00:29:47,560 Speaker 2: Think, and as a human, I think in your position, 687 00:29:47,680 --> 00:29:49,480 Speaker 2: you should look at other people in your life or 688 00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:51,680 Speaker 2: whoever and be like, I want them to get here 689 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:55,239 Speaker 2: in whatever they want to do. Yes, you know, not 690 00:29:55,640 --> 00:29:58,200 Speaker 2: just like I'm happy, but they should not be. 691 00:29:58,520 --> 00:29:58,800 Speaker 3: Yeah. 692 00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:01,200 Speaker 2: And I find that comes from in Australia a lot 693 00:30:01,200 --> 00:30:03,719 Speaker 2: of like high school or like I knew them growing 694 00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:06,800 Speaker 2: up and we have these conversations all the time, like 695 00:30:07,080 --> 00:30:10,240 Speaker 2: we would not be friends with our sixteen year old selves. Yeah, 696 00:30:10,280 --> 00:30:12,720 Speaker 2: whatever age. But I find that such a thing in Australia. 697 00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:14,760 Speaker 2: It's yeah, no, I knew what she was like when 698 00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:15,440 Speaker 2: she was fourteen. 699 00:30:15,840 --> 00:30:16,959 Speaker 3: People hold on to that. 700 00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:19,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, And it's like you don't need to people change, 701 00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:21,320 Speaker 1: like respectfully, if you knew me a few years ago, 702 00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:23,880 Speaker 1: you don't know me. Now you know of me, but 703 00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:26,240 Speaker 1: you don't know me. And I think that that's a 704 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:28,120 Speaker 1: big thing and I've spoken about it on the podcast before. 705 00:30:28,160 --> 00:30:31,000 Speaker 1: It's a big thing between MV and jealousy. You can 706 00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:34,760 Speaker 1: be jealous of someone and like be happy for them, 707 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:37,280 Speaker 1: like want to do that or want to be a 708 00:30:37,280 --> 00:30:39,719 Speaker 1: part of that, but don't think that they don't deserve it. 709 00:30:39,920 --> 00:30:43,080 Speaker 1: But then the envy that's when MV comes involved with 710 00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:45,400 Speaker 1: like thinking someone doesn't deserve it. And I come from 711 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:47,480 Speaker 1: a point of like, if you work hard for something 712 00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:49,960 Speaker 1: and you want that, you go get it and you've 713 00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:52,200 Speaker 1: got it, I'm never going to be envious of you 714 00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:54,760 Speaker 1: because you've worked hard to get that and you want that, 715 00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:58,520 Speaker 1: So you can't like I don't really overthink of that 716 00:30:58,600 --> 00:31:02,400 Speaker 1: stuff because I'm not an envious person. I could be 717 00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:04,640 Speaker 1: a jealous person, for sure, I could want that thing 718 00:31:04,680 --> 00:31:07,560 Speaker 1: that that person has, but I will turn it into 719 00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:10,440 Speaker 1: a motivation to go get it myself, not take it 720 00:31:10,480 --> 00:31:13,720 Speaker 1: away from that person. So I think if someone's if 721 00:31:13,720 --> 00:31:16,840 Speaker 1: you're overthinking about what people think about you achieving your 722 00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:20,080 Speaker 1: dreams and stuff and doing things online and then people 723 00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:21,920 Speaker 1: trying to bring you down for that, it comes from 724 00:31:21,920 --> 00:31:23,080 Speaker 1: a place of envy. 725 00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:24,840 Speaker 3: They deep down want to do it themselves. 726 00:31:24,920 --> 00:31:27,480 Speaker 2: Yeah. I just struggle with that mindset. Like we were 727 00:31:27,520 --> 00:31:29,840 Speaker 2: working together the whole time when you're in London, and 728 00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:32,800 Speaker 2: like it's my dream to go there, but oh my god, 729 00:31:32,840 --> 00:31:34,640 Speaker 2: I watched you work the whole time and the lead 730 00:31:34,720 --> 00:31:37,640 Speaker 2: up never what I question you know you're worthiness of that. 731 00:31:37,800 --> 00:31:39,520 Speaker 2: I was just like, oh my god, tell me everything. 732 00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:42,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, but that's like a testament to who you are 733 00:31:42,720 --> 00:31:44,920 Speaker 1: as a person that you don't think that they people 734 00:31:44,920 --> 00:31:47,000 Speaker 1: don't deserve that. So some people want to take it 735 00:31:47,040 --> 00:31:48,280 Speaker 1: away from you because they think they. 736 00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:51,920 Speaker 2: Deserve it more, which is so sad when I want 737 00:31:51,960 --> 00:31:53,520 Speaker 2: to finish on So I feel like we haven't spoken 738 00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:55,800 Speaker 2: about it since you got back. How are you going 739 00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:59,280 Speaker 2: with antidepressants now, and like what's the way forward with 740 00:31:59,320 --> 00:31:59,920 Speaker 2: that journey. 741 00:32:00,360 --> 00:32:02,400 Speaker 1: I actually had a really good conversation with my mum 742 00:32:02,440 --> 00:32:05,320 Speaker 1: about it the other day. I got diagnosed with ADHD 743 00:32:05,360 --> 00:32:09,240 Speaker 1: a couple months before I left, and I always was 744 00:32:09,280 --> 00:32:12,760 Speaker 1: like really against going on ADHD medication just from like 745 00:32:12,920 --> 00:32:17,360 Speaker 1: past stuff that has happened with my family. But I 746 00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:19,960 Speaker 1: need to go back on my medication for anxiety obviously 747 00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:21,680 Speaker 1: because I ran out of it when I was in London, 748 00:32:21,960 --> 00:32:22,920 Speaker 1: but I need to book. 749 00:32:22,720 --> 00:32:24,360 Speaker 3: Like a full revamp. 750 00:32:24,600 --> 00:32:27,240 Speaker 1: I like, I'm not sure if those medication is exactly 751 00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:29,600 Speaker 1: what I want to do. And I think I want 752 00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:33,760 Speaker 1: to be more open minded to maybe taking ADHD medication 753 00:32:33,880 --> 00:32:34,440 Speaker 1: because I have. 754 00:32:34,480 --> 00:32:35,800 Speaker 3: Been clinically diagnosed. 755 00:32:35,840 --> 00:32:38,560 Speaker 1: Before people come for me, I have been diagnosed with ADHD, 756 00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,320 Speaker 1: and I think now it's gotten to the point where 757 00:32:41,640 --> 00:32:44,600 Speaker 1: I don't really know how to handle a lot of it, 758 00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:48,080 Speaker 1: and I'm like, I'm becoming more open minded to maybe 759 00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:51,880 Speaker 1: trying it out because I can't keep on going on 760 00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:52,600 Speaker 1: the way that I am. 761 00:32:52,840 --> 00:32:56,960 Speaker 2: Yeah, And I find that interesting because I definitely have anxiety, 762 00:32:57,440 --> 00:32:59,840 Speaker 2: and like I've always thought I've had ADHD, but like 763 00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:03,160 Speaker 2: have not got tested for it. But ADHD informs so 764 00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:05,920 Speaker 2: much of like your nervous system, yes, and your body 765 00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:08,600 Speaker 2: is I'd almost be so intrigued to see, you know 766 00:33:08,640 --> 00:33:09,840 Speaker 2: if it's almost like a domino. 767 00:33:10,360 --> 00:33:11,040 Speaker 3: Yes's fact. 768 00:33:11,080 --> 00:33:13,479 Speaker 1: And because I'm so scat and so much is happening 769 00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:16,040 Speaker 1: in my brain, I'm like, yeah, I was going on. 770 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:20,840 Speaker 1: I was on anxiety medication for like six months this year, 771 00:33:21,240 --> 00:33:22,600 Speaker 1: and I didn't think it did anything. 772 00:33:22,640 --> 00:33:23,719 Speaker 3: I'm like, it doesn't work. 773 00:33:24,040 --> 00:33:27,080 Speaker 1: So I'm like, okay, before I just like go back 774 00:33:27,080 --> 00:33:29,200 Speaker 1: on anxiety medication and thinking it's going to help for me, 775 00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:33,720 Speaker 1: and obviously I'm like on a certain medication for my anxiety. 776 00:33:34,520 --> 00:33:36,920 Speaker 1: I didn't think it was really working, so it's like 777 00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,960 Speaker 1: I need to like go back and like maybe try 778 00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:41,000 Speaker 1: something else. And like, I think a lot of my 779 00:33:41,040 --> 00:33:44,640 Speaker 1: anxiety comes down to my ADHD because I'm so scat, 780 00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:46,880 Speaker 1: so I'm like, maybe I need to also like get 781 00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:47,479 Speaker 1: on top of that. 782 00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:50,880 Speaker 3: So yeah, I'm going back to my psychiatrist. 783 00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:54,800 Speaker 1: And it's actually like right there where I record and 784 00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:57,360 Speaker 1: just like maybe trying that and kind of taking a 785 00:33:57,360 --> 00:34:01,440 Speaker 1: different approach to it and therapy love. 786 00:34:01,600 --> 00:34:04,600 Speaker 2: Oh, we should get your psychiatrists on the pod after 787 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:05,480 Speaker 2: the next appointment. 788 00:34:05,600 --> 00:34:07,360 Speaker 3: Yeah, if you guys want to hear what actually goes 789 00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:08,040 Speaker 3: into my brain. 790 00:34:12,520 --> 00:34:14,640 Speaker 2: Well this was nice. I feel like obviously so much 791 00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:18,799 Speaker 2: more to unpack, but so little time. So happy to 792 00:34:18,800 --> 00:34:19,480 Speaker 2: have you back. 793 00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:19,920 Speaker 3: Though, thanks. 794 00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:21,680 Speaker 1: It feels good to be back. I'm just like, I 795 00:34:21,719 --> 00:34:23,279 Speaker 1: need to give myself a few weeks. Like I've only 796 00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:24,240 Speaker 1: been back with ten days. 797 00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:26,880 Speaker 2: Yeah, and this is like your second record here, but 798 00:34:27,040 --> 00:34:29,560 Speaker 2: we finished and a day Friday and it started day Monday. 799 00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:31,880 Speaker 1: Now yeah, there's just it's all jam packed and I 800 00:34:31,880 --> 00:34:34,719 Speaker 1: go to city like, I'm honestly I need to chill 801 00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:35,160 Speaker 1: a fuck out. 802 00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:38,279 Speaker 2: The routine will happen. Yeah, we'll have a regular slut. Yeah, 803 00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:40,120 Speaker 2: it's that time each week. 804 00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:42,200 Speaker 1: We're going to sit down, we're going to organize it all, 805 00:34:42,239 --> 00:34:43,640 Speaker 1: and we're going to get back into routine. 806 00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:44,760 Speaker 3: So then I'm not a scat. 807 00:34:44,920 --> 00:34:45,560 Speaker 2: I'm excited. 808 00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:48,439 Speaker 3: I'm keen. Thank you so much, Blke for coming on Today's. 809 00:34:48,120 --> 00:34:49,560 Speaker 2: Leasure, my love, welcome home. 810 00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:52,319 Speaker 1: Finally feels good to be back and I'll see you 811 00:34:52,320 --> 00:34:55,520 Speaker 1: guys next Tuesday. 812 00:34:55,600 --> 00:34:56,920 Speaker 3: One more so 813 00:35:00,200 --> 00:35:00,839 Speaker 2: Six