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Speaker 1: Hi, and welcome back to Bounce Forward with me Tip Paul.

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Speaker 1: I'd like to acknowledge your traditional custodians of the land

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Speaker 1: on which I'm recording this podcast, the Warundry people of

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Speaker 1: the Cooler Nation. I pay my respects to elders past

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Speaker 1: and present. Rachel Corbett is the Head of Podcasts and

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Speaker 1: Digital Content at Nova Entertainment, which means, by extension, she

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Speaker 1: is my boss and head of the podcast Bounce Forward.

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Speaker 1: Rachel is also a regular panelist on the project on

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Speaker 1: Channel ten and you'll mostly see her on Sunday nights,

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Speaker 1: but she also has her own podcasting school called pod School.

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Speaker 2: She's also a mom to.

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Speaker 1: A beautiful baby girl, Olivia, which is the main reason

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Speaker 1: we have her on the show today. Rachel, welcome to

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Speaker 1: Bounce Forward. Thank you so much for being here. I'm

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Speaker 1: very excited to speak to you now. You have a

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Speaker 1: little one, Olivia, gorgeous Olivia who is turning two in March.

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Speaker 2: Terrible too, because I've got a two year old.

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Speaker 1: Is she exhibiting anything like that at the moment she

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Speaker 1: is starting to? For sure, she's actually quite I feel

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Speaker 1: very lucky because she's quite easy to kind of bring

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Speaker 1: back from the brink. She's not one of those kids

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Speaker 1: that like settles into a tantrument and is in like

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Speaker 1: I'm in this until like I'm over it. But I

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Speaker 1: do sometimes still see glimmers of that toddler thing, Like

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Speaker 1: she's started to drink milk out of a cup and

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Speaker 1: I tell her not to tip it, and the other

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Speaker 1: day she just said to me, don't tip it, and

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Speaker 1: look straight at me, and then just tipped it. And

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Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, you know what you do in

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Speaker 1: your little old piece of work, that's it.

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Speaker 2: That's it.

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Speaker 1: My daughter's toilet training at the moment, and she's decided

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Speaker 1: to pee standing up now, and I'm trying to get

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Speaker 1: her to sit down on the toilet and pee, but

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Speaker 1: she's like, no, I'm going to stand up and do

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Speaker 1: it and pee on you and the floor.

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Speaker 2: Oh, she just doesn't to spite me. I don't know

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Speaker 2: what to do.

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Speaker 1: But anyway, I wanted to ask you, because you decided

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Speaker 1: to have a Libya as a single mom through IVF,

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Speaker 1: can you talk to me about.

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Speaker 2: Your decision to be a solo mum.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's funny because I kind of always thought I

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Speaker 1: and kids things, and we certainly thought it was going

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Speaker 2: But in the back of my mind, I remember.

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Speaker 1: Thinking to myself, this is so funny that I'm maybe

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Speaker 1: going to marry this person because I really thought I

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Speaker 1: then I walked this path, I sort of remember thinking

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Speaker 1: to myself, is it just that I knew myself so

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Speaker 1: well that I knew I would kind of want to.

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Speaker 3: Do this, or did I actually will this into being?

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Speaker 1: Because I was saying that so much to myself internally,

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Speaker 1: And I'm not really sure which path that was, but

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And did you always want to be a mom?

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Speaker 2: Did you always know that? Because I didn't. I didn't.

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Speaker 1: I wasn't like sold on the idea, especially when I

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Speaker 1: I thought, no, I don't think it's for me. I

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Speaker 1: didn't have pets, I didn't have anything, and I changed

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Speaker 2: But you always wanted to be a mom?

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Speaker 1: I can remember, you know, Christmases weren't a fantastic time

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Speaker 2: We've ever heard, that you're going to have a baby.

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Speaker 1: On your own, because it's just exactly the kind of

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Speaker 1: that knew me was very supportive because it was so unsurprising.

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Speaker 1: But I think other people outside that you kind of

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Speaker 1: It feels when somebody says to you, oh, you know,

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Speaker 1: like who's the father or you know, have you guys

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Speaker 2: It was my decision.

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Speaker 1: I'm a solo mum, because a lot of times people

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Speaker 1: assume it's a path that you took because you couldn't.

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Speaker 1: You tried the other path and it didn't work for you,

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Speaker 1: I think that's amazing, Like, yeah, it felt like I

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Speaker 1: And so when it came to have Olivia, what were

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Speaker 1: Big thing for me because career work, that is a

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Speaker 2: The other thing was finances.

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Speaker 1: I just didn't feel comfortable financially until this point where

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Speaker 1: So you know, that meant saving money so that I

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Speaker 1: So I'm just going to leave the chat there with

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Speaker 1: Rachel and come back with part two next time. Thanks

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