1 00:00:05,921 --> 00:00:17,081 Speaker 1: Appolge production. Have you ever got bored of them? Anything? 2 00:00:17,201 --> 00:00:19,800 Speaker 2: Like you Like, what I'm saying is no, but I know, 3 00:00:19,921 --> 00:00:21,641 Speaker 2: I know that because you've got so many toys, you wouldn't. 4 00:00:21,681 --> 00:00:25,201 Speaker 2: But what I'm saying is boared of like using a 5 00:00:25,241 --> 00:00:30,121 Speaker 2: toy than the real thing, because you know you're doing 6 00:00:30,121 --> 00:00:33,361 Speaker 2: all the work. Yeah, and there's no there's no intimacy day. 7 00:00:33,601 --> 00:00:34,441 Speaker 1: Yeah, very true. 8 00:00:34,481 --> 00:00:35,361 Speaker 3: So toys are not. 9 00:00:35,641 --> 00:00:38,441 Speaker 1: So how would you get aroused by? What arouses you 10 00:00:38,521 --> 00:00:40,081 Speaker 1: to put? Like, say you're going to pick up the. 11 00:00:40,281 --> 00:00:42,521 Speaker 3: Question I love that one I turned myself on. I'm 12 00:00:42,921 --> 00:00:46,441 Speaker 3: how I'm autosexual as well, So I'm on the spectrum 13 00:00:46,480 --> 00:00:51,121 Speaker 3: of autosexuality, which means you love yourself with all of that. 14 00:00:51,161 --> 00:00:54,441 Speaker 3: What I've been through, I have learned to love myself 15 00:00:54,481 --> 00:00:58,681 Speaker 3: on such a deep level that especially when I get 16 00:00:58,721 --> 00:01:02,481 Speaker 3: ready for a pleasure toy session, I put on something nice, 17 00:01:02,561 --> 00:01:04,601 Speaker 3: like I put on lingerie that I'm also got sent 18 00:01:04,681 --> 00:01:07,920 Speaker 3: through for review, and I'm already starting to step into that, like, 19 00:01:07,961 --> 00:01:10,761 Speaker 3: oh I feel good and I love mirrors. I include mirrors. 20 00:01:10,801 --> 00:01:13,080 Speaker 3: Most of my videos have like multiple mirrors. 21 00:01:12,721 --> 00:01:13,241 Speaker 1: There as well. 22 00:01:13,840 --> 00:01:17,440 Speaker 3: And then with a camera that I used to film myself, 23 00:01:17,640 --> 00:01:20,440 Speaker 3: I have started using a different camera at some stage, 24 00:01:20,481 --> 00:01:23,600 Speaker 3: like a sony something, but I couldn't see myself as such. 25 00:01:24,041 --> 00:01:25,920 Speaker 3: And now I really love to use my phone because 26 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:28,081 Speaker 3: I can see myself. Why I pleasure. 27 00:01:27,801 --> 00:01:31,041 Speaker 1: Myself and that's a fucking turn on. Like I love. 28 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:33,761 Speaker 3: Seeing myself if I like, we've I've been to a 29 00:01:33,881 --> 00:01:38,481 Speaker 3: swinger's party before where there were mirrors all around and 30 00:01:38,521 --> 00:01:40,681 Speaker 3: I could see myself getting sucked. So it's just like 31 00:01:41,560 --> 00:01:43,080 Speaker 3: it's hot, so I'll turn myself. 32 00:01:43,441 --> 00:01:45,200 Speaker 2: Yeah, but okay, we've got to that part. But what 33 00:01:45,321 --> 00:01:49,681 Speaker 2: about like someone kissing you and I'm being intimate and 34 00:01:49,681 --> 00:01:52,481 Speaker 2: putting their hands on you. All you're all you're doing 35 00:01:52,601 --> 00:01:55,201 Speaker 2: is having a toy that's pleasuring you, or you're pleasuring yourself, 36 00:01:55,201 --> 00:01:58,561 Speaker 2: but there's no other intimacy around. 37 00:01:58,241 --> 00:02:02,601 Speaker 3: You, like someone else, but intimacy with myself. So it's 38 00:02:02,601 --> 00:02:03,921 Speaker 3: not like you can't kiss yourself. 39 00:02:03,961 --> 00:02:07,041 Speaker 1: How you kiss yourself, that's not going to tep. I 40 00:02:07,081 --> 00:02:10,481 Speaker 1: do bite myself. I'll do it. Yeah, you bite yourself. 41 00:02:10,841 --> 00:02:12,601 Speaker 3: I love biting in the moment, so and if I 42 00:02:12,601 --> 00:02:16,841 Speaker 3: can't bite anything else, then I'll bite myself. Interesting, you 43 00:02:16,841 --> 00:02:18,441 Speaker 3: can do so much more with it. I just think 44 00:02:18,481 --> 00:02:21,161 Speaker 3: this is why It's been such a good journey for 45 00:02:21,201 --> 00:02:26,160 Speaker 3: me personally because I was such a pleaser in the bedroom, 46 00:02:26,201 --> 00:02:29,601 Speaker 3: doing the things for someone else, but not actually asking 47 00:02:29,641 --> 00:02:32,361 Speaker 3: for what I want and how I want it and 48 00:02:32,401 --> 00:02:35,161 Speaker 3: not speaking up. So now that I've explored my own 49 00:02:35,201 --> 00:02:38,441 Speaker 3: body in such a deep level, I know what I want. 50 00:02:38,601 --> 00:02:42,561 Speaker 3: So if I'm now going and step into a situation 51 00:02:42,601 --> 00:02:45,521 Speaker 3: where I'm actually sharing my pleasure with someone else, I 52 00:02:45,520 --> 00:02:47,961 Speaker 3: can actually speak up and be like, no, I don't 53 00:02:47,960 --> 00:02:50,120 Speaker 3: want that way, I love it that way, or can 54 00:02:50,161 --> 00:02:52,361 Speaker 3: you do this or can we do that? So I 55 00:02:52,361 --> 00:02:55,601 Speaker 3: can get more out of it and not be Okay, 56 00:02:55,601 --> 00:02:56,441 Speaker 3: I'm just here to please. 57 00:02:56,441 --> 00:03:00,800 Speaker 1: Here. So you've been doing this since twenty twenty two, yes, so. 58 00:03:01,041 --> 00:03:04,841 Speaker 3: I have been basically stepping away from dating people to 59 00:03:04,881 --> 00:03:06,321 Speaker 3: the dating pleasure. 60 00:03:06,001 --> 00:03:08,361 Speaker 1: Toys for So, when was the last time you dated somebody? 61 00:03:08,921 --> 00:03:12,721 Speaker 3: I've been on occasional No, No, let's not let's second date. 62 00:03:12,881 --> 00:03:14,761 Speaker 1: Let's let's not get it. Let's see, let's get the 63 00:03:14,841 --> 00:03:16,201 Speaker 1: dates that you've gone past second base. 64 00:03:16,240 --> 00:03:19,841 Speaker 3: Now, when was the last time the last time I 65 00:03:20,121 --> 00:03:22,401 Speaker 3: had someone inside me. 66 00:03:22,881 --> 00:03:24,441 Speaker 1: That's a real thing inside you. 67 00:03:24,321 --> 00:03:28,281 Speaker 3: A real thing inside has been three years? Three years 68 00:03:28,401 --> 00:03:30,121 Speaker 3: November three years yes. 69 00:03:30,481 --> 00:03:33,400 Speaker 1: Three years, So three years is no it's a beautiful 70 00:03:33,401 --> 00:03:35,761 Speaker 1: guy actually, but whoa you beautiful? Beause you didn't stay 71 00:03:35,761 --> 00:03:40,281 Speaker 1: around for it? You you fucked him up for plastic. 72 00:03:41,401 --> 00:03:44,441 Speaker 3: I didn't even know what like that was dated him 73 00:03:45,121 --> 00:03:47,321 Speaker 3: and then I broke it off, and then shortly after 74 00:03:47,361 --> 00:03:50,121 Speaker 3: I got into OnlyFans and doing this. So if I 75 00:03:50,121 --> 00:03:52,161 Speaker 3: wouldn't have broken that up, I probably wouldn't have gone 76 00:03:52,161 --> 00:03:54,761 Speaker 3: into that. So that must have happened for that reason. 77 00:03:55,241 --> 00:04:01,881 Speaker 2: But three years, no real sex, just toys pleasuring yourself. 78 00:04:02,281 --> 00:04:05,361 Speaker 1: Well, let's a start, surely you, missy, Well that's yes, 79 00:04:05,721 --> 00:04:07,961 Speaker 1: so I do. So why you? 80 00:04:08,001 --> 00:04:10,561 Speaker 2: Why why are you making it go so long? Why 81 00:04:10,561 --> 00:04:13,281 Speaker 2: are you making it go so long? For well, at 82 00:04:13,361 --> 00:04:15,521 Speaker 2: the start it was next time my interview, it's going 83 00:04:15,561 --> 00:04:15,801 Speaker 2: to be. 84 00:04:18,561 --> 00:04:21,201 Speaker 3: I'm getting really close to like having it again. So 85 00:04:22,121 --> 00:04:24,441 Speaker 3: as a start, it's as a single mom with very 86 00:04:24,481 --> 00:04:27,880 Speaker 3: young children and not being able to afford childcare or anything. 87 00:04:27,921 --> 00:04:29,921 Speaker 3: I've got at one of my children at home at 88 00:04:29,921 --> 00:04:33,320 Speaker 3: all times, so that is really hard. And then the 89 00:04:33,361 --> 00:04:35,161 Speaker 3: time that you do have kids, rad you don't want 90 00:04:35,161 --> 00:04:37,761 Speaker 3: to just go out and meet someone random. You're going 91 00:04:37,801 --> 00:04:40,241 Speaker 3: to have a good time, and then by that time, 92 00:04:40,281 --> 00:04:42,641 Speaker 3: I was so deep into that that I really enjoyed, 93 00:04:43,320 --> 00:04:46,080 Speaker 3: enjoyed exploring myself. And as I said, I've done my 94 00:04:46,121 --> 00:04:48,081 Speaker 3: tuntra practitioner, then I. 95 00:04:48,001 --> 00:04:50,041 Speaker 1: Think you've used every toil of the fucking world. 96 00:04:50,401 --> 00:04:53,841 Speaker 3: No, so much more coming out there, Yes, And I 97 00:04:53,841 --> 00:04:55,880 Speaker 3: want to get a little bit more kinky, a little 98 00:04:55,880 --> 00:04:58,841 Speaker 3: bit more taboo, a little bit more kinky. Because vibrators, 99 00:04:58,880 --> 00:05:02,161 Speaker 3: I'm like, I feel like deal those vibrators. They kind 100 00:05:02,201 --> 00:05:04,760 Speaker 3: of like a limit, although they come up with something 101 00:05:04,801 --> 00:05:05,921 Speaker 3: really good, like this. 102 00:05:05,841 --> 00:05:08,041 Speaker 1: One is which one show me? But it's the camera? 103 00:05:08,081 --> 00:05:08,961 Speaker 1: What's so? What's that do? 104 00:05:09,121 --> 00:05:10,961 Speaker 3: This one is one of my very recent and I 105 00:05:11,001 --> 00:05:16,241 Speaker 3: have experienced my very first internal orgasm just on Monday. 106 00:05:16,880 --> 00:05:22,201 Speaker 2: On Monday, and this one, this one's done, so what what? 107 00:05:22,201 --> 00:05:23,320 Speaker 1: What? What do you do? This one? 108 00:05:23,601 --> 00:05:31,241 Speaker 3: This one is it's like fingering worshiping. It's like having 109 00:05:31,281 --> 00:05:32,641 Speaker 3: these two. I feel fingering. 110 00:05:33,320 --> 00:05:34,881 Speaker 1: I'm looking at it now and it so that one 111 00:05:34,961 --> 00:05:35,641 Speaker 1: goes inside. 112 00:05:35,921 --> 00:05:38,440 Speaker 3: This one's against the clip. This one is inside of me. 113 00:05:38,961 --> 00:05:43,121 Speaker 3: It vibrates, but it also swirls. So it is basically 114 00:05:43,201 --> 00:05:46,840 Speaker 3: like someone is fingering me like this but not expecting 115 00:05:46,921 --> 00:05:47,880 Speaker 3: anything in return. 116 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:52,320 Speaker 1: Just fingering me would be a slow process. You can 117 00:05:52,361 --> 00:05:53,481 Speaker 1: speed that up one up a little bit. 118 00:05:53,521 --> 00:05:57,200 Speaker 2: Okay, it's not about yeah, I know that, but I'm 119 00:05:57,201 --> 00:06:00,681 Speaker 2: just looking around. I'm like around and round and round, 120 00:06:00,721 --> 00:06:02,441 Speaker 2: and I'm thinking, what the what the fuck are you 121 00:06:02,521 --> 00:06:02,841 Speaker 2: going to do? 122 00:06:03,001 --> 00:06:06,080 Speaker 3: That's good because I'm just like, oh, and that was 123 00:06:06,081 --> 00:06:08,561 Speaker 3: the first time I'm like this fear's different. This fee 124 00:06:08,601 --> 00:06:11,441 Speaker 3: it's very pleasurable, but different. And I always thought I'm 125 00:06:11,481 --> 00:06:14,641 Speaker 3: one of the women who some others probably think as well, 126 00:06:15,761 --> 00:06:19,001 Speaker 3: we're broken or something's wrong with me because I can't 127 00:06:19,361 --> 00:06:23,801 Speaker 3: experience an orgasms through penetration. I need that external clitoral stimulation. 128 00:06:24,241 --> 00:06:26,840 Speaker 3: And then this toy just Miss thirty seven now showed 129 00:06:26,880 --> 00:06:30,241 Speaker 3: me No, you can experience internal orgasms. 130 00:06:30,521 --> 00:06:32,961 Speaker 1: So what's your favorite toy? Have you brought it or 131 00:06:32,961 --> 00:06:34,721 Speaker 1: you haven't brought? Got a range of favorites. I can't. 132 00:06:34,721 --> 00:06:36,721 Speaker 3: I don't just have one. I've got this one, this 133 00:06:37,121 --> 00:06:39,601 Speaker 3: little Stilah. That's my go to if I just want 134 00:06:39,601 --> 00:06:40,081 Speaker 3: to get off. 135 00:06:40,481 --> 00:06:42,961 Speaker 1: So what was if I have? If I have that's 136 00:06:42,961 --> 00:06:44,041 Speaker 1: your go to, so. 137 00:06:43,841 --> 00:06:45,841 Speaker 3: I go to if I want to have an orgasm. 138 00:06:45,921 --> 00:06:48,721 Speaker 3: So if if I test one of the toys and 139 00:06:48,761 --> 00:06:50,921 Speaker 3: I'm like, oh, this toy is not making it. 140 00:06:50,921 --> 00:06:52,960 Speaker 1: It's not what you do that one does that do? 141 00:06:53,641 --> 00:06:55,481 Speaker 1: It just looks like a patch of puts some money in? 142 00:06:57,601 --> 00:06:58,161 Speaker 1: What is that? 143 00:06:58,601 --> 00:07:00,400 Speaker 3: One of my kids actually found that one when I 144 00:07:00,481 --> 00:07:02,200 Speaker 3: was cleaning it in the bathroom and I had it 145 00:07:02,201 --> 00:07:04,561 Speaker 3: there and walked in there came out, Mam, I think 146 00:07:04,601 --> 00:07:08,681 Speaker 3: I can hear the ocean. Okay, darling, do you really think? So? Yeah, 147 00:07:08,721 --> 00:07:12,001 Speaker 3: that's a shell and it comes close and it's like, Mom, 148 00:07:12,041 --> 00:07:14,201 Speaker 3: you really have to listen. I think I can hear 149 00:07:14,241 --> 00:07:16,601 Speaker 3: the ocean me holding it and I'm darning I can't 150 00:07:16,601 --> 00:07:17,121 Speaker 3: hear the ocean. 151 00:07:17,441 --> 00:07:21,881 Speaker 1: Sorry, So what is that? You do it? 152 00:07:22,001 --> 00:07:25,121 Speaker 3: Clitteral airport stimulations? So this one is one of these 153 00:07:25,441 --> 00:07:27,641 Speaker 3: that you put over the clitteress. And I love this 154 00:07:27,681 --> 00:07:30,521 Speaker 3: one because it's got an oval opening. A lot of 155 00:07:30,561 --> 00:07:33,481 Speaker 3: the other toys have like this round opening opening. And 156 00:07:33,521 --> 00:07:35,081 Speaker 3: I love it when it sits a little bit more 157 00:07:35,081 --> 00:07:37,401 Speaker 3: ovel around my clitterest because it hits more of the 158 00:07:37,441 --> 00:07:41,561 Speaker 3: nerve endings than a certain setting and doesn't hit me long. 159 00:07:41,601 --> 00:07:43,161 Speaker 1: It's like a minute or two minute and then I 160 00:07:43,201 --> 00:07:46,361 Speaker 1: can come you squarter or no squazer squatter. 161 00:07:46,521 --> 00:07:49,161 Speaker 3: We've got We've got a squirting blanket here, which is 162 00:07:49,761 --> 00:07:54,321 Speaker 3: what's your square game changing blanket? 163 00:07:54,521 --> 00:07:58,401 Speaker 1: So you can square what's it? What's this one? 164 00:07:59,001 --> 00:08:00,641 Speaker 2: Because when you put it on the table as as 165 00:08:00,681 --> 00:08:02,201 Speaker 2: it was for something else, but no, I know it's not. 166 00:08:02,641 --> 00:08:03,401 Speaker 3: It was a butt pluck. 167 00:08:03,561 --> 00:08:04,921 Speaker 1: Oh I didn't see that. 168 00:08:05,161 --> 00:08:07,641 Speaker 3: So I always thought like when I've seen them at 169 00:08:07,681 --> 00:08:10,041 Speaker 3: swingers parties and king parties when I was out in Germany, 170 00:08:10,081 --> 00:08:12,081 Speaker 3: I was always said like, I can't imagine doing that. 171 00:08:12,121 --> 00:08:15,441 Speaker 1: I'm wearing that. So it's a tail with with a 172 00:08:15,641 --> 00:08:17,161 Speaker 1: with a yes. 173 00:08:17,361 --> 00:08:19,521 Speaker 3: So this one is a stainless steel butt pluck and 174 00:08:19,561 --> 00:08:21,841 Speaker 3: it's basically does that foxtail? 175 00:08:23,441 --> 00:08:25,521 Speaker 2: Well, anything going on my house with sucking air and 176 00:08:25,681 --> 00:08:26,441 Speaker 2: often goes up my house. 177 00:08:26,481 --> 00:08:28,561 Speaker 3: But anyway, well, there's preparation that you're gonna have to 178 00:08:28,561 --> 00:08:33,401 Speaker 3: do prior, which means lots of loop, which is always there. 179 00:08:34,761 --> 00:08:36,121 Speaker 1: So that was so what do you do you walk 180 00:08:36,161 --> 00:08:36,521 Speaker 1: around with that? 181 00:08:36,801 --> 00:08:39,561 Speaker 3: Yeah, that is like the kink of it is basically 182 00:08:39,641 --> 00:08:44,201 Speaker 3: you can do puppy use that much. No, not not 183 00:08:44,401 --> 00:08:47,361 Speaker 3: personally anymore. So I do want to get a little 184 00:08:47,361 --> 00:08:49,401 Speaker 3: bit more into like puppy. 185 00:08:49,041 --> 00:08:50,961 Speaker 1: Play, and what's puppy playing. 186 00:08:51,001 --> 00:08:55,841 Speaker 3: Puppy play is when I have God that I can 187 00:08:55,881 --> 00:09:00,681 Speaker 3: transform into a puppy, so they've got puppy like dog hoods. 188 00:09:01,161 --> 00:09:03,721 Speaker 3: And then you can get a tail for them as well, 189 00:09:04,281 --> 00:09:05,761 Speaker 3: and you can get these. 190 00:09:07,601 --> 00:09:10,561 Speaker 1: Clothing. You say as well, who's that for? Who is that? 191 00:09:10,561 --> 00:09:14,081 Speaker 3: That's for example, a female domination play scenario that. 192 00:09:14,161 --> 00:09:15,641 Speaker 2: Well, you haven't got anyone at the moment because you 193 00:09:15,681 --> 00:09:19,121 Speaker 2: forget three years. But how But this would mean how 194 00:09:19,121 --> 00:09:21,121 Speaker 2: are you getting off on that by scene? Or I'm 195 00:09:21,161 --> 00:09:23,721 Speaker 2: watching you online? But when the person is not there, 196 00:09:23,841 --> 00:09:25,001 Speaker 2: I wouldn't it be better at. 197 00:09:24,921 --> 00:09:28,321 Speaker 3: The Well, you need to set the scene. So when 198 00:09:29,161 --> 00:09:31,801 Speaker 3: I create something for my sub it's not like here's 199 00:09:31,801 --> 00:09:35,721 Speaker 3: the video, so there's instructions. So before you watch this video, 200 00:09:35,881 --> 00:09:38,041 Speaker 3: I want you to do such and such and such, 201 00:09:38,121 --> 00:09:40,641 Speaker 3: you know, take the deep breath in, kneel down, do 202 00:09:40,761 --> 00:09:47,321 Speaker 3: your mantra. Get into my subs kind of energy. I've 203 00:09:47,321 --> 00:09:50,041 Speaker 3: also recorded meditations that they can listen to to actually 204 00:09:50,081 --> 00:09:52,561 Speaker 3: tap into that energy. Listen to my voice, do the 205 00:09:52,561 --> 00:09:55,681 Speaker 3: instruction as I tell you, then start now on homework. 206 00:09:58,041 --> 00:10:01,201 Speaker 3: You can you can create a lot through that, so 207 00:10:01,281 --> 00:10:03,601 Speaker 3: it doesn't have to be in person. Of course, in person, 208 00:10:03,801 --> 00:10:05,961 Speaker 3: you've got the physical touch, You've got a little bit 209 00:10:06,001 --> 00:10:08,761 Speaker 3: more of that energy exchange, which is really beautiful, delicious. 210 00:10:08,921 --> 00:10:12,721 Speaker 3: It just doesn't allow it for me at this stage, 211 00:10:13,201 --> 00:10:14,801 Speaker 3: so I keep to online. 212 00:10:15,881 --> 00:10:18,561 Speaker 1: Listen, let's get the big one out the way first. Yeah, 213 00:10:19,361 --> 00:10:22,601 Speaker 1: grab the big one. So this is mister Baroon. So 214 00:10:22,761 --> 00:10:24,841 Speaker 1: who baroon? What's the name for? 215 00:10:25,681 --> 00:10:28,481 Speaker 3: It's a bad dragon and he actually is called bad 216 00:10:28,601 --> 00:10:32,961 Speaker 3: dragon Baroon. So that one was my is my biggest. 217 00:10:32,561 --> 00:10:35,641 Speaker 1: One of my big I see, but have you actually 218 00:10:35,721 --> 00:10:37,721 Speaker 1: used that? Yes, you've actually used. 219 00:10:37,521 --> 00:10:41,441 Speaker 3: One of my most watched videos that people have gotten into. 220 00:10:41,721 --> 00:10:44,001 Speaker 3: This is why. Then got a second one, which was 221 00:10:44,161 --> 00:10:48,761 Speaker 3: Jason bigger, uh not said bigger, but different form. The 222 00:10:48,801 --> 00:10:52,801 Speaker 3: other one is starts smaller, gets a bit wider. Just 223 00:10:52,841 --> 00:10:56,401 Speaker 3: couldn't get him past that then though, and I do 224 00:10:57,081 --> 00:11:00,441 Speaker 3: prefer a bigger head than smaller head and then getting wider, 225 00:11:00,481 --> 00:11:02,801 Speaker 3: if that makes sense. So that was good exploration for 226 00:11:02,841 --> 00:11:03,561 Speaker 3: me again too. 227 00:11:06,481 --> 00:11:08,641 Speaker 2: I want to listen to the episode in full click 228 00:11:08,641 --> 00:11:09,601 Speaker 2: the link in the description.